performed by: awsikee

prod. dan darmawan

lyrics :(
           
PART I 

they always leave i know
life goes fast, its not slow
regret all, since hello
ah so long, its all so long ago
as i lay here shaking
my own soul its breaking 
know the pain i’m taking 
i don’t care, forsaking 

still don’t fucking care 
but do you know that you can leave now
i wish i knew everything, 
and i knew how to say how
all is but the truth , 
and yes i mean it you have my vow
baby your a miracle and i can only say wow
you can say you love me
i think no one rarely means that
why wont you just talk to me
still haven’t had a full chat
wish we had connection 
and i got to call you my brat
these are all my thoughts
and i’m still hoping you wont mind that....

fuck these laws, this system
it still needs a symptom
please don’t play the victim 
just speak up, you miss him 
i just wish you’d listen
in the sun you’d glisten
while this plot it thickened
what you did imprisoned 

they just always leave,
and then i don’t care bout myself
i cant put my past behind me 
and i’m trapped within oneself
i forget i need to eat 
and then i don’t care bout my health
i still fucking hate this city
wanna leave the commonwealth

in my fucking head 
i just feel lost, without a reason
i don’t know might kill myself 
or die within this season 
i just wanna understand 
and find my fucking meaning 
i still wanna satisfy
i know i’m never pleasing 

find my way i lost it
fight for life id toss it 
wheres my love i lost it 
wheres my life i tossed
they always leave i know 
they always leave don’t go
they always leave i know
they always leave don’t go...

PART II

every time i love someone
they’re gonna leave me 
i don’t know whats going on
and you wont feel me..
my heart isn’t beating 
and i know that i’m misleading 
you still wanna be with him 
i know that he’s mistreating 

i still hate myself 
but at the time i still find a way to love myself 
but i hate.... all the shit that i do
cause if my demons tell the truth, 
ah i can never be with you.

i just look for satisfaction
in the simplest of things
and try but i’m still lonely
fucking hopeless and it stings 
in my mind i search for clarity 
cant find it then it dings 
what i need is all in me 
and imma live my destiny

and in holding off on suicide 
wont let it get the best of me 
cutting off relationships 
and saving all my energy
yes ill do this music shit
until i’m fucking elderly 
honestly just started 
but already do it expertly

its all in my head
like why cant i get out of bed 
i’m always feeling dead
all these fuckers wanna test me
they cant feel my dread
i’m like slump i feel the chaos
paint the world in red 

they will always leave
its no matter what i do 
cuz yea they still deceive
and ill look inside the mirror
why cant i believe 
every time i see myself 
ah i cant help but grieve 

fell in love 2 easy 
and it left me fucking broken
coughing out my insides 
and it has me fucking choking
death is but a symbol
or its maybe just a token 
i don’t wanna say 2 much
i feel i have misspoken 

ahhh they will always leave
i care too much about the others
thats not what i need 
just need to save myself 
and free myself until i bleed 
still i’m throwing hands with demons
feels like fucking creed 

end this. all of my pain and i cant pretend this
intend, only want happiness over your end 
my end, hope its not too soon. 
i need 2 amend this 
stop this. you wanna leave 
but its fucking none sense 

ahhh bitch 
still wanna leave me right after everything 
all you did was lie, 
when you said that i was your everything
now im fucking numb 
and i dont think that i feel anything 
i can try my best still they always leave 
you dont want me

they always leave <3

Awsikee