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Benedixhion

can you tell me where im going baby
pretty sure that i been going crazy
i been living life like its a fucking daydream
yeah
its a fucking daydream
i feel so numb
you abuse me with your love
that shit got me so fucked up
i only feel okay on drugs

you dont wanna love me trust me 
im hooked on codependency 
baby you gotta stay away from me 
im crazy 
nobody is saving me im waiting 
for an exit to the next bitch 
text quick 
got me feeling fucking restless
im a dead bitch 
got me screaming fuck it 
ending the discussion 
used to feel in love 
but now you got me feeling nothing

what the fuck
i hate you
this aint love
cant change you
i cant but
ima be fine uh ima be good
im poppin my xans and smoking backwoods
i should
be fine
i dont need you in my life
you dont make me feel alive
i just wanna feel alright
 but i think i might fucking die

daydrream w/ ifeelsosmall [prod lil buscuit]

you don’t know what i been through
oh whoa i’m feeling blue
i don’t know what do
and girl it’s cuz of you
smoked a blunt and now i’m faded
mixed that shit with xans and now i’m wasted
i feel like i have been failing
this whole life is overrated

yah 
it’s over overrated
i can feel my memories fading
i don’t think that i can take this
i can’t fuck with no fake bitch
no i don’t want you to go
i can’t be left alone
i needa know
why you treat me like im a ghost
you don’t really need me at all
i wish i knew why you never call
you just left me broken and scarred
but fuck you bitch i’ll still go far
wont you come and hold me
i can’t take being this lonely
wont you come and hold me
i don’t wanna die alone please

i’m so sick of crying
every night i think of dying
i can’t take it 
i don’t think i’ll make it

xoxo [prod. Varela Katana]

made this on insta live lol

lyrics:
you just tore a hole in my heart
i should’ve known your game from the start
im all alone i need to restart 
pour acetone all over my scars
i’m gone
nauseas off the oxy
fuck the cost
whyd you never call me
pills popped
it turns me to a zombie
i’m so lost
nobody can stop me

life is pain
i’m feeling like shit
i don’t know why i even exist
i tried to find a reason
but i decided living’s a bitch
you don’t care at all so i’m faded
lost my mind i’m way too sedated
cant stop it i’m always failing
i am not a soul worth saving 
not a souls worth saving
i feel like the whole world hates
i wish you wouldn’t play me
i just really need you baby

i hate the way that i feel
life doesn’t even feel real
i’m trapped inside my head again
these drugs my only friends
these drugs my only friends
i’m trapped inside my head again
i miss you baby
wont you come back and save me
i don’t know how to cope without you
honestly i’m so blue
i feel like i’m losing myself when i am around you
yeah
baby i know
you don’t even wanna take it slow
honestly we should just go hit the road
maybe do a couple tours
and do a couple shows
i just wanna see the world with you
i just wanna make your dreams come true
you said that you love me
hope you do
cuz u already know that i love you

acetone [prod. Atis x Deucesrk x CV]

benjis on my mind i ain’t stoppin
till i’m getting to the bag i be chasing the profit
shawty lookin so bad took my heart n she copped it 
they keep hating on my swag till the moment i’m poppin
go ahead and keep talkin
i said
i just popped 3 xans now i’m dead
i just wanna put 3 rounds in my head
i feel stuck
shawty doesn’t love me it’s only lust

uhuh
bitch you know i run it up
give no fucks
i jus want the cash
hundred on the dash
i been living fast as fuck
i like that
i been off the xans and blunts 
ain’t no cap
i don’t understand
wasn’t in the plan
now i can’t sober up
hate my past
got too many problems baby
i don’t think that i’m worth saving
i feel like the whole world hates me
i can barely function lately
i need more drugs
i could never get enough
put that syrup in my cup
uh
i feel so lonely
cuz nobody even knows me
no wonder i’m always floating

spotify </3

alwaysfloating [prod. exine]

ima hit your line up ina minute
you told me you loved me
but we both know that you didn’t
love it when you fuck me
it feels like i’m dreaming baby
i hope that you can save me

pulled up to the party fucked up
and shawty ain’t like it
i feel like i’m losing my soul
and girl i can’t fight this
i just need more pills in my skull 
before i get violent
yeah ay
before i get violent
you said that you needed me
but you ain’t really need a thing
no baby
you can’t fucking save me
i can’t trust a soul
already know your gunna play me

pulled up to the party fucked up
and shawty ain’t like it
i just need more pills in my skull 
before i get violent
oh
i can’t live my life if i’m not off a benzo
lil shawty grinding on me
she ain’t wanna take it slow
oh oh oh
shawty all up on me she ain’t wanna take it slow
life feels like a dream when i be off a benzo
i’m off too much i lost my soul

i ain’t gotta lot on my mind
except for you girl
i just wanna take up your time
and that’s the truth girl
i wanna make it to the bag
shawty on my lap
she be all up on me while i countin up my stacks
on god
if you gotta problem with me think that can be solved
lil bitch jus pull up
what the fuck
i been really living dangerous but this shit is fucking fun

snorting oxy straight to my lungs
i’m know i’m goin crazy
just wanna be xanned out for fun
so i’ll be chillin baby
i need another fuckin bar
already on three but i ain’t feel that shit at all

spotify

pulledup2thapartyfuckedup

life’s strange
everyday feels like it’s a game
might just die tonight
suicide
too many too many pills
i
my stomachs full of pills my lungs
are full of smoke cuz i can’t trust
nobody
i don’t think that she loves me
or does she 
cuz i can never get enough
i’m stuck on pills i need more drugs
i found another plug
but her love just ain’t enough
love is just another drug
cuz the moment she’s leaving
i’m feeling empty

and this life is deceiving
so please don’t tempt me
i might end it
not alive just pretending
i’m just pretending
yah
i’m just pretending till the moment life is ending
i’m stuck
i don’t wanna die like this
but i need more drugs
i can’t lie this shit
has got me so fucked up
yah
got me so fucked up
yah
this love or lust?

temptme [prod. chavez x itsmalloy]

everyday i wake up
i jus gun it
i feel like a monster
i'm disgusting
she drippin in makeup
telling me she love me
i'm so sick of fake love
got me feeling nothing
yah yah

i been off a subtance
yah yah
i jus fill my cup up
i be turning to the drugs for all my problems
kinda funny cuz that shit ain't ever even solve em
no way
i think that i'm dying
i'm drowning like everyday
losing to my demons
i think i'm going insane
catch me in the city
jus smoking my woes away

I jus needa reason
like why am i still alive
sometimes i be tweakin
my life feels like it's a lie
i been feelin so fucked up
but it's still not enough

disgusting

inthaMIRROR [prod. urbs]

im lost
i wish that you coulda found me
im stuck
and only darkness surrounds me

is this real
real
i been off too many pills
so is this real

why am i even alive
i pop pills just to get by
but those same pills gun end my life
i just wanna make it
ain’t it funny
everybody knows ain’t shit mean nothing 
i ain’t nothing
it’s true
without a substance in me boo
i know that you fucking hate it
when i’m so damn sedated
i don’t think i can take this
everyday i’m fucking failing
i don’t know if i can take this
everyday i’m fucking failing
i feel broken without you
i feel hopeless
i doubt you give a fuck
i feel lost and outta luck
then again
i was never lucky was i ben?
just it make it end
oh fuck
i think i took too much
i’m passed out on the ground
and no one’s trying to help me up
i get lost in all my problems
maybe you can help me solve them
i don’t really know
take my hand and please don’t let it go

is this real
real
i been off too many pills
so is this real
real
cuz i can’t even really tell
oh
cuz i can’t even really tell
oh
lil shawty see you down in hell

4evrsedated

poppin pills all night 
i’m never stopping
i’m so goddamn high
i’m in tha sky bitch
catch me up in outer space
flying a pilot
oh my god im wylin
pretty sure that my body’s dying
i don’t care i hate this whole life shit
ugh
i’m over it
i love my percs 
i love that bliss
yah

gun fuck that bitch til she cumming all on my dick
can’t stop tha pills ima addict
i really need more drugs
i can’t help it
i’m so selfish
you were playingg
you’re a lame 
i’m over that bitch they all the same
i can take no more of these fakes
yuh yuh yuh yuh
la la la la
hear you talking blah blah blah
shut tha fuck up oh my god

BLISS [prod weboy]

Congraulations! *ft. Jassiel*

you said you love me but you jus don’t
gotta problem with me, let’s go
bite down on it
no
quiet down wontcha
i won’t

i’m done eatin all my words
yeah
fuck what you say and what you heard
yeah
i couldn’t even give a fuck
most of yal be sheep 
ya never even woken up
fuck i’m running out
i think it’s time to hit the plug
i been smokin on a blunt
while i sip my double cup
bitch just shut the fuck up
you’re stuck up
i ain’t even wanna fuck yuh
i’m out bruh
had that shawty on my couch damn
kick her out yeah
whatchu mean
shawty whatchu mean 
you told me you’d be loyal but you fucking on my team
that’s why i can’t trust her
had to give her to the streets
she ain’t ever even love me
she jus wanna smoke my weed
been spending all my money
she jus wanna live for free
now you been spreading hate
‘cause you could never let me be
you talking like you know me
but you do not know a thing

acetone [prod. Atis x Deucesrk x CV]

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