orange lids (homesick)

unfounded hate, find me at the bottom of the lake
why do only beautiful souls take
to your grave here's a promise i could make
secret's safe, imma leave it in the bank
worked hard now you get to take a break
i see through you, i can see the fake
a redo with you i could never take
can't fake a need for you, never got to say
look on the bright side, everything's okay
everybody's fine and it's just another day
and you'll wake up every time thinking "oh what a disgrace
i am to everyone in life that i love and push away"
we're one in the same cause my state of mind's
exactly like the ways that you describe when we always type
at night and i don't get to sleep a wink cause i turned out the lights
but you don't give me any chance to think about my dream tonight
i don't have a dream i gave up when i started living life
push your propaganda on me i'm just not the reading type
type but never send, you'll not respond ever again
why would i wanna talk as friends if it's just means up to your ends?
you gotta kick me in my knees if imma buckle to the trends
i used to feel so small and weak and here you're saying it again
i don't know what i should believe the thought police are in my head
so now i gotta get my sleep so i can put these thoughts to bed

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

oh what a disgrace i am

feeling hollow, points up in the nostril
nowhere near my death and i'm already a fossil
you can't let it rest, i can't let it go to my head
shouldn't be depressed, why'd i wish that i was dead?
after everything you said i still thought you're heaven sent
no one's really empty if they know where their soul went
i got nothing in me left to give you, i've been spent
is this really you or just your presence that i sense?
i was skipping food, i can't stomach second best
breakfast of the champ, make a bowl then go to bed
story of the vamp, you can't ever keep a friend cause
blood is always thicker than medicine in the end
twist the top off, take the lockbox
throw it in the drop top, find a mailbox
smash it and you won't stop
such a tragic tale with a spoiled plot, is this really
is this really love if it never really feels right?
i just love the club and the feeling of the strobe light
you like playing dumb, i could read it with no book light
what's the point in admitting to me that now your soul's mine?
stop what you're doing right now, where you are right there 
where you stand, sit down in these musical chairs
we both make our sounds thinking anybody cares but
i'm fully aware no one's ever really there

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen & AT
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

no 1's rly emt

i'll keep a light on for you outside
you've got me standing in the rain like almost every night
and i can't trust i'm being safe baby i'm terrified
but it can't blow up in my face if i'm not scared to die, right?
springtime i'll be showered so clean but
at the current moment i'd prefer not to be seen cause
everybody hoped for something i could never be and
i might never even care if it can't die with me
i mean i should hope, why else would you build a legacy up?
i don't know, maybe i just thought it wouldn't mean much
so i'd cope with that fact that i would never be much
now this goes so deep don't think the rope could ever reach us
only hang with witches so i'm always getting free drugs
i feel like that bitch, i gotta go to two or three clubs
with my homie tris, you know she only sip a green cup
i don't ever sip, i gotta keep my super speed up
i gotta, i gotta keep my super speed up
u know she, she, she only sip a green cup
i don't ever sip, i gotta keep my super speed up
now this goes so deep don't think the rope could ever reach us
only hang with witches so i'm always getting free drugs
i feel like that bitch, i gotta go to two or three clubs
i feel like that bitch i gotta, i feel like that bitch i, bitch i gotta

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen & exxiiiyyaaa
recorded @ the microwave
art by @worm_sludge on ig

scared 2 die

i could love you like tomorrow isn't promised
don't think the future ever comes if im honest
brought a chocolate to you at the college
i want all this, we can skip the falling
i need to be calling up someone who wants me too
and i would ask who's up but wouldn't talk to you
by now i've given up, there's nothing left to do
your name is in my phone, i'll walk a mile with you
and when there's nowhere left to walk and there's nothing to do
i hope you know that we can talk when it's just me and you
built to spill all of my problems and it's all i do
making music doesn't solve em i just think it's cool
you got problems, i don't have a problem
telling everyone about the scars or how i got em
totally forgot you, then i went and lost you
all my thoughts are consumed
by you but they're not true
don't know who we are now, i think it's alright though
you just had a rough day i got in a life boat
always sailing sideways, wont see me outside though
surfing on an interwave, find me with no telescope
talking bout a winter day, i just think it's always cold
i don't got a lot to say, i got away from being bold
god, but you even had games on your telephone
playing with my head i even bought you the nintendo
friendship should last in the end it depends though
i'm not keeping friends around that wanna act just like they know
everything that's better for me in my life than what i've chose
i know i could never be your wife cause i'd have nicer clothes
can't admit it to me but i'm right and you know it though
i think you know, i hope you know, i know you don't
i hope you will, i know you won't

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

tomorrow isn't promised

uh, lights in my eyes, kinda like how it blinds me
i stand aside til you push from behind me
onto the tracks and it kinda reminds me
of in the past, only held on to bind me
but i'm proud that you could let go, it isn't easy
i'll be hard to find, harder than it was to please me
i just hope you know in the end what it means to me
taking my life in your hands so to speak
new skin, not even new clothes
i took my sweet time to see where that goes
to see without eyes, does anyone know?
to truly be blind you'd have to lose hope
same eyes but need a new nose
i need to eat more so my same thighs grow
i hate to waste time i spend like i'm broke
my friends will be fine, they never gotta know, uh

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the microwave
art by @worm_sludge on ig

lightsinmyeyes

i miss your toxic talk your texts were constant always on my phone
i can't seem to put you off and you just can't ever leave me alone
and it doesn't hurt my head as much if i just hit it off the dome
but it hit my gut like a sucker punch, i'm never going home
and i guess i miss bedhead even though i'm not dead yet
i miss having a set to rep, i miss the way that the homies met
why can't it ever go back to that, it feels like i'm stuck in the past i guess
i miss acting like a hazmat but i'm as toxic as i've ever been
and i just got good at unmasking that 
so now i don't let anybody else in
the people that love me that asked for that 
are now the ones asking me where i've been
but i can't go out looking like a mess 
and i'm such a mess i just shut myself in
i'm leaving my car on the street for the rats
when driving i think of the crash i'm not in
when sleeping i think of the life that i have 
and i daydream of one that i'll never live
when i'm making a bunch of songs in the lab
that i love i never end up dropping them
and there's not a reason i have for that
except thinking i'm not good enough to exist
as the person that they used to love for that
when i'm gonna force em to watch it switch
watch the way i fall apart, tell me that it's lovely
pick myself up in the art and now you think i'm ugly
i don't wanna play a part i just want you to love me
being an adult's so hard, nobody here to hug me
being here alone i saw you every night
i thought about you lots, i wish i had the light
the forgiveness i lost, the feeling that i'd fly
away from you, the cost i paid for you to try

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

always on my phone

my jaw hurts, i can't talk right
and it's so hard just to sleep at night
need to suck it up, need to get a bite
i just lost it all, why i feel alright?
i've been feeling fine
you can't get me off this cloud cause it's number nine
i be walking round my town automatic lights
turning on when i'm around but you won't see me twice, nah
i need surgery but it's hopeless
you're still hurting me and i know you know this
everything is going wrong but no one noticed
you're the only one i'd ever bear my soul with
but you can't handle it, and i can't handle it
took up the mantle lit the candle and dismantled it
i'm in a tandem with a random its so romantic
you only know the me i banned it only took one click
one shot, you just say you're sorry but i know you're really not
i know how you saw me yeah you put me on the spot
yeah you put me on the spot, told me things you should have not
you should keep your mouth shut, imma live my life
i know what i want now i'm not thinking twice
spent too many times trynna get you to be nice
i'm not ever playing nice again you gave me good advice

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

my jaw hurts

can't even forgive you won't ever forget you
sorry for the things that i said that upset you
you were never sorry cause your head was such a mess too
least i tried to fix you how i'd never let you
i'm not who you thought but you were right about a lot
hardly an adult but i can't get the clock to stop
maybe imma fail but i can never give it up
when the ship sets sail away from neverland i'm gone
keep me in a box i didn't fit in when it closed
i still couldn't breathe even after you poked the holes
i don't wanna see anymore cause i know
that the only one for me is who is left when i'm alone
but i still see the shape of your cheeks and your haircut
someone every week tries to whisk me off to their spot
sweep me off my feet but i don't feel a thing at all not
cause you can't be beat but cause that's something i would never want
everything we did imma relive til i'm dead
greatest hits and worst cases playing out up in my head
i can't sleep up in my bed it's as perfect as i've said
but the doubts you had me sold on have me chained to my debts
to my debts to my debts, to my debts, to my debts, oh

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

4giv 4get

on my own terms
living slow burn
really it don't hurt
i can tell you that it's worth it now
with the confidence that i just found
but am i allowed
to say something mean
i might make you cry
and i know it might seem
like for all of this time
there was no honesty
i'd tell you the truth 
but you like lies you believe
can you believe in me 
when i say who i am
you don't believe in anything 
and i just can't understand
i really love everything 
you hate the world in your hands
i hid the world from your plans
i had to pay your demands
seven hundred fifty i don't have
i probably gave you double that
said you didn't wanna be selfish still
but i wanted a spoiled brat
every single time you came my way
you left same day and doubled back
and i know that you wanna be friends
but i keep my friends close and we're so much more than that
i got so much more than money i got honeys coming over
i got something in my system cause it's so hard to be sober
but it's over, oh thank god its over
i'll live without the closure
oh thank god its over, i'll live

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

lies u believe

@uhoh-oops
lyrics: 
go and write another story u can change all the lines
told u bby dont lie to me no don't even try
u think im changing my mind im hiding secrets inside
cause there's no way no it's too late no u dont get 2 retry
cant go to sleep bby no u dont kiss me goodnight
when u turn the other cheek i turn 2 pieces inside
think we should turn off the light ur weaving webs w/ ur lies
i wanna tear up all the pieces of the pages u write
bury my bones n burn my ashes she told me im 2 dramatic
put my bitch in brand new fashion brand new watch got brand new facets plz dont get me started i dont wanna reach plz dont get me started i dont wanna reach out cause everytime we talk it's just another rip everytime we talk it's just another retrial please dont lie yeah ur wasting ur time i been busy faded on the borderline she gonna suck my blood like we in 30 nights yeah im paranoid every day every night another part of me it slowly hurts inside and i dont know why another part of me just hopes that ur alright and i waste my time :)) 

thanks 4 listening,

pr4y3rs