produced by @jolst and @sainttomorrow <3
out now on youtube through biteki & static:
https://youtu.be/DWpNablizm0
https://youtu.be/nEK_a4oFms8

music video:
https://youtu.be/95Kayd1Rpiw

hope u enjoy :)

lyrics:
i let my soul drift away just to feel something again
i sold my conscience for free, nothing to see but a man without his skin

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

plenty people consider hitting my phone again
i don’t mind but i’d rather just be alone again
findin peace in my soul life ain’t that innocent
if i wanted em to be, things would be different
quiet nights in my attic, now the static is loud
i just wanna see my dad again and make him proud
tired of the recycled life i’m bottling up
smoked a little bit too much and now i’m throwing up

whats in the water, i wonder...
sink to the river, discover
see my reflection in ripples
i think i need you a little
more than i’d admit
i find it hard to reminisce
feel my stomach start to twist
and now i’m back with those i miss
woahhh

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

enter the forest, forget life
i’ve done this shit for the last time x2

enter the forest, forget life

enter the forest, forget life [p. jolst x saint tomorrow]

spotify!

enter the forest, forget life [jolst x saint tomorrow]

Biteki AMV: https://youtu.be/aMOX-qUEWMw
prod. farber
this 1 been in the works for a while 🖤
i hope some of you find relation & or clarity.
ft. @user-411557229

[autumn]
so seems you took away my breath
feels a little off where do i begin 
like oh~
why’d i get so bent 
starting to believe that i’m a bit obsessed
like oh~

cause i’ve always really wanted space
now i just wanna see your face
(see your face)

girl i want this bad
i told you that
i’m not just sad
my world’s been plaid

hello?
praying you’d pick up the phone 
how’d it go?
being on your god damn own

so seems you took away my breath
feels a little off where do i begin 
like oh~
why’d i get so bent 
starting to believe that i’m a bit obsessed
like oh~

[not home.]
they wanna be me
she gonna leave me
for somebody new
off of the shrooms
cold in my room 
lost in the ceiling
look at the moon

[autumn & not home.] 
(2x)
look at my face when you’re talking
(when you’re talking)
i get bored so i smoke now i’m coughing
(bitch i’m coughing)
all the friends at the house 
now i’m yawning
(what the fuck bitch)
they be chasing all the
shit up in my pockets

obsessed w/ not home. [prod. farber]

follow heylog

@heylog

support heylog - spotify - https://open.spotify.com/artist/5Jf6pl4SGgueZHZ4pC313c?si=4gRVQC47SBql7WYQ8JUpeA

lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

track 3: closer w/ @1tuxx


lyrics:
B MURPH:

The closer you get
The more you seem to fuck with my head
And the more I wish that I was dead
I’m getting too close to the edge
So I watch my step
And you say you’ve been trying your best
Well I guess this is the best we’ll get
I’m falling back down again
(Down again)

So please don’t get too close I’ll cover my face
I don’t want you to see
(I don’t want you to see)
That I’ve been hurting inside and you’re the one I really need
(The one I really need)

TUXX:

Don’t step, too close or you might meet the edge
You say I’m far from dead
At least we don’t know what the end consists of
So let’s try our best
Until you’re staring at the sky
With both of your eyes telling you why
You won’t find a thing inside
So can you try to help it make sense, at least play pretend
I know I’m not the person that you’ll understand
And I can’t comprehend what’s inside my own head
It gets harder to manage, it hurts in my chest

B MURPH:

The closer you get
The more you seem to fuck with my head
And the more I wish that I was dead
I’m getting too close to the edge
So I watch my step
And you say you’ve been trying your best
Well I guess this is the best we’ll get
I’m falling back down again
(Down again)

So please don’t get too close I’ll cover my face
I don’t want you to see
(I don’t want you to see)
That I’ve been hurting inside and you’re the one I really need
(The one I really need)

So please don’t get too close I’ll cover my face
I don’t want you to see
(I don’t want you to see)
That I’ve been hurting inside and you’re the one I really need
(The one I really need)

closer w/ tuxx

these are our only good songs, thanks for listening <3

get to the point

𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍

prod by. @domesticsoul

'tiedyed' ep
10/27

thank you for being here. 
take care

(it's way too damn bright out)
i know
it's always i don't know
idk, idk, i don't..

i feel the worst
reheat the burns
shoot down the birds
show me you hurt
care bout me less
don't feel distressed
don't recollect, proclaim me as dead
i'm recondite in all of their eyes
believe me, i've tried
the fuck would i lie
line after line, tongue's getting dry
water to hydrate
my subconscious, it migrates
fluttered past in the writing
eating less carbohydrates
sleeping less got me dying
note and pens all that i see
in a cold sweat from the sights seen
sights seen..
i don't wanna do no sightseeing, no..

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

rain check;
she told me we should make a reign check
bellow out my frustrations
etching out these elations
now i'm fine, 'till i break, yeah
now i've calmed, feel it in my palms now
a couple scorn clouds
cry a storm out, with no warning
it's important;
you seem to know them 'till you stay foreign
(stay foreign)

so i guess i'll put my trust in the darkness
we talk a lot, bustin' chops over toxins
i hear my thoughts pushing me to be heartless
missin' my shots, wouldn't think i'm a marksman
fuck love, i'm misunderstood
filtering light into words overlooked
i disapprove and rebuke how they're crooked
i just went weak in the knees, now i'm puking

one sunset at a time
another day a new vice
show me you care without dragging your hair
through grease trails and the lice
it must be my mind that's gotten so distant
plenty surround but they always low pitch
or don't get the picture; fragile demeanor
prone to be withered, but never stay with

laugh it off like you always do
no surface shit, up the magnitude
let the ground crack 'till you fall back
from the forecast, as the magma spews
got hot veins and a cold brain
as i fuck up my stability
you can't drown out what's already sunken
i don't want there to be room for me

here we go again
meet another end
reinvent your head like second nature
lose it to a friend, who wasn't quite your friend
people only plead when it's on paper
well how about that
dirty mousepads
unaware of how i got here
did i steer clear, or was i pulled back?

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

downcast (p. domesticsoul)

[lyrics]

NOAH THOMAS
aw yeah cypher song, take one breath i know you’re breathing me in, when I’m a thousand miles away how could you still think of him?, you’re on the train home thinking about what y’all could’ve been, when i was right here all along, just kept making amends

SPOOKYBANDS
baby hang on, i’ve been good as far as you know, we don’t need to make problems, i cant love you right now girl, yeah i can fix up that front door that you complain about, you say you can feel a draft still, i dont need you getting colder

SACE6
and I’m still holding on, for it to be the same, if i’m still going on, don’t ask me to stay, i’m so sick of writing paragraphs, no need to cry it wouldn’t last, anyways, anyways

HAMILTON
and i’m so sick of feeling like this, woke up and my body feeling lifeless, i’m at the bottom of the bottle can you pick me up, i’m so sick of feeling this stuck in my head, every single day, memories of you start to fade away and turn gray, as i turn a new page, i’m just another dog trying to break my cage 

KENNY ORLANDO
and if i said that i moved on then you know i’d be lying, how do i put something i love so damn much behind me, i’m stuck in hiding, but let it find me, how do you move on? you do it blindly

KILLMESUMDAY
this time you can lose my number, i don’t know why this happens to me, time flies she still wears my sweater, thats the closest that she’ll get to me, my heart hurts cause i still remember all the lies that you fed to me, we can’t talk you’re always pulling me under, i can’t let you get the best of me

EZRA
you’re far away and i hate you, you won’t find another me i hope it breaks you up, was it a mistake to let you live a dream i hope life f***ing wakes you up, I-95 i’m driving all alone and i’m driving drunk, just stay alive, i’m trying, your heartless words don’t help me much

LOVE JAI
if i'm a piece of your puzzle i just won't ever fit, i feel like some people hate me and they just won't admit, i live up to your expectations i'm a piece of s**t, i got a target on my head and it's hit or miss, don't pay no mind heart intertwined and my hands are tied, i can feel the pressure from all angles I’m not switching sides congratulations your wish is true don’t act so surprised, wont say a word about it and i don’t even know why 

KENNEDYXOXO
it’s like i want what i cant have, i’m so self destructive i suggest that you stand back and you’ll be okay, tough love isn’t that bad, is that sad, now that this is over i wonder who got the last laugh, and its over with i told you i was never okay, you told me to get over it like “oh you don’t say”, i’d be colder and emotionless i dug my own grave, now it’s time for you to leave me here before its too late

JOMIE
when will you care cause i doubt you ever did, yeah we close to the finale hope you had fun cause i did, i feel like robin since my pretty b***h look  to go shopping, anything for her by any means, so run your pockets, vroom vroom got one speed i’m zooming, told her if she got another option she should choose it, why you looking At my face you think that funny s**t amusing, you stay at your momma’s place then make fun of my music, what the f**k you doing, its getting harder to be the bigger person, it’s only a loss if you find you didn’t leaRn s**t, i know i’ve won when i write my name in cursive on your girlfriends lips she says that i’ve earned it

aw yeah cypher song ft. spookybands, hamilton, Love Jai, Ezra, & Jomie

It’s so cold will you bring me warm
And I would never do you harm
The taste of the dirt on my tongue humbles me again 
Even when I’m hurt I’ll protect you until the very end 
Looking back I’m at fault for never stepping in
And I can love you better babe you just gotta tell me when 

X2: Used to find peace
when I go to sleep
Now my nightmares haunt me like a knife and I fucking bleed 
never knew me never knew what the fucks best for me 

December is creeping along painfully slow
Ever since I fucked it all up by letting her go 
It’s funny how the loves never there when you need it most 
Throw stones at my porcelain heart and act like it’s while 
So lay me down in roses when I pass on to the other side 
And I pray you feel the same when I say there’s nothing else you could’ve tried 
I’m still in her arms I fall asleep and I dream at night 
Peace misses chaos that’s my broken mind
So stuck in silence  
Fire fills my eyelids 
All these toxins inside this alcohol leave me beaten up 
Nightmares from this poison inside this liquor cup 

Used to find peace
when I go to sleep
Now my nightmares haunt me like a knife and I fucking bleed 
never knew me never knew what the fucks best for me

Maybe I can just lay in this field forever 
Waiting for death to come and wash me over 
And turn all my bones into four leaf clovers 
And no I don’t wanna sleep (no more)
Turn your ashes to dirt that you leave on your front porch 
Leave my heart for the trees (go home)
Tell the people I love not to grieve when I let go 
You said to me it’s fine 
Don’t wait and change my mind 
So now I’m starting to sleep turning dust into dreams like the stars in the midnight sky 
(I don’t wanna go)

I don’t wanna bleed 
I don’t wanna sleep 
And I don’t wanna leave 
Yeah I don’t wanna leave 

(And I don’t wanna run)
But I’ve been feeling so done 
Only place I’m finding peace is inside a loaded gone 
Insomnia up for weeks just let me be let me rot 
Terrified to go to sleep I got no where I can run

I dont wanna sleep ft. Sewerperson and Days to Waste (Irby/Jolst)

honored to have @foreignforest on this
hkfiftyone:
i feel so messed up, like im never right
swear im drained just from putting up a fight
i wont sleep but im tired, so i might
want to be up in the sky

if im real, i just want to stay alive
if i wake up in the morning, i survived
keep it pushing even if i dont know why
know there's something more to life

foreign forest:
my chest
feels like it's full of rocks sometimes
yes
i've been working on my mind
tests
all i ever seem to find is
stress
i don't wanna lose my mind yet

i'm so tired of living in the future
thinking i'll be good
but for now im just a loser
this is not "it"
lost my "present" in the sewer
gotta get it
but i don't know what i'm doing

what if i
have a different story i could
tell in time
though i didn't get it on the
very first try
at least i can say i tried

hkfiftyone:
i feel so messed up, like im never right
swear im drained just from putting up a fight
i wont sleep but im tired, so i might
want to be up in the sky

if im real, i just want to stay alive
if i wake up in the morning, i survived
keep it pushing even if i dont know why
know there's something more to life

im tryna get back up, i swear i try my best
but every time i fall, i feel it in my chest
and then my brain gets numb, so then i make a mess
its like i cant think straight, but you probably get it

hold on
i swear it's gonna be okay
been too long, but swear it wont stay
youre not alone, i know its lonely
youre all in my prayers

Sample from Julia's Message of Hope
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rvhgvmABL0

"It's ok to be afraid, but I don't want you to give up. Because the thing about depression, is it lies. You know, you gotta fight to be here. Because it does get better, and all of these lies will eventually go away. You just have to hold on, 'cause it doesn't get to win. It doesn't get to take you. Because you're stronger than that, and you're worth more than that.
And it's possible."

Stay Pt 2 w/ Foreign Forest

Tales From Cosmic Dawn

On My Digital Dashboard

Astral (feat. sewerperson & Days to Waste)

Lyrics:
[Chorus: Days to waste]
Another day I lie awake
Another way the same mistake
I'm losing you I'm losing me
Inside my heart inside my brain

[Verse 1: From the Crowd]
I was only 17 now I'm lost and I can't see
All the memories they're burning up inside of me
Man I don't know where to go what to do what to say
I can't run from this pain feeling tired everyday
Feelings I keep locked away
I can't break them out their cage
Cause I'm scared of what you'll say
I wish I could run away
Leave this town fade away
My head got me trapped again
Now I know I can't escape
Looks like I'll stay another day

[Chorus: Days to waste]
Another day I lie awake
Another way the same mistake
I'm losing you I'm losing me
Inside my heart inside my brain

[Verse 2: From the Crowd]
Just a kid this system was taking
Writing songs about my health I'm decaying
Thought it would get better now I've turned 18
Still make mistakes I think it's routine
All these thoughts in my head I'm unstable
Try to fall asleep but I'm unable
People text my phone like they're my label
Do you love me or is this just a fable?

Honestly I'm lost again
I'm losing you I miss all my friends
Honestly I'm lost again
I'm losing you I've lost all my friends

[Verse 3: sewerperson]
Yeah, yeah
The world is burning out
And I lay wide awake
I lay wide awake
Baby I lay wide awake
Hold my shaky hand and walk upon this astral plane
Taste the Novocaine these broken thoughts'll fade away
This is all way too fast I never thought I was gon' see myself being this open
I can only take these hits for so long before I start to catch emotions
I done been so deep so long I ain't know how else I could approach it.
Here I sing the same old song as every brokenhearted poet
Say what you mean
Baby do what you got to
I made the choice so
If you need me girl I got you
Tell me what you need
We going anywhere you want to
We thought we was living free before
The futures gonna shock you

FROM THE CROWD MERCHANDISE:
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FROM THE CROWD STREAMING:
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Apple Music | https://music.apple.com/gb/artist/from-the-crowd/1478853881
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FROM THE CROWD SOCIALS:
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Twitter | twitter.com/JRFromtheCrowd
Gmail | jrfromthecrowd@gmail.com

Produced by: Ramsey Beatz
Mixed by: Casa
Recorded by: From the Crowd
Filmography by: Lil Sad Records
Single Artwork by: Pexels

© Lost in Hope Records

closer w/ tuxx

B Murph