working on myself

Mix the Xan

Siadeev - FARDA MIAM JAT

Artwork : Arsham Behfar
Model : Ilean
Label: DW Worldwide

YouTube (Music Video):
https://youtu.be/SvncVl-iszM?si=ucrUgdeh9lbg_L9K
Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/0ShJzNYy79BbcVsLs9USwg?si=S8qHlR6jSLWZqQyc6M980g
Apple Music:
https://music.apple.com/us/song/farda-miam-jat/1852193411


Lyrics:

فردا میات جات
بچ واسه خودم باش
انقدر دارم ذوق
شبا نمیادش به این چشام خواب
بازه واست last seen
خوب شد رفتش که اون قبلی
بده عکس لختی 
بچ چشام بشه قلبی

اصن مچ میکنم hello kitty بات
ماچ میکنم بشه خوب روز کیریات
خسته نمیشم از جیجیات
بچ میدونی واسه خودمه نینیات

زده قلبم واست هالتر
حتی گوش میدم باهات سعید پانتر
بچ اگه بشم تنها
خونه ت میشه haunted


فردا میات جات
بچ واسه خودم باش
انقدر دارم ذوق
شبا نمیادش به این چشام خواب
بازه واست last seen
خوب شد رفتش که اون قبلی
بده عکس لختی 
بچ چشام بشه قلبی

Exclusively available from DW Worldwide

FARDA MIAM JAT

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we've both lost ourselves

lowkey this song smacks so go crazy to my best song ever enjoyyy

I Cannot Live Without You w/ throb x˚｡ ⋆✫rarecandy(prod. Blade901)

prod. @irby314

lyrics:
nowadays everything just seems to hurt me
feeling like life as a whole has done me dirty
not getting love from anybody
yelling all my thoughts and feelings straight into the void
I want a connection that's everlasting
people only care about me in passing
now I'm sitting all alone wondering if I did something to cause things to be this way
broke friends keep dreaming about what they could be
while rich friends don't seem as happy as they should be
I can't find any inspiration
my apathy strangles me
it's getting too hard to breathe 
I'm constantly getting upset about shit
something will bother me, I'll forget about it
then still feel upset
even though I don't remember what it was that made me feel that way
surrounded by all this stupid immaturity 
going online, seeing dudes pushing 30
still posting on facebook about metalcore bands they listened to back in 2008
seems like all of my friends who make music are glowing
I'm lagging behind
they never send me opens
I feel like a failed artist 
but I guess making music's just a dumb childish hobby anyway
I've taken too many blows that weren't softened
and been used as a punching bag way too often
by people who notice things in me that they hate about themselves
dumping their shame onto me
I do it too, just not to people's faces 
but behind their backs because that way's the safest
most of my hatred stays hidden
just lurking in the shadows where no one can fully see
my life is the worst that its been and I hate it
but every single time I try to escape it
I just end up reverting back to my old ways
it seems like people rarely actually change
I'll only cheer up to ultimately feel sad
a drug binge right after getting out of rehab
all of those addicts are so far gone
I don't have hope for anybody much less myself
I regret not having a life that's fulfilling
like going to work in a government building 
saving money to buy a house
with a backyard to unwind in at the end of the day
spend my weekends hanging out at a cottage
reminiscing with old friends about college
instead I'm here by myself feeling embarrassed 
with nowhere to be and nothing to say

Stream on Spotify

government building (prod. irby)

mixed and mastered by https://soundcloud.com/davidentendu
produced by https://soundcloud.com/blvkstarboi
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I wanna get away from all these people
Wanna find myself alone with the trees
Stop trying to force me into something like you
Your mind can barely comprehend what’s not seen

So busy judging me, her and everyone
Think you’re better, you’re just bitter over someone
Act special, mistake you for almost anyone
You’re so fake, all you say will never have a sum

Living your life stuck in all these screens
Never really fit into their scene
I get so tired of their shit, take my life from me
Better off dead, it’s better in my head
Where I can get away and pretend I don’t exist
So far it’s better than this

I wanna get away from all these people
Wanna find myself alone with the trees
Stop trying to force me into something like you
Your mind can barely comprehend what’s not seen

unseen (prod. blvk s t a r)

Fleeing Reality

Fleeing Reality w/Carbxn Based

Sorry i bin so fucking toxic i really hate this hole fucking world and wish every thing will just end 
i dont trust my self or any one els 
no matter what any one says i dont know if they really mean it 
fuck fuck fuck i hate this stupid fucking life fuck this shit

Wind Down

prod. https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
cover art: https://www.instagram.com/marnbyy/?hl=en
sample: Toyko/2017 [JR station]

lyrics: 

did I break my brain I keep running away 
mistakes I've made I'll admit all the same
the way I play got you geekin again 
watch anime when it pours with rain

cards on the table, baby be my angel
I ain't very stable, baby be my pain pill
ice on me glacial, the chemicals enable 
for your love I am grateful, the dose hits me fatal 

ever so graceful, never been hateful
choke me with the cable, hold me till I lay still
would you take me back to april, you can make the aches dull
I can pay its paypal I'm the same I stay still chill

yeah I broke my wrist girl, we ain't meant for this world
we were drinking liquor, I wanted to kiss ya 
both over thinkers, so are all my listeners 
how could I resist her, sedatives and mixtures

i'll paint the pretty the picture till my fuckin neck hurts
adamant I met her take her to the restaurant 
I wana fuckin stay strong, baby fill my lungs 
where did we go wrong, therapy and love songs

cards on the table, baby be my angel
I ain't very stable, baby be my pain pill
ice on me glacial, the chemicals enable 
for your love I am grateful, the dose hits me fatal 

ever so graceful, never been hateful
choke me with the cable, hold me till I lay still
would you take me back to april, you can make the aches dull
I can pay its paypal I'm the same I stay still chill

we've both lost ourselves

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