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got too many drugs in my bag 
i popped 3 xans but i still feel sad
 life just sucks i feel like i’m dead
i wanna put 10 rounds in my head 

oh my god
i been off a lot
no one really needs me
no reason to stop
i wish i could live a life like you but
my whole life i’ve felt so useless

you just left me here on my own
and now i’m faded
i been tryna live this life all alone
but i can’t take it
i feel like this life ain’t worth it
i feel like i have no purpose
i feel so alone in my bedroom
don’t pick up the phone
i’ll be dead soon
i don’t know why i’m alive
i don’t know why i still try

you don’t really love me or need me 
everything you said was deceiving
you don’t really love me or need me
why am i even breathing

icantstop [prod. fly boi yoda]

only catch me outside when the lights out
gotta pop these benzos to feel fine now
oh well
tell that stupid bitch that i’ll see her down in hell
i aint give a shit how the fuck you couldnt tell
haha 
fuck bout what you sayin
always speakin blah blah
ima run the game
with these pills inside my bloodstream
please don’t trust me 
shit can get ugly
if you love me
if you love me
i jus need your love please

i feel like i’m nothing
i’m so empty
there ain't no point in pretending
what’s next
i cant really tell cuz i'm stuck inside the past
is life even real
i jus live inside my head
whoa
i'm still fucked up off my meds though
my whole life been goin sideways
got me fucked up on the highway
i might crash
again
aint no brakes
this life’s pretend

blah blah [prod. sneezii]

LOVELY [prod. sheepykid]

let me outta my cage
i feel so stuck and now i’m enraged
might fuck you up
i’m offa tha uppers
you a slut
don’t call me no lover
ugh ugh
i’m gone
i was off tha percies with xanax and lust
it’s a bad combination
im outta luck
and the reaper is waiting
not playing
but i feel amazing yah
but i feel amazing yah
i be gettin to tha bag
where tha fucks it’s at
ain’t nobody care about me at all
so i couldn’t give a fuck about it
 -bout it
fuck
thas jus how it goes
thas tha world we live in
i would fuckin know

can’t get out of bed if i don’t pop a benzo
my nightmares are becoming reality
i'm really pushing my self to insanity
what’s tha purpose of a glock when ur throats already slit
you’re in shock you’ll bleed out quick
and now there’s blood all on my ricks
ya
and now there’s blood all on my ricks

IFEELAMAZING

i feel like a demon
i be off it everyday
ion needa reason
i jus get to tweakin
shawty i’m so sorry
i’m done playin all these games
you jus left me bleeding
that was a mistake
i jus needa reset
don’t care what you say
might a pop a motherfucker on sight
hit that bitch right between tha eyes
now he paralyzed
i’m feelin like
i’m unstoppable
bitch i can’t stop winnin
destroying all of my obstacles
it’s improbable
but i’ll take that chance
tha devil’s jus tryna dance
inside my brain
tryna make me go insane
go insane
and it’s workin
fell in love with all tha pain
fuck these percies
guess im stuck inside my ways
ima burden
swear i try to change
nothings workin

likeADEMON😈 [prod sogimura]

scars

i been feelin empty
ever since she left me
fill that void with coke and percies
can’t believe that you’d desert me
but it’s fine
lil ho im aight
that’s jus life
no, i can’t rewind 
like
i don’t know what tha fuck im doing
i pop more pills when tha pain starts brewing
in love with thrills so i can’t stop moving

no i can’t
seem to stop tha pain in my head
hear a voice say im better dead
guess i’ll say goodbye to my friends
i 
wish that i still had a purpose
ever since a kid been searching
i can see my demons lurking
and i know they want to hurt me
should i let them
uh uh
this life pretend
uh uh
and i’m lost
but i know that i cannot stop
i can’t stop
i gotta keep on goin
living life in slomotion
ohh

voiid

i don't plan on getting older
but every night my heart gets colder
you do not call me when you're sober
just leave me to bleed out
i'm used to cold shoulders
love you but my hands are tied yah
i don't really love my life life yah
think i really want to die yah
love you but i hate my life yah

act like i'm alone
but i have a few friends
it's just lately i've been caught up on a quick and painless end
i just really wanna end it
you can call me pessimistic
but my life's the worst
and i really just hate this

collection 1

i think i really want to die

spotify <3

i think i really want to die (prod. gal.exe)

do you love me
i don’t know
i don’t understand a goddamn thing 
just erase me
let me go
i can’t even take the suffering

cant pick up the phone
i’m fucking wasted
just to make it on my own
i’m staying faded
everyday is a blur when your sedated
hope this music shit works i needa make it
cuz i’m right back
where i started
i hate feeling like that
disregarded
everyday i want my life back
disregard it
yah 
fuck feeling regret there’s no restarting

i’m fucked up in the backseat
got me luv drunk in a taxi
i don’t wanna love you if i’m only being used
so can i trust you
or will you put me in a tomb
yah
i wish that i could say i knew
yah
but i don’t
are you tryna play me
ion know
i feel like i’m failing
on my own
i feel like a ghost

it’s my head
i think that i’m broken
let me rest
you don’t even notice
that i’m dead baby
i think i’m drowning lately
yuh
oh
yuh
oh
one more
i’m feeling wavy
help me
i’m suffocating

grape ape soda [prod. thatboineco]

ion really get it
i don’t know
if it’s ending or beginning
you can go
i won’t even feel a difference
lil bitch
i jus want some ice to flood out my wrists
give a fuck about a price ion really give a shit
ion really give a fuck cuz 
i can’t
i feel so alone in
my head 
ion really got no feelings
i’m dead
bitch i jus pulled up
so high
been poppin pillies to survive
off a thirty i’m still hurting
what’s the reason i’m alive

i feel so dead
in the head
watch me fuck it up again
ima disappoint my friends
i can’t help it
i’m selfish
i want it all to end
yuh 
a fatal zen
yuh
already dead
you can blame the percocets
yuh
i got problems on problems
i don’t know how to solve em
i hate the life that i’m living
too many pills i look livid

junkie [prod. Jody]

i keep breaking and breaking
the world keeps taking and taking 
i got xanax in my bag
got your bitch she’s on my lap
need another percocet
i live each day like it’s my last
cuz it might be
honestly i’m fighting with myself
i should really get some help
you got me stuck under your spell
might as well
pop another
fucking pill
i don’t
even
know what’s real
you go back and forth in my head
off these drugs i feel like i’m dead
so dead
wish the world would let me rest
always got benzos on deck
you know i really need my meds
yeah
nineteen but i feel way older
i can’t ever get no closure
i just wish that it would be over
life is war but i’m not a soldier
goddamn
shawty was fucking on me
off xans
like it when u press up on me
like that
honestly i’m hella lonely
no one even really knows me
no one but you 
just you
i can make your dreams come true
but it’s too late for me boo
i’m overdosing in my room

i think i really want to die (prod. gal.exe)

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