hardest song since gay drill dropped 🗣🗣🗣

produced by kenkamon (me)

enjoy, and thank you ♡

lyrics: 
high as the empire state
afraid where I go out of frustration
guess I'll go tear out
someone somewhere 

i lost all until
i doubt myself
fear the sunlight
go somewhere
tell them to go away
until I live alone
fear made me run but
i'll learn later on

lot of people think they know what's next for me
lot of people think they know what's best for me
lot of people think they know that's the best of me
pain or drugs I don't need therapy
pray tell when you have notes on everything
question all doors thats a step for me
spaced out exposes everything 

bridge, burns it all up in my mental
shit won't just go away
questioning all What's the point?
pestering all what's the point of view?
but I stayed some time ago
i should've question about what you know
less time I talk I should go home and sulk
write down her notes
and I check on my phone
ain't no one home 

but I knock another day out
shoulda gone home but I won't do it twice
i want to see me go into another light
until I know there's another side
i know what to do but no description 
fear the store I don't need prescriptions
keep my face and keep my Discretion
fear grows in offered aggression


if I'm coming back here 
just cut off my ears
ignoring again
i don't need to explain 
just to let go of friends
but they don't want to hear
ignoring what I said
i will never win
see the toll I hold
when it's not my plan
yes, I know descent
and I don't need to explain
sipping down my friends
just to slow me again
ignore my fate
and I'll never win
i thought I made my way back here 
it's the shit I said last year
and for what, to hold top here
and don't leave me to die here
spend too much time here
seems like you lurk in my dreams when I left you
see my plans didn't work out
even though I was free
once you said it
pissed off it didn't work out guess I shouldn't know once you planned it 


High as the empire state state st- st- st- sta-

Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now 
bend, break all sound

(you don't understand you don't know how it feels, truth is we really do know how it feels
maybe we don't experience the same thing, but down to the basics, to the rotten core, there is something that we share and to not allow us to get that chance can distort so many)

can't fuck up

produced by me (dawsin)
guitars by (michael warren)

I hope to take you on a trip with my pain ;l

lyrics ♡:
oh my god- 
im not enough
please-
leave me alone
save me
"dawsin"-
JUST A BLUFF
i cant do this anymore man-
god it hurts
"dawsin"-
ROUGH
ITS KILLING ME- 
"dawsin"- 
FROM THE INSIDE
YOU DONT GIVE A FUCK
"dawsin"-

oh no i know shes a narcissist
I know now that she cannot resist
me and my peakest form
its the calm 'fore the biggest storm

i would write a love letter but its not enough
cause I would know cause everytime she talks its just a bluff 
so dont compare our lives like you always had it rough
but when i tell you that you just say you dont give a fuck

I woke up and im ready tea-r-r shit down
your the only one that i want around
and no i am never seen
what do you want that's best for me?

I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY BRO BUT YOU NEVER EVEN SHOWED UP
NEVER THOUGHT YOU COULD BE A PRICK THATS ALSO STUCK UP
I THINK YOUR RIGHT WHEN YOU SAID THAT YOU WERE A FUCK UP
ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT I GOT THE SHIT SIDE OF LUCK

*laugh*
I
AM
ATOMIC

IM RUNNING OUTTA TIME NOTHING ABOUT THIS IS FEAR
I WILL SHOW YOU WHAT IS NOTHING I WILL SHOW YOU THE DESPAIR
AND WHILE YOU SIT THERE AND CRY ILL MAKE A KNOT IN MY HAIR
SO YOU FEEL PITY WHEN IM GASPING FOR THE AIR

despair

bisexual drill

prod. me 
i like this song but i'm putting it here anyways so enjoy ♡

dedication

prod by me
mixed and mastered by me
written and performed by me
cover pic by @nisshokuheart

enjoy :) <3

|lyrics|
hey
got a minute?
need to talk
relieve my chest
burning passions
in my heart
they need a rest
awful people
telling me that i'm a mess
i'm trying my hardest
but i need a rest

my mask 
all the lies
all the pain inside
it's coming out
take a peek
oh behold the sight
hold my breath
i am drowning
but it feels so nice
i'm at peace
i don't want to go back to my life

oh got a minute
need to talk
i'm feeling bad
idk what's up
loose promises
i broke them all
losing friends
i blame them all

got a minute
need to talk
i'm feeling bad
idk what's up
loose promises
i broke them all
losing friends
i blame them all

all the time
i feel upset
i am a wreck
oh i am a mess

but what do i do
what do i do
where do i go
where do i go
who am i now
who am i now
where do i go
where do i go

what do i dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo   ooooooooooooooo o ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo   ooooooooooooooo o ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

what do i do

track 3/3 :)
produced by mix
enjoy <3

lyrics:

ohh i'm sorry, ohh I'm sorry

i cant look at you right now
i might fuck up your life too
i cant look at you right now
i might fuck up your life too
my mind is cycling through emotions
would it be better just to lay in bed?

and ohhh im ruinin everything around me 
ohh will you stay with me?
these mistakes, will push you away 
ohh im sorry

im sorry, im sorry i dropped you im sorry
i dont deserve you and im sorry, im sorry im sorry im sorry
man i doubt me, im doubting myself every single day
making mistakes so i push you away, push you away p-push you away
but im trying, im trying to fix but it just wont stay
trust me i fuckin hate being this way, being this way b-being this way

to everyone im sorry, i dont want you to think about me 
anymore, anymore, anymore
to everyone im trying i dont you have to see me leave 
again, might just leave again, this time forever

im sorry do you want me dead?
im sorry i have to go now
ohh im sorry, ohh im sorry


no one needs me anymore, why?
why? no why? no

the things that i say are not for a fight
i hope you know that i really tried
i always feel like im repeating myself
in what i say and inside this hell
mood swings are controlling my life
not an excuse i just need advice
and i really hope that ill be okay
out with the old and im starting today

im starting today, im starting today
im starting today, im starting today
im starting today, im starting today
im starting today, im starting today

of course i know i can change
know i can change,man i know i can change
im stuck inside this cage, man i stuck inside 
deep down im just afraid, man i am just afraid
yea i will take the blame man, i will take the blame
i did this to myself, so i will take the blame
its time for me to change, man its time for me to change
its time for me to change, or i will stay the same

so now ill think about it less
cause its stuck up in my head
all the things that have been said
all the times i should been dead

i don't wanna stay the same
should i wanna stay the same?
oh such a shame
won't go back from where i came


 ohh im sorry, ohh im sorry

thank you <3

i'm sorry

i love my boys fr @auburnleavesfall @notkrvys

harming w/ auburnleavesfall + krvys [prod. tores x warheart]

prod me (dawsin) :o


lyrics :

(i love you)
(im just calling to say i, its me)
(do you really think you can handle this?)

@dawsin :
oh gosh it seems that i have fall again
she just looks so cute with her black cardigan
and i told her that we both should be celibate
but she don't listen she's a whore and that's the end of it

it's been years since i left my home, yea its complicated
my friends all left me behind, it all seems correlated
HUMILATED, THATS HOW I FEEL ON A DAILY BASIS
IM TRYNA GRASP MY LIFE BACK BUT IT ALL SEEMED TO FADED

(if i stay quiet, it'll be okay)

@pneuma :
why am i still stuck on every little single thing u do?
girl you’re such a narcissist that everybody sees thru
everybody sees thru
you, you
no i do not wanna talk im done with all ur petty lies
ounce of stress out of my way it travels down her neck and spine

@dawsin :
if u wouldve text me back then maybe u could be mine
but ill let u decide whether to fuck off or stay in line

im locked in, ready to knock this bitch out
try to put the blame on me with that dirty mouth
you dont know what ive been thru
it shows u have an issue

(your gd right, i am the one who knocks)
(go)

take away my pain, cause i dont wanna live no more 
(hush)
take away, every single thing i ever owned

@pneuma :
gotta isolate swear im getting sick of it
lookin in ur eyes all i see’s a petty bitch
huh
never thought that it would have to come to this
just reflect and look at all the wrongs u did

@dawsin :
try to put the blame on me with that dirty mouth
you dont know what ive been thru
it shows u have an issue

reflect w/ pneuma

produced by @nevrfall
enjoy :)

https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/2sij40c2NkA39z7wJKSn1y?si=b8b611cd336647ce

lyrics:
Skin is tinted white
Don't go out till its night
I hate seeing all these faces so i wait until it's time
Am i a psycho?
Think i am right
I feel ghosted everytime
Don't fit in cause they don't like me
Swear that's the reason why i am hiding

What a time to be alive
You didn't want me but you cried
Your switching between sides

Skin is tinted white
Don't go out till its night
I hate seeing all these faces so i wait until it's time
I am losing my damn mind
I've been ghostin since this time
Don't feel save thats why i lie
Swear thats the reason why i am frightened

What a time to be alive
You didn't want me but you cried
Your switching between sides
Girl come here i'll hold you tight
THAT'S WHAT I WANT, I KNOW
THAT'S NOT WHAT YOU WANT AT ALL
YOU DON'T LOVE ME GIRL I KNOW
CAN YOU KEEP A SECRET YOU'RE MY HOME

tinted white (p. nevrfall)

produced by melon

waking up in the morning know you got overwhelmed
the words keep coming out, wish i know what i could say
being patient with you, guess some time will help
sorry im out of pocket, sometimes i cant hold back

hope you know (i dont wanna make you feel this way)
yeah, sometimes i can be really selfish, im sorry
hope you know (maybe you the one for i would stay)
yeah, without you i dont have any purpose, im worried

see in your eyes, the weight upon, upon your shoulders
the burden you hide, i stumble my words, then tell you im sorry
im overly cautious, when we´re not talking, i overthink shit
yeah, i trust you, tho sometimes it gets hard to think clear
with you, away
disappear
going nowhere
(going no where)

hope you know (i dont wanna make you feel this way)
yeah, sometimes i can be really selfish, im sorry
hope you know (maybe you the one for i would stay)
yeah, without you i dont have any purpose, im worried

everyone reminds me of you, at times
i think i lost my mind, so goes day by night
making it last, i dont wanna just remember this
cant leave you again, dont want you to be my memory
my thoughts fly round n round like the bees right here
yeah you are out of my town, while i dont know where to be

hope you know (i dont wanna make you feel this way)
yeah, sometimes i can be really selfish, im sorry
hope you know (maybe you the one for i would stay)
yeah, without you i dont have any purpose, im worried

patient

Prod by me

(lyrics <3)
8 legs
im cold
haired back
im shocked
venom
in touch
where do i start

where do i get started started
where do i get started started 
where do i get started started
where do i get started started

poison making it hard to walk
i dont feel good i feel sorry
i cant feel my inside
do you feel alive
my eyes are red
my tears are black
my spit is ink and gold
my sweat is growing mold

oh
oh-ah

poison making it hard to walk
i dont feel good i feel sorry
i cant feel my inside
do you feel alive
my eyes are red
my tears are black
my spit is ink and gold
my sweat is growing mold

poison making it hard to walk
i dont feel good i feel sorry
i cant feel my inside
do you feel alive
my eyes are red
my tears are black
my spit is ink and gold
my sweat is growing mold

the hourglass
has made me fall
ive reached down
spinning views of my end
where do i go

bisexual drill

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