ill release real music sometime i promise

stop ! let me grab my backpack

i don’t wanna be late to my class again

honors been waiting since last november 

when we had to quarantine for a term 

had to keep the doors clean. in return

we would spend 14 days alone

only seeing four teens if were 

lucky enough to see a friend 

up in morning we would spend 

our time right online 

doing assignments 

RUN IT BACK !!!!!11

let me digress 

to when we were young, not scared of anyone 

don’t know where the time went

took a nap now it’s 2021

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

he said with a mask on

he can’t believe he’s already at the finish line

but before he packs up

he’s gotta pass one more class

i don’t wanna go

i don’t wanna go act like i’m happy 

about a cap thrown in the air 

don’t know if i’ll last long in the

real i world

fear the world x2

practice my penmanship 

while my pity’s pending in a

pretty small penny sized penitentiary 

that i call my brain. i don’t plan to plead 

for a plodding pace in life 

i just wanna say

i just wanna say 

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

class of 2021

4 https://soundcloud.com/underscores & https://soundcloud.com/pincode8485

i gave up on mixing this

nowhere to be, ever (a remix for underscores x 8485)

https://defsharp.bandcamp.com/album/tides-b-sides
https://defsharp.fanlink.to/tidesB

what's the matter with you? - DJ Speedy Pete Remix

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic
thank you for being here :)


baby i can't fall asleep i think too much about the end
and i think im running out of time ill fall into your skin
fall into your skin
wait for this to end

romanticizing life
you must have lost your mind
all i do is sit inside
i waste my time

but its all my fault
didn't get a job cause ur too comfortable
cutting off some friends its nothin personal
they're just going through some shit you never felt at all
party in the city i forgot my flaws

my visions blurry tonight but im still looking at you
we got too high (high) off our shit and we got slightly amused
i dont feel so sad
baby you don't mean that
i take a look where im at
feelings i gotta combat
and i fall back to you
i fall back to you

something has to change

https://ffm.to/bhredblueandgreenlights

A light show of colors, the screen is my window to her sight

32723

w/ @saoirsedream

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic

lyrics
Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

I wanna write a song for you
I got stuck on the attack
Every word I say to you
You just repeat it back
It's not like I believe in you less
I'm not keeping score and I don't need you to guess
What I'm thinking all the time
Imma just keep it to myself
Never confide don't need no help
Never confide don't need no help
Baby kiss me thru the phone
JK's that's a stupid joke
Hope I laugh so hard I choke
Hope I laugh so hard I-

Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me

And so I put my mind away
I'll figure it out anyway (Baby you help me)
Do you even know who I am?
Do you even care? Do you even care?

red blue and green lights (w/ saoirse dream)

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

lets start :3c

Suroki, halfTrue, EyesAndArrows, maringen

Lyrics

----VERSE 1----

[WHAT'S THIS ?]

They say your body loves you so unconditionally (That's right !)
But when i break mine i hope i'm forgiven (Of course :D)
I used to think together we could be anything

But i'm not an idiot, yeh

Keep getting closer to some people i'll never meet
But still won't talk to those i've known since like 17
I'm feeling nauseous when somebody is nice to me

I must be an idiot

ARE YOU ?

----CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

WHAT'S THIS ?

----VERSE 2----

Someone said they want my hands for themselves
I couldn't comprehend the things that they felt
It's not that i don't like the way that they're held , I think i'd like
It more, as somebody else

[AAAH]

Can't fake the feeling that you'll never be home again
Ashamed to say but i've forgotten just what it meant
You're nothing now, and we know who it should've been

Cos i'm just an idiot

ARE YOU ?

----CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT 
ARE YOU ?

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

[OH NO !]

----POSTCHOR----

I never change
I'll never change
I can't decide
I'll think about it
It's always been
just like you said

You wanna live ? then start !

I wanna to change
I wanna to change
Can't be this way
forever but I
Don't wanna be
Don't wanna be
(Somebody else)

----PRECHOR----

She's got nowhere to go
He didn't even notice
I thought we'd be prettier
We must not be ready yet

ARE YOU ?

----CHORBUILD----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDI - 
[OH NO !]

ARE YOU ?

----FINAL CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

I WANNA LIVE

[WHAT'S THIS ?]

AND I CAN'T LET THIS GO ON     
PROMISE YOU DON'T HAVE TO WAIT
WHEN WE CAN'T BE WHAT YOU WANT
I'll STILL LOVE YOU ANYWAY

I WANNA LIVE

let's start. 




IDIOTTT

no chaserr

no chaserr Prod. oliviajones34596070

Du bist ein B1tch 🥷 und kein 🥷 mit B1tches...

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Original: Pepino - Late Night Fitness

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Pepino - Late Night Fitness (axz remix)

with the amazing https://soundcloud.com/oyeme-thomas 

master by https://soundcloud.com/knoir

i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
standing in the hallways
laughing and listening
to music, acting like we always do
acting like we don’t exist 
and excuse me
but i hate to say i hate that
i hate hating the commons
i hate increasing my pace when
i know you’re right behind me
walking to our class
maybe we could stop
talk about what we have in common
such as
we both have insecurities
we have liked a girl and
i’m sure she isn’t purposely
hurting me, and the same goes for you
the pain that you’ve felt
is something that i’ve gone through
she’d be perfectly
okay with us
being friends
i just wanna stop pretending that i hate you
i just wanna be
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
why do butterflies
fly in my stomach when i see you?
they fly around
faster than a hungry, wild zebra
kicking my stomach to death
because it sees a threat 
to my over-valued reputation
i hate this persistent intimidation
that i’m always facing
just because your face is 
pretty
or the way your chain sits upon your neck
or maybe because you’re
famous
i remember at that football game
i was standing right behind you and i was
trying to act at the same way
that i'd act around my friends
but they were drooling over you
so i was too afraid to say this in the future
listen man, i just wanna talk to you
maybe become friends
but i have never had that opportunity
to talk to you and see
if i could promise peace
between us
maybe we could farm some greens
pardon me for being personal about it
but i just wanna be
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your
i am not an enemy
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends ?!?!?!?!
i just wanna be your friend !!!!1
i just wanna be your friend!!!!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!
i just wanna be your friend!
i am not an enemy
i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your friend

written by me

stream/buy

peace treaty w/ oyeme

onwards&upwards
he/him
@webcage • @artbyFORM • @bitbird

email - bh@webca.ge

red blue and green lights (w/ saoirse dream)

bh

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