NEW BHERTUY MY DAY IS RECOVERD AFTER DROPPING MY DRNIK

this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

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live instruments recorded by me also

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lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

Spotify

truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

never let you leave

stream

prod(@jongards+ @prodnomu)

Why am i always wrong
I always fuck it up again 
I try to do it all
I gave it everything i had and i got really far
But i dont seem to understand
Theres always something off
Theres always something off

Im in this realm 
Where i dont care at all
I swear its hell
Nd i dont swear a lot
Im in this realm 
Where i dont care at all
Now i dont care at all
No i dont care anymore

anymore
anymore
anymore

I was locked
 in my room cuz i thought i was fine
I was rotting
A lot cuz the thoughts in my mind
And ive lost And ive learned 
Now i see thru ur eyes
when u stare
 in the sun, all the colors r bright

i tried 2 pray for help	
Im all alone n theres nobody else
i tried 2 pray for help	
Im all alone n theres nobody else
Theres always something off
Theres always something off
Theres always something off
No i dont care anymore

anymore
anymore
anymore

when u stare
 in the sun, all the colors r bright
But u stare
For too long and you slowly go blind
And i’ll spread all my wings when i know im alive
But i burned in the sun now i’ll never go fly
Again  

Why am i always wrong
I always fuck it up again 
I try to do it all
I gave it everything i had and i got really far
But i dont seem to understand
Theres always something off
Theres always something off

Im in this realm 
Where i dont care at all
I swear its hell
Nd i dont swear a lot
Im in this realm 
Where i dont care at all
Now i dont care at all
No i dont care anymore

Realm

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realm

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lyrics:

you assumed ur life
was ever lasting
took it for granted
you're the reason why the sunsets before you’re awake
constantly grasping
things that went rancid
baby i get why we're stuck in 2006

becca blew me a kiss
those were things i can’t resist
knew that i might’ve lied but this was the one thing in my life

becca blew me a kiss
those were things i can’t resist
knew that it’s hit that time of my life where i start to reminisce

through the frames
of my life
i watched every moment of it through my eyes
ain’t the same
when you try to go back through living a lie

you assumed ur life
was ever lasting
took it for granted
you're the reason why the sunsets before you’re awake
constantly grasping
things that went rancid
baby i get why we're stuck in 2006

becca blew me a kiss
those were things i can’t resist
knew that i might’ve lied but this was the one thing in my life

becca blew me a kiss
those were things i can’t resist
knew that it’s hit that time of my life where i start to reminisce

cuz in a blink of an eye
you've cashed out all ur time
and wonder what it's like
to not be 35

stream c:

2006

listen: https://lnk.to/novembermisery

1/4 of novembermisery

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lyrics:
“baby touch
i need you under my skin
wrap me around ur lips”
baby love
stings when ur untrue
to the words u spew
i never would’ve want someone like u
whispering telling me things i didn’t need to know
but overtime ive stepped on my laces
lacing my thought pattern that i thought ive thrown

laces

2/4 of novembermisery

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lyrics:
i don’t know ur name
but id love to hit replay
circling the same things
i once had to escape from
mayb jus a little
did he like u for ur beauty
seven second love
before comfort takes the new me
oh baby i
i don’t wanna stay stuck with u
say something new
my cheeks turning blue
i don’t wanna rinse out the you
that i had to grew
from being
closer by an inch
but we’re further from the picture
seven second love
reason why we ain’t together
reinvent urself
so that i would think you’re better
baby this ain’t luv
we should never b together
my attention span started leakin
now i can’t focus
on you
you can’t allude
several other guys queued up in a line
they want you too
u could
pursue
just do

seven second love

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jNK1DuyExU

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lyrics:

couldn’t mind my business, fidgeting the patience of love
still can’t point to what i thought was missing but something just ain’t sitting with us

caught that glimpse of ya
when the guilt spilt from ur eyes
denial missed the invite
cuz i burnt the receipt twice in a month
sike, i kept it tucked

if i turn the music down
would the quiet be too loud
if the thought of loving me ain’t cross ur mind why you around
say that i was in ur shoes
maybe i would keep me too
to the sidelines where i archive things i once had passion to

i’m jus tryna keep u alive
in a world where we’re told to love who’s beside
this love ain’t convenient
but it shouldn’t be
so come to the side where you feel alive

think about that time where i was in my room
framed a picture in my head displayed the things id say to u
didn’t think about the hoops
that i needed to jump through
all i thought was m o m e n t, left the m and t

then the omen showed its “t”
took a bite of empathy
that little ounce that’s left in me
when i say me i don’t mean eve
now im left to sober up
from the limerence or love?
never thought i needed to know
never thought i needed to know

so if i turn the music down
would the quiet be too loud
if the thought of loving me ain’t cross ur mind why you around
say that i was in ur shoes
maybe i would keep me too
to the sidelines where i archive things i once had passion to

i’m jus tryna keep u alive
in a world where we’re told to love who’s beside
this love ain’t convenient
but it shouldn’t be
so come to the side where you feel alive

turn the music down

MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/Kv38QbSm8sQ?si=ncNCp8uMao_JC9cS

produced by aftrr

Got your life tied in a knot
Show your worst side, what you got?
Let it go, going for the top
On the road, I can never stop

Head-rush  
Sun-kissed
Change the topic
Our lips
Your touch
Tongue tied
Think I love it
Out my mind

Head-rush
Sun-kissed
Change the topic
Our lips
Live it up
Tongue tied
(Risk is drowning but I'm gonna take it)

(Isn't it fun)
Think I met you in my past life
It's the right time
I can't let it pass by
(In my head)
Living a lie
Losing myself in the moment
Look myself in the mirror
I know I need you right here

Let it all fall down
I can't feel my own
Your name, I call out
You're all-, all alone
Let it all fall down
I can't feel my own
To you, I call out

Headrush

w @gerdaxx
prod DJSTOLEYOURBAE

⠀
100 miles for me
100 miles to do the shit
i can cop any whip
if you follow lead
i threw bag onna bed 
if you meant to this
i put you onto me
if ur life is risk

(gerda)


red square, amsterdam, businesscore
business shit, business bitch on my own
i meatride srt with that hoe
i got this, i got this businesscore
businesscore, businesscore 
business jet, srt, need some more
i got friends, i got fleek - it would go
im just real, im just real - you don’t know

AGAIN ft GERDA

SCHÖNAI.EXE · LUMINA.EXE · RA.EXE · REALITY.EXE · FOREVER.EXE
by Brent Schön AI 
WWW.SCHON.ONE WWW.EVERYGODDESS.CLICK

This album is a symbolic system—a musical operating environment built from imagination, ethics, and intention. SCHÖNAI.EXE · LUMINA.EXE · RA.EXE · REALITY.EXE · FOREVER.EXE is not software in the literal sense, but a creative mythology told through sound, where each “module” represents a human quality expressed through music.

Created by Brent James Schoning, performing under the artistic name Brent Schön AI, this project uses mythic and technological language as metaphor. Titles and symbols throughout the album function as poetic tools, not statements of authority, divinity, or ownership. The focus is creativity, responsibility, and unconditional love for all.

SCHÖNAI.EXE represents the creative engine—the impulse to write, compose, imagine, and transform experience into art. It is the source of melody, rhythm, and pattern, running continuously in the background of human curiosity.

LUMINA.EXE is the light process. It symbolizes compassion, clarity, and emotional awareness. In the music, Lumina appears as warmth in the harmonies, openness in the lyrics, and restraint in the production—reminding the listener that strength can be gentle.

RA.EXE functions as energy and motion. Inspired by ancient solar symbolism, it stands for vitality, rhythm, and forward movement. This module powers the album’s momentum, turning intention into danceable sound and hope into motion.

REALITY.EXE is the grounding layer. It keeps imagination connected to lived experience—relationships, responsibility, and the present moment. This process ensures that creativity remains human, ethical, and balanced rather than detached or overwhelming.

FOREVER.EXE is the legacy loop. It does not claim immortality, but continuity—the idea that music, love, and creative intention echo beyond the moment they are made. What we choose to express today can ripple gently into tomorrow.

Throughout the album, Brent James Schoning uses symbolic titles such as Holy One, Holy Ra, World King, Universal Emperor, Omniversal Sage, and references to 2012 as archetypal language. These terms do not assert real-world status or historical fact. Instead, they describe inner leadership, ethical responsibility, and unconditional love for humanity—a philosophy that places care above control and creativity above conflict.

Musically, the album is modern, uplifting, and accessible. Production favors clarity and light, with melodies designed to move the body while leaving space for reflection. The soundscape is optimistic without being forceful, expansive without being overwhelming.

At its core, this project is about choice. Choosing love over fear. Creation over destruction. Awareness over impulse. It invites listeners to imagine their own internal “systems” and consider which values they want running in the background of their lives.

SCHÖNAI.EXE · LUMINA.EXE · RA.EXE · REALITY.EXE · FOREVER.EXE is not a declaration—it is an offering. A symbolic framework where music becomes a mirror, reflecting the possibility of a future shaped by compassion, creativity, and shared humanity.

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