i'm him only if i could sing what a think everyday

(cray)

all this pain up on my body i dont like dis, 
she say its not fair, i got scared, i light this
please just stop here, ive lost you, my highness
the world was so bright, like ur eyes, ur iris (x2)

i try to fix dis shit but i cant even fall asleep
in the corner of my room is where i sit and weep
so many sins ive done so i just pray my soul to keep
they really out to get me demons why they follow me

(ford)

why they following when I don’t got nothin give
life short
Put a slice on my own wrist

trouble some ever since I was a kid
never wanna live all alone like this

always thought I could make better eventually 
only to know that I’m failing the penalty
oh it’s getting so hard
every single night I’m falling apart
and every time you lie I take it too far

i wanna quit it and look at stars
wait til I’m fitted and living on mars
we gon be planets apart

(cray)

its a common occurence when they walk out on me, oh shit
im done with this life, imma light up a spliff,
was bright as a kid i had so much to give
im liking your presence, but i cannt live

and if i drop and fall, baby please just stay back
why u causing all the problems, why u say that
on the drive home im homesick i hate that,
i took a light dose but it feel like i wont wake up 

all this pain up on my body i dont like dis, 
she say its not fair, i got scared, i light this
please just stop here, ive lost you, my highness
the world was so bright, like ur eyes, ur iris (x2)

(ford)

and if I had another night to tell you something that I wanted to
i would honestly just wanna prove
i only ever wanted you

i dont like this w/ brecken [out on spotify now]

i just wanted to know ft. spookybands (gaxillic)

why u in my head
all i see is red
i look at what the note said
they be acting like they blind
until i pull up in A Benz

outside in the rain
foggy in my brain
got no place to stay
all the trees are dead
and winter hit inside i lay,
and i been feeling sad 
so maybe this the fucking day

you can not go try me,
i been thru a lot of shit
so please come and try it
you dont wanna see what i seen,
the blood, the leaves, no peace
im falling down the well i weep

so come with me, come find ur home,
its falling down and i feel so cold
just take me back when times were bright
before the lies, before the freigths

u claim ur broken ur bruised
and the silence just comes around
and i dont care how much it hits
i wont sit this out
and im okay and its alright
i think im heading south
i pack my bags and i move to a small ghost town

outside in the rain [michael harrison]

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

overdose (ft. safeatlast) (Ciche&Jarn)

Lyrics

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist when I'm sleep

I wanna feel your love, you wanna watch me die
I wanna build up trust, you wanna make me cry
I would of gave it all up just to give us a try
You were just out getting fucked when I wasn't by your side

Why in the fuck did I think I could make you mine?
Everything you say lies
I'ma make songs about you until I make bank
You gonna watch me rise
Thought what we had was something real but it was so fake
You were just in disguise
I used to feel so much love for you, now it's all hate
All of my feelings collide

I don't feel like myself no more
Are you safe for my health? Not sure
I don't like the way I'm not yours
I don't get what this is all for

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist when I'm sleep

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist in my sleep

Why in the fuck did I think I could make you mine?
Everything you say lies
I'ma make songs about you until I make bank
You gonna watch me rise
Thought what we had was something real but it was so fake
You were just in disguise
I used to feel so much love for you, now it's all hate
All of my feelings collide

I don't feel like myself no more
Are you safe for my health? Not sure
I don't like the way I'm not yours
I don't get what this is all for

disguise. | Produced by yeezo x slaying ibis

maybe now I’ll reminisce w/ notahero

produced by king theta 

not sure if i like it but im posting it anyway

lyrics: 

why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away
they talk about me like they know my name

tears come in tidal waves
alyssa she told me that im okay
ill miss her but im better off this way
im hurting these feelings i try to shake

stuck in my head tears on my bed
i take back everything i had said
stuck in my brain dont look the same
i fell for you over again

im not tryna throw shade but you told me you love me 
you told me you told me you told me
you wont leave you told me to trust you, you told me dont worry 
i worried i worried i worried i did

and now look at me 
just watch as i bleed
just watch as i fall
just watch as i crawl 

right back to you baby i know you dont care about me like you said that you did but i need you right now and i swear ill do better this time… this time

but im still learning
my heart is burning
our love is fading
and im still waiting for you

so come back 
it hurts so bad
my tears they wont last
but my bloods gone black

so why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away

why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away
they talk about me like they know my name

eliasz (king theta)

prod secre x tiedforsilver

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

(you and i could try to work it out)
ive spent enough time in my mind to know its not the answer
is there a god in the sky respond to my prayer
maybe i wanted to die i couldnt find my savior

turn me into sumn i cant even look at
stare into a mirror and a stranger is what looks back
8 grams in my book bag
smokin after school to kill the feelings that i hold back

ripped away at my life
got gutted with my own knife
im tired of livin in strife
i thank the demon inside

that caused the place i reside
to wither in front of my eyes
you couldnt keep me alive
no matter how hard you try

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

wha- wha-
want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

strawberry amnesia

prod. poppy ozu x daniel saint

Lyrics:

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

i'm unhinged 
i'm irrational at best
i'm less convinced now by the second i should get this off my chest
fuck it
i despise your hedonism and that old group i called my friends
at least i'm not a liar, of all my flaws just give me that

she jumps from guy to girl to guy in hopes that someone can heal her
if you couldn't respect me
then how could i either
was i meant for a stage
am i meant for a theatre
caught me throwing up again
with a wonderful fever

i'm a people person eater with a face that doesn't shape
i just tear myself apart then fix myself with gum and tape
i use so many "i's" and "me's" its like the rest of them are fake
you think i'm talking to you, probably am so hear me for your sake

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

hedonism

prod. jascoebeats
@beeanieboyy

baby fuckin break me
tell me how u hate me
tell me everything i need to hear
and drive me crazy
i know that ur wasted
i know that u hate me
i know that u
i know that u love me so embrace it
 
baby u can break me
and tell me how u hate me
baby tell me where u wanna go cuz i can take u
i know i made mistakes
i can fix them i can make it better for us
would u like that 

blunt smoke trees fade
eyes red bleed grey
green out green up
cash flow dont stop
big head big whip
pink slip wrist slit
fast car new kicks
nascar new bitch

look at my wrist
look at the time
i gotta run
look at my fit
all black ripped jeans thats whats up
fuck what you told me thats bull shit

baby fuckin break me
tell me how u hate me
tell me everything i need to hear
and drive me crazy
i know that ur wasted
i know that u hate me
i know that u
i know that u love me so embrace it

baby u can break me
tell me how u hate me
baby tell me where u wanna go cuz i can take u
i know i made mistakes
i can fix them i can make it better for us
would u like that

blunt smoke trees fade 
eyes red bleed grey
green out green up
cash flow dont stop
big head big whip
pink slip wrist slit
fast car new kicks
nascar new bitch

eliasz (king theta)

beanie

Recent comments

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yungcray

Im already dead

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