She Hates Me

credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

my friends they all hate my guts
and i always feel so fucked up
dont know why i even try
be better off if i would just die

lately
ive been feeling crazy
think theyve had enough of me cuz
im so fucked up
lately
everybody hates me
i should learn to just shut up cuz
im so fucked up

dont know why the things i say
always push the ones i love away
stay inside never go anywhere
get left behind cuz nobody cares

lately 
ive been feeling crazy
think theyve had enough of me cuz
im so fucked up
lately
everybody hates me 
i should learn to just shut up cuz
im so fucked up

so fucked up

i should have killed myself that day
the girl I like is afraid of me.
i should have killed myself that day
My past haunts me every day.

And now I'm alone again,
watching my life go by,
I close my eyes and feel the pain.
There is no hope, I'm a living dead.

(X2)

i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day

I SHOULD HAVE KILLED MYSELF THAT DAY

cant express what
I am thinking
words elude me
feel so damn foolish 

I feel so stupid
I feel so useless
I think so I'm so cringe
Im so retarded

Cant connect with
anybody
always anxious 
There's no one there for me

Retarded

Been locked up again
I may have lost my mind
And you go out everyday
With your fucking friends

Oh yeah
Fuck you
I'd rather stay in bed
Than see Again
Your stupid fucking face
Oh I'm
So ashamed
I wish to die today
I can't Belive
That once we were friends

I wonder if they listen
'cause you're talking all the time
And there's one thing I want
I hope that you shut up

Oh yeah
Fuck you
I'd rather stay in bed
Than see Again
Your stupid fucking face
Oh I'm
So ashamed
I wish to die today
I can't Belive
That once we were friends

Fuarrrk Off

i dont relate to fucking whores so i changed the lyrics to something degen i can relate too like self harm

so lame and fake
should kill myself
wake up fucked up
every single day
my soul for sale
i've lost my faith
and I can't see any trace of God anywhere.
cut and drink is all i do
Tears and pills fill my room.
flirting with suicide
no morals, no laws
wasted life take one more shot 
another downer down my throat,
a shotgun in my fucking mouth
my brains on the wall

Suicide Note (belowground cover)

Get ready for something you’ve never heard — or felt — before.

You could call this album a horror opera. Or maybe an audio horror movie. It’s an ecstatic mix… a soaking wet nightmare.

You might feel uneasy. Maybe even terrified. Possibly… watched. Or possessed.

We’ve had some of the strangest reactions from people lucky (or unlucky) enough to get an early listen. We just call it music. And hey — tastes vary. You might hate it. You might fall in love with it.

Either way, we can proudly say this is our absolute favorite album we’ve ever made.

Oh, and here’s the weird part — there’s no mastering on this record. What you hear is raw and unfiltered. Untouched. Unpolished. Not separated from reality in any way.

Maybe that’s what makes some people squirm.

So… enjoy the ride into the land of nightmares. And let The Witch seduce you.

P.S.
After listening, you might not only be possessed… but also pregnant — and your firstborn might already be sold straight to the Devil.


Featuring

Vocals: Noriko Mori, Sascha Häusler, Lisa Lex, Raphaela Hartmann, Andy Green

Guitar: Andy Green, Sascha Häusler, Lisa Lex

Piano: Sascha Häusler

Cello: Sascha Häusler, Ella Park, Anna Weiß

Violin: Tina Park

Bass: Thomas Kaiser

Percussion, Synths & Programming: Raphaela Hartmann

Concept & Lyrics: Sascha Häusler

in ashes deep

Fried by Screentime

Fried By Screen Time

i was raised by a place
ive been on since i was eight
or maybe 9, the internet,
sat online, on the world wide web

everything i've ever seen
ever learnt, its from a screen
and who i am today
was influenced by the way
i was raised on the World Wide Web
raised by the Internet

raised by the World Wide Web
don't have any real life friends
mind melted by the internet
World Wide Web

i was raised online
i was raised online
maybe that is why
i came out behind
all the other kids
all cause i had unrestricted
access to the internet

knowledge at my fingertips
and everything that any kid
really shouldn't be seeing when
he's browsing at the age of ten
terrorist beheadings
and anything with death in it
propaganda, fucking goatse
i came out so fucking lonely

raised by the World Wide Web
im anxious with every breath
cause i was raised by the world wide web
World Wide Web

Raised By The World Wide Web

Im so afraid to speak, im scared of everything
everyones watching me, they know that im a freak
im staring at the floor, what am i living for?
i want to be normal, why cant i be normal?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

im staying home again, i dont have any friends
afraid of what they'll think, i shrivel up and shrink
they know im low iq, they know i failed at school
i am a fucking joke, why am i such a joke?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

Too Neurotic

Twitter @shadowbannedbg
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