prod: shade08
lyrics:
i see something else
i see something else entirely
i'm tryna stay sane, but i swear my mind tryna fight me
it's fucking up my life and the people that around me
but imma fight it back like a DIY lobotomy

A FUCKING IDIOT
WALK AROUND THE WORLD LIKE YOU'RE STUPID!
my life is alone and i'm the permanent new kid
i'm new bis (business), moving , open for some observation
if i look in your direction better know that i am-
GRACING YOU!
BLESSING YOU!
like a god in the sky, i'm a god in disguise
heh, jk
that's just a "JOKE" i play
[L.M.A.O.]

ive been pulling out my own hair, again x7
ive been pulling out my o-o-o-o-o

tell me a story that i haven't told you
please, think for yourself 'fore i fucking control you
ive done so much wrong don't think i can go back
(ᵖᴼˢᵀᵉᴰ ᵂᶦᵀʰ ˢʰ⁰⁰ᵀᵉʳˢ, ᵍᴼᵀ ᵍᵁⁿˢ ᵒᴺ ᵐʸ ᴮᵃᶜᵏ)
i'm trying to make sure you never come back
but you keep following me

keep following me
why's that?
i can tell you why....
it's cuz

i see something else
i see something else entirely
i'm tryna stay sane, but i swear my mind tryna fight me
it's fucking up my life and the people that around me
but imma fight it back like a DIY lobotomy

A FUCKING IDIOT
WALK AROUND THE WORLD LIKE YOU'RE STUPID!
my life is alone and i'm the permanent new kid
i'm new bis (business), moving , open for some observation
if i look in your direction better know that i am-
GRACING YOU!
BLESSING YOU!
like a god in the sky, i'm a god in disguise
heh, fuck you!
you are all some peasants that i force to do my bidding

new kid

https://open.spotify.com/album/2cdFbzRu8DDtKc1tW6gC8U
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prod: @siemspark
mixed/mastered: @breakwait
written: @breakwait
inspo: https://soundcloud.com/heylog/healer
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lyrics:
i like to keep track
give it back
why would i
bring my ass back
why would i
ever run it back
you can't even talk to me
while you're loving me
omg i can't believe
why would i give up on me

if you come across
another guy
i'll kill myself
i'll kill myself
i'll hurt myself
i'm not one to be a complainer
a people pleaser, i'm just trying to convey to her
you think im out of pocket now?
just wait till later
internal voice will truly lead freedom

i like to keep track
give it back
why would i
bring my ass back
why would i
ever run it back
you can't even talk to me
while you're loving me
omg i can't believe
why would i give up on me

lurk

https://open.spotify.com/album/2rnm5P6cPV4kvIzaJPOHgH?si=v3kbUFqFQoutB0wWlgdkfw
prod: @daywxtch
guitar sample: skiwyy.wav
mixed/mastered: @daywxcth
written: @daywxtch
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lyrics:
i can't talk to you, i'm too afraid
i'll cover my ears, it's hard to say
"i'm looking for an accomplice, someone to harness, someone to carry the grief for me"
who am i gonna call?
who am i gonna call?
i'm so sick of being harmed
i'm so sick running around, dancing around, looking at frowns
that people give me for being around
someone tell me what i'm living for
tell me why i breathe
if not for me then who

i'm due for the extinction
crazy like patrick bateman
i need light, need a torch
hungry, still needing more
i see your face getting red
i see the blood on your hands
i see your face getting red
i see the blood on your hands

i think i need help
i think i need a spark
if i really held your hand
𝔦 𝔴𝔞𝔫𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔞𝔰𝔨 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔪𝔬𝔯𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰
would you hold on tight? or let it go?

my life prone to extinction
crazy like i was bateman
i need light, need a torch
hungry still needing more
i seen your face get red
i see the blood on your-
ʜᴀɴᴅꜱ
i seen your face get red
i see the blood on your-

i don't know if i can love you
the way that i should
i hate being on my own
i hate being honest with you

i can't talk to you, i'm too afraid
i cover my ears...
it's hard to say
---------------------------------
INSPO:
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/closure
https://soundcloud.com/sleepywater/woodlouse
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thanks for listening & reading <3

robby

prod: @daywxtch
mixed/mastered: @daywxtch
written: @daywxtch
___________________________
lyrics:
i got big bands stuffed into my pants 
so i can leave town
got on me zirconium pants
loose so i can run around in
tbh i could go and take it
maybe fucking sell it
would you buy into it
cus' i'm flying through the roof
and i think i can top it

and i know it's hard you tried to warn me
but i see the sun and it's alarming
if i ever run off you gotta harm me

i can't wait till i pull ina foreign
(if i don't show) know that i'm bored
 shawty so crazy she taking my phone
i hate this party, i wanna go home
(i look crazy) no you don't, you look like that everyday
niggas haven't ever heard me rap
niggas haven't ever heard me say niggas
finger on the trigger
we maybe small rn but we always getting bigger
SWEAR TO GOD THAT'S A FACT
SILENT SOLIDER, IMMA MOVE IN FOR THE ATTACK
YOU'RE A HACK, AND EVERYTHING YOU'VE SAID SHOULD BE REDACTED
dear god, you're attractive
i know i'm undeserving, yeah i know that i can't have this
because i wear my heart on my sleeve, you gon attack it
because i wear my heart on my sleeve, you gon attack this

i'm sure you'd call it karma
i be smoking packs, in the pack, packing that paddywhack and
posted, i don't leave the house so guess that means that i'm
shut in
locked in
lonely till i login

it's a sad life that i surely live in
but imma live it up till i find the pieces
and when i make it work im gonna cap on it
and i don't mean to be such an american
but i need all of that
please, please, PLEASE!
i needa make my dream come a reality
if i don't make it work what else is gon be left for me
a 9-5 job working 120 hours a week i-
(DON'T) really want that
but at the same time, maybe it won't be that bad
i'll just move with class, move with class
flying to my subdivision, life is something i can't live with
---------------------------------
INSPO:
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/maduro
https://soundcloud.com/brokitz/you-better-go
@2hollis
-------------------------------------------------------------------
thanks for listening & reading <3

egotism

(https://open.spotify.com/album/3XJPTSXpVzMBN5FgNUDFrn?si=jHdE2u3sR0e4FX_WN-vJUw)+ bonus song on spotify
prod: @daywtch
mixed/mastered: @daywxtch
written: @daywxtch
___________________________
lyrics:
stop it
asking me where time go
you got me stressing out i can't handle
i've been on my own, i've been rolling stones
i don't got no friends, i rock with my home
arrogant and pitiful but i know you can show me that,
i don't need a hand to hold i know that i can hold me down
the structure of my own head slowly corroding
the elements in my mind slowly eroding

eughh
yea do you feel it now

i tried, i thought i could take it
with a little effort and a bit of patience
i would storm the oasis, leaving dust behind
i'd give you the world and more only for you
ungrateful ass, always get it back
yeah, you always get it your way
i always get it my way

stop it, asking me where time go
the elements in my mind slowly eroding

does it matter at all?
about what i want
if everything shuts down
would i care at all
watch as the clock changes
as i grow into a man

cenotaph

Overgrown
_________________________________
I hope god gonna do me right 
I hope god is on my side 
‘Cus the fickle idea that imma make it up to you now is flawed 
And tryna see past me is brutal 
I don’t wanna feel the hurt or get through it all 
I've been questioning my self-worth and wondering  
if my idols are really the vital 
 
Who am I to reprimand, baby 
Who am I to expect less from you 
From you, from you 
And I know I'm pathetic, I gotta choose my fights 
Reason for feeling? I'm bouta lose my mind 
Give me a reason on why I shouldn’t hide 
I shouldn’t hide 
I shouldn’t hide 

I've been waiting for a long, long time 
I've been waiting for a long time 
I've been waiting for a long, long time 
I've been waiting for a long time 

 
I feel like I could fold 
Leave no impact, no direction 
And feel like I'm a ghost 
I'm tryna make the most of it 
I'm tryna be more affable 
I'm tired of being a pawn to this status quo 
Motherfucker in a trench coat like he sell dope 
I feel you, yeah 
I know you, yeah 
Pick up the pace or stop calling my phone 
Cus I know that you're scared of being alone 
Bath salts on my grown eyes 
It gon help me be millionaire 
Insults I don’t recognize ‘em 
Cus I've gotten so used to the fear 
And I've gotten so used to rejection that it trickles down my shoulder 
I'm so sick of crying man I'm older 
I done put my feelings in a folder 
Baby now I’m a boulder 

And I don’t know how to trust you now (And I don’t know how to go back) 
Could I ever feel your love again?

tiffany

produced/mixed by @daywxtch
written by @daywxtch

_________________
i need to find me, quit tryna find you
i did my due, i did my due diligence
but it couldn't even fix this affliction i've been feeling
i just wanna get fucked and sedated

don't ask me to be here, i can't feel
I CAN'T FEEL!

two am, i stay up
i just wanna feel young

i wake up tryna fuck in the function
can't function without my phone
i don't answer questions, can't handle it
i like to bite my tongue

don't come to me with problems, i won't solve 'em
probably make it worse
pep talking myself, i'm tryna make it out from worse
i'm so tired of running from what i did, but i'm taking it to
the grave

pick it up
i'll pick it up

don't ask me for something, you can teach yourself
i'll be there to help, don't have anything else to do
when the world revolves around you
you'll find a way to me
and baby who's to say that i'm not faking this
the older i get the more it hurts and the more they break me in
wish i could revert, but it's set in stone
in fact it's in the pavement
course it's gotta be the very one i walk one
tired of people thinking that i don't even try hard
tired of people thinking that i don't even know how
agonizing their trivializing is 
to me

find a way

produced by daywxtch

lyrics:
i can't get it
live through sedatives

huffed up all the nitrous to my fucking lungs
oxide helps me believe that we fell in love
closely, holding you closely to my chest
guiding, guiding me closely to my breast
too modest, never catch me showing you up
hold you close you're high importance
coast to coast, overseas
bitch, i stay imported
don't act like your a fan of me
i stay being extorted

i can't get it
live through sedatives 

go ahead and tell me something that i already know
go ahead and tell me something that i already know
go ahead and tell me something that i already know
go ahead and tell me something that i already know

damn

buy :3

produced by daywatch

lyrics:
tired of thinking up bars in my room that don't make sense
sometimes don't compute and i feel like i'm not cut out for this
sometimes
and i remember when they used to come up to me crazy, like
they had no respect for me but, i got ahead
in my own little way, in my own little space
in my head

and most don't even care about the consequence, i'm tryna guide
people like me to the light but only if they want to go
cus' when you fine with your situation, you gon' stay froze
don't matter how many loving people want you to be brave
i don't think you know how long it took too pull me out the grave
took me twelve long years just to figure out i'm hazed
took me four more years for my parents to relate
took me some more overthinking just to clear the slate

oh my god, i'm sick to core
y'know that it's bad when the hatred is decor
i think that i used it as protection
i'm older now and i don't seem to get the message

i guess i hate when everything gets on my nerves and i can't get out
of my head and i get real awkward and i can't get the words out my mouth
i really hate how i talk so i put an impression on my sound
my friends say it's all in my head so i guess that i'm just full of doubt

i guess i hate when everything gets on my nerves and i can't get out
of my head and i get real awkward-
sometimes i wish all four of my friends were packed in my skin
he wishes to be himself but i wish i could be like him

oh, i think i'm done for the night
woah, feeling like i'm soft-locked
beat boys say it's beat block
but spitters say it's writers block
big boy in a corner
big boy in a corner

but i still try

could you sometimes think about us?
sometimes think about love?
cus' i need your company
would you do it for me?
i can't

sometimes think about us
i sometimes think about love and
it feels so dumb to me
i look in the mirror and fantasize about who i wanna be

dumb mic'd up wannabe
i wanna be seen
i wanna be me
i wanna find peace
imma let life do the finding

buy?

softlock

i'll try my hardest.
______
stab me in the back, i ain't talking acupuncture
really hate this headache imma punch me in my frontal lobe
i don't know why i was scared of you we grew up from the same roots and
i guess it's just been a long time

how long i gotta wait for you to realize the time ain't nigh?
do it now or you won't survive!

i don't know why i run away from you
i guess i'm scared of you getting critical
everyday i really try to improve myself, but it doesn't help
no, i keep falling back
and i'm fighting battles that don't need to be fought
but they distract me from thoughts
that only appear in the silence
they remind me of who i am
everyday i really try to improve myself 
but it doesn't help

i guess it's just been a long time!!

how long i gotta wait for you to realize the time ain't nigh?
do it now or you won't survive!

I stare at the knife
bear the ridges down on flesh
catharsis through the red
drown the voices of my dread

I've been waking up late again
It's pathetic, I've regretted how I've waited for months
to act on this hunch, hell, might be years if i overthought it this much
the singes on my skin, they worsen up the longer i stay pissing me off
i will not learn unless something is off
i'm getting tired of hating my phone, i'm getting tired of going on ghost
what if resigning and hanging my coat
could be the thing that stops the boat from tipping
all the times I've broken hearts
sometimes i think i'm just playing my part
sometimes i think i just gotta give it-

(time)
(everything i give...)
(everything i give is time)
(i guess it's just been a long time, since I've seen you)

(thanks @ilysh1ne for the vocal samples :)

buy :0

zippermouth

project file breakdown: https://youtu.be/eSwd2ZLMSHA?si=h1SbVUIdfoZ3i4B9

produced/mixed by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson
written by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson

samples used:
https://youtu.be/b-Ruwu4OaZA?si=kM9hNiNo_EGjb79n
https://youtu.be/xJjIZmHHLyU?si=vKqJmXFQ3mn7UgHD
https://youtu.be/13-Wn02ESDo?si=ogytjyfWVMSo_Ro0

lyrics:
[@daywxtch]
you stay in the backseat with your partners
don't know how to respond, this shits all new to me
pose with different faces like an actor
pretty as a bitch, but you're not her
thought it, journaled it, wrote it
in the shower, thought i knew you
rough draft, threw it
what the fuck is new to you?

is it bad that i still get scared with the lights out?
shrink and hide under my pillow until it's bright out
i escape to places that i've never been
sybau (bruh), badge up on my chest
i'm a veteran
better know that i keep it with me
dumb tricks that i keep up my sleeve
why does no one else say "please" but me?
put me behind
it's driving me insane, got no one else to blame
i stay the same, i stay the same

(gay sing moan)

i wish i could lay right next to you
you're not around and in all honesty that really sucks
look past, forget and feel numb
i wish i could be just like you
i'm on my own and in all honesty that really sucks
look past, forget, and feel numb

[@siahhenderson]
heard you wanna leave me in the past tense isnt what i want but i expected it
every shot you take it missed a veteran
lonesome hours in my skin

idk whats happenin brain got clipped
soft lips my coma screw it oh
ik my orders

yeah now you dont care bout what you say to me threw me to the side threw me to the fire she said baby can you prove to me
that im in the right
please dont keep it inside

why am i pleading
head screwed off
traumatic sequence man without a soul
fires burnin all i own

(VETERAN REFRAIN)

[@daywxtch]
i wish i could breathe life into you
i can't communicate, it really sucks
i people please and hope it sums to love
i wish i could meet in the middle with you
you don't respond and in all honesty that really sucks
i look past, forget, and feel numb!

YOU'RE NOT HER.

DIVE OFF.
IF YOU THINK WHAT I HOLD FOR YOU IS WRONG.
I'LL DRIVE OFF, YOU DON'T WANNA SEE ME ANYMORE.

patience, i love more than anyone
(i know that we don't talk)
ain't no erasing, you know more than anyone
(i know that we don't talk)
is it bad that i still get scared with the lights off?!
we're in the center and we don't talk!?
don't take initiative, so it's my fault

repeat repetition, but THERE'S NO DRAW!!!!

i wanna go to places i've never been
displaying wins on my chest like i'm a veteran
i'm saying i want to make them proud.  
_______________________________________________________
ꀤꌗꍏꀤꍏꃅ 41:10 (NIV), "꓄ꃅꂦꀎ ꀸꂦ ꈤꂦ꓄ ꎇꍟꍏꋪ, ꎇꂦꋪ ꀤ ꍏꂵ ꅏꀤ꓄ꃅ ꌩꂦꀎ; ꌃꍟ ꈤꂦ꓄ ꀸꀤꌗꂵꍏꌩꍟꀸ, ꎇꂦꋪ ꀤ ꍏꂵ ꌩꂦꀎꋪ ꁅꂦꀸ;
 ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꌗ꓄ꋪꍟꈤꁅ꓄ꃅꍟꈤ ꌩꂦꀎ, ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꃅꍟ꒒ꉣ ꌩꂦꀎ, ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꀎꉣꃅꂦ꒒ꀸ ꌩꂦꀎ ꅏꀤ꓄ꃅ ꂵꌩ ꋪꀤꁅꃅ꓄ꍟꂦꀎꌗ ꋪꀤꁅꃅ꓄ ꃅꍏꈤꀸ."

veteran

produced/mixed by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson
written by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson

samples used:
https://youtu.be/mdZ8wtsSvwI?si=t__x6argNPE23dwL
youtu.be/13-Wn02ESDo?si=ogytjyfWVMSo_Ro0 (pretty much my tag now lol)
(+some audio clips of me and my friends)

lyrics:
[@daywxtch]
you 'gon have to speak up to get away
grip onto a speaker to blow my brain
you don't have to try hard if it's art
everything i make i wanna share 'til it's ours
post it on the cloud 'til i know who i are

i want, i want you now
you know, you know you're proud

i want, i want you now
you know, you know you're proud (OH MY GODD, OH MY GAHHHHH)

the words should've stayed in your mouth
it's fine, cus i don't leave em round
you got me screaming in my car
got a new way to cope with my emotions
what you said stuck in my head like i BOUNCED it
it's to the point where i barely think about it
they just find a way to sneak in between momments
you say everything that come outta my head is SHIT, who would've thought i'd be an artist

(always gotta say something 'bout me)

[@siahhenderson]
who would've thought I'd been an artist
cant be the only way to solve this now
the thought showing art 
it haunts me
I'm never gonna let it 
put me down
staring at the all does it look back
if i give my all will it come back
I'm not sure if i know the world

breakdown see the numbers
reshape through my blunders
sleepwalking
I'm done talkin
too damn cold at the top of the summit
even if it feels impossible
i could never let it go for you

[@daywtch]
i'm steadfast, quick ask, Q&A
baby, i be bumping your tracks, hearing aid
baby, i feel like a new man off these 808's
i got nothing to demand, i just wanna play
everybody makes art just to entertain
i just wanna make art til it's ours

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