being sad LOL (rajaste)

spiraling *sachy*

got a email from my ex looking to clear her conscience about doing me dirty, sooo

How the fuck I start this off?
I got shit on my chest,
& I don't wanna be the one 
To kick it all up again, 
but the way that you did me was so wrong
I feel petty, when I even let you make it in my songs

Shoulda known better,
wore my heart on my sleeve
It's like a bullet ‌in my temple
when I'm falling asleep
Every night, I get high
just to feel something other 
than a knife in my side
used to cry until the sunrise

She got switchblades, 
she just wanna feel safe
There's no place in this world
for a heart filled of hate
Rainy days are the best, 
when I'm driving with no brakes 
If I fall, 
then I fall
Lose it all, 
part ways

Something that she said
it got stuck in my head
all those texts that I read
she saying she never sent
Second time, come around 
shoulda really shut you out 
I been yelling, I been shouting
there's no water in this drought

Papercuts don't hurt
when every single word out your mouth
like a bullet to my spine
Unwind...
I just need to take some time
Boys don't cry, 
novacaine in my IV
Fighting with myself
& I could have the world
but I know it'd never help

Take me back to reality, 
I had good intentions, 
nowadays its just a falacy 
Counting every calorie 
but she don't count the dosage 
left her in the past, 
with a hundred red roses

run run run run run.... 
fast as you can
she took everything away from me 
that made me human
sunlight on her skin, 
porcelain 
I can never win
Everytime I try to get it right
I'm falling back again
Miss the wind, 
on my face, 
when i'm switching different states
Cover up the license plate, 
take me back to summer days.

I've been caught in a hellstorm
Dissorientated 
Everyone around me jaded nowadays
tryna part ways
partake
all of my bad habits tryna get me
I can't trust nobody
gotta keep a semi on my side
I, I... 
World getting so cold 
& there's nowhere left to hide 
I been running round my mind, 
Everytime we part ways, 
we just seem to collide

Collide

Collide [+ Pekarot]

peter pan w/ marku (4evr)

BATCLIQUE
prod. xmichaelwarren
rest in peace, mali 🖤
https://linktr.ee/scareseezenz

i been livin lit ft. mali venus

finna smoke again but i prolly shoudnt 
finna kms fr but i prolly shouldnt
told myself tht id get better but i knew i wouldnt
told myself tht id get clean i just couldnt do it
happy mommas getting clean
wishin i could do it
cant let go because im weak n im fuckin stupid

happy mommas getting clean 
wishin i could do it
told myself tht id get clean i just couldnt do it
told myself tht id get better but i knew i wouldnt
(told myself tht id get better but i knew i wouldnt)

finna smoke again but i prolly shoudnt 
finna kms fr but i prolly shouldnt
told myself tht id get better but i knew i wouldnt
told myself tht id get clean i just couldnt do it
happy mommas getting clean
wishin i could do it
cant let go because im weak n im fuckin stupid
cant let go because im weak n im fuckin stupid
cant let go because im weak n im fuckin stupid

wish i could do it / kms +chrxme

https://www.instagram.com/tommybuss3y
🌟 
~ lyrics for never say if ~
intro
Cheers!
Here’s to all of my fears
faced em erased em
Got paid up for years
Never gave up 
gave my blood sweat and tears
Sometimes I still can’t believe that I’m here

hook
I never say “if” cuz I’m never iffy 
I’m making moves and I’m smokin on sticky
Whip it then flip it then turn 10 into 50
I Always be hustlin that’s shoutout to Nipsey (RIP💛)
I’ll make ya shuffle like Uzi Vert 
skirt off in a two seat skrrt 
Today Im feelin choosy
Please Don’t take this shit loosely
I been choppin haters like Bruce Lee
Im always up never snoozing
Even when I’m down I’m not losing
I made it on my own it’s not confusing 

verse 1
There’s no reason u should be confused 
Fuck the drugs that I have abused
U never realize what u lose
But I’m doin my best to get thru
Sometimes I like to shop when I’m blue
Sometimes I still pop pills in my room

hook
I never say “if” cuz I’m never iffy 
I’m making moves and I’m smokin on sticky
Whip it then flip it then turn 10 into 50
I Always be hustlin that’s shoutout to Nipsey (RIP💛)
I’ll make ya shuffle like Uzi Vert 
skirt off in a two seat skrrt 
Today Im feelin choosy
Please Don’t take this shit loosely
I been choppin haters like Bruce Lee
Im always up never snoozing
Even when I’m down I’m not losing
I made it on my own it’s not confusing 

verse 2
Momma been mad that I been abusin
It takes all that I have to keep on moving
It really got bad losin dad was confusing
I still keep my swag cuz I’m never losing
Will I ever heal from all the bruising
Blow smoke out tha range late night cruising

hook
I never say “if” cuz I’m never iffy 
I’m making moves and I’m smokin on sticky
Whip it then flip it then turn 10 into 50
I Always be hustlin that’s shoutout to Nipsey (RIP💛)
I’ll make ya shuffle like Uzi Vert 
skirt off in a two seat skrrt 
Today Im feelin choosy
Please Don’t take this shit loosely
I been choppin haters like Bruce Lee
Im always up never snoozing
Even when I’m down I’m not losing
I made it on my own it’s not confusing

alone in my crib EP

never say if

never say if (prod heath stone)

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fblB2JBzh_I
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Boyfifty
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & angelsofsorrows 
Mastered by: angelsofsorrows 
Artwork link: https://www.wallpaperflare.com/re-zero-emilia-halloween-2016-cape-witch-witch-s-broom-wallpaper-palcd

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I guess you're gone 
It's my fault in the first place
For thinking somebody would stay around
But that was just high school I guess 
Just people always leaving me for 
Someone that was better 

[Chorus]
I feel so empty 
I feel kinda safe
Somebody come get me 
I feel kinda safe

[Verse 1]
I never thought I would lose myself 
I don't want no fucking wealth 
I loved u that's how I felt 
But I know nothing about u
Wish I wasn't too 
Hung up on the past 
Time moving fast 
I just might crash 
might crash

[Reserved Bridge]

[Chorus]
I feel so empty 
I feel kinda safe
Somebody come get me 
I feel kinda safe

[Verse 2]
Taking breaks all the time 
To ease my mind 
Losing sunshine 
I don't mind the rain
Cause each day is just the same
I decay in my room 
It sucks but its true
Just don't lose 
Just don't consume nothing bad
Nothing bad 

[Bridge]
I reminisce on 
The times we had
Wonder what's new with you

[Outro]
I miss you still 
I wish you were
by my side 
by my side

Hung Up On The Past (Prod. Boyfifty)

Don't even say "it's nothing"
What you did was disgusting
I warned you about this last night
You clearly didn't take my advice
You slept with how many men again?
And you consented to all of it?
I can't even bear to look at you
I've heard enough I think I'm gonna puke
You lost all your value in just one night
And you still expect me to treat you right?
I swear females like you are decepticons
You'll do anything to get what you want
I let you do what you wanted
Now it's my turn to resolve it
Someone needs to teach you a lesson
The way you think is infectious
You don't even know what you're worth
All you know how to do is hurt
Your father clearly didn't raise you right
Was he even a part of your life?
You made a lasting impression
There's no way that you could fix this
You've just done too much damage
Now you see why I'm so livid
You thought you could hide it from me but I saw your tracks
When I put it all together I almost laughed
Is there anything you wanna say before we're done?
Do you still feel the same now that you've had your fun?

All Aboard (prod. 2001 x Cesna)

"feel the weight" off of deathbed volume 1
recorded by draven.fm
mixed/mastered by getbetter

Collide [+ Pekarot]

ay!jd 👾