you put ur hands all on me now im leaving
you tell me that you love me, do you mean it ?
mean it 
mean it
dont you ever mean it ?
how could i mean everything you keep me as a secret

i put the switchblade to my arm
you left in the pain now its all gone wrong
you left me in vein now youre all i want
i dont gotta stay but shes all i want

like keep me as a secret
you mean it ? you wont leave ?
tell me that you miss him im griping upon ur sleeve
and even in the end i wont matter i wont breathe
im sick of always wanting the best and its not me

sleepwater
keep me from what you been selling please
pushing straight down make it hard to breath
i'm not okay now find it to hard breath !
dont know who to chase now, guess it wasn't me
rolling with my
guess ill just roll on my own i guess ill just roll on my own

i put the switchblade to my arm
you left in the pain now its all gone wrong
you left me in vein now youre all i want
i dont gotta stay but shes all i want

like keep me as a secret
you mean it ? you wont leave ?
tell me that you miss him im griping upon ur sleeve
and even in the end i wont matter i wont breathe
im sick of always wanting the best and its not me

roll on my own (feat. sleepwater)(prod. unlucky)

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

prod. sinxi


Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Im running where the sun wont face yet
U can see it in my eyes im faded 
Im waiting 
for nothing 
Leave something
Oh
Don’t run away 
I don’t wanna lose you
I won’t love again
Im not used to that
Don’t call me back
I wanna leave the past
Id feel better with a heart attack

Don’t talk to me 
Im too out of it
Left out alone
Don’t try again
Like honestly
She won’t lie again
Im too far gone
Leave me out of it

Im tryna quit
No Time for this
All my words fall flat again
Still arguing
Swear she’s such a bitch
Please let go 
Let me outta this

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Faceless
You can see it in my eyes im faded
No thoughts promsie u won’t change it
Im waiting for nothing
Tell me im trying for something

Changing
U keep telling me u never wanna face it
Fucked up got my heart beat racing
Im faded off nothing
Tell me im waiting for something

faceless

<3 

tilting over like the pictures on your wall
i didnt wanna meet your mom and dad they didnt like me at all
somehow they liked me oh
down the line its you and me now that dont get along and
somethings arent always better than nothing
your love is like the ocean and i just wanna jump in
relationships and me they hardly ever work
im tryna keep my balance i just keep slipping first

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

oh oh oh
so is it important to you cause god knows this shits important to me
and i lost every part of me trynna be what they want me to be
theres a war inside my head lately i just want peace
so is it annoying i keep falling cant stand on my two damn feet
i tried a thousand of times im at a thousand and one
i wanna blow my fucking brains but i dont own a gun
none of this is fun

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

<3

disgusted with myself

spotify

DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF [p. king theta]

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me

(self harming i'm addicted to pain
blood flowing down the drain 
u fucked up my whole brain 
cause i still want u to have my last name)~

(skele)
what does it feel like to wake up with closure
drinking alone i've been drunk since october
hoping for change told my mom i'd get sober
blood from my veins ill bleed till it's over
and im so scared that i cant fix the breaks u made
and it's not fair cause i'd be fine if u just stayed
sometimes i wish u were just so i could get sum fucking sleep
sometimes i wish u were baby you are everything i need

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me (2x)

look at the place i'm in w/skele (pekarot)

something a lil different, hope u enjoy
produced by: @siemspark

LYRICS:

You love and hate me, yeah it breaks me, I'm so fucked up
Too many wounds on my heart heal them with alcohol
I watched you fall back in the arms of someone that you loved
And it wasn't me, I'm so fucking dumb
And after all the mental torture I think I'd finally had enough
Now you're coming back to me and you said you've been out of luck
A normal person would've said that they don't give a fuck
But I just welcome you back with my open arms

'Cause I am still in love
And I don't wanna watch you spiral back out of control
So I just hold you close
I know you need this the most, I don't care if you're ghost
I'm gonna hold you 'cause I'm cold as well
Yeah, you use me, abuse me, I was nothing but an object
After everything I said, you always had to object
I hate the way you use me for your project
Now I'm all alone, guess I was nothing but a target

And after all the mental torture I think I'd finally had enough
Now you're coming back to me and you said you've been out of luck
A normal person would've said that they don't give a fuck
But I just welcome you back with my open arms

'Cause I am still in love (still in love)
And I don't wanna watch you spiral back out of control (out of control)
So I just hold you close
I know you need this the most, I don't care if you're ghost
I'm gonna hold you 'cause I'm cold as well
Yeah, you use me, abuse me, I was nothing but an object
After all the things I said, you always had to object
I hate the way you use me for your project
Now I'm all alone, guess I was nothing but a target

(Use me, abuse me, I was nothing but an object)
(After all the things I said, you always had to object)
(I hate the way you use me for your project)
(Now I'm all alone, guess I was nothing but a- )

object

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you
ill make it better for you
ill find a way to change hue
i feel like alien
and i just want to relate
got me going

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

if we're talking about time i wanna cut it down
if its gonna make the wait longer then fuck it all
you're in my mind right now
and i just wanna get to you so i can shut the fuck up
got me going
dont fall down
SINGING EVERYTHING FROM MY HEAD!
its generic
but im simple
when you speak to me you make my legs tremble
i see ghosts in my room
i see ghosts in my room

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone
im so fucking sick of waiting for my life
im accepting the fact nothing happens over night

GHOSTS (Scottysplash)

track 3: closer w/ @1tuxx


lyrics:
B MURPH:

The closer you get
The more you seem to fuck with my head
And the more I wish that I was dead
I’m getting too close to the edge
So I watch my step
And you say you’ve been trying your best
Well I guess this is the best we’ll get
I’m falling back down again
(Down again)

So please don’t get too close I’ll cover my face
I don’t want you to see
(I don’t want you to see)
That I’ve been hurting inside and you’re the one I really need
(The one I really need)

TUXX:

Don’t step, too close or you might meet the edge
You say I’m far from dead
At least we don’t know what the end consists of
So let’s try our best
Until you’re staring at the sky
With both of your eyes telling you why
You won’t find a thing inside
So can you try to help it make sense, at least play pretend
I know I’m not the person that you’ll understand
And I can’t comprehend what’s inside my own head
It gets harder to manage, it hurts in my chest

B MURPH:

The closer you get
The more you seem to fuck with my head
And the more I wish that I was dead
I’m getting too close to the edge
So I watch my step
And you say you’ve been trying your best
Well I guess this is the best we’ll get
I’m falling back down again
(Down again)

So please don’t get too close I’ll cover my face
I don’t want you to see
(I don’t want you to see)
That I’ve been hurting inside and you’re the one I really need
(The one I really need)

So please don’t get too close I’ll cover my face
I don’t want you to see
(I don’t want you to see)
That I’ve been hurting inside and you’re the one I really need
(The one I really need)

closer w/ tuxx

<33 luv yall w/ all my heart :) tysm for 30K on nites !!!

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

cold
blowing im smoking on thrax n been stuck in my home
2 days a week i been barely breathing, im sleeping in smoke
i been outside n still been stuck on the road
oh~
baby i am not making it home

(bad bitch like maleficent
im smoking this evergreen, its heavensent
im sipping on heavenly
this everclear shit no good 4 me and i'll throw it up by like 2 or 3
honestly know u dead 2 me but still fill u up like its calories)

live life in a hurry
my baby so worried
pushing in a benz, we cruisin 90 in a 30
uh, double cup i fill it up like shit was dirty
I COULDN'T THINK OF A LINE HERE LMFAOOOOO

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head
pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

closer w/ tuxx

B Murph