this shit hits different at almost 4:00 am frfr

blue haired bisexual women drive me crazy in a good and bad way 🔥🔥🔥

rly one of the hardest songs to listen to my throat felt tight this entire thing. 🖤

@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace ft. popularreject (hero)

cover of jude's (sleepwater) "nervous"
guitar by caves
reprod by me

miss you bro :(
don't wait on me now

sleepwater - nervous (cover)

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

stare at my body as i bleed
what did u even find in me 
a bucnh of dreams ill never reach
a lot of ideas ill never be 

stare at my yeah (4x)

im fucked up and shits not over
i want to but i can't get sober 
ur death made my whole body colder
everynight i dream about when i used to hold ya(2x)

love life but death seems charming
can't stop myself from falling 
eyes glued to the back of my eyelids
when i die fill my coffin with violets 

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

misfit (santana)

lyrics ⬇️ 

there’s an institution that I been building in my 
Head 
i don’t pay no tuition instead I lay up in my bed
i put my thoughts in submission 
so that I could maybe get rest
life so explicit I hope that I could get the best

time slowed down
and then I look up at the messs
I know now that I was awful like the rest
shouldnt go out I gotta awful lotta doubt
i don’t know crowds but ima look around the town
Oh

yea I don’t know what else to say tho
done it to urself watch the pain grow

ten rows down from the person that could that say so
tough luck now look like you walk on a tight rope
more excuses everyday but who likes that
If I had time to go to waste
then maybe you would be back
Instead I chill at the lake sunny day I relax

and I got away from issues that you stab in my back 

No I can’t back track but I wanna move forward
and I don’t know what happened 
Or what happened before
you would always attack me I would fall on the floor

and this life is ever lasting so I wanan restore
 
all my horrible tendencies go away in the Forrest 
as the leaves fall and the branches crack I’m no longer sore
i watch the rainfall as it pours and I wanan explore
walk through all the fog but ima hide for the storm

are you even really sure that you wanna ignore
every night since the end of us it been a war
problems out the door ever since you cut the cord no no

institution (cxrter x tahtx)

𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍

prod by. @domesticsoul

'tiedyed' ep
10/27

thank you for being here. 
take care

(it's way too damn bright out)
i know
it's always i don't know
idk, idk, i don't..

i feel the worst
reheat the burns
shoot down the birds
show me you hurt
care bout me less
don't feel distressed
don't recollect, proclaim me as dead
i'm recondite in all of their eyes
believe me, i've tried
the fuck would i lie
line after line, tongue's getting dry
water to hydrate
my subconscious, it migrates
fluttered past in the writing
eating less carbohydrates
sleeping less got me dying
note and pens all that i see
in a cold sweat from the sights seen
sights seen..
i don't wanna do no sightseeing, no..

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

rain check;
she told me we should make a reign check
bellow out my frustrations
etching out these elations
now i'm fine, 'till i break, yeah
now i've calmed, feel it in my palms now
a couple scorn clouds
cry a storm out, with no warning
it's important;
you seem to know them 'till you stay foreign
(stay foreign)

so i guess i'll put my trust in the darkness
we talk a lot, bustin' chops over toxins
i hear my thoughts pushing me to be heartless
missin' my shots, wouldn't think i'm a marksman
fuck love, i'm misunderstood
filtering light into words overlooked
i disapprove and rebuke how they're crooked
i just went weak in the knees, now i'm puking

one sunset at a time
another day a new vice
show me you care without dragging your hair
through grease trails and the lice
it must be my mind that's gotten so distant
plenty surround but they always low pitch
or don't get the picture; fragile demeanor
prone to be withered, but never stay with

laugh it off like you always do
no surface shit, up the magnitude
let the ground crack 'till you fall back
from the forecast, as the magma spews
got hot veins and a cold brain
as i fuck up my stability
you can't drown out what's already sunken
i don't want there to be room for me

here we go again
meet another end
reinvent your head like second nature
lose it to a friend, who wasn't quite your friend
people only plead when it's on paper
well how about that
dirty mousepads
unaware of how i got here
did i steer clear, or was i pulled back?

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

downcast (p. domesticsoul)

3/8/23
reprod by me
original song creds towards @guardinmusic △

guardin - anxious (one take cover)

produced by king theta 

not sure if i like it but im posting it anyway

lyrics: 

why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away
they talk about me like they know my name

tears come in tidal waves
alyssa she told me that im okay
ill miss her but im better off this way
im hurting these feelings i try to shake

stuck in my head tears on my bed
i take back everything i had said
stuck in my brain dont look the same
i fell for you over again

im not tryna throw shade but you told me you love me 
you told me you told me you told me
you wont leave you told me to trust you, you told me dont worry 
i worried i worried i worried i did

and now look at me 
just watch as i bleed
just watch as i fall
just watch as i crawl 

right back to you baby i know you dont care about me like you said that you did but i need you right now and i swear ill do better this time… this time

but im still learning
my heart is burning
our love is fading
and im still waiting for you

so come back 
it hurts so bad
my tears they wont last
but my bloods gone black

so why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away

why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away
they talk about me like they know my name

eliasz (king theta)

prod secre x tiedforsilver

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

(you and i could try to work it out)
ive spent enough time in my mind to know its not the answer
is there a god in the sky respond to my prayer
maybe i wanted to die i couldnt find my savior

turn me into sumn i cant even look at
stare into a mirror and a stranger is what looks back
8 grams in my book bag
smokin after school to kill the feelings that i hold back

ripped away at my life
got gutted with my own knife
im tired of livin in strife
i thank the demon inside

that caused the place i reside
to wither in front of my eyes
you couldnt keep me alive
no matter how hard you try

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

wha- wha-
want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

strawberry amnesia

Lyrics:
Sometimes I wonder if you listen to the songs I do
I know that music's in your blood, it's always in mine too
Since we don't talk this is my way of reaching out to you
And now the sunset makes me think your name in every hue

Sometimes I wonder if you're staring out your window at the moon
You're probably not, but you're outside, you're on the chair, you're looking too
Are you looking too?
Are you looking too?

spookybands:
Are you looking at the moon right now?
I can see it in your eyes, I don't think you ever really loved me
Did you buy yourself a beer last night?
And then some whiskey right after, anyway that's how I'm passing the time

And did you tell her about me? 
That new girl that you seeing
I bet she thought my name was cool

Does she text you while you on your way over
Telling you to look up at the moon
That's what I used to do.

These memories just turn to pain
And then get mixed up in my brain
I won't ever be okay
The bar is open every day

Hold me while I drift away
You don't have to miss me baby
I just tell myself you are
To feel better (that's fucking crazy)

Sometimes I wonder if you're staring out your window at the moon
You're probably not, but you're outside, you're on the chair, you're looking too
Are you looking too?
Are you looking too?

Look At The Moon

look at the moon (ft. spookybands)

prod. poppy ozu x daniel saint

Lyrics:

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

i'm unhinged 
i'm irrational at best
i'm less convinced now by the second i should get this off my chest
fuck it
i despise your hedonism and that old group i called my friends
at least i'm not a liar, of all my flaws just give me that

she jumps from guy to girl to guy in hopes that someone can heal her
if you couldn't respect me
then how could i either
was i meant for a stage
am i meant for a theatre
caught me throwing up again
with a wonderful fever

i'm a people person eater with a face that doesn't shape
i just tear myself apart then fix myself with gum and tape
i use so many "i's" and "me's" its like the rest of them are fake
you think i'm talking to you, probably am so hear me for your sake

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

hedonism

i think i hate everything that i ever loved
now that the fire snuffed
baby im packing up boxes of things that you gave me
and things that im running from

but "baby" ain't "baby" no more
cause im out on my own and im feeling numb
turn it up loud on my speakers
and lay on the floor 'til i feel the drums

i cannot drink, i cannot smoke
the blood from ym vomit keep burning my throat
im tryna get by but my heart beating slow
and if i ever left i know no one would know

sometimes i find myself grabbing my phone
every time that i be way too alone
but then i just drop it cause im at the bottom already
no point now in making it known

its all gonna be okay real soon
real soon

i feel abandoned, cause im a burden
maybe im fucked up, i know that for certain
got a life sentence now this is the verdict
death penalty, to the void im returning
im hoping to God that i dont end up burning
im doing my best but im just really hurting
i just need a break for a sec now im cursing
i scream at myself with these insults im hurling

im losing myself, im losing my brains
im losing the lifeforce that course through my veins
feel like my body is wrapped up in chains
tape on my mouth so they think im okay

dont even know who i am in this verse
i feel too much, now im blessed with a curse
its just like a nightmare but way fucking worse
and the only way out is the back of a hearse

sinking

not.a.fx.hero on discord if u need a friend.
https://discord.gg/RU7YPvM3CC
song every 1-2 weeks
beat every week

@onebigwoopsy
@timeless-archive
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hedonism

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