i'll forget

yes i had trouble pronouncing apostatize and yes it is very rough AND YES the cover is poorly photoshopped stock photos together but i just want to put it out so here r the lyrics

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages

i can’t stay focused all alone
you’ve left me hoping since sophomore year
yeah it’s like i’m frozen, in the cold
and you’re in my vision, decisions
and you’re in my vision, decisions

and you’re standing miles away
but you’ve got a grip ‘round my throat
Can you let go?

I see your smiling face
and red lights, and i can’t help but go

cause i can’t stay focused all alone
you’ve left me hoping since sophomore year
yeah it’s like you’re frozen, in the snow
and you’re in my vision

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages
god, you’ve got some power to keep me hooked for ages

(i swear i) could apostatize, but couldn’t disbelieve you
i can’t forget your eyes, you’re my only faith group
god, you’ve got some power

cause i can’t make sense of your effect
it’s so offensive to conquer my head
yeah it’s like you’re right here, in our bed
and you’re my religion, my vision

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages
god, you’ve got some power to keep me hooked for ages

(i swear i) could apostatize, but couldn’t disbelieve you
i still know your eyes, you are my sole faith group
god, you’ve got some power

decisions (rough demo)

wrote this about looking into the mirror and seeing somebody so different its a literal monster

you monster
undercover
you’re so weak
you just can’t stop

these waters
i’m going under
before me
you stand too tall

im six feet down
about to sink deeper
i’m gonna drown

im Under the surface
Wondering if this is worth it
Try to swim from the danger
But somebody threw the anchor

and i’m sinking
deeper than deep ends

this feeling
it’s too familiar
it’s empty
but it’s my friend

a sweet thing
but it’s bitter
you’re the beast
inside my head

ten feet down
about to sink deeper
you’re gonna drown
me you creature

im Under the surface
Wondering if this is worth it
Try to swim from the danger
But somebody threw the anchor

i See my reflection
When i look your direction
find you’re not just a stranger
it’s me, i threw the anchor

and im sinking

this dagger
between my fingers
will shatter
this very mirror

and this dagger
will kill you creature
i’ll end you
right now and right here

if you don’t drown
my only ounce of hope
cause now i know

you are me
and im you
and we are one thing
but i dont wanna be you

See my reflection
When i look your direction
try to swim out this chamber
but somebody threw the anchor

i threw the anchor
we threw the anchor
you threw the anchor
and now i’m sinking

the anchor

Song written by me and mixed by the lovely and wonderful Nawal Elhajoui.
Cover photo by Terese Corbin.

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was working a 9 to 5
when our love was gasping for air
i dont really know why
i’m standing here on my birthday night
and you’re standing over there

i gotta take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s sposed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was running out of time
when our love was dying in my arms
i dont really know why
it’s torture forcing myself to watch you cry
knowing i did the harm

and babe there’s no amount of “sorry”
to fix the wreck i made
and there’s no amount of apologizing
oh, i gotta take

take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s s’posed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll still love me still

lets still love us still (demo)

me & you

make it clear

Honestly kind of a shit mix but I did it on purpose

Sometimes I feel like I need to be told
Being 19 isn’t even close to old
I draw the line at being an adult
I still draw lines in children’s coloring books

Every so often I look down upon myself
Be a better person stop thinking about yourself
I could be the guy who drags his feet across the floor
Who sits around all day just waiting for something more
Well I can cry in quantities that are suitable for drinking
Or I can pour myself a glass and stop all of this thinking

So if you’re job searching and looking for a new start
I’ll hire you right away you’ll be managing my heart
Hold in your hands and please take a look
It may look like some lines in a children’s coloring book
But I can assure you that I’m growing up on time 
I swear I’m more mature than all of those govanents in line 

Well I am so out of place
I am so out of place
I am so out of place 
I am so out of place

i am so out of place

Eres_Mi_Amor_Mi_Primer_Amor_Jesús. 🌺🌷🌸

December Holiday Song Challenge

Week 1: Snow & Spirit

Dec 1 – Style: Pop • Topic: First snowfall magic • Artist: Mariah Carey
Dec 2 – Style: Country • Topic: Small-town Christmas lights • Artist: Luke Combs
Dec 3 – Style: Soul • Topic: Warmth on a cold night • Artist: Stevie Wonder
Dec 4 – Style: Jazz Ballad • Topic: Fireside romance • Artist: Michael Bublé
Dec 5 – Style: Rock • Topic: Decorating the house • Artist: Bruce Springsteen
Dec 6 – Style: Folk • Topic: Handmade gifts • Artist: James Taylor

make it clear

mia tims