long story short, i got my ass kicked 
Beat prod by: king theta 
Written and performed by: popularreject
Lyrics:

<hook>
1,2,3,4
Somethings got me holding on
A little tighter 
Stabbed my back 
But it’s all alright cuz 
Momma raised a fighter 
Pathological lie 
Denier 

Guess I’ll start the fire 
12 feet up
I forgot the lighter 
Burning down the spire 
Tie my guts 
Leave me undesired 
<post chorus>
Can’t wake up 
Won’t wake up 
I think it’s my time 
Don’t pinch me 
Don’t say none 
I think it’s my time 
<verse1>
Lifes just a “kick in the ass”
I got my ass kicked
And life kicked it pretty bad
But that shit just happens 

And that makes me pretty mad 
But fuck it 
I don’t know why 
I rely 
On a substance 
I don’t know why
I even try
For nothin’

Break me baby
Chained up 
Please just take me
Drive me crazy
I’ve been 
So damn wasted 

But guess what…
<hook>
Somethings got me holding on
A little tighter 
Stabbed my back 
But it’s all alright cuz 
Momma raised a fighter 
Pathological lie 
Denier 

Guess I’ll start the fire 
12 feet up
I forgot the lighter 
Burning down the spire 
Tie my guts 
Leave me undesired 

<bridge>

<hook>
Somethings got me holding on
A little tighter 
Stabbed my back 
But it’s all alright cuz 
Momma raised a fighter 
Pathological lie 
Denier 

Guess I’ll start the fire 
12 feet up
I forgot the lighter 
Burning down the spire 
Tie my guts 
Leave me undesired 

<verse2>
They hate when I flow
On beats 
That sound like these 
I can’t wake up 
So I’m loathing sleep
I find my peace 
In pieces 
Torn to bits 
And riddled 
With diseases 
Ball my fist 
Take all my shit 
And leave it 
Leave it 
Seem to be
An enemy
Of reason 
Reason
Don’t know why
I always feel
Defeated 
<hook>
1,2,3,4
Somethings got me holding on
A little tighter 
Stabbed my back 
But it’s all alright cuz 
Momma raised a fighter 
Pathological lie 
Denier 

Guess I’ll start the fire 
12 feet up
I forgot the lighter 
Burning down the spire 
Tie my guts 
Leave me undesired

long story short, i got my ass kicked (prod. king theta)

[intro]

Hold on to things around us
I hope that we don’t rust

[verse 1]

Time goes
with the wind of ghosts
I need control 
of my own soul

Maybe this time is just falling apart 
Everything that I see just turns dark
This is the time that I see red, mars
And see myself with these old scars

Time tells me that I won’t go far
Maybe he’s right I’m behind his bars
Wind sucks up like it is tar
Wouldn’t be surprised if we get charred 

[chorus]

Where the time go in this cyclone
I can tell it’s flying by in this wind though
Then I go home become hollow
Then I wonder where the night went it this silo

Where the time go in this cyclone
I can tell it’s flying by in this wind though
Then I go home become hollow
Then I wonder where the night went it this silo

[verse 2 - lxst boy]

Ghosts are haunting me, they are behind me
Breathing down my back, fire spewing all around me
And I’m just lost in this space you provided me
And who am I to think they wouldn’t lie to me

Demons all on my chest, can’t control my head
Losing all of my breath, I’m probably better dead
Get in position, they got a new proposition 
I feel alive in the cyclone, I hope it raises suspicion 

I hope, I go
Peacefully in December’s snow
I know, I’m gone
Write another poem I’m the right one

[chorus]

Where the time go in this cyclone
I can tell it’s flying by in this wind though
Then I go home become hollow
Then I wonder where the night went it this silo

Where the time go in this cyclone
I can tell it’s flying by in this wind though
Then I go home become hollow
Then I wonder where the night went it this silo

wind from ghosts (feat. lxst boy)(puhf & zekiro)

seejayxo - https://soundcloud.com/seejayxo

Crizzy:

She fell back into a habit, 
If she see a bottle grab it, 
Down it, 
Take it to the throat, 
Like its a fountain. 
I bet she drown in, 
Every drug that she was found in. 
Oxycotin,
Bottles pile on her mattress. 
Her mama saw it, 
And she called a single number, 
She said, "Oh god I'm really worried for my daughter". 
She start to stutter as her fingers growing number. 
She has an addict in her house without a father.

But what, 
Does it mean. 
Sitting all alone, 
In a place, 
She never seen.  
What, 
Do you need, 
Some help, 
Or a baggie,
Full of seed. 

And they sent her off to rehab, 
They ain't knowing how she'll react, 
They're just praying she don't relapse, 
Say she promise do she mean that. 
And I can tell by the way that she looks, 
She don't care about the measures that they took. 
They shouldn't judge from a cover of a book, 
But they know that she had never understood.

Seejayxo:
She a bad bitch
Out in LA
And she poppin now
Just like she said she would 
So I can't even hate
But her daddy probably 
Bought her everything 
That he ever could 
But she she still miss the xans
And I can't even blame her for that 
She just get ashamed
When she talk about her past
I be getting faded
Knowin I can't take you back
Knowin this my last sack

She need love from a real one 
White girl lines till I feel numb 
This just how I live
It's sincere love
I just want real trust
Tell me where the fuck I'm finna find that
Bitch I got pills in my side bag
Pop another one I'll be good for the flight back
Shit I got a show I'll be right back
Please don't relapse we can fight that 

Crizzy:

And they sent her off to rehab, 
They ain't knowing how she'll react, 
They're just praying she don't relapse, 
Say she promise do she mean that. 
And I can tell by the way that she looks, 
She don't care about the measures that they took. 
They shouldn't judge from a cover of a book, 
But they know that she had never understood.

Rehab w/ seejayxo

lyrics -‌ ‌written‌ ‌by‌ ‌@backyardbeetle

follow me:
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lyrics:
these empty promises 
i always make to myself
concerning my mental health
im sorry i dont wanna do nothing else
yeah i thought you were good for me 
till i turned my back
now im just wondering
if ill get it back

move forward in times
of need 
i know
too late i cant replace it
feel my brain burning and breaking 

guiding myself right to destruction
so when i freeze just let me fall
to my grave 
where i bathe 
all my memories 
black hole mind i swear
not even light can escape me

imma low life 
i got no light 
battle scars on my waist
but it was such a waste 
what am i fighting for

move forward in times
of need 
i know
too late i cant replace it
feel my brain burning and breaking

- backyard beetle 2023

backyard beetle - too late (prod. immortal)

Wrote this about my cancellation, and the rut I've been in because of so. Love you guys <3

I keep on wishing for someone,
I'm so sick of feeling like no one.
And you do not know who you've become;
At least now I'm working on who I am.

I’m Human, Wish I Wasn’t.

backyard beetle - blame myself (prod. immortal)

Released by: 333 Collective
Artists: popularreject, Cap.Kyle & HeyLee Manzeron
Produced by: Nkno & popularreject
Mixed by: popularreject, Cap.Kyle & HeyLee Manzeron
Mastered by: popularreject
Cover Art by: popularreject

Fee Fie Fum (w/ popularreject, Cap.Kyle & HeyLee Manzeron) [Prod. Nkno & popularreject]

Love you jxsie <3
Other platforms: linktr.ee/KianoMusic
Instagram: www.instagram.com/kiano.fernandes/

lyrics:
Now I see the tears in your eyes
Only live one life
Only get one try
Thank God that you're alive

But your life's cut short
Cuddle in your arms when we're sittin' on a porch
Cancer in the chest, you've been bleedin' out slowly
Now I listen to your heart more closely

Da da
It's such a beautiful sound
It's the sound of your heart as it beats and it pounds
Like da da
Such a beautiful soul
Yeah, I wished that you'd stay so that we could grow old

Da da I'm just happy that your heart beats
Da da I just gotta let your heart speak
Da da yeah, I love when it sings like
Da da da da dowww

Da da
It's such a beautiful sound
It's the sound of your life as it flows all around
Like da da
Yeah, I'm happy that you're here with me
Lay in the shade of the trees in the ground

Let's live our life in a year
Do the kind of things that you dreamed of
Picture this
Getting married by the sea love
Feel the warmth of a
Spring season

But we never saw it happen
Lay my head upon your casket
We could live our lives
Like we never lived before

And I start to cry
I just can't move on saw my life in your eyes
Now you're living in the sky
Never wanna say goodbye

But I said it
Just three simple words that broke my heart
But I said it
And lemme say it again like
I
Love
You

Da da

Echoing Heartbeat <3 (jxsie beats)

tell me to fall and i will

satellites, blow up lights in the sky 
i see them, all outside my window in the night
im making lots of racks, working grave sites, i dont mind
the fear of fuckin dying churns my stomach but i kina like it

uh, saying goodnight
walking out the door, in the middle of the night
yeah im working for the life i wanna live, dont you call me such a prick
im doing all this shit for me and you, stop throwing all these fits

go put on ur pj's and get some fuckin rest now
i dont have the time for this
*nah*
i got things to do
so dont get me in a mood
staring at the moon
think of me and you

why you always fuckin horny, want a guy to just consume you
baby are you with me, or you gone to someone new?
think about the days, where it was just me and you
looking at the stars, in the distance, never knew

that it'd end like this
uh
watching where i step 
uh
you made such a mess
uh
perkys in ur pants
uh
but you dont wear no pants
no
gotta find a pencil
erase, all the things, and the memoires we been through

satellites, blow up lights in the sky 
i see them, all outside my window in the night
im making lots of racks, working grave sites, i dont mind
the fear of fuckin dying churns my stomach but i kina like it

uh, saying goodnight
walking out the door, in the middle of the night
yeah im working for the life i wanna live, dont you call me such a prick
im doing all this shit for me and you, stop throwing all these fits

its a danger zone
stepping in this shit with someone else
waking up
in the morning, im all by myself

tryna feed myself
but i got so much to do, i cant do anything else

open up ur mind to something new
channel that energy to things you love to do
i got nothing else to do, so ima work until im blue
turn the process into cash flow, with everything consumed

i dont wanna die all alone in this bedroom
i wont be forever broke, ill make it work and find myself
i wont be discouraged, im already there, and fix my health
ima be the better man ive wanted for my life instill

all my knowledge
in my pocket
keep it locked in
i wont stop this
full my pockets
to fill my stomach
i dont wanna suffer i have never liked this

churns (prod. taylor morgan)

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