I love this style of yours, one of my favorite tracks released recently. You're making beautiful works Ben, keep it going <3

it would be lovely, if you released this track on Spotify. Would go straight into my playlist, I love it so much 💊💜

oh ah
uh
tear my heart out my chest
maybe that's for the best
'cause I'm distant lately
i don't think nobody cares
it's crazy
'cause nobody's ever there
they hate me
oh
yal so fuckin toxic
i don't know why I'm even here
i'll just keep on popping pills until I disappear
like magic
life is just a joke when you ain't nothing but an
nothing but an addict
nothing but an
nothing but an addict
i been trippin off these pills
i love the feel of it
ever since you left me
all I'm feeling is this emptiness
i think she resent me
she ain't respond to my messages
but it's all good
i'm jus lookin for another fix
smoking that kush
poppin these xans
anything to stop
all these panic attacks
been feelin so lost
but I'm still in my bag
i don't got no cough
but the syrup's still pouring
anything at all jus to make life less boring
ay
ay
ay
uh

addicted2u

ay
just wait
i just needa minute
jus a lil bit of space
i been off them pills
i gotta pop em everyday
it’s all good
i been smokin on em joints n the backwoods
she jus switch the script up
yuh yuh
this ain’t even real love
yuh yuh
you were only playing my feelings like issa game
i keep poppin xanax to runaway from my pain
yeah i’m numbing all my feelings im never gun be the same
it’s already too late
my mind’s trapped inside a cage
and i won’t ever feel okay

oh oh
i’m lost
wont you please just hold me real close
i can’t get through this life all alone
i need you
think i’m jus a ghost
i’m see through
and empty
i need two more
please don’t tempt me ah
i’m in first bitch
you’re a runner up
i keep grinding
i can never stop
its perfect timing when im pulling up
ay
i jus chase that guap
she said that she love me but didn’t guess she a fraud
i keep all these drugs in my system to stay fucked up
‘cause i can’t trust love
i gave up on us
i’ll drown in my cup
‘cause life really sucks
it really does
i don’t got no time to pause
no brakes for real
i keep takin drugs until i’m ill

backwoods [prod. sneezii]

i stay high all the time
i don’t know why i try
i’m so sick of this life
i think i’d rather die 
so i stay high all the time
i don’t know why i try
i’m so sick of this life
i think i’d rather die
i been poppin oxy
mix it with the xanax
i feel like i’m nothing
can’t afford to panic
shawty tell me how you really feel
is this even fucking real
i don’t know
i don’t know what i’m doing
i think i might be delusional
i been poppin laced pills
hope you’re there at my funeral

i’m lost
i don’t know what to do
i’m so fucked
oh my god you were my glue
i needed you
i’m so stupid
i’m so fucking clueless
livin life was a mistake
everyday i fucking i waste
i hate it
i’m always so sedated
i’m so toxic
i had everything i wanted but i lost it all

funeral [prod dead yami]

oh
i’m so done bae
yuh

i’m so done babe
you was lying to me
you’re so two faced
always play tha victim
this whole loves fake
got me crying by myself
you were never there when i really needed help
no ever gave a fuck
fuck all these feelings
ima put it in my blunt
all these pillies gunna kill me
but it still hurts less love 
mixing xannies n tha percies
til im feelin hella crossed
you were playing with my heart
then you broke it
now im lying on the ground
overdosing
i’m moving cautious
i can’t trust a soul
i know that everybody’s toxic 

all fog
i’m so lost
don’t know where my mind has gone
everyone who said they cared was fucking lying
everyday im getting wasted i think im dying
i can’t take
so i grab a bottle and i face it
oh well
ima see you motherfuckers down in hell

i’m so done babe
you was lying to me
you’re so two faced
always play tha victim
this whole loves fake
got me crying by myself
you were never there when i really needed help
no ever gave a fuck
fuck all these feelings
ima put it in my blunt
all these pillies gunna kill me
but it still hurts less love 
mixing xannies n tha percies
til im feelin hella crossed
you were playing with my heart
then you broke it
now im lying on the ground
overdosing
i’m moving cautious
i can’t trust a soul
i know that everybody’s toxic 

i knew u were always two-faced
and i don't trust it
quit whining, you complain
it's not attractive
i'm getting tired of how u talk
cus ur invasive
and u always had to run your mouth
ur so complacent
now i'm solo
get away from me
i'm on my own
independency
oh every pains slow
i just try to breathe
build up stamina
cause my lungs weak

2FACED w/ heylog

whoa
i feel so sick of this
bitch you’re too much
my brain’s so dead
i feel like a rotting corpse
ya in my head
stuck in my head

i feel so sick of this
bitch you’re too much
my brains so dead
i feel like a rotting corpse
in my head
way too often stuck inside my thoughts
i’m fucked up
couldn’t even give a damn bitch
i love drugs
and i’m on a different planet
to run
damn bitch
i love drugs
and i’m on a different planet
to run

chasing down a bag
‘cause that shit gives me a distraction 
everybody knows this whole life has no traction
no real meaning

but i’m here for your love girl
my only reason
i’m always tweakin
monday to sunday catch me always geekin
ain’t gun lie
wish that i could make things right
but i can’t
too late
it’s too late
ain’t no way

brain’s so dead
i feel like a rotting corpse
ya in my head
stuck in my head

i feel so sick of this
bitch you’re too much
my brains so dead
i feel like a rotting corpse
in my head
way too often stuck inside my thoughts
i’m fucked up
couldn’t even give a damn bitch
i love drugs
and i’m on a different planet
to run
damn bitch
i love drugs
and i’m on a different planet
to run

corpse [prod. shades]

ay
i was out in public
always got my percies on my me 
i was raised with a cold heart
in tha trenches im so sorry 
brodie
i ain’t wanna do it
you was fuckin with my mission homie
oh
except that you ain’t even really matter tho
i destroy that pussy like im destroying this flow
and you know i’m fuckin geekin everytime i do a show
on god
yes i know
i’m lost
thas fo show
uhuh

look
i was out in public
always got my percies on my me 
i was raised with a cold heart
in tha trenches im so sorry 
brodie
i ain’t wanna do it
you was fuckin with my mission homie
oh
except that you ain’t even really matter tho
i destroy that pussy like im destroying this flow
and you know i’m fuckin geekin everytime i do a show

oh whoa
oh whoa
you can catch me trappin
got sum xanax for a bad bitch
when she hit my line she be fienin
she an addict
ya ya
i be chasing down tha bands bitch
i be chasing down a bad bitch
oh
oh whoa
ay
this tha life i live
ignorance is bliss
real shit

mnstr

my life’s falling apart
wish i could jus restart
but it’s already over
my souls already gone
my life’s falling apart
there’s nothing left but scars
i’m staring out my window
while sitting in tha dark

i just wish this life was painless
pop more pills cause i can’t take it
no i can’t take it
life just sucks
i’m over this

you left me feeling empty
you left me feeling dead
i wish it’d just be over
my life’s a fucking mess
you left me feeling empty
and nows there’s nothing left
i do not have a purpose
i might as well be dead

my life’s falling apart
wish i could jus restart
but it’s already over
my souls already gone
my life’s falling apart
there’s nothing left but scars
i’m staring out my window
while sitting in tha dark

inthaDark

you were only tryna hurt me 
so i had to cut you off
cause i don’t give a fuck about a thing
no not at all
i be off tha percies everyday
i needa stop
but i don’t give a fuck about a thing
no not at all
i don’t give a fuck about a thing
so please don’t call
you were only tryna hurt me 
so i had to cut you off
cause i don’t give a fuck about a thing
no not at all
i don’t give a fuck about a thing
no not at all

dreaming of tha money
i was dreaming of tha bands
i was sitting in tha dark
until i finally made plan
i mix benzos with my fent
you ain’t my friend
n i know that
can’t take no more you’re a vex
my life is hell filled with regret
i’m jus wondering what’s next
but i keep on grindin
i never can ever stop 
this life is jus a pain
i fuckin hate it
thas why im always so sedated
i don’t know if i can take this
they tell me they love me
but i know they jus fuckin faking
oh well
thas life

idgafukk [prod quel]

you were so fake
numb my brain
to help me deal with it
i feel so dead
i’m insane
i am my own damn victim
you were so fake
numb my brain
to help me deal with it
i feel so dead
i’m insane
i am my own damn victim


bottomless pit inside my head
wish that i could get some rest
but nah
i can never pause
everything i try is not enough
well fuck
so i always turn to drugs
no duh
‘cause your love jus really ain’t enough
no it ain’t enough
i need pills my brains so fucked

gone
i needed you
you’re gone
i’m fiendin
for your love
i needed you
but you’re gone
guess im not enough

ohh
ohh
ohh
ohh
ohh
oh no
i can’t let go

martyr :/ [prod. spacecore]

waste [prod. fewtile]

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LYRICS:

(benedixhion)
i don’t wanna talk at all
you said you love me but you don’t
you never fucking call
not at all
once had feelings
now i’m fucking numb
hope the end comes quickly
no one’s gunna miss me
miss when you would kiss me
now i guess i’m better off alone
tell my mamma i ain’t comin home

(cyzun)
I really hate my life 
I wasted so much time 
You played with my mind 
I’m leaving you in the past 
Because of you I’m sad 
But i want you back 
I’m taking these drugs so I can’t feel
It makes it much easier to fucking heal
It’s killing me slowly but I’m still here
My minds getting fucked up can I disappear

(benedixhion)
i don’t wanna talk at all
you said you love me but you don’t
you never fucking call
not at all
once had feelings
now i’m fucking numb
hope the end comes quickly

martyr :/ [prod. spacecore]

benedixhion

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