from the lost mixtape

artwork by @crclrthots on twitter

gone so long (prod. Taylor Morgan + Brody)

prod https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161
mixed @cpt_sad

all you learned wont help you in the long run
all the times i fucked up on my own
wont teach you what you need to hear
oh my god lets get this clear 
i never wanted to be your hero to see
burn in the ashes of what i became
bite down on my tongue so i wont be one
who fell before the gods
who wouldnt let you pray
without gettin away
from all those sins you committed today
i could be all day
ill take my time when it comes to this

ill take you aside show you what's right I don't mind!
I can tell you what ur doings a waste of time
oh baby lets do this right 
please lets go do this right this time
oh my god lets go
oh my god lets show
the world what we know
yeah lets go lets go!

I always wanted to be the one who did the right thing
but im slowly learning I can never be that
I don't wanna become another stick in the mud
ill let it go to my head
just another way for an honest pay
so I can get away from everything that I thought
I would be the one to become

I never asked for you to believe 
in what I wanted to do
I just wanted you to have faith
that maybe I could pull through 
I started to break started to break
if I cannot give then I will not take
if I can not break I can not break
the bread on my plate then I will not take
I started to break started to break
if I cannot give then I will not take

you always saw the bigger picture
I don't know if ill enjoy the journey there
cause once we pick a place to settle
ill start pulling out all my hair
I can't stay settled down
no I can't stay settled ground
I can't do this by myself 
but something tells me that I will

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retry (prod pekarot)

double back (prod madias)

im not feeling like myself 
unless im in this chair and fucking recording
i dont wanna get out of the house
unless im back out fucking touring
not a thing in this world 
that i find more fuckin important
every single song that i heard by you
is so fucking boring 
baby girl ur body look like a whole new world
and im trynna explore it
all the features bout you 
that something in me cant really ignore man
baby wont you tell me what ur thinking
and ill let you know if i feel the same way
please dont make me guess
you know i hate when i put my feelings on my chest
and you break in with no warrant
why cant you be what i am to you?
just another person i went and fooled
but instead i went and caught so many feelings
i never knew how to process them and let them be open
hurtin you on the inside but now everyone realize 
to get through this day i must pull myself together
with two hands that are broken
yeah im cooling myself down
baby u know id go back to the same route
where i fuckin crashed that whip that i came out
its kinda insane how i dont feel like myself 
unless im on that stage and fucking performing
imma say this right now as my one and only warning
if i dont get my shit together soon imma be 
flooring this whip
off of the edge of that cliff
what did it mean when i told you i loved you
and you said the same to me
then the very next day i never heard a word from you
not even a ring!

im not feeling like myself 
unless im in this chair and fucking recording
i dont wanna get out of the house
unless im back out fucking touring
not a thing in this world 
that i find more fuckin important
every single song that i heard by you
is so fucking boring 

you got no substance
you got no worth
you got no value
you just a curse

nothing more important (prod 30nickk)

im trynna fuck! (prod madias)

My Blood Your Hands (feat. Fantasy Camp)

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pain so potent you shouldnt inhale
words hurt more thats why my body's so frail 
i make it all up on the fly
the show must go on
will you atleast try
how can i put out my real truth
when im always lying to myself
these words im screaming back to you
seem like they come from someone else
not living up to the standard i tried to set
itd be the most honorable thing left
i made my mind up
will you do the same
if i leave right now
who else would u  have to blame
not once in these past five years
have i felt threatened by my peers
no they dont pose threat
i say everything with my chest
i got so much damn confidence
that most of yall wont be here in the end
the answers you seek
you will never get them
the ties you cut
those i will never mend
why cant you face it
no it will never leave
take time to change it
some things were made to bleed
they are the problem to an unsolvable tale
i took one look and i bailed
i tried for myself and failed
ill never be the man you wanted me to be but thats okay
id rather be the man i want to be
oh baby youll never understand
where i come from on this plan of mine

double back (prod madias)

barren

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