dude, as someone who was there when we were both starting, i am so fucking proud to see how much youve grown

OUT NOW: distrokid.com/hyperfollow/leytonxswazy/im-sorry-that-u-tried

produced by @swazyhq

lyrics:

the blossoms always sprung
locked in ur bedroom in the spring
hide so they won’t find us
cry while i take the bus home

i tried to write it all down
so i could get it all out
i tripped and dropped all of my pages
fly away as i fall down

get back up i don’t know how
the rain on my window sounds so loud
lately i’ve been sleeping to ignore it 
face down in the front yard while it’s pouring 

cause i can’t afford the time that i’m stealing
late night while i’m staring at the ceiling
is it real or just a feeling
can anybody hear me

i never took care of myself 
you saw and you would always try to help
no one tried quite like you did
but i’m not something you can fix

now i see the whole time i was sick
you always stayed right by my side but that’s not a way to live 
i don’t wanna make u cry cause it’s nothing that u did 
i’m just sorry that u tried i was living out a lie

i always hid it all under the surface
i should’ve called it off u don’t deserve this 
but how could i stop us from falling we were perfect 
we couldn’t help but give it all swear we were burning

i’m sorry swear i didn’t try to call u
my finger slipped while i was tryna change the volume 
i know i’m in the wrong, shoulda made it stop but i went too long
now i never wanna hear that shit again, i hate all my songs 

now im back got me thinking of the past what i did wrong
come in last all the chances that i had, call this shit off
got me sad, all the times i let you down got me pissed off
wrote it down, swear i’m gonna drown in the list of

i cant look back, swear i’m doing what i have to do
i lost my track, really thought that things would last with you
hiding when i go out, crying in the bathroom
you don’t ever slow down, life is flying pst you

im sorry that u tried (p. swazy*)

streaming: https://open.spotify.com/track/5SboKCiZaCUGLEyn98l0HM?si=YYvrSQMOTQC_mlSSSEq3jg

prod me

lyrics:
(again)
stuck in the future tense and you're not looking back
i try to look up but my eyes are made of glass
cant even try you fossilized me in the past
wish i could crack
wish i could crack

i dont compare you're holding everything i lack
with one hand open hold it tight behind your back
said it was late so youd prefer it if i crash
again

even if i fall again and break my head
you tell me that it's all the same it wouldnt change
so even if im caught hanging on your wall you would never stop and complain
you tell me that it's all
all
okay
okay

(again)
so ill just waste away stay here looking through glass
i know youll hate it so ill stay here on my back
my company of wilted flowers that you grabbed
you left me here surrounded

came from the ground got my tears all around me
weird coming out it was weird when you found me
fears that i found i dont know im still counting
while froze in the state that you found me

even if i fall again and break my head
you tell me that it's all the same it wouldnt change
so even if im caught hanging on your wall you would never stop and complain
you tell me that it's all
all
okay
okay

fossil

coil dust

coil dust ft. tismo prod. kvrdell

project file breakdown: https://youtu.be/eSwd2ZLMSHA?si=h1SbVUIdfoZ3i4B9

produced/mixed by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson
written by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson

samples used:
https://youtu.be/b-Ruwu4OaZA?si=kM9hNiNo_EGjb79n
https://youtu.be/xJjIZmHHLyU?si=vKqJmXFQ3mn7UgHD
https://youtu.be/13-Wn02ESDo?si=ogytjyfWVMSo_Ro0

lyrics:
[@daywxtch]
you stay in the backseat with your partners
don't know how to respond, this shits all new to me
pose with different faces like an actor
pretty as a bitch, but you're not her
thought it, journaled it, wrote it
in the shower, thought i knew you
rough draft, threw it
what the fuck is new to you?

is it bad that i still get scared with the lights out?
shrink and hide under my pillow until it's bright out
i escape to places that i've never been
sybau (bruh), badge up on my chest
i'm a veteran
better know that i keep it with me
dumb tricks that i keep up my sleeve
why does no one else say "please" but me?
put me behind
it's driving me insane, got no one else to blame
i stay the same, i stay the same

(gay sing moan)

i wish i could lay right next to you
you're not around and in all honesty that really sucks
look past, forget and feel numb
i wish i could be just like you
i'm on my own and in all honesty that really sucks
look past, forget, and feel numb

[@siahhenderson]
heard you wanna leave me in the past tense isnt what i want but i expected it
every shot you take it missed a veteran
lonesome hours in my skin

idk whats happenin brain got clipped
soft lips my coma screw it oh
ik my orders

yeah now you dont care bout what you say to me threw me to the side threw me to the fire she said baby can you prove to me
that im in the right
please dont keep it inside

why am i pleading
head screwed off
traumatic sequence man without a soul
fires burnin all i own

(VETERAN REFRAIN)

[@daywxtch]
i wish i could breathe life into you
i can't communicate, it really sucks
i people please and hope it sums to love
i wish i could meet in the middle with you
you don't respond and in all honesty that really sucks
i look past, forget, and feel numb!

YOU'RE NOT HER.

DIVE OFF.
IF YOU THINK WHAT I HOLD FOR YOU IS WRONG.
I'LL DRIVE OFF, YOU DON'T WANNA SEE ME ANYMORE.

patience, i love more than anyone
(i know that we don't talk)
ain't no erasing, you know more than anyone
(i know that we don't talk)
is it bad that i still get scared with the lights off?!
we're in the center and we don't talk!?
don't take initiative, so it's my fault

repeat repetition, but THERE'S NO DRAW!!!!

i wanna go to places i've never been
displaying wins on my chest like i'm a veteran
i'm saying i want to make them proud.  
_______________________________________________________
ꀤꌗꍏꀤꍏꃅ 41:10 (NIV), "꓄ꃅꂦꀎ ꀸꂦ ꈤꂦ꓄ ꎇꍟꍏꋪ, ꎇꂦꋪ ꀤ ꍏꂵ ꅏꀤ꓄ꃅ ꌩꂦꀎ; ꌃꍟ ꈤꂦ꓄ ꀸꀤꌗꂵꍏꌩꍟꀸ, ꎇꂦꋪ ꀤ ꍏꂵ ꌩꂦꀎꋪ ꁅꂦꀸ;
 ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꌗ꓄ꋪꍟꈤꁅ꓄ꃅꍟꈤ ꌩꂦꀎ, ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꃅꍟ꒒ꉣ ꌩꂦꀎ, ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꀎꉣꃅꂦ꒒ꀸ ꌩꂦꀎ ꅏꀤ꓄ꃅ ꂵꌩ ꋪꀤꁅꃅ꓄ꍟꂦꀎꌗ ꋪꀤꁅꃅ꓄ ꃅꍏꈤꀸ."

veteran

had to start this year off with something different than usual, im hoping to drop every month :] i love you thank you for pressing play

crazy

mixed produced all that by me :p
master/leveling help from july
cover art help from colliding with mars 
(will update links soon)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/you-can-2

lyrics:
I don't know if I'm wasting your time
How can I tell if you feel alright
Go back to the way that it was
And you can find me
And you can
Ah, said you can
Ah, said you can
Mm, aah, said you can

Say that I failed my mission, the blood is still on my hands
And I could try to see from your vision, but don't think I'd understand
I don't wanna waste your time, tell me you get it and it'll all be clear
And if you gotta leave that's fine, I'll be right here (you can)

You can do much better now that I'm not here
And if the words that fall out of my mouth aren't clear
You can ask a thousand times, I promise that the answer's still the same
Cause you can find me

And I can't read the signs but I'd be lying if I said you told me
Cause I need your love (But do I really need it or it's something that I want?)
Now that everything's untethered, do you feel a bit more better than you'd think
Even though it's so far out of reach
In my head I've been so clever, but I know that nothing's ever gonna link

So why don't we let it go (As if it's ever enough, no it's never enough, no it was never enough)
Back to the way that it was
I know it's too late
I just want you to want me
Just pick the time and the place
And maybe we could be okay
I know you wanted me to change, ah, but you can find me

And you can
And you can find, oh you can find, oh you can find me (Ah, so you can)
So you can find, oh you can find, oh you can find me (Ah, said you can)
So you can find, oh you can find, oh you can find (Mm, ah said you can)

You can

everything by me
out on all platforms

(intro)
I’ve made a fool of myself
And still I don’t notice anything else
Fly till the fuel all runs out
Then I’ll glide till I reach over the ground

(chorus)
I’ve been wasting mileage in
Places that you wouldn’t know
I’ve been bout a thousand things
Everything is breaking in the soul
Tell me how everything is
I guess I never got the way it goes
I don’t want anyone’s thanks
I just want you when I get home 

(verse)
Pass it over it’s not like I’m gonna die by this tonight 
When I’m sober I’ll try to feel better about my luck
Then I drag it too much yea
Now the words won’t get off my tongue
Gotta hold you as my crutch, gotta hold you as my-

(bridge)
I feel like I can not stay like this for long
I feel like i can not see straight I’m holding on 
Could you get me out (could you get me out)
Could you get me far and gone
Could you get me out (could you get me out)
Could you get me far out 

(chorus)
I’ve been wasting mileage in
Places that you wouldn’t know
I’ve been bout a thousand things
Everything is breaking in the soul
Tell me how everything is
I guess I never got the way it goes
I don’t want anyone’s thanks
I just want you when I get home

mileage

Arrangement by Zurya Montenegro
Vocals: Zurya Montenegro, Aidan Jewell
Production: Sebastien Suter-Ternynck, Zurya Montenegro
Co-Producer: 33roaa
Additional guitar: Christian Morton
Cello: Hailey Mason
Additional vocals: Old Collin

Lethargic and rowdy
I was over Cece, weather looking cloudy
It was only two degrees, I was doubting
If I'd ever know your name
Ever since I met you, had to know what you were hiding
That's a lot of deep-diving for a below average swimmer
Bless that winter
Never knew what I would want, until I found it
uh, yeah

Where'd you learn to grow eyes like that?
Always seemed a little larger than life
Double up on your size like that? uh yeah 
How you give me butterflies like that
I've always wanted you more than I've liked

Guess I've never been much of a good friend
I'll always need a little bit more
I'll always need a little bit more
a little bit more
I'll always need a little bit more
I'll always need a little bit more
a little bit x 3
I'm not much of a good friend
I'll always need a little bit more
I'll always need a little bit more
a little bit more (I'm not much of a good friend)
I'll always need a little bit more from you 

You say this ain't love
You say this ain't even fair to you
We both know, it's all wrong
Life goes on, and that's that
But i don't wanna go on

I guess I'm just too immature
Treat you like my only one
We don't gotta act in love
I'll be your best friend if that's really what you want
Tell me if it's adding up
Baby have you had enough
Am I making you mad or what?
Do you really wanna-

The burdens that you carry are the weight of the paint on your canvas
Do you not understand this?
They don't see the art in you
In every single part of you
My favorite color your skin
My favorite hue when it's ten
In that low light
For that I risk my whole life, mmm

If I can't think of a tune
I'll sync my heart beat with you
A song that needs no sound

All the grass wanna do
Is chase the sun and the moon
So who am I to mow it down? 

Where'd you learn to grow eyes like that?
Always seemed a little larger than life
Double up on your size like that? oh
How you give me butterflies like that
I've always wanted you more than I've liked
I can't really put a price on that, no
I can't really put a price on
put a price on that
put a price on
put a price on that (put a)
put a price on that, nah (put a price on)
put a price on that, yeah

mm yeah

What's up?
What's good?
Are we still on some fuck shit?
Is it understood?
Without you I can't function
Every rock and nook 
I'm searching for a hunch that there's a chance for us
Is there a chance for us? Oh 
What's up?
What's good?
Are we still on some fuck shit?
Is it understood?
Without you I can't function
Every rock and nook 
I'm searching for a hunch that there's a chance for us
Is there a chance for us? oh

Before I knew what had happened
I signed on that accord
Am I really a bad friend for just wanting a little more?
All these blurred lines
And dots in my eyes, I'm speaking morse
I'm hog-tied
I don't wanna wait for the encore

And baby if you feel boxed up 
I'll build you a brand new porch
The night will never drag on
I keep a shield and a sword
It's so nice
We're all that we got so let's explore
I'm so blind
I think that I'll always love you more

Do you relish the moment we met? 
Are you grateful to have been placed in that segment of time?
Do you wonder how life would have continued on 
Had your eyes not landed on mine?
I go back to that day as my favorite memory
I thank the cosmos for their perfect synchronicity
I ponder every day what it was that made you listen to me
And I remind myself that I am worthy to be seen by you

forever and some change

chowder (prod. me)

lil vault drop in honor of my brother tiedforsilver getting married ❤️

lyrics

i’ll fight this
feeling but i can’t shake it off me
since when did doing this become a need?
fearing that my addictions may lead
to complacency 

i’ll fight this feeling but i can’t shake it off of me
since when did doing this become something that i need
i fear that my addictions may lead to complacency 
my self-destructive habits will become the death of me

if i don’t give them up
my life will end abrupt
so if you gave i fuck 
you would come interrupt 
and save me from corrupt 
thoughts that get me stuck
knee high deep under the fucking mud

i’ve been scared but i got nowhere to run
you think it’s fair when you’re the only one
who’s having fun
i’m fucking done
nothings new underneath the fucking sun

i wish i cared but i don’t and that’s just who i am
i’ll give you what you want to help or make you understand 
that moving forward in this life was never part of my plan

but please tell me that you’ll see me in the morning
you know where i’ll be wasting time bed rotting 
the songs i write are like a pointless fucking story
i know it’s bad but imma hit this till im coughing blood

never knew what is was like to be understood
till i met you now im gone and i wish i would, have
checked on you more often
please don’t be dead or in a fucking coffin yuh

i still remember 
your face that december
grey skies in the winter
cold nights make my hands tremor 

i’ve been getting sick of tryna find out where you went
asking anyone around but answers aren’t that confident 
yelling at myself like i was in a fucking argument 
maybe i look insane but that’s just fucking, that’s just part of it

i’ll never know where you went and maybe that’s okay
i just hope that you are in a better place
i wish you would’ve left hints that you’d come back some day
just know a part of me won’t let your memory fade
i would never let your memory fade

i hope ur in a better place w/ tiedforsilver & ryan kelly

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