love the vocal in this sm. delivery is wild


lyrics

I drifted somberely into the trees
disappeared suddenly took all the memories
Doused us in kerosene
I started pulling out my rotted teeth

cope with it, smoke thru it
break my fucking spine, do it
tear up my insides, spewin 
tryna take my time, knew it
nothing but a pawn
killed a night, took his horse
Rode up to the castle and came knocking at his door
welcome to the nightshift 
sleep was never that inviting
all these dogs have took to fighting
why was bloodshed so inviting to u 
blood falls down, drips from my nose
it's a stark contrast, dark red in the snow
hands worn down, right down to bone
u can hear my pain in the things that I damn wrote

decks

so they pulled out their knives and they want me to run
I couldn't live with the web I had spun
danger is my best friend
I wasn't ready for the end

take my life, all the words that I have spoken 
I have sacrificed time for people that are broken
and I no longer want to be here
pressure resulted in fear
and now I sleep and I wake and I fall back down 
how the fuck do I say how I'm feeling now?

so conscious of what I've done 
this life is awful and fades to nothing. 

chess ft. decks (jolst)

i really cant thank you all enough for everything you've done.
the love, support, nice comments, everything. you have no idea
how much it truly means to me, but trust me when i say; it keeps me alive.

empty, yeah yeah
this life is
getting boring
kinda old
sold my soul for a bowl
never know
when im in the spotlight
so i hope and go
when im hitting two million a month
i hope yo bitchass knows
that you aint contribute to my growth, baby
kiss my road <3
done shit
kiss my road,
mwah.
baby ur mind got froze, time broke
all the words u regular sorta got bold
i would try to help u but u paved ur own road like,
bitch, you did this urself
hooked on some weed 
and some nic just to cope 
with the fact that its always ur fault, man,
i wish that i wasn't ur fault
i wish that it wasn't ur fault
ill sing till my vows turn to all
ill stay till i die, and sit upon my throne to say "i did it all"
yeah, and i hope one day
i could say i came from nothing
just to be okay for me
all for me
itll be beautiful
i wont ever wanna die again
no worries
ion got a penny in my bank account
but i know that itll all balance out
its all in faith
well i got god on my side
maybe not him, but someone will do
someone, anyone, someone,
well i got me on my side
and i got lean and ill be alright yeah
- - - - - -
this life is
getting boring
kinda old
sold my soul for a bowl
never know
when im in the spotlight
so i hope and go
when im hitting two million a month
i hope yo bitchass knows
that you aint contribute to my growth, baby
kiss my road <3
done shit
kiss my road,
mwah.
baby ur mind got froze, time broke
all the words u regular sorta got bold
i would try to help u but u paved ur own road like,
bitch, woops, its on ur hands
hooked on some weed 
and some nic just to cope 
with the fact that its always ur fault, man,
i wish that i wasn't ur fault
wash my hair every month
suffer all alone, in my bed, one on one
these complications are purely mental
maybe physical, but i can get over it :( 
itll be beautiful..
i wont ever wanna die again..
no worries
ion got a penny in my bank account
but i know that itll all balance out.

time broke (farber)

it's the way that you said w/ keeper

made this one with fucking covid LMFAOO

Lyrics:

song's out
i don't fuck with trash 
even living in this dumpster baby
comedown
you could not survive in my head for a sec my lady
come down
we were on good terms 
can we talk 
i need someone lately
suns out
it feels like it's not from this room i had holed up safely in

(instrumental i let go for a while because i think it's pretty LOL)

song's out
i don't fuck with trash 
even living in this dumpster baby
comedown
you could not survive in my head for a sec my lady
come down
we were on good terms 
can we talk 
i need someone lately
suns out
it feels like it's not from this room i had holed up safely in

song's out
i don't fuck with trash 
even living in this dumpster baby
comedown
you could not survive in my head for a sec my lady
come down
we were on good terms 
can we talk 
i need someone lately
suns out suns out
come down come down

-

song's out
i don't fuck with trash 
even living in this dumpster baby
comedown
you could not survive in my head for a sec my lady
come down
we were on good terms 
can we talk 
i need someone lately
suns out
it feels like it's not from this room i had holed up safely in

everybodys sick in the head
this shit gettin worse

patient zero

I'm tired being upset 
i feel like a cigarette might calm my brain 
but i dont wanna smoke it 
it makes me feel sick, sick in the streets again
and when im in own head 
i feel like i need my gun just to ease my pain 
i kinda wanna see death
next time im in this mood i'll swerve the lane 

swerve the lane 

they dont know 
when im in this state 
im like a boat on the sea 
and im ready to sink 

i wish
the best for you 
i hope 
you'll find the guy who treats you right





lowkey down bad :/

heartsick (p4ra x 5head)

https://open.spotify.com/track/3PMZOguzvVjniDrURFbpdL?si=84e189e1d5984fc1

really hope u guys like this one. put my god damn everything into it :)
prod by my bro/the goat @blvnkface & @012207 on guitar!!! 🖤
cover artwork done by @hh3vc <3

they don't wanna 
cut me off these vines
shit's outta control
this is quite the haul

i'm blessed with 
friction of the mind
i gave it my all
BUT THIS IS GETTING OLD

red bleeds into green
i can see it through my chest
i'm seen as a fiend
who doesn't deserve what he gets
if you're talkin down on me
i'm tellin' karma do it's best
if you're fuckin' with the scene
I'M COMIN' STRAIGHT AFTER YOUR HEAD

i'm an addict; is it adding up???
never passive
don't think that i've had enough 

read a passage
it told me "mass erupt"
so i damaged
EVERYONE I KNEW AND LOVED

AND IT'S TEARING ME UP
(OH IT'S TEARING ME UP)
BUT I'M NOT GIVING UP
(NO I'M NOT GIVING UP)
LOVE IN THE WORSTEST OF WAYS
THAT'S HOW I WITHER AWAY
STUCK INSIDE THIS FRAGILE FRAME
AND IT'S BURNING ME UP

(it's never too late)
(to disintegrate)

letting karma do it's thing
don't you worry about me
even in a state of panic
i can manage how to breathe
it doesn't matter if you brace
imma break your fuckin' face
i can tell they're in a trace
by the way they retaliate

the reptile; it lays awake
in hope the sun will finally fade
for colder blood is due today
if i corrupt, dissect my brain

AND IT'S TEARING ME UP
(AND IT'S TEARING ME UP)
BUT I'M NOT GIVING UP
(YEAH)
LOVE IN THE WORSTEST OF WAYS
THAT'S HOW I WITHER AWAY
STUCK INSIDE THIS FRAGILE FRAME
AND IT'S BURNING ME UP

vines [prod. blvnkface x baz]

nevrfall sequel 😈

shoutout @ztope for mix and mastr

lyrics

the pallets warm so i cant call it art
ripping teeth, picking skin leaves a mark
liquor pours, while our eyes at th stars 
its not much but i call it a start 

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 
when i hurt i evolve my dear
painting pictures all alone there’s nothing more i fear

ill wait, wait for u to call my name 
uh, but
we dont got long i wont be forming greys
hey,
this aint my fault i was saved 
had no choice, i was left in acid rain
 

no, now u jus stabbin me
dont, dont let me off easy
woah i cant tell if this a dream 
mirror always fogs when i think i know what i see

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 

pulled on strings oh im more than aware
oh im not lost i just reak of despair

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 
when i hurt i evolve my dear
painting pictures all alone there’s nothing more i fear

the pallets warm so i cant call it art
ripping teeth while picking skin leaves a mark
liquor pours, while our eyes at th stars 
its not much but i call it a start 

paying fees to the dark and unstable
sparks flare as the tags on the toes are unabaled
hearts warm but its taking its toll on the brain
step forward, im in need of updating

everythings gonna be ok

everythings gonna be ok (nevrfall)

got a lot more drops coming after this one, let's fuckin GOOOOO
show sum love to the homie @betweentheveinsandi MF put his body through hell to get this verse in LMAOOO

lyrics:

[hero]

all the tears I cried
falling apart
now I closed my heart
to open when its over
i cannot do this shit
i cannot push on forth
huh didn't wanna die this way
but it was jus not my choice

aching on my skin so bad can't even check my cell phone
i can write my verses but i freeze up on an outro
harmonies conflicting in my head with the electrodes
lost so many people its jus procedure till it takes its toll
yea coddle me baby
give me a person i know is worth saving
over the pettiest shit they are calling me crazy
i cannot trust nearly anyone lately
got me self reflecting
got me second guessing
jus gon kill this song so hard they think im a perfect specimen

I evolve thru every song
yet dont know how I survive
my friends jus tend to move along
while natural selections take my side

[betweentheveinsandi]

who had a clue id die this way
all of the doctors said the same
he'll but a blade right thru his veins
something had went wrong deep in his brain
look at the way he respond to pain
getting back up to punch u in the face
i got this fury deep root deep in this plane
i gotta let this hurt just burn and give me super strength
The pain is only ever there to make u stronger
most be tapping out when i say i can do it longer
take me at my word that pain can turn u to a super soldier
look at this bud i swear im smoking boulders

[hero]

yea coddle me baby
give me a person i know is worth saving

[betweentheveinsandi]

friends switch up n form habits of taking
ill write a diss and keep personals vacant

[hero]

got me self reflecting
got me second guessing

[betweentheveinsandi]

our brains work just the same and thats how i know ur wrong

[both]

I evolve thru every song
yet dont know how I survive
my friends jus tend to move along
while natural selections take my side
I evolve thru every song
yet dont know how I survive
my friends jus tend to move along
while natural selections take my side

just procedure w/ betweentheveinsandi (autrioly)

hate u ft. sendflowrs (sorrow bringer)

prod. tracyxo x joshbae

see me blowing rainbows
i dont care bout you hoes
im on my ten toes
ran around this dome
(if we're talking bout it,)

i dont give no shit about a ciggarette pack
i dont care about frozen time
uh huh?
i dont care about golden why?'s
uh huh
this shit bothers me
i dont wanna deal with the shit in my head
i just wanna smoke white runtz till im dead
thoughts come up from the bottom of my mind
aye, i gotta climb back up, i gotta wake up
i dont wanna be late!
i dont know what to say :(
i dont wanna be anyone i try and replicate
5:00 am, waste of time, oh my god..
6:00 am, and im tired as fuck

it still wont wake me up
thc in my gut
faded or nothing bruh
this preroll is all for us
we're living like we're still dumb
who am i kidding?
no one does it better than you.
no one will bother me anymore
dont lie
dont try
dont cry to me anymore
i painted the walls exactly like i wanted to
the stripes i made were pink and blue for you
will you be okay..?

(you were only a momment away)

dont, even bother
coming back.
im sorry,
but im not.
I'M TIRED OF THIS COLD WAR!
I'M TRYNA HELP MYSELF AGAIN!
I'M TRYNA BE ANYONE

up,
i gotta wake up ')
DONT WANNA BE LATE
I DONT WANNA BE ANYONE I TRY TO REPLICATE
FIVE AM WASTE OF TIME OH MY GOD
SIX AM AND IM TIRED AS FUCK
AND DONT WANNA WAKE UP.
ah...
ah...
can you run that by me once again :(?
ah..
ah
i dont know, how else i will-
(find some comfort in my home again)
THIS ROCKING CHAIR DONT FEEL THE SAME
THE PORTRAIT FELL AND SOMETHINGS CHANGED

the portrait fell, & something changed

so where you been gurl lately it's been hard not to notice
lately you been feeling like a walking diagnosis
suspended in the air still kicking at your chair
if you need me here i'mma stay right here
i'mma keep you here so safe from the other side
and i'mma hit you with the truth i'm sick of all the blues
but i ain't walking out on you; i'm scared of finding you suspended in the air still kicking at your chair
don't you dare
but i ain't got the capability
physically or forcefully to change your mind
draw a line, stay this side, promise me
you'll call me the moment you feelin low
it's like your soul went cold right now
gotta bring you back somehow
i'm anxious, i'm nauseous
i'm pale as death's horse is
i wanna carry on but i'm just exhausted
don't wanna have to leave but the sleep is creepin over me
i have to trust you'll get better
won't you stay with the living?
won't you stay with me

i already broke this promise [prod. droozy]

(mostly) songs i wrote about a girl i no longer know

chess ft. decks (jolst)

betweentheveinsandi

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