Midnight Thoughts

The Upload

gbc III

cut my skin on angel wings

everyone leaves anyways w/ safehold (prod. tothegood)

black roses [prod. lil soda boi]

bad person [prod. lil soda boi]

produced by F4iRY

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3sg1aqLsJU

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gfx by @imtarnished

lyrics

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i been takin too many benzos
& i been drinkin way way too much
will all these drugs be my downfall
will i die feeling numb

i cannot take it
feel like im racing to my death
this aint no fake shit
this is my life & its such a mess
filled w/ dread & the constant stress
it eats me alive
i lay in my bed i cant help by cry
is it all in my head, i think its my time
& i gotta let go

i tried to figure it out
by nightfall, im bleeding out
on the floor
close the door
what more could u want
no i dont wanna talk anymore

pushing away everything that i love
if i keep this up
i’ll be gone forever
please stay away from me
i’ve had enough
i’m too far gone
& i’ll be lost forever

my life is a dark abyss 
i just want out of it
my mind keeps wandering 

i became everything i hated
what a shame
i cnt take it

produced by F4iRY

i've become everything i hate [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION/BIO]

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🇸​🇭​🇴​🇼​ 🇱​🇴​🇻​🇪​ 🇹​🇴​ @remghost

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god dammit, im so torn like cant you tell
didnt mean to fall in luv needa break the spell :(
cant trust my feelings when they just bring me hell
even through all my faults, i hope your doin well ♥
im lost what am i seeing?
all the signs like whats the meaning
walk between the lines of this bitter sweetness
luv n pain like whats the difference

your warm arms wit the night sky,
nothing better as time goes byyy༄
blurred out by your screamin cry,
another damn thing i didnt do right
im sorry! what else can i say,
im trying my best please give me some space!
im sorry! and i dont wanna lose us, but
maybe its best if we lost our trust

god dammit, im so torn like cant you tell
didnt mean to fall in luv needa break the spell :(
cant trust my feelings when they just bring me hell
even through all my faults, i hope your doin well ♥
im lost what am i seeing?
all the signs like whats the meaning
walk between the lines of this bitter sweetness
luv n pain like whats the difference

ℴℴℴℴℴℴ, whats the difference?
ℴℴℴℴℴℴℴ, i dont see it!

god dammit, im so torn like cant you tell
didnt mean to fall in luv needa break the spell :(
cant trust my feelings when they just bring me hell
even through all my faults, i hope your doin well ♥
im lost what am i seeing?
all the signs like whats the meaning
walk between the lines of this bitter sweetness
luv n pain like whats the difference

whats the difference x3
will you show me then?
whats the difference x2
no more questions, dont wanna feel again..

mix/master by @ddeadroses

stream nowღ

bitter sweetness (prod. by remghost)

Produced by caspr

Lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N4FMglxuSSQ

I SEE A BRIGHT LIGHT AND MY STARS ARE NOW ALIGNED

Lyrics:

[Pre-Chorus]
i see a bright light and my stars are now aligned
and i will be alright if you give me some more time
would you cry, if i take my life tonight
i can't take the pain, even if i fucking try

[Chorus]
starring at the sky all the time 
thinking i was not enough
when did life become so tough 

all i see signs in my mind
laying in my fucking bed 
wishing i was fucking dead

i'm walking home alone and i'm watching all the cars go
looking out my window thinking of my scars tho
i'm a loverboi not your fucking toy
but i'm playing all your games that you want me to enjoy

[Bridge]
that you want me to enjoy

i see a bright light and my stars are now aligned
and i will be alright if you give me some more time
would you cry, if i take my life tonight
i can't take the pain, even if i fucking try

[Pre-Chorus]
i see a bright light and my stars are now aligned
and i will be alright if you give me some more time
would you cry, if i take my life tonight
i can't take the pain, even if i fucking try

[Chorus]
starring at the sky all the time 
thinking i was not enough
when did life become so tough 

all i see signs in my mind
laying in my fucking bed 
wishing i was fucking dead

i'm walking home alone and i'm watching all the cars go
looking out my window thinking of my scars tho
i'm a loverboi not your fucking toy
but i'm playing all your games that you want me to enjoy

Biteki びてき

not enough (brighter light pt.2) (prod. caspr)

master: @trechorboy

lyrics:
so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

took you off my lock screen yesterday
said you'd never leave and now you've gone away
and after all this time, still don't know what to say
don't know how much longer i'll keep running away
it's getting harder to sleep now
wake up in a sweat i still see you in my dreams now
don't know how to feel now
cause i thought you'd be right here and now you're not around

so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

i keep on staring at photos (prod. 2001)

lyrics
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its like ur speaking in tongues
& it makes me wanna cut mine out
& never say a word again
cus every word
tht comes outta my mouth
its always the wrong time
its always the wrong time with u

yea i think im done with u
ur such nightmare
tell me what happened to u
we used to be closer
u been so distant
so different 
what the fuck happened to

i know we won’t fix this
things keep getting worse
time keeps moving faster
than i can
i wish things were different
u say im the worst
the next time u see me
ill b under the dirt

produced by RIT

speaking in tongues [prod. RIT]

Produced by ʎpoqou. Soundcloud.com/anobodyreally
Lyrics n vocals by Angelsik <33

Hush (Prod. by ʎpoqou)

Suicide

its been getting warmer but i haven't seen the sun

prod: https://soundcloud.com/caspr
master/vocal chops: https://soundcloud.com/trechorboy 

lyrics:
and it's the same things
that keep me awake at night
it's harder to sleep when i 
see what's lost in my mind
(x2)
i don't wanna sleep cause i don't wanna wake up
(x4)
i've been feeling out of place here
i swear i'd give up everything to get my head clear
i'm losing everyone i hold near
and i feel like i'm falling all i wanna hear
is your voice
i've been calling out to you
can you hear me
i don't wanna sleep cause i don't wanna wake up
its been getting warmer but i haven't seen the sun
bouta hit the road for some shows ima kick it in the backseat
i've been doing well i hope you're proud of me

the same things (prod. caspr)

mixed, mastered & produced by @scapegoat
mixed by @lilskeleskrrt


i struggle with goodbyes 
my heads sinking down in your lies but
i'll make it out alive

why do i act like this 
i'll feel bad for myself for a bit
i know i won't be missed

skele:

i'll make it out alive 
i still think about when u told me goodbye
it hurt so bad thought i might die 
i'll dream about you tonight 

i remember when u were telling me forever 
then we fell apart i miss ur touch
i swore i'd give u whatever u wanted

i'm still here 
all alone 
wish u were the one blowing up my phone 
but it's cool
i miss u 

i struggle with goodbyes 
my heads sinking down in your lies but
i'll make it out alive

why do i act like this 
i'll feel bad for myself for a bit
i know i won't be missed

if you need a friend pt. 2 w/ skele

art by https://twitter.com/Xose_Xerox  :)
prod -
@hellb3nt
mix -
@bloodworth99

flee the scene (prod. hellb3nt)

bakeract