Benedixhion

idontwannadie🥲🥰

you don’t know what i been through
oh whoa i’m feeling blue
i don’t know what do
and girl it’s cuz of you
smoked a blunt and now i’m faded
mixed that shit with xans and now i’m wasted
i feel like i have been failing
this whole life is overrated

yah 
it’s over overrated
i can feel my memories fading
i don’t think that i can take this
i can’t fuck with no fake bitch
no i don’t want you to go
i can’t be left alone
i needa know
why you treat me like im a ghost
you don’t really need me at all
i wish i knew why you never call
you just left me broken and scarred
but fuck you bitch i’ll still go far
wont you come and hold me
i can’t take being this lonely
wont you come and hold me
i don’t wanna die alone please

i’m so sick of crying
every night i think of dying
i can’t take it 
i don’t think i’ll make it

xoxo [prod. Varela Katana]

my brains full of anxiety
i popped 5 xans but i still can’t sleep
there’s nothing left of me 
so let me rest in peace
i jus dropped a grand on a fit
i’ve spent way more on all this xanax
it sucks
life hurts i’ve had enough
i can’t cope without drugs

all i need is you and thats true
fuck a squad and fuck a crew
 ima do what ima do
and bitch i’m making moves
i don’t know 
where the fuck i’m sposed to go
i been lost and on my own
cuz this whole live’s a lonely road

anxious666 [prod. sciptix]

oh ah
uh
tear my heart out my chest
maybe that's for the best
'cause I'm distant lately
i don't think nobody cares
it's crazy
'cause nobody's ever there
they hate me
oh
yal so fuckin toxic
i don't know why I'm even here
i'll just keep on popping pills until I disappear
like magic
life is just a joke when you ain't nothing but an
nothing but an addict
nothing but an
nothing but an addict
i been trippin off these pills
i love the feel of it
ever since you left me
all I'm feeling is this emptiness
i think she resent me
she ain't respond to my messages
but it's all good
i'm jus lookin for another fix
smoking that kush
poppin these xans
anything to stop
all these panic attacks
been feelin so lost
but I'm still in my bag
i don't got no cough
but the syrup's still pouring
anything at all jus to make life less boring
ay
ay
ay
uh

addicted2u

NITELIFE

i been feelin hella crazy
everyday feels like the same thing
i don’t know my mind is hazy
on these xans i’m feelin wavy
yah
always stuck inside my head come save me
baby

i been dreaming of the money ya i’m chasing 
and that shawty all up on me but she faking
fake bitch
i can’t fuck with nobody except for me
sorry girl you just ain’t one for me
cuz you basic
you should face it
you ain’t that hard to replace bitch
i know
you’re the knife that’s at my throat
but at least i’m never lonely
feel the same like
life’s diluting
popped so many pills now everything confusing
ohh
off the acid life’s amusing
i’ll jus keep on moving
i’ll jus run away i can’t stay stuck

can’t stay stuck
can’t stay stuck 
i’ll jus run away i can’t stay stuck
always stuck inside my head come save me
baby

you just came into my life then left so
fuck it
ima do drugs till im feeling nothin
i just wanna pop pop pop pop off
i got these drugs in my bag talkin to the cops

art made by @softdevol

ifeel w/ ifeelsosmall [prod. kochan]

ay
just wait
i just needa minute
jus a lil bit of space
i been off them pills
i gotta pop em everyday
it’s all good
i been smokin on em joints n the backwoods
she jus switch the script up
yuh yuh
this ain’t even real love
yuh yuh
you were only playing my feelings like issa game
i keep poppin xanax to runaway from my pain
yeah i’m numbing all my feelings im never gun be the same
it’s already too late
my mind’s trapped inside a cage
and i won’t ever feel okay

oh oh
i’m lost
wont you please just hold me real close
i can’t get through this life all alone
i need you
think i’m jus a ghost
i’m see through
and empty
i need two more
please don’t tempt me ah
i’m in first bitch
you’re a runner up
i keep grinding
i can never stop
its perfect timing when im pulling up
ay
i jus chase that guap
she said that she love me but didn’t guess she a fraud
i keep all these drugs in my system to stay fucked up
‘cause i can’t trust love
i gave up on us
i’ll drown in my cup
‘cause life really sucks
it really does
i don’t got no time to pause
no brakes for real
i keep takin drugs until i’m ill

backwoods [prod. sneezii]

like my love is yours to use
make me go insane
i be fucked up in my brain
oh my god
oh my god
can’t be saved
what the fuck
oh my god
oh my god
can’t be saved
outta luck
fuck
oh my god
oh my god
can't be
outta luck
fuck
yuh yuh

what’s she drinking
shit she’s fienin
don’t worry bout it baby
pass me up another cup
cuz i’m not lit enough
party like it’s 2008
glitter all over the place

i’m a night owl
sleeping in the day
up all night with shawty getting geeked
i’m feeling wavy
i don’t think that ima ever stop
no one can save me
no one can save me
im stuck in my ways
life is jus a game 
and i’m here to fuckin play
play ay
life is just a game
and i’m here to play
ay

i don’t wanna talk right now 
staring at the ceiling
too much acid got me freaked out

2008 w/ ifeelsosmall

yeah she crazy
i could never trust a hoe
you ain’t gun play me
no way

i was with a baddie in a dream
off of 4 bars
nothin really ever as it seems
ima go far
be my costar
baby be my costar
we could go far
i been grinding so hard

all i do is hustle i been chasing down a bag
if u need some xannies hit me up
and send the addy
think i found a girl who really understand me
and i love it when she be calling me daddy
goddamn huh
she ain’t really want me jus my xans huh
it’s whatever i’ll jus count my bands up
i be sipping on my drink
yah
makin money in my sleep
yah

pop a bar n smoke a blunt
i put a 30 in my soda ay
i love mixing up my drugs
off a percy actin so dumb
i’m geeked
i don’t a give a fuck about thing nah

i was with a baddie in a dream
off of 4 bars
nothin really ever as it seems
ima go far
be my costar
baby be my costar
we could go far
i been grinding so hard
i was with a baddie in a dream
off of 4 bars
nothin really ever as it seems
ima go far
be my costar
baby be my costar
we could go far
i been grinding so hard

who is that lil shawty
ima make my move
she sayin that she want me
but she act so rude
even geekin i drip
30 in my body with the benzos i mix
i ain’t tying no lace but you know i don’t trip
ya
i’m jus askin what’s next
what next
i keep takin my meds
ya
‘cause it’s all in my head
goddamn

costar [prod. midnight]

benzos in my body
i love it
always poppin pillies i could never get enough bitch
bitch you’re so disgusting
fuck it
she ain’t ever love me
oh god
why can’t i get over roxy
leave me the fuck alone
swear to god she stalk me
shouldn’t answer my phone
cant get over roxy
can’t get over roxy
ughhh
fell in love with oxy
ughhh
i feel a zombie 
on god
but im chillin with my posse
my squad
if you gotta problem jus know we all stocked
on ammo
if you play try to play sum shit we’ll shoot you up like rambo
and then i’ll go n kiss my bitch n we’ll jus dip
no cares hoe
closed case
if ain’t about tha bag get tha fuck out my face
get tha fuck outta my way
i been grinding all day

benzos in my body
i love it
always poppin pillies i could never get enough bitch
bitch you’re so disgusting
fuck it
she ain’t ever love me
oh god
why can’t i get over roxy
leave me the fuck alone
swear to god she stalk me
shouldn’t answer my phone
cant get over roxy
can’t get over roxy
ughhh
fell in love with oxy
ughhh
i feel a zombie

roxxyy [prod. luvnote & owleeng]

i run away from my problems
'cause i know that i can't solve them
you hold me close and you say it's fine
look into my eyes, you know i'm not alright

you know i'm not okay so don't leave
you can tell me what you want
you can tell me what to be
i be really on my own
i ain't even got a team
shawty, why you playing games
why you mess around with me
my heart is broke
it's way past fixing
pass the liquor
now i'm sipping
my head's spinning like a beyblade
when you tell me to come over
i'm like, "on my way"
whoa
i'm all on my own
girl, just hit my line
yeah girl, just hit my phone

i been running
you can't catch me
where you going?
i been tripping

i'm not okay
but that's okay
wait, no it ain't
my life is lame
i wish that i could get away
but i'm stuck right here in this place
hey
just get me outta here
i'm like i
don't wanna rot in here
i might die
if i'm alone without you
so why
you chasing for the clout boo
i needed you
so why you treat me like i'm see through

2008 w/ ifeelsosmall

benedixhion