got a email from my ex looking to clear her conscience about doing me dirty, sooo

How the fuck I start this off?
I got shit on my chest,
& I don't wanna be the one 
To kick it all up again, 
but the way that you did me was so wrong
I feel petty, when I even let you make it in my songs

Shoulda known better,
wore my heart on my sleeve
It's like a bullet ‌in my temple
when I'm falling asleep
Every night, I get high
just to feel something other 
than a knife in my side
used to cry until the sunrise

She got switchblades, 
she just wanna feel safe
There's no place in this world
for a heart filled of hate
Rainy days are the best, 
when I'm driving with no brakes 
If I fall, 
then I fall
Lose it all, 
part ways

Something that she said
it got stuck in my head
all those texts that I read
she saying she never sent
Second time, come around 
shoulda really shut you out 
I been yelling, I been shouting
there's no water in this drought

Papercuts don't hurt
when every single word out your mouth
like a bullet to my spine
Unwind...
I just need to take some time
Boys don't cry, 
novacaine in my IV
Fighting with myself
& I could have the world
but I know it'd never help

Take me back to reality, 
I had good intentions, 
nowadays its just a falacy 
Counting every calorie 
but she don't count the dosage 
left her in the past, 
with a hundred red roses

run run run run run.... 
fast as you can
she took everything away from me 
that made me human
sunlight on her skin, 
porcelain 
I can never win
Everytime I try to get it right
I'm falling back again
Miss the wind, 
on my face, 
when i'm switching different states
Cover up the license plate, 
take me back to summer days.

I've been caught in a hellstorm
Dissorientated 
Everyone around me jaded nowadays
tryna part ways
partake
all of my bad habits tryna get me
I can't trust nobody
gotta keep a semi on my side
I, I... 
World getting so cold 
& there's nowhere left to hide 
I been running round my mind, 
Everytime we part ways, 
we just seem to collide

Collide

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if you dont know me get to me know i do all pro level when it comes to this period. Unless you got legit producers with plugs, if not go nowhere fast. Money talks bullshyt walks talk to me easy paypal or you know remain nameless trust i know that better than anybody i take mines since they dont FW me.

Houston we got a problem
@commanderRyse on Genius

Collide [+ Pekarot]

ay!jd 👾