ingestion

prod: shade08
lyrics:
i see something else
i see something else entirely
i'm tryna stay sane, but i swear my mind tryna fight me
it's fucking up my life and the people that around me
but imma fight it back like a DIY lobotomy

A FUCKING IDIOT
WALK AROUND THE WORLD LIKE YOU'RE STUPID!
my life is alone and i'm the permanent new kid
i'm new bis (business), moving , open for some observation
if i look in your direction better know that i am-
GRACING YOU!
BLESSING YOU!
like a god in the sky, i'm a god in disguise
heh, jk
that's just a "JOKE" i play
[L.M.A.O.]

ive been pulling out my own hair, again x7
ive been pulling out my o-o-o-o-o

tell me a story that i haven't told you
please, think for yourself 'fore i fucking control you
ive done so much wrong don't think i can go back
(ᵖᴼˢᵀᵉᴰ ᵂᶦᵀʰ ˢʰ⁰⁰ᵀᵉʳˢ, ᵍᴼᵀ ᵍᵁⁿˢ ᵒᴺ ᵐʸ ᴮᵃᶜᵏ)
i'm trying to make sure you never come back
but you keep following me

keep following me
why's that?
i can tell you why....
it's cuz

i see something else
i see something else entirely
i'm tryna stay sane, but i swear my mind tryna fight me
it's fucking up my life and the people that around me
but imma fight it back like a DIY lobotomy

A FUCKING IDIOT
WALK AROUND THE WORLD LIKE YOU'RE STUPID!
my life is alone and i'm the permanent new kid
i'm new bis (business), moving , open for some observation
if i look in your direction better know that i am-
GRACING YOU!
BLESSING YOU!
like a god in the sky, i'm a god in disguise
heh, fuck you!
you are all some peasants that i force to do my bidding

new kid

https://open.spotify.com/album/2cdFbzRu8DDtKc1tW6gC8U
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prod: @siemspark
mixed/mastered: @breakwait
written: @breakwait
inspo: https://soundcloud.com/heylog/healer
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lyrics:
i like to keep track
give it back
why would i
bring my ass back
why would i
ever run it back
you can't even talk to me
while you're loving me
omg i can't believe
why would i give up on me

if you come across
another guy
i'll kill myself
i'll kill myself
i'll hurt myself
i'm not one to be a complainer
a people pleaser, i'm just trying to convey to her
you think im out of pocket now?
just wait till later
internal voice will truly lead freedom

i like to keep track
give it back
why would i
bring my ass back
why would i
ever run it back
you can't even talk to me
while you're loving me
omg i can't believe
why would i give up on me

lurk

https://open.spotify.com/album/2rnm5P6cPV4kvIzaJPOHgH?si=v3kbUFqFQoutB0wWlgdkfw
prod: @daywxtch
guitar sample: skiwyy.wav
mixed/mastered: @daywxcth
written: @daywxtch
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lyrics:
i can't talk to you, i'm too afraid
i'll cover my ears, it's hard to say
"i'm looking for an accomplice, someone to harness, someone to carry the grief for me"
who am i gonna call?
who am i gonna call?
i'm so sick of being harmed
i'm so sick running around, dancing around, looking at frowns
that people give me for being around
someone tell me what i'm living for
tell me why i breathe
if not for me then who

i'm due for the extinction
crazy like patrick bateman
i need light, need a torch
hungry, still needing more
i see your face getting red
i see the blood on your hands
i see your face getting red
i see the blood on your hands

i think i need help
i think i need a spark
if i really held your hand
𝔦 𝔴𝔞𝔫𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔞𝔰𝔨 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔪𝔬𝔯𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰
would you hold on tight? or let it go?

my life prone to extinction
crazy like i was bateman
i need light, need a torch
hungry still needing more
i seen your face get red
i see the blood on your-
ʜᴀɴᴅꜱ
i seen your face get red
i see the blood on your-

i don't know if i can love you
the way that i should
i hate being on my own
i hate being honest with you

i can't talk to you, i'm too afraid
i cover my ears...
it's hard to say
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INSPO:
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/closure
https://soundcloud.com/sleepywater/woodlouse
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thanks for listening & reading <3

robby

prod: @daywxtch
mixed/mastered: @daywxtch
written: @daywxtch
___________________________
lyrics:
i got big bands stuffed into my pants 
so i can leave town
got on me zirconium pants
loose so i can run around in
tbh i could go and take it
maybe fucking sell it
would you buy into it
cus' i'm flying through the roof
and i think i can top it

and i know it's hard you tried to warn me
but i see the sun and it's alarming
if i ever run off you gotta harm me

i can't wait till i pull ina foreign
(if i don't show) know that i'm bored
 shawty so crazy she taking my phone
i hate this party, i wanna go home
(i look crazy) no you don't, you look like that everyday
niggas haven't ever heard me rap
niggas haven't ever heard me say niggas
finger on the trigger
we maybe small rn but we always getting bigger
SWEAR TO GOD THAT'S A FACT
SILENT SOLIDER, IMMA MOVE IN FOR THE ATTACK
YOU'RE A HACK, AND EVERYTHING YOU'VE SAID SHOULD BE REDACTED
dear god, you're attractive
i know i'm undeserving, yeah i know that i can't have this
because i wear my heart on my sleeve, you gon attack it
because i wear my heart on my sleeve, you gon attack this

i'm sure you'd call it karma
i be smoking packs, in the pack, packing that paddywhack and
posted, i don't leave the house so guess that means that i'm
shut in
locked in
lonely till i login

it's a sad life that i surely live in
but imma live it up till i find the pieces
and when i make it work im gonna cap on it
and i don't mean to be such an american
but i need all of that
please, please, PLEASE!
i needa make my dream come a reality
if i don't make it work what else is gon be left for me
a 9-5 job working 120 hours a week i-
(DON'T) really want that
but at the same time, maybe it won't be that bad
i'll just move with class, move with class
flying to my subdivision, life is something i can't live with
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INSPO:
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/maduro
https://soundcloud.com/brokitz/you-better-go
@2hollis
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thanks for listening & reading <3

egotism

(https://open.spotify.com/album/3XJPTSXpVzMBN5FgNUDFrn?si=jHdE2u3sR0e4FX_WN-vJUw)+ bonus song on spotify
prod: @daywtch
mixed/mastered: @daywxtch
written: @daywxtch
___________________________
lyrics:
stop it
asking me where time go
you got me stressing out i can't handle
i've been on my own, i've been rolling stones
i don't got no friends, i rock with my home
arrogant and pitiful but i know you can show me that,
i don't need a hand to hold i know that i can hold me down
the structure of my own head slowly corroding
the elements in my mind slowly eroding

eughh
yea do you feel it now

i tried, i thought i could take it
with a little effort and a bit of patience
i would storm the oasis, leaving dust behind
i'd give you the world and more only for you
ungrateful ass, always get it back
yeah, you always get it your way
i always get it my way

stop it, asking me where time go
the elements in my mind slowly eroding

does it matter at all?
about what i want
if everything shuts down
would i care at all
watch as the clock changes
as i grow into a man

cenotaph

Overgrown
_________________________________
I hope god gonna do me right 
I hope god is on my side 
‘Cus the fickle idea that imma make it up to you now is flawed 
And tryna see past me is brutal 
I don’t wanna feel the hurt or get through it all 
I've been questioning my self-worth and wondering  
if my idols are really the vital 
 
Who am I to reprimand, baby 
Who am I to expect less from you 
From you, from you 
And I know I'm pathetic, I gotta choose my fights 
Reason for feeling? I'm bouta lose my mind 
Give me a reason on why I shouldn’t hide 
I shouldn’t hide 
I shouldn’t hide 

I've been waiting for a long, long time 
I've been waiting for a long time 
I've been waiting for a long, long time 
I've been waiting for a long time 

 
I feel like I could fold 
Leave no impact, no direction 
And feel like I'm a ghost 
I'm tryna make the most of it 
I'm tryna be more affable 
I'm tired of being a pawn to this status quo 
Motherfucker in a trench coat like he sell dope 
I feel you, yeah 
I know you, yeah 
Pick up the pace or stop calling my phone 
Cus I know that you're scared of being alone 
Bath salts on my grown eyes 
It gon help me be millionaire 
Insults I don’t recognize ‘em 
Cus I've gotten so used to the fear 
And I've gotten so used to rejection that it trickles down my shoulder 
I'm so sick of crying man I'm older 
I done put my feelings in a folder 
Baby now I’m a boulder 

And I don’t know how to trust you now (And I don’t know how to go back) 
Could I ever feel your love again?

tiffany

produced/mixed by @daywxtch
written by @daywxtch

_________________
i need to find me, quit tryna find you
i did my due, i did my due diligence
but it couldn't even fix this affliction i've been feeling
i just wanna get fucked and sedated

don't ask me to be here, i can't feel
I CAN'T FEEL!

two am, i stay up
i just wanna feel young

i wake up tryna fuck in the function
can't function without my phone
i don't answer questions, can't handle it
i like to bite my tongue

don't come to me with problems, i won't solve 'em
probably make it worse
pep talking myself, i'm tryna make it out from worse
i'm so tired of running from what i did, but i'm taking it to
the grave

pick it up
i'll pick it up

don't ask me for something, you can teach yourself
i'll be there to help, don't have anything else to do
when the world revolves around you
you'll find a way to me
and baby who's to say that i'm not faking this
the older i get the more it hurts and the more they break me in
wish i could revert, but it's set in stone
in fact it's in the pavement
course it's gotta be the very one i walk one
tired of people thinking that i don't even try hard
tired of people thinking that i don't even know how
agonizing their trivializing is 
to me

find a way

produced by daywxtch

lyrics:
i can't get it
live through sedatives

huffed up all the nitrous to my fucking lungs
oxide helps me believe that we fell in love
closely, holding you closely to my chest
guiding, guiding me closely to my breast
too modest, never catch me showing you up
hold you close you're high importance
coast to coast, overseas
bitch, i stay imported
don't act like your a fan of me
i stay being extorted

i can't get it
live through sedatives 

go ahead and tell me something that i already know
go ahead and tell me something that i already know
go ahead and tell me something that i already know
go ahead and tell me something that i already know

damn

buy :3

produced by daywatch

lyrics:
tired of thinking up bars in my room that don't make sense
sometimes don't compute and i feel like i'm not cut out for this
sometimes
and i remember when they used to come up to me crazy, like
they had no respect for me but, i got ahead
in my own little way, in my own little space
in my head

and most don't even care about the consequence, i'm tryna guide
people like me to the light but only if they want to go
cus' when you fine with your situation, you gon' stay froze
don't matter how many loving people want you to be brave
i don't think you know how long it took too pull me out the grave
took me twelve long years just to figure out i'm hazed
took me four more years for my parents to relate
took me some more overthinking just to clear the slate

oh my god, i'm sick to core
y'know that it's bad when the hatred is decor
i think that i used it as protection
i'm older now and i don't seem to get the message

i guess i hate when everything gets on my nerves and i can't get out
of my head and i get real awkward and i can't get the words out my mouth
i really hate how i talk so i put an impression on my sound
my friends say it's all in my head so i guess that i'm just full of doubt

i guess i hate when everything gets on my nerves and i can't get out
of my head and i get real awkward-
sometimes i wish all four of my friends were packed in my skin
he wishes to be himself but i wish i could be like him

oh, i think i'm done for the night
woah, feeling like i'm soft-locked
beat boys say it's beat block
but spitters say it's writers block
big boy in a corner
big boy in a corner

but i still try

could you sometimes think about us?
sometimes think about love?
cus' i need your company
would you do it for me?
i can't

sometimes think about us
i sometimes think about love and
it feels so dumb to me
i look in the mirror and fantasize about who i wanna be

dumb mic'd up wannabe
i wanna be seen
i wanna be me
i wanna find peace
imma let life do the finding

buy?

softlock

i'll try my hardest.
______
stab me in the back, i ain't talking acupuncture
really hate this headache imma punch me in my frontal lobe
i don't know why i was scared of you we grew up from the same roots and
i guess it's just been a long time

how long i gotta wait for you to realize the time ain't nigh?
do it now or you won't survive!

i don't know why i run away from you
i guess i'm scared of you getting critical
everyday i really try to improve myself, but it doesn't help
no, i keep falling back
and i'm fighting battles that don't need to be fought
but they distract me from thoughts
that only appear in the silence
they remind me of who i am
everyday i really try to improve myself 
but it doesn't help

i guess it's just been a long time!!

how long i gotta wait for you to realize the time ain't nigh?
do it now or you won't survive!

I stare at the knife
bear the ridges down on flesh
catharsis through the red
drown the voices of my dread

I've been waking up late again
It's pathetic, I've regretted how I've waited for months
to act on this hunch, hell, might be years if i overthought it this much
the singes on my skin, they worsen up the longer i stay pissing me off
i will not learn unless something is off
i'm getting tired of hating my phone, i'm getting tired of going on ghost
what if resigning and hanging my coat
could be the thing that stops the boat from tipping
all the times I've broken hearts
sometimes i think i'm just playing my part
sometimes i think i just gotta give it-

(time)
(everything i give...)
(everything i give is time)
(i guess it's just been a long time, since I've seen you)

(thanks @ilysh1ne for the vocal samples :)

buy :0

zippermouth

and it starts all over, all over again.
____________________________________
It's hard trying to right my wrongs
It's almost like you want me to stay here with you
Almost like, It's almost like you love me
I know you
You could never love me
Nah, i could never love me
You think that it's funny when it isn't
You cannot afford to be complacent
But guess it's all fine 'cus i'm holding you, now
Above my head like i always should've
I'm so close, yet so far
No, i wanna cleanse it all, but i'm me

So, my hands get sweaty and i can't speak, only in tongues
I want to be so much more than i am
Oh, but it's hard

How many times am i gonna tell myself that i'm 'gon pick it back up?
How many times am i gonna tell myself that i'm 'gon leave it once i'm done with it
One more time

One breath
One more time
One more time
One last time
One last time

two breaths

i never feel like me.
____________________
I guess everyone's sick of the guise 
Water drips out of my faucet
Bet it's mimicking the way that i lost it
Like it's something i wanted

For the first time in my life i'm being serious
When i'm giving you all of my time don't be oblivious
Poker face boy tell me what you want
'Cause your actions ain't obvious
You lash out at the backtalk when it's copious
Bet you're just looking for the "go ahead"
Well, go ahead!

I can't talk to you (nah, nah)
I refuse to open up, nah, 'cus now i know
Even when i try it's always short-lived, but maybe that's the point
A little bit of love, maybe that's the ploy
I'm training my body to search & destroy
The fond in my pan defines who i am
It's all me

Get off me, fuck soul searching
There isn't a reason why i am me
I am hated and loved equally just like every other human being
Something in me wants to be more
I look around and see that everyone's ascending
Is there something they have that i don't?
Should i even care when i hit a new low?

When i cut my wrist, is it real or just for show?
When i take Prozac, is it real or placebo?
When i drop mid, is it okay 'cus it's from my soul?
And if it's not, did these past three years mean anything at all?

Skin's made of rocks, protecting me
Swear to god when everyone's around the heaven makes a beam
Now they tryna tell me i'm crazy, but i've seen it
I'm the one who hears it when they're whispering
So, talk to me louder
I'm the only person on this earth that really matters right now
I'll face my town and show you why i'm proud

I guess everyone's sick of my guise, god damn
The water drips out my faucet
I bet it's mocking the way that i lost it
Like i wanted this
For the first time in my life i'm being serious
When i'm giving you all of my time don't be delirious
No, i can't talk to you
Every time i get burned it's on me
I'm forgetting everything like how you care for me
And how i love my family, and the one i choose

inauthentic

then let's go to war.
_____________________
I ain't losing this, i don't care what you found
Right now, i'm ten toes down
In my mind a battlefield, put them fists up
All my boys turn to stone, now
Where Medusa?
Put them dukes up, i don't wan't you leaving less you bloodied
I don't see you with nobody, why is that?
Why is that?

Is it cause you stuck to me?
I won't fall for that i'm no longer fifteen
Thinking up a new scheme
We swarm around from the back
I'm not giving you anytime to respond
Swallow your apologies
Even if you mean it you'll be wrong

And when were on the floor bloodied
You would laugh and tell me we're the same one
And you would dish out the same love that i swore i wouldn't give anyone
I still love myself, i still love myself, baby
I just don't know how to show it in the way you want me to, i
And i know it's gonna take time for you, oh
For you to know
That i got my own way, own way, i

TIME OUT

wrong

you want to kill me?
______________________
I'm ready to explode
Collar bomb grips my neck and you hold the go
So, what are you waiting for?
Do you want me to cry my eyes out?
I've seen this coming a mile away, everything you do is explained to me
By a birdie who gets sick by the sound of their name
So, you need me more than anything

You can't cure me, i'm no disease
You can't touch me, but you're feeling me
Can't kill me, i'm no man
I'm poison, right now i'm in your hands

You down it without hesitation
I'll down it without hesitation
One breath is all i need to erase it
I'll prove that you're just my creation

daywatch

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