don’t know what to call that
don’t know if you saw that
sky is falling down 
and everybody wearing ball caps
look into the future 
but i never counted on that
what you’ve said in the past 
will count against you if they want that
they don’t wanna build you up
they want to break you
always take your name in vain
it’s beautiful to say you
everybody asks what dreams are made of 
and i thank you
you showed me the way
i have to kill you off to save you
god is not an alcoholic mom
that’s just an excuse
that things will never really get
better when they say they do
put a lot of work in what i’ve made
but i can’t stay with you
your vision of me’s flawed
in your eyes i tried to play you
i could play whatever side i want to
i was made to
you hate marijuana
but sip bottles likes it’s grape juice
got a taste for you
its been hard enough to shake you
oh you stir me up
don’t even know who i should pray to
pray tell
what was that you’re saying in the bedroom?
praise hell
you were on your knees and had a breakthrough
breaking cellphones
the only thing that made me hate you
now i’m all alone
i’ve found a different kind of faith too
faithful to a cause 
that doesn’t pay off how it should do
shrug your actions off
when i don’t understand how could you
there’s no other option 
said you’d die without me soon too
told me in the end
there’s nothing for me if i lose you

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produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

praise hell

hit me up and leave me hanging never respond
i was dying when you met me then i respawned
something's stopping us from getting what we both want
i won't keep you prisoner, don't let your ghost haunt
me in the future, stay in my past
i don't wanna do it to you, i can't take it back
and i said it wasn't you but it's more than that bad
we can't get it back now so don't even ask
i said i wouldn't let it get to me
but then i kinda let it get to me
you said all you want's to rest in peace
and now in my head you're dead to me
i don't let it be, i can't keep it up
i don't wanna say it, but i don't wanna stop
ok maybe i'll stop complaining when i'm standing on the top
all cause i popped off now they wanna flop
when i pop the top off, he might take my top off
gotta get a lot up off my chest taking socks off
running barefoot through the grass to the cobble rocks
mossy stones dirty toes in the parking lot
catgirl with my dogs so we bark a lot
straight hair no curls, it gets dark a lot
eyebrows on fleek at the record shop
spin another and i'll do it til my body drops
(just don't let it get to you
i can tell when it gets to you
can't help but feel like i'm less than you
can't help as much as you asked me to
just stay in the past for me
every time i look back i see
all the ways that you were 
using me, abusing me
but was it really your fault? nah
i don't really blame it all on
someone that won't take the fall, nah
imma always take the fall, yeah
but i don't ever let you go
i can't let you in my life, i can't ever let you know
i can't ever let it up, i won't ever take it slow
no, no, no
baby don't go, leave me in the cold
playing in snow, miss you when i'm old
wish that we could grow, wishing you could grow
i'm already grown, god i feel so old
catgirl with my dogs so we bark a lot
straight hair never curls it gets dark a lot
eyebrows on fleek at the record shop
spin another just for me)

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produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

just don't let it get 2 u

fake an aesthetic? i don't even think i have one
everyone inspired but no one knows who inspired em
i was in the fire, you were burning your obsession
certainly impressed but i have some corrections
come correct in the building when i step in
came to collect, i can see the way you're spending
i spent too much of my life without a weapon
shawty you could be the knife up where my chest is
call me on a burner phone cause it's the only one i own
if you don't wanna be alone right now
cause i spend too much time at home and you're the one i wanna hold
and i'm not trying to be bold, pipe down
wanna put me in my place, got a ace up your sleeve
i could see it in your face, nice scowl
making heaters in my space, halloween's a couple days ago
but i'm not taking off this cowl
oh, did somebody run too close to the sun?
i cannot believe what i've found
something must be done if this war can't be won
in our favor then imma back down
i'm not a leader, in school was a cheater
the teachers would all look down
but tonight i can see her, the one that the king thinks he'll take on
will take the crown
i thought i told you to bounce
i'm on another planet that you can't pronounce
now that i know what your plan is, your ways i renounce
i never backed down but i had to dip out
your knees won't give out
if you walked a mile in my shoes to the town
let em see the water dripping off you while i drown
i can't make an offer, you won't stop if i'm around
uh, uh, i thought i told you to bounce
all i need to see is your hands right now
right hand on your left hip now
you could be the star of this whole entire house
i'm tired, you're plotting
so inspired, it's exhausting
extinguished fires, not the smoke screen
loving liars, never joking
oh where you gonna run? think you're brighter than the sun?
i know the day's not even done but the battle has been won
let the cattle out the pen and leave the rest to the dogs

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

the crown

feeling hollow, points up in the nostril
nowhere near my death and i'm already a fossil
you can't let it rest, i can't let it go to my head
shouldn't be depressed, why'd i wish that i was dead?
after everything you said i still thought you're heaven sent
no one's really empty if they know where their soul went
i got nothing in me left to give you, i've been spent
is this really you or just your presence that i sense?
i was skipping food, i can't stomach second best
breakfast of the champ, make a bowl then go to bed
story of the vamp, you can't ever keep a friend cause
blood is always thicker than medicine in the end
twist the top off, take the lockbox
throw it in the drop top, find a mailbox
smash it and you won't stop
such a tragic tale with a spoiled plot, is this really
is this really love if it never really feels right?
i just love the club and the feeling of the strobe light
you like playing dumb, i could read it with no book light
what's the point in admitting to me that now your soul's mine?
stop what you're doing right now, where you are right there 
where you stand, sit down in these musical chairs
we both make our sounds thinking anybody cares but
i'm fully aware no one's ever really there

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen & AT
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

no 1's rly emt

i'll keep a light on for you outside
you've got me standing in the rain like almost every night
and i can't trust i'm being safe baby i'm terrified
but it can't blow up in my face if i'm not scared to die, right?
springtime i'll be showered so clean but
at the current moment i'd prefer not to be seen cause
everybody hoped for something i could never be and
i might never even care if it can't die with me
i mean i should hope, why else would you build a legacy up?
i don't know, maybe i just thought it wouldn't mean much
so i'd cope with that fact that i would never be much
now this goes so deep don't think the rope could ever reach us
only hang with witches so i'm always getting free drugs
i feel like that bitch, i gotta go to two or three clubs
with my homie tris, you know she only sip a green cup
i don't ever sip, i gotta keep my super speed up
i gotta, i gotta keep my super speed up
u know she, she, she only sip a green cup
i don't ever sip, i gotta keep my super speed up
now this goes so deep don't think the rope could ever reach us
only hang with witches so i'm always getting free drugs
i feel like that bitch, i gotta go to two or three clubs
i feel like that bitch i gotta, i feel like that bitch i, bitch i gotta

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produced by homecomingqueen & exxiiiyyaaa
recorded @ the microwave
art by @worm_sludge on ig

scared 2 die

i miss your toxic talk your texts were constant always on my phone
i can't seem to put you off and you just can't ever leave me alone
and it doesn't hurt my head as much if i just hit it off the dome
but it hit my gut like a sucker punch, i'm never going home
and i guess i miss bedhead even though i'm not dead yet
i miss having a set to rep, i miss the way that the homies met
why can't it ever go back to that, it feels like i'm stuck in the past i guess
i miss acting like a hazmat but i'm as toxic as i've ever been
and i just got good at unmasking that 
so now i don't let anybody else in
the people that love me that asked for that 
are now the ones asking me where i've been
but i can't go out looking like a mess 
and i'm such a mess i just shut myself in
i'm leaving my car on the street for the rats
when driving i think of the crash i'm not in
when sleeping i think of the life that i have 
and i daydream of one that i'll never live
when i'm making a bunch of songs in the lab
that i love i never end up dropping them
and there's not a reason i have for that
except thinking i'm not good enough to exist
as the person that they used to love for that
when i'm gonna force em to watch it switch
watch the way i fall apart, tell me that it's lovely
pick myself up in the art and now you think i'm ugly
i don't wanna play a part i just want you to love me
being an adult's so hard, nobody here to hug me
being here alone i saw you every night
i thought about you lots, i wish i had the light
the forgiveness i lost, the feeling that i'd fly
away from you, the cost i paid for you to try

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

always on my phone

can't even forgive you won't ever forget you
sorry for the things that i said that upset you
you were never sorry cause your head was such a mess too
least i tried to fix you how i'd never let you
i'm not who you thought but you were right about a lot
hardly an adult but i can't get the clock to stop
maybe imma fail but i can never give it up
when the ship sets sail away from neverland i'm gone
keep me in a box i didn't fit in when it closed
i still couldn't breathe even after you poked the holes
i don't wanna see anymore cause i know
that the only one for me is who is left when i'm alone
but i still see the shape of your cheeks and your haircut
someone every week tries to whisk me off to their spot
sweep me off my feet but i don't feel a thing at all not
cause you can't be beat but cause that's something i would never want
everything we did imma relive til i'm dead
greatest hits and worst cases playing out up in my head
i can't sleep up in my bed it's as perfect as i've said
but the doubts you had me sold on have me chained to my debts
to my debts to my debts, to my debts, to my debts, oh

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produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

4giv 4get

on my own terms
living slow burn
really it don't hurt
i can tell you that it's worth it now
with the confidence that i just found
but am i allowed
to say something mean
i might make you cry
and i know it might seem
like for all of this time
there was no honesty
i'd tell you the truth 
but you like lies you believe
can you believe in me 
when i say who i am
you don't believe in anything 
and i just can't understand
i really love everything 
you hate the world in your hands
i hid the world from your plans
i had to pay your demands
seven hundred fifty i don't have
i probably gave you double that
said you didn't wanna be selfish still
but i wanted a spoiled brat
every single time you came my way
you left same day and doubled back
and i know that you wanna be friends
but i keep my friends close and we're so much more than that
i got so much more than money i got honeys coming over
i got something in my system cause it's so hard to be sober
but it's over, oh thank god its over
i'll live without the closure
oh thank god its over, i'll live

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig