featuring @h3artch3rades
circa — October 2021

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

Two steps ahead, that's how I'm feeling
Thinking about me all night got you dreaming
And I believe everything happens for a reason
I want to feel like your air is what I'm breathing
I know it's hard for you
Just believe in yourself, we can make it through
You know I will always try for you
If you believe in me, let's make an attempt to push through

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

It's so weird when you're innocent, but your heart hurts
You're trying to say what you're not worth
Not meant to spite you
But instead to inspire you
To step outside of your comfort zone
We've been on the phone
Going back and forth it seems
Arguing the same things
But it's never getting anywhere
And I don't wanna see you disappear
Even if I wasn't your first choice
I'm happy being at least one of your considerations
But I can't help but feeling the way that I feel
It's okay, it's just rain, I'll dry up
One day you'll make your mind up
I hate to say I told you so
I hate to say I told you so

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

You're the only one that makes me feel alright
I said you're the only one that makes me feel alright
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

Attempt (feat. h3artch3rades)

circa — June 2023
updated — May 2025

When I said I love you did I say it in a bad way, in a wrong way, in a bad way
(I've always thought about us together anyway, I know you love me can you tell me so that I know)
When I say I love you I mean it I'm not kidding, you do the cooking while I put away the dishes, uh huh
I hope those words mean anything to you, when I'm not with you the world seems so blue, uh huh
(Dreaming about how you were in my arms yesterday, and like always you threw my life away)
Eighteen years I've been living I've never met someone like you, someone like you
(I'd never thought I'd just be dreaming my life away, dreaming about how, bout how, bout how, bout how, bout how, bout how)
And like always you threw my life away

Stream

(plays are botted)

prod.me

i move, i move flawless
talk down to my brothers 
we gon' pop shit
telling me to shut up
i ain't toxic 
yea, find the key to shit
but i ain't lock it 
up ...
i don't move back
they know that i'm done
why you so mad? 
why you so sad? 
did you think i'm dumb?
if you doubt yourself ...
guess i already won 

i could NEVER fail
do this shit twice
i don't need help
yea, you see me goin up 
don't know how to feel
yea the message still stands
HOPE YOU GET WELL

cuz i move i move flawless
cuz i move i move flawless
cuz i move i move flawless
i move. 

[-50]

flawless

love is such a beautiful motivator, isn't it?

signature

*PLAYS ARE BOTTED*

@72crash
@100signs
prod @attc

on the way back 
its been so bad
im done w all these stupid acts
tell me what im doing
i'm still hurt
you're still hurt
tell me how to solve it 
tell me what the problem is right now
feel my heartbeat start to pound
im scared dont wanna hurt you
push away think i do it for you
think i do it for you

i dont wanna talk
i dont wanna talk
what do u want
i cant give a fuck
if i got a shot it gon hit
blow my bridges up
keep my circle small
everybody acting weird as fuck

shit just never changes
the time i didnt wanna spend got wasted
of course
didnt wanna face it
this time i really gotta burn the pages

but it's a problem when i'm gone
could i not run away?
why'd you have to hate now?
i'm on my own yea alright
i could pull up all night
if u hated me just say

don't save me
i can do it
on my own
so what's up right now?

yeah i been outside today
the shit u said don't mean nothing
i'm finna take it out on myself again
i was on something
i didn't know how to react
i had 2 chase the bag bud
i'm way too fucked up
i might bleed out in the tub
(but i'll never get to be like you........)

its breaking me slow i always end up feeling like this
need a second just to breathe its always going always going 
by the time its over
its always never its always never enough
when the time is over, the time is over, the time is over

its been so bad
im done w all these stupid acts
tell me what im doing
i'm still hurt
you're still hurt
tell me how to solve it 
tell me what the problem is right now
feel my heartbeat start to pound
im scared dont wanna hurt you
push away think i do it for you
think i do it for you

forU w 72crash (attic)

God's Middleman
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Lyric video: https://youtu.be/BPQGXMA15Ok

I see shit that u cant see
Stop pretending that ur better
Ur a human just like me
Im perfecting every letter
I am shit that yall cant be
I got shit inside my head got shit that most yall wouldnt believe
Im planning 15 years ahead
I know exactly where im gone be in 10 years and 10 years after that
Just play this when im 18 man yall gone lose ur fucking head
If i stop making art man call the cops cus i am dead

Gotta trust the process gotta trust the art
U can make shit that no one else can
Gotta trust ur soul, gotta trust ur heart
Shit aint always gone land, be ur biggest fan and realize this shit go hard
Cus if ur like me then u aint got shit to lose and u gotta shoot for the stars
Gotta know deep down that u the shit
Fuck a number this is a hit
Give a fuck what they say, give a fuck what they think
Beauty's in the smaller things
Fuck dms, stay dropping links
Who the fuck u rlly doing this for
Who the fuck could really help
Why cant u do this for urself

Man it makes me sad yall dont believe in urself
Cus that feeling deep inside ur gut man that shit is real as hell
Thats ur angel and ur muse and they guide ur art and they try to help
The universe cant be beautiful without asking for help
If its real inside ur head
Ur not crazy, ur unique
If u lie awake in bed
At night, and u just cant sleep
And ur doubting thoughts and ideas and wether ur even artist
Just know that u are cus real ones be thinking bout that shit the hardest

I see shit that u can't see

[MUSIC VIDEO - https://youtu.be/BxLYEp4Ya1A]

prod.@xaev + @72crash + me

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you-

bruises on my body
dont ask me how i got it
brand new face i bought it
shout out to my doctor
bruises on my body 
please dont get me started
bruises on my body
i just wanna party

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?

plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING
plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty thing

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty th-

you just wanna be like me 
but you cant afford it
stop obsessing over me
but you know i love it
if you say i gotta leave
im like ok fuck it
PROMISE you wont follow me
if you blink you miss it

bitch im rolling in my bed
turn the music up
i just wanna smash my head
i just wanna jump

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
I DONT LOVE NO ONE
RIGHT NOW I JUST WANNA 
JUMP, JUMP

turn the bass up, why????
IM TOO SHY TO PARTY BUT ILL STAY UNTIL IM HIGH
i dont wanna talk i can talk between my eyes
right behind my forehead is where i form all my lies

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK

it's a beauty thing

prod me
remake of a 2023 song
@trustt

@lynyou
im feeling generous today i might just let u slide
i know i said im going easy but i killed him twice
ur acting lame as fuck not to my surprise
and im still going up no i didnt lie
i learned how to focus on myself
some things just never change
some things just never change
(only if they dont have to)

ill buy the whole store act like i give a fuck
i grabbed like six bags i dont think thats enough
u going downhill its looking rlly rough
u try to play it off but u keep messing up

nah nah 
acting like u got my respect
talk down 
ima make u drown in regret
nah nah 
if u got a problem, disconnect
yea yea
i just watched u fold under stress

@trustt 
hundred dollar jeans on my body 
plz dont talk to me
girl come rip it off
cuz it dont even feel like me

i fall through the floor
walk through walls
rip through the ceiling 
bitch come turn it round
#360
hit rewind then repeat

fool him once
fool him twice
fool him three times
not to my surprise ya (x2)

I see shit that u can't see

bevel