i fuck things up from insecurity
i ruin that seem too good to me
you're the same old song that's stuck on repeat
i wonder when i'll just stop listening

there's no turning back from all the things i said
you've always made me stronger than i've ever been
tell me if it's too late, if i should go away
i can understand if you're over it

am i delusional
asking myself why i'm so broken inside
i guess i can say it's unusual
how it feels to mourn a part of you that died

if i can't be your lover
i don't wanna be your fucking friend
i'll waste my time in another
i still have hope this won't end

time doesn't exist when your heart is grieving
your eyes tell me this is worth believing

i know it's you and i can't be wrong
no amount of self-love could make me not want you
how many times can i push you away
how can i find a healthy escape

TETHER

the universe keeps blessing me
but i feel like i’m being ungrateful for all the things that are granted to me
as time goes on i realize how much i needed you by my side
but we were running out of time

but your hand fits in mine
and you’re always on my mind
you’re tryna ruin my life
and i don’t know why

so who are you running from
i guess it’s all your demons
i’m not the one who’s gonna sit and stay
when i don’t know what to say

i deeply crave a connection
but they seem to be lost in translation
taking my friends like i don’t deserve them
i mean i guess i don’t
because they were yours first
but i don’t wanna be the one that’s always getting hurt

angel wings on me

i got bitches in my phone
thinkin that i am the one
when i’m not tryna bring em home

he wanna freak it in the bathroom
oh, and we fucked on his couch too
i know he wanna see what that mouth do
oh fr?
asking like he’s too scared to
get involved with a bitch like me
everytime i’m out why you stressin me 
finessin me, it feels like you’re hexin me
you best believe this ain’t shit you’ve ever seen

why do i feel like i’m missing something from my mind
when all i do is sit and waste away inside

coochie love
coochie magic
coochie everything
forget the rest ‘cause i’m the best 
i’m all you need

i’ll text you first but it’s performative 
i burn out so fast i don’t know what normal is
probably won’t reply to strangers on the internet
it’s just because i’m not impressed
stepping out of my comfort zone
only when i’m manic
it’s all i’ve ever known
people think i’m stupid ‘cause i hold my tongue
no one knows i feel so deeply even though i’m just so young

i hate this it all sounds the same 
it just makes things worse ‘cause they can’t feel the shift inside my brain
no stimulation, no connection promised
i don’t know maybe i’m just being way too honest

they wanted longer songs, gave it to them 
but no one listened to the words that i had written
i kept coding everything in fucking metaphors
because it would’ve opened all the doors to
the inside of my mind, everything that i feel all the time
cant tell who’s wrong or who’s right
different colors change in my mind
i reference all my older songs
repeating thoughts ive had before
but i fear that no ones listening

i hate this it all sounds the same 
it just makes things worse ‘cause they can’t feel the shift inside my brain
no stimulation, no connection promised
i don’t know maybe i’m just being way too honest

HONEST

Piano X Trap X brACiD X Experimental Type Beat (Prod: brACiD)

Crash

Whatever ***(BANDLAB)

ESTHXER x TWENTYTHREE - SILVER SULPHATE
prod. NXM1NAL / Mastered by @witchboiii | ESTHXER
Shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/twentythree777 ! much love.
TWENTYTHREE - https://soundcloud.com/twentythree777
https://www.instagram.com/twentythree.xx/

OFFICIAL AMV/MUSIC VIDEO OUT NOW - https://www.youtube.com/@esthxer

Lyrics:

ESTHXER:

Hook:
Social apathy, I feel it's stain, so venomous
Dusk over Dawn, she weeps, so poisonous
Dark light in the woods, be ever so cautious
Darkness overdrawn, turn back, I'm delirious 
(X2)

Pre-verse:
Sin over sin again, sin over sin again (x5)
Sin over sin again, sin over sin again
(Whispers: sin over sin over sin again)

Verse:
Silent stillborn sacrifical lamb, sever me so corrosive 
Leaving the neck bit, sever my face;
Crystal crowned to forsaken, as I drown
Crypt bound, dark hearts in pain, intake the grace
The devil, a demon inside, marked undisguised, concealed to chase
Turned outside in for a sinned state leaving sight's
Sin over sin again, sin over sin again, sin over sin again
Sin over sin over sin over sin again
(Whispers)

TWENTYTHREE:

Why they talk?
Hit em where it hurts and leave the body for a loss
Running for my problems losing sight of where I’m from
Taking what I need I keep that razor in my palm
So they’ll never get one up and keep a head down when they walk

I’ve been up for days I’m staring straight into the walls
I can hear them talking every time I’m down the hall
Take my breath away for any second when I stall
I’ll been dead before the dawn and falling out so save the call

SILVER SULPHATE

SILVER SULPHATE Ft. TWENTYTHREE [PROD. NXM1NAL] *MUSIC VIDEO IN DESC.*

Close Enough

Airplane Mode

🧚🏾‍♀️ 2016-2023 🧚🏾‍♀️

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