This song started out many years ago as a novelty party spoof on blues. I would ad lib the lyrics and improvise an accompaniment on acoustic guitar which meant no two performances were ever the same. See Retrospection’s Facebook page for a sample.

Recently I decided to do a serious blues rock version and this current track has been inspired by the blues rock style of Eric Clapton and the licks by other blues artists. The lyrics still do contain just a little hint of the mischievous fun from the old party days.

Back Fence Blues

"Last Call" is a pop-rock ballad about pouring your heart into something without any immediate payoff — and wondering if you should keep going. It captures that three-feet-from-gold moment, when exhaustion sets in and the dream (personified as “you”) feels distant, yet your heart knows it’s yours. Rooted in perseverance, it’s a reminder to hold on even when the world gives you every reason to walk away. Drawn from my own journey — leaving India to pursue music in the U.S., with family half a world away — the song blends synthy textures with rock guitars and drums, beginning with a spacey openness and building into a gritty, anthemic climax: a sonic embodiment of resilience.

Lyrics:

Took a plunge off the pier
Shook hands with my fears
Struck a deal with hope
All just to hold you close

Haven't seen my family in years
Learnt to laugh, love through my tears
Crossed the seven seas
But you don't seem to see

The way I try hard to make you mine
Yet you turn away
(You) find someone else to bless,
to take my place

How u wander though you know
You can make me your home
And I don't know where to stop
I go on, on, on…

To my last call
Once (and) for all
I've waited way too long
Here's the last one
Then I'm done
But you're my only one
Maybe I'm foolish, maybe I'm vain
but I can't go on living this way
it's the last call
(The) last one
then I will be gone

Now I've made a few mistakes
And that's how we up the stakes
I've found peace in that face
And love in myself
Tryna be with you has taught me the best
And all I ask from you is a yes, yes

In the last call
Once (and) for all
(I've) waited (for) way too long
Here's the last one
then I'm done
You're my only one
Maybe I'm foolish, maybe I'm vain
But (I)can't go on living this way
Here’s the last call
(The) last one
then I will be gone

Last Call

This is the musical journey accompanying the harrowing events of Book 3 of "Hinter uns das Land" ("Behind Us The Land"), a poignant novel by Frank Talmon l'Armée. As the war closes in, the Feyerabend family, along with countless others, is forced to make the heart-wrenching decision to flee their beloved home in East Prussia. This collection of 16 tracks captures the emotional turmoil and the perilous journey that unfolds, painting a vivid sonic picture of a family caught in the midst of historical upheaval.

Book 3 plunges the listener into the chaos and fear of the final days of the war in East Prussia. The once-familiar streets of Danzig (now Gdańsk) become a haunting labyrinth of desperation and uncertainty as Inge and her family navigate the treacherous path to the harbor. The music reflects the growing tension, the ever-present threat, and the agonizing choices forced upon those seeking refuge. You will sense in the music the desperation of many refugees, but also their determination to survive.

The journey culminates in the boarding of the "Lappland," a vessel overflowing with refugees, all carrying their own stories of loss and hope. As the ship embarks across the vast and unforgiving Baltic Sea, the music evokes the vastness of the ocean, the precariousness of their situation, and the uncertain future that awaits them. You can hear in the sounds the inner turmoil of the characters: the children who do not yet fully comprehend what is happening and the adults who try to hold on to hope in the face of unimaginable fear.

From haunting melodies that echo the emptiness of a lost home to surging orchestrations that mirror the turbulent sea, this soundtrack captures the full spectrum of human emotion in times of war. Moments of quiet reflection are interspersed with powerful, driving rhythms, reflecting the resilience and determination of those who refuse to give up hope, although they know their lives will never be the same.

This musical collection offers a unique and immersive experience, drawing the listener deeper into the world of "Hinter uns das Land." It's a testament to the enduring power of family, the unwavering human spirit, and the search for peace amidst the ravages of war.

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Life’s Uncertain Path Leads Us

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Lyrics 

Truth hits you hard

Blame the world for what you've been through.
Never think about what you could do.
Victim mentality, with chains of doubt.
holding you back, nothing to be proud.
Life is yours, it's time to scream!
Stop pointing fingers, live your dream!

Look in the mirror, what do you see?
A broken reflection, but never me.
Point at the world and scream loud,
Drown in your sorrow, hide in the crowd.
Excuses that tower around your heart, 
Yes, the truth hits you hard.

Blame the past for every tear you shed.
Over and over again, like a record on repeat.
Can't overcome your parents' mistakes.
step into the fire and find your own path.
Friends can't heal you, feel never complete.
World keeps turning, you're stuck in defeat.

Look in the mirror, what do you see?
A broken reflection, but never me.
Point at the world and scream loud,
Drown in your sorrow, hide in the crowd.
Excuses that tower around your heart, 
Yes, the truth hits you hard.

You want redemption, are you willing to pay?
Face your fears, nothing more to say.
It's not about them, it's all about you.
You have the power, so what will you do?

Look in the mirror, what do you see?
A broken reflection, but never me.
Point at the world and scream loud,
Drown in your sorrow, hide in the crowd.
Excuses that tower around your heart, 
Yes, the truth hits you hard.
Hits you hard.

© Sarima 

#music therapy 

Truth hits you hard

The original version: https://soundcloud.com/axioms-of-mediocrity/echoes-of-doubt

Email chimes, her paper rejected
Doubt whispers, on path selected
"Am I good enough?" her heart oppressed
By impostor's syndrome, her confidence suppressed

In the echoes of doubt, she finds her voice
Rising strong, she makes her choice
In the echoes of doubt, she stands firm
With every fall, she lives, she learns

Letters slide, tenure denied, dreams now dejected
Futures blurred, on roads once projected
"Have I done enough?" his spirit contested
By impostor's syndrome, his hopes oppressed

In the echoes of doubt, he finds his voice
Rising strong, he makes his choice
In the echoes of doubt, he stands firm
With every fall, he lives, he learns

Surrounded by brilliance, in the academic sea
"Are they better than us?" whispers insecurity
Each publication, each award they secure
Deepens the doubt we try to endure

In the echoes of doubt, we find our voice
Rising strong, we make our choice
In the echoes of doubt, we stand firm
With every fall, we live, we learn
With every fall, we live, we learn

Do I really deserve to be here?
How did I get this far?
Am I good enough?
Am I smart enough?
Am I brave enough?
How long can I keep this up?
Why do I feel like a fraud?

You're not alone, we've all been there
Plagued by doubts, consumed by fear
Welcome to the club, where we all belong
You are good enough, you are strong

You're not alone, we've all been there
Plagued by doubts, consumed by fear
Welcome to the club, where we all belong
You are good enough, you are strong

Echoes of Doubt (Acoustic Version)

Regina Coelis is the fourth track on my album Requiem Quia Magnus Vir (Requiem for a Great Man) which you can hear in full here: https://on.soundcloud.com/FQqvajLNpsmiTzXr6

It is a celebration of the mercy and justice of the Queen of Heaven.

Vere dignum et iustum est, justum et salutare, nos tibi semper et ubique gratias agere, regina coeli, mater misericordiae, ut qui ex certa mortis conditione contristantur, futurae immortalitatis promissione consolentur. 

Ob gratiam tuam, vita mutatur, non aufertur: et temporalis domus terrestris huius peregrinationis aeternae in caelis habitaculo comparatur. 

Et ideo cum Angelis et Archangelis, cum Thronis et Dominationibus, cum omni militia caelestis exercitus, hymnum canimus ad gloriam tuam.

It is truly right and just, just and salutary, that we should always and everywhere give thanks to you, dear Queen of Heaven, Mother of Mercy, so that those who are saddened by the certain condition of death may be comforted by the promise of future immortality. 

Due to your grace, life is changed, not taken away: and the temporary home of this earthly sojourn is compared to an eternal dwelling in heaven. 

And therefore with Angels and Archangels, with Thrones and Dominions, with all the host of the heavenly host, we sing a hymn to your glory.

As ever, huge thanks to @APi_ZZ for mixing and help with the covers.

4. Regina Coelis

I can't think of a single thing to say about this track, except I'm grateful to @APi_ZZ for teaching me how to change BPMs on drum tracks and also his inspired titling of the cover.

Crocodile

Except For God’s Grace

Dreamy. Psychedelic. Soulful. It's the kind of music that washes over you like a warm tide, pulling you into a hazy, sun-drenched daze. This is indie-pop with a cosmic twist, blending shimmering synths and reverb-soaked guitars with a smooth, soulful groove. It’s perfect for late-night drives, lazy Sunday afternoons, or anytime you want to get lost in a soundscape that's both melancholic and uplifting.

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Didn’t Hurt

All We Are

An Epic Novel. A Sonic Universe. One True Story.

Welcome to the sonic universe of "Behind Us The Land" (Hinter uns das Land). What began as a soundtrack for an epic historical novel has evolved into a global, cross-genre music phenomenon, celebrated by millions of listeners and a worldwide community of artists.

Discover the different worlds within this project:

The official soundtrack to the 80-year true story of the Feyerabend family.

The epic progressive metal of the virtual band Adelheide's Wisdom.

The chart-topping indie pop of the virtual artist Ulla F.

Helmed by author, producer, and lifelong music curator Frank Talmon l'Armée, this project is the result of a deep-seated passion for music and storytelling. As the human visionary, he employs a hybrid method of traditional songwriting and the pioneering use of AI tools as his "orchestra" to bring this monumental saga to life.

This is a place for deep listeners, for fans of epic stories and genre-defying music. Dive in, explore the albums and playlists, and become part of a story that connects the past with the future.

At its heart, 'Behind Us The Land' is more than just the 80-year story of one German family. It's a universal parable about loss, resilience, and the unbreakable will to build a new home from the ruins – a story that repeats itself tens of thousands of times every single day, all over the world. Our music aims to give a voice to this universal experience and to inspire courage.

A Beyond & Before Music production.

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Ein Romanepos. Ein Klanguniversum. Eine wahre Geschichte.

Willkommen im Klang-Universum von "Hinter uns das Land". Was als Soundtrack zu einem epischen historischen Roman begann, hat sich zu einem globalen, genre-übergreifenden Musikphänomen entwickelt, das von Millionen von Hörern und einer weltweiten Community von Künstlern gefeiert wird.

Entdecken Sie die verschiedenen Welten innerhalb dieses Projekts:

Den offiziellen Soundtrack zur 80-jährigen, wahren Saga der Familie Feyerabend.

Den epischen Progressive Metal der virtuellen Band Adelheide's Wisdom.

Den chartstürmenden Indie-Pop der virtuellen Künstlerin Ulla F.

Geführt von Autor, Produzent und Musik-Kurator Frank Talmon l'Armée, ist dieses Projekt das Ergebnis einer lebenslangen Leidenschaft für Musik und das Erzählen von Geschichten. Als menschlicher Visionär nutzt er eine hybride Methode aus traditionellem Songwriting und dem wegweisenden Einsatz von KI-Werkzeugen als sein "Orchester", um diese monumentale Saga zum Leben zu erwecken.

Dies ist ein Ort für anspruchsvolle Hörer, für Fans von epischen Geschichten und genre-sprengender Musik. Tauchen Sie ein, erforschen Sie die Alben und Playlists und werden Sie Teil einer Geschichte, die die Vergangenheit mit der Zukunft verbindet.

Im Herzen ist 'Hinter uns das Land' mehr als nur die 80-jährige Geschichte einer deutschen Familie. Es ist eine universelle Parabel über Verlust, Widerstandsfähigkeit und den unzerbrechlichen Willen, aus den Trümmern eine neue Heimat zu schaffen – eine Geschichte, die sich täglich zigtausendfach auf der ganzen Welt wiederholt. Unsere Musik soll dieser universellen Erfahrung eine Stimme geben und Mut machen.

Ein Projekt von Beyond & Before Music.

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