if i died would you miss me?

(forgot piano sry)
(wrote dis 10mo. ago)

i said i loved u
wen u were asleep
n ma bed
i couldn trust u
sumthings messd up 
nside ma head

do u love tha feeling
do u love ma body
the 1 i hate the most
do u miss sumbody
tha 1 tht u loved tha most

wat am i sayin?
goin on a rampage
count tha moles 
on ur face

do u love me or do u not

tricksofavoid

prod me
i stole da mfkn 
guitar loop 

'

(where does ur mind go?) (friends-)

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wastin' time again, all my friends went home
now im all alone, n tha same mess
7 days went by 2 fast, nd now i gotta kno
shuld i stay here while, im ponder'n n silence

patience
i jus gotta make it
i feel all tha time pass

buh u'll nevr kno

fragrance
i smell the rain drip
drivin' from VA btc ah
do u feel tha low

tell me how 2 spend my time, better
survivin' tha warm, weather
while im still cold; i needa fix it all

wait 4 me, 2 breathe
im gna fix it all

flashbacks, i jus want my time back
tryna fix my mind track; mayb 1 day 
they can c that im rlly here (here-)

(do u understand?)

patience
i jus gotta make it
i feel all tha time pass
buh u nevr kno

fragrance
i smell the rain drip
drivin' from VA btc ah
r u feelin low

where does, ur mind, go
wen u think, abt me
its drivin, me nuts
wen u rlly, doubt me

i find it crazy
how i hate on myself
wen i rlly dont do much
anyways (anyways-)

wastin' time again
all my friends went home
now im all alone
n its raining now

7 days went by 2 fast
nd now i gotta kno
shuld i stay here while
im ponderin n silence

ponder n silence

ponder

forgot prod/oldsong
written 8mo. ago

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its hard 4 me 2 know
whats real, whats not
i feel my bones break 
stil, im bleeding out
i need sum comfort, 2
much 2 ask 4 i feel so 

sunburnt; out.

i need more patience
now, i feel my heart
explode wen ur around
im sorry tht i cant
blow u off tha ground

i try, i try, i try
i always break ma heart
twice, but u look @ me
w/ those beautiful eyes

sunburnt

[intro, imagine
a broken radio]

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(prod. michael harrison)
(mix/edit: @kwuzi)

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ᶜᵒⁿ·ˢᵒˡᵉ¹
ᵛᵉʳᵇ ⁻ ᶜᵒᵐᶠᵒʳᵗ ⁽ˢᵒᵐᵉᵒⁿᵉ⁾ ᵃᵗ ᵃ
ᵗⁱᵐᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵍʳⁱᵉᶠ ᵒʳ ᵈⁱˢᵃᵖᵖᵒⁱⁿᵗᵐᵉⁿᵗ

-

(sk)

u claim 2 hate me (du da ta du)
but ur so mean 2 urself
u call me crazy (da tu ta du)
but u were fightin' urself
u tried 2 change me
but have u reckon'd ur health
(reckon'd ur health)
u tend 2 scare me
u never cared how i felt
(cared how i felt)

(kw)

nd i go on nd on (cared how i felt)
nd on, u cnt go 2 sleep w/o tha (u tend 2 scare me)
on nd on nd on, sleepless nights, ma eyes reside n

where do u go wen (where u go, where u go)
my eyes r swollen (its swollen shut-)
where'd u go my dear? uh, console me
(my thoughts, my thoughts, my thoughts)
they'r gettn louder nd i (they'r gettn loud n i)
(they'r gettn)

(sk+kw)

u claim 2 hate me (u hate me)
(da du tu da)
but ur so mean 2 urself
u call me crazy (crazy)
but u were fightin' urself
u tried 2 change me (nd i go on nd on nd on)
but have u reckon'd ur health (on nd on nd on)
(reckon'd ur health)
u tend 2 scare me
u never cared how i felt

(kw)

where do u go wen (where u go, where u go)
ma eyes r swollen (its swollen shut-) where'd u go my dear?
uh, console me (they cut ma head)
(my thoughts, my thoughts, my thoughts)
they'r gettn louder nd i (they'r gettn loud n i)
(they'r gettn) where'd u go my dear?
tha only thing i want from u is 4 u 2
console me

(my head,
my thoughts,
my thoughts,
my thoughts)

outro:
(im spinnin n circles, nside ur shadow
ur beauty jus like saturn,
i found me annoying, im losin my focus
i think im losing myself)

Console w/ Kwuzi

STAND by Matthias Chamorro and webbslie
But with a different mix
Listen to the official here :D
https://open.spotify.com/track/2sJhwxRM5hQhVzcK0y3hY3?si=Twapupc4TxmjEppvdMbYsQ&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A2EirBG8jnW8ejBshsHxqQX

Lyrics:
Did i feel too much
In my heart, in my mind 
Did I sleep too much
In my bed all dark

Thinkin bout our love 

(OoOoO)

Did I cry too much
Was it too annoying for you
Did I fight enough
For our love to stand,

To stand

(OoOoO, bara dara dum dum dum)

Did i leap too fast
For you to catch your breath

I don't know, I don't know
(OoOoO, bara dara dum dum dum)

Mightve left too soon
For us to get some rest

Take it slow, take it slow

STAND

produced by myself
mixed and mastered by myself
art - sakamoto days by tetsu ōkawa

i tell myself i let that go
but yes i know that i've grown maniac
gone black on black
cant even track a verse, i'm sad though
make em flip the script
the way i drip illicit slits
insist i formed them on myself
what gods convinced that i'm in health?

as long as you wait on that son of yours
in like three weeks when hes nineteen, he'll turn to aberration
knife to his neck, you not gonna know location
now i don't think you deserve an explanation
my only wish is you give some affirmation
after hes gone because i know you'll regret it
fucked up his life in a night but you wouldn't expect it
yeah right

total recall (azi)

love you all

available on spotify, apple etc now here:
https://lontalius.lnk.to/surrender

spotify/apple/etc

sleep thru ur alarms

havent been here in a while. my fl license got terminated :/

cover of yung kai - blue
.
your morning eyes, i could stare like watching stars
i could walk you by, and i'll tell without a thought
you'd be mine, would you mind if i took your hand tonight?
know you're all that i want this life
i'll imagine we fell in love
i'll nap under moonlight skies with you
i think i'll picture us, you with the waves
the ocean's colors on your face
i'll leave my heart with your air
so let me fly with you
will you be forever with me?