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~lyrics~

and i just want to disappear
but i could never walk away from you 
and if we switched places 
well then forever i would wait for you
yeah i know that you dont feel the same 
but i cant get you out my fuckin brain 
you went against all your fuckin claims
clearly you dont care how im feeling babe 

so dont be faking glossy eyes 
youre breaking me, your not the one to cry 
i guess you have no fuckin spine 
and all those promises were fuckin lies

and yeah ive always done my best for you 
but i guess i was just never enough 
and yeah ive never been this stressed for you
i aint know that things would get this tough 
i just hope you arent as hurt as me
but i dont think you ever deserved me 
you said its heaven, here on earth with me 
now i feel dead so drop the dirt on me
i understand that im not perfect 
but i dont think that i deserve this 
id give my sould to preserve it 
now youre gone, tell me was i ever worth it 
was i ever worth it?
or were you bein honest when you said im worthless?
i dont think that i deserve this 
youre breaking me, so dont you fucking dare act hurt bitch

i understand that i'm not perfect. (p. michael harrison)

dusk to dawn
ive been falling with no end
another night ive been caught second guessing
features blurred i cant seem to comprehend
laying in the street
now these walls are a blessing
days pass, nothing changes, its a blur
i live out the same day
endlessly it turns
i make all the same mistakes
i can never learn
we all hit the same grave
buried in the dirt

sinking down
i fall in a familiar frown
standing out
i cower in
with darkness bound

total shade to blinding light
its not a remedy
breaking points i hit
wont skip a beat
in lacking everything
volatile mind
i feel it crumble right from under me
branded on my back
could never get behind the make believe

its a toxic fucking train of thought
guess i saw that i can pull it off
watch my face melt
into fractals overhead
its a new feeling
like time will never end
i got days wasted
a thousand in my belt
see it from a mile away
the poison, yeah i felt it
this shit holds no price to me
i could never sell it
i see how they lie to me
fantasies so desperate

sinking down
i fall in a familiar frown
standing out
i cower in
with darkness bound

total shade to blinding light
its not a remedy
breaking points i hit
wont skip a beat
in lacking everything
volatile mind
i feel it crumble right from under me
branded on my back
could never get behind the make believe

nothingwillcompare

alone. [ft. floret][+irby]

"feel the weight" off of deathbed volume 1
recorded by draven.fm
mixed/mastered by getbetter

feel the weight [drewisdead x draven.fm x kcchalk] (prod. Mackk)

do this, do that w/ sideview drive (thislandis)

support https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161

recorded with my beeb inkspores

We’re just two broken bodies
made of coffee cups and bone 
But I’ll need some conversation once we safely make it home 
And invite me in for one last night I don’t know where to go 
But I’m dealt the hand so better learn to play it’s not just for show 
it’s not just for show 
it’s not just for show 


and what’s a little understanding faced against the shame 
and I brought this candle light to show our way around this place 
I gave you both of my hands until it’s known to be replaced 
I’ll never have enough glue to seal away all of the pain all of the 


and my cursive isn’t great I hope someday to accept it 
like the curvature of my spine it’s incomplete it’s just a set back
I’ve gone through enough of those to understand it’s not the end
just take another detour 
best direction yet 
got nothing left not to confess

two broken bodies (pekarot)

(prod. malloy x jkei)
feat @notaheroo

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

staring at my ceiling
6am dawn is coming
i was awake all night
fighting my demons on sight
codeine got me tripping
i remember this feeling
addictive to the sedatives
in pain so i need this 

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

im not used to being sober
was fed my pills
i was drinking till the sun up
i didnt know whats real
but now its over
i didnt know my love
its all my fault coz
its my own grave i dig

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

(notahero)
just warm me up cuz ur my heater
n i don’t got nothing except the music from my speakers
this fireball burning i need something little sweeter
would u keep me alive or will u turn me to a tweaker
diamonds in her eyes just like the ones i put on my belt
i pray that you’ll still love my heart after all the ice melts
i fucked up way to much to put the blame on someone else
but this shit made me tho
she said i’m acting like a child said u crazy hoe
there’s nothing child-like bout me pushing up daisies hoe
i swear to God that when i’m dead 
that’s the only time i’ll be able to get fuckin rest
maybe i should go to bed
i think imma work instead
pressure breaking down
feel like needles in my fucking head
i just wanna have a good time n u know this
i feel the energy just disturbing my solace

sedatives (w/ notahero) (malloy x jkei)

Lyrics:

Yeah im wishin you the best
But in the same breath i don't
Cause i feel it in my chest
That i could never really cope
The trauma bond you have wrapped round my fingers
I let them go but they always seem to linger
Sinking deep into the puddle that i built myself
Your holding onto me like im a doll sat on your shelf 

I don't wanna say your mine
I don't wanna say it's fine
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that has crossed the line
Feel like i am losing time
Get me off this fucking ride
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that enjoys the high
But i don't
No i don't

I wish i never met you
Its easier said than done
Would i be saying the same shit
If i was the one who was left on top
The trauma bond you have wrapped round my fingers
I let them go but they always seem to linger
Sinking deep into the puddle that i built myself
Your holding onto me like im a doll sat on your shelf 

I don't wanna say your mine
I don't wanna say it's fine
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that has crossed the line
Feel like i am losing time
Get me off this fucking ride
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that enjoys the high
But i don't
No i don't

Holding onto you like i'm an addict that has crossed the line
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that enjoys the high

Crossed the Line (Wolet beats)

im currently in a history of the silk road class so heres a silly song about the silk road
song is on all platforms <3
Lyric~~~sssssss
Id travel for ur love like the silk road and away we go
Webbing us a home, when i arrive turn on the radio
Traded all my goods just make it i had faith you know
Travel through the desert, from kashgar to arabia

Bandana on my face, to block the sand dont wanna taste
Traded all my precious goods for coffee just to stay awake
And id do it all again for you
Made it through the desert by grenades and horseshoes

Barter like porter, almost lost my life on persia border
On my tail chased by bandits
Shoot my flintlock til that lead ball makes a landing
Pass through baghdad, take a second just to hang back
Sweat through all those tears, but for a second i wont take that
But soon i was quite hopeful
Through those foot holes i could see constantinople
The destination, silk road travellers love to see
But it wasnt for the trade nor the money for me
I jump towards the port, reuniting you and me

silk road love [prod. yunny goldz]

https://youtu.be/4xDV6ldXyR0?si=JYmJ7f0dzkwp9e7x
produced by empty roads

in the end i will find you
if were meant to be
no matter where i look i still see your face
your all i see
in the end of the day
for you im weak
but all i see is you and him

tell me why
do i have to be in love with you
why cant i just find someone new
really wish that it was you
baby tell me what to do
but i will never be more like him
more like him
more like- yeah

he used to joke around
i never knew his reasons
he was just like me
never talk about my feelings
cos im really bad when expressing what im feeling
he just passed away and i was searching for a meaning
dont know how to deal babe
fell in love with you that time
im staring at the ceiling
now were just a memory
and my eyes started tearing up
tearing up

in the end, are we gonna be okay?
know im not the one to replace him
no, thats not what i intended
but i still want you anyways
i wanna be the one to hold your hands
cos with you im feeling like myself
cos with you im feeling less afraid
when im with you i allow myself to feel again
i know that its so selfish
cos all he ever wanted was us happy
think of think of you and me
cuddle in the backseat

with u

prod. eclipse7

(without you...)
let me go,
i dont know who to blame when my world comes crashing.. down
and ill never know whats truly best for me-
it wont take much time and,
i cant take just half of this,
time only kills if you let it,
i dont want silence to kill us,
ive been wanting some time alone with my feeilngs.
(i cant picture life without you)
(no value)
x2

let me go, i dont know who to blame when my world comes crashing down
and ill never know whats truly best for me.
it wont take much time and
i cant take just half of this
time only kills if you let it
i dont want silence to kill us :(

(gone in the head)
(feelings..)
(i cant picture life without you)
(no value)

gone in the head.

silence with my feelings

@dravenfm
@drewisdead
@twilightblue
@wontevergetbetter

feel the weight [drewisdead x draven.fm x kcchalk] (prod. Mackk)

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