we've never been more back than we are right now

this sounds so relaxing on my ears. amazing song. may life flourish for you

had to start this year off with something different than usual, im hoping to drop every month :] i love you thank you for pressing play

crazy

prod @fxriss + @devvn
i said i was gonna drop this on friday but im on vacation so wait till i get home guys

i cannot die
i know its not the time
these people want me bad
i tell them its alright 
i don't see myself anywhere
you're beauty makes it hard to bare
but i think its alright
so please just end my life
twist the dagger in my eyes
shine my body in the light
tell my family i was fine
cuz i don't want them to cry
and my music's criticized
so why do i try
do i need to be alive?
am i running out of time

i cannot see where you want me to be
i'm tryna figure it out
i keep running around
but my heart burns
yeah my heart burns
i cannot stay sober for a day
all good
people laugh in my face and somehow
its a part of me
you watched me bleed
wish you never had to see
but i'm far too gone
so say goodbye
go start your life
ill take the knife
i feel like i was meant to die
oh god my spine
its cracking why
do you not see
say goodbye

goodbye

miss it

prod simon m, patrick o'neill, and me

cold sweat
cold heat
hot hands
my bed
you in your dress
hot death
white teeth
hot mess
hold your breath
i wanna be near you (oh!) 
where you are
who you’re with
where you’ll go 
i don’t know (oh!)
you let me in
i’m along 
aperol (oh!)
I can see you for all
Hit the wall (oh!)
empathy is critical 

I’ll be where you are x3
and baby you can have whatever you like 
Where you are 
I’ll be where you are x2
and baby you can have whatever you like
You sent

get along
you look at me 
look like you know 
so pardon me now, if we don’t
I’m in the side room
in the back of the club for a breather till we get back on
gimme a light
I’ll get you something to roll 
you can’t interfere where you’re broke
hit with the fire
I’ll get you in for the low
And maybe we see how it goes
And I guess, that you’re doing it wrong baby
You’re giving it up like you’re dumb
But that isn’t fun baby 
You’re holding a whip, with your tongue
No pulling a punch baby 
They say that a girl is a gun
You could be the one,maybe 
you could have whatever you like 

anything you like 
just me and you with no delusions
and there, you’re right 
it’s just enough to over hear
in the air tonight 
you feel the crush
you feel the moving
it’s rare tonight 
and baby you can have whatever you like 

I’ll be where you are x3
and baby you can have whatever you like 
Where you are 
I’ll be where you are x2
and baby you can have whatever you like

hot death
cold feet
hot fuss
interest 
don’t act like it’s ridiculous 
it’s just 
the way that you move
and the way that you are
you know I really can’t describe 

I’ll be where you are x3
and baby you can have whatever you like 
Where you are 
I’ll be where you are x2
and baby you can have whatever you like

hotdeath (oh!)

tell me now, im ready 
hands down on my table, ain’t i
biting cold and heavy
critical in body and mind 

no i don’t wanna to follow up
know im letting you down 
while you pass me the cup
i don’t wanna be a follower
no i don’t know you now
i was opening up

now i know i can’t take that back
i watched you leave 
face down
i’m paralyzed 
maybe i’m wrong

heaps_10

you call me impulsive 
Baby don’t i know 
I been here before with you
So please don’t leave me lone 
I call it a blessing
But I don’t really know if that’s for sure
And nobody's perfect 
Baby don’t I know 
I’ll let down my guard for you so
Please don’t treat me wrong 
It’s so ineffective 
You know u do whatever u want 

But you know what it’s like when you love someone 
god forgive me, why I act so dumb 
Now you treating me like i’m no one 
Pardon me, I’m so mistaken 
Now you tell me that I’m all yours
Uncommitted so I close that door 
Move apart of me a little more 
Kill me while my heart is breaking 

A drop in the ocean 
I need some peace of mind
Needing to take some time 
This feelings driving me mental 
It’s easier to love no one 
45 spinning on the track so dumb
I wish I never called you up
I wish I never got shit wrong 
And baby I know that nothing for sure 
But, I wish I didn’t take so long 
Pardon me for feeling resentful 
it’s just not that simple

god bless her, even when it hurts me (prod.KBL)

mixed produced all that by me :p
master/leveling help from july
cover art help from colliding with mars 
(will update links soon)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/you-can-2

lyrics:
I don't know if I'm wasting your time
How can I tell if you feel alright
Go back to the way that it was
And you can find me
And you can
Ah, said you can
Ah, said you can
Mm, aah, said you can

Say that I failed my mission, the blood is still on my hands
And I could try to see from your vision, but don't think I'd understand
I don't wanna waste your time, tell me you get it and it'll all be clear
And if you gotta leave that's fine, I'll be right here (you can)

You can do much better now that I'm not here
And if the words that fall out of my mouth aren't clear
You can ask a thousand times, I promise that the answer's still the same
Cause you can find me

And I can't read the signs but I'd be lying if I said you told me
Cause I need your love (But do I really need it or it's something that I want?)
Now that everything's untethered, do you feel a bit more better than you'd think
Even though it's so far out of reach
In my head I've been so clever, but I know that nothing's ever gonna link

So why don't we let it go (As if it's ever enough, no it's never enough, no it was never enough)
Back to the way that it was
I know it's too late
I just want you to want me
Just pick the time and the place
And maybe we could be okay
I know you wanted me to change, ah, but you can find me

And you can
And you can find, oh you can find, oh you can find me (Ah, so you can)
So you can find, oh you can find, oh you can find me (Ah, said you can)
So you can find, oh you can find, oh you can find (Mm, ah said you can)

You can

last night
i was feeling down
had my homies say they 
love me in surround sound
it was in one ear
out the other
think i made it very clear
i won't bother

if i stick by
i mean if i
i can't lie
you see through it like satellites
though i try
i can't bear see face
can't bear see me
so i'd rather sit inside
if all i am is what i've been
i'd rather not try
just to let you down
down down down down down down

i can tell you're getting tired of me
i think you can see inside of me now
i wish i could see inside of you
i wish you could see this side of me back then
tell me is the time up
call it perfect timing x2

yeah
i don't wanna see another face out here
baby i'm free
and i'm all that you need
under the satellite
i see clear as day
why should i have to try
when i'm as good as dead


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Smoked Like Ribs (prod. lublatt)

Mamnonam Mix Hayedeh

This mixtape is about my personal walk in life, battling sin, overcoming doubts, fear, and anxiety. Embracing change is something that is I always tried to do in my life even if I fell short of the desired outcome. This is my story of what God did in my life in the midst of my storms. Thank you for listening. I pray and hope that there is at least one song here that you can relate to and it brings  you closer to your destiny. Brings you closer to a relationship with God. 

Philippians 1:6 "And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ."

EL SHADDAI

@oldcollin
human resources, music trillionaire

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