Photophobia [underscores + kaixan rmx]

bro really just bought soundcloud pro for a second account

white boy white boy

you’re better than everyone 

the type of boy to write stories

about is better

and everyone knows that

oh, don’t forget about the fact 

that they’re supposed to be another of 

thousands of other superlative people 

with money supporting them, ignoring the fact 

it’s evident

that nobody a kid with a little bit of melanin 

a mismatch within the sorority so develop big

animosity towards the ones who are mad at it

to the masses you

have everything we’ve thought wanted for 

too long. we ask that you be everything

and anything but forbearing 

when buried in the fight against

sentiment, all hiding

sentimental feelings will 

renovate into 

an emotional dystopia 

coping with the absurd 

fact that they’re supposed to be

another one of thousands of other 

hurting people

whose money’s controlling their

ignored and suppressed sentiments 

one of them goes to the kid with a little bit of

melanin 

asks them for help even though it is stretching

them thin

not knowing they’re one of the people 

who are mad at the

white boy, white boy

who’s better than everyone

so the white boy white boy

whose heads is a mess he runs

away

tried to correlate more

reasons they’re fed up with everyone

who tried to aid and support

their tendency to suppress their heart

an acquired taste

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic
thank you for being here :)


baby i can't fall asleep i think too much about the end
and i think im running out of time ill fall into your skin
fall into your skin
wait for this to end

romanticizing life
you must have lost your mind
all i do is sit inside
i waste my time

but its all my fault
didn't get a job cause ur too comfortable
cutting off some friends its nothin personal
they're just going through some shit you never felt at all
party in the city i forgot my flaws

my visions blurry tonight but im still looking at you
we got too high (high) off our shit and we got slightly amused
i dont feel so sad
baby you don't mean that
i take a look where im at
feelings i gotta combat
and i fall back to you
i fall back to you

something has to change

https://ffm.to/bhredblueandgreenlights

A light show of colors, the screen is my window to her sight

32723

w/ @saoirsedream

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic

lyrics
Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

I wanna write a song for you
I got stuck on the attack
Every word I say to you
You just repeat it back
It's not like I believe in you less
I'm not keeping score and I don't need you to guess
What I'm thinking all the time
Imma just keep it to myself
Never confide don't need no help
Never confide don't need no help
Baby kiss me thru the phone
JK's that's a stupid joke
Hope I laugh so hard I choke
Hope I laugh so hard I-

Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me

And so I put my mind away
I'll figure it out anyway (Baby you help me)
Do you even know who I am?
Do you even care? Do you even care?

red blue and green lights (w/ saoirse dream)

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

How was your 2024
This is remix of some of the songs I’ve listened to the most in 2024

original artists : @dobimusic @sanholobeats @oyeme-thomas @moorekismet @brakence @porter-robinson @shameless_wav @viznode

Never ready to leave 2024 [A remix of ... my playlist?]

IT MUST BE GETTING WORSE !!!!

EDIT: Soz like 2 things were pissing me off so some small changes are in there now mb !

Thanks so much to mistmurk without them this song would not exist 

Credits - Uh me like everything I did everything really honestly
mistmurk with the addl prod thoooooughhhhh 

THANKS 2 EVERY1 FOR LISTENINGGGGGG sorry back to scheduled garage spam after this no more fun !!!

-----INTRO-----

[You know how to watch video ?]
[mhm]
[Do you wanna go watch video ?]

-----VERSE 1-----

You're talking to yourself
Again
You really made a habit of it
It must be getting worse
Again
The way I speak to my friends

So do you love me, like me ?
Tell me so yourself
And you want me ? 
Boring
You're just like all the rest
Before you think
My heart, still bleeds
It doesn't mean anything

-----CHORUS 1-----

I dont want to feel you
Touch you
I can't wait to hear you
love you
I don't think they know you
Like I do
I don't want to feel you

-----VERSE 2-----

Stop talking to yourself
OK :/
You can't even cry about it
You wanna change so -
I guess
You could try flirting with your friends ?

But then you might feel
Something
Im getting kinda scared
Of you talking
Surely
Theres nothing wrong with that
Should it feel, so bad
When I see you writing back
Ah


YOU AH
WATCH YOU
YOU EE OW
YOU AH
WATCH YOU
YOU EE OW

-----CHORUS 2-----

I dont want to feel you
Touch you
I can't wait to hear you
love you
I don't think they know you
Like I do
I don't want to feel you
I think i'd like
To be you

-----FINAL CHOR-----

I CANT TOUCH YOU
I DONT FEEL LIKE YOU
I HOPE I DONT HURT YOU
BUT I CANT BE LIKE YOU

STOP TALKING TO YOURSELF !

muje e e er 🚺

with the amazing https://soundcloud.com/oyeme-thomas 

master by https://soundcloud.com/knoir

i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
standing in the hallways
laughing and listening
to music, acting like we always do
acting like we don’t exist 
and excuse me
but i hate to say i hate that
i hate hating the commons
i hate increasing my pace when
i know you’re right behind me
walking to our class
maybe we could stop
talk about what we have in common
such as
we both have insecurities
we have liked a girl and
i’m sure she isn’t purposely
hurting me, and the same goes for you
the pain that you’ve felt
is something that i’ve gone through
she’d be perfectly
okay with us
being friends
i just wanna stop pretending that i hate you
i just wanna be
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
why do butterflies
fly in my stomach when i see you?
they fly around
faster than a hungry, wild zebra
kicking my stomach to death
because it sees a threat 
to my over-valued reputation
i hate this persistent intimidation
that i’m always facing
just because your face is 
pretty
or the way your chain sits upon your neck
or maybe because you’re
famous
i remember at that football game
i was standing right behind you and i was
trying to act at the same way
that i'd act around my friends
but they were drooling over you
so i was too afraid to say this in the future
listen man, i just wanna talk to you
maybe become friends
but i have never had that opportunity
to talk to you and see
if i could promise peace
between us
maybe we could farm some greens
pardon me for being personal about it
but i just wanna be
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your
i am not an enemy
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends ?!?!?!?!
i just wanna be your friend !!!!1
i just wanna be your friend!!!!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!
i just wanna be your friend!
i am not an enemy
i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your friend

written by me

stream/buy

peace treaty w/ oyeme

i love my friends
jk i just hate them
i wanna show you to the world but im so scared you'll burn it
you're my sunshine but you're the planet burning
im just always learning hold on the page is turning
somebody lost their mind and we just beat them to death
someone did the same to me and i lost my breath
our psyches are so sick gotta help each other heal
but if you disrespect me nigga then i swear you getting killed

why is it so "hi"?
"goodbye"?
drama make you cry?
the wind it blows my hair around and im drifting inside
angel with a shotgun this is not a roulette
you said be not afraid but your eyes just break the silence
why is it so "hi"?
"goodbye"?
drama make you cry?
the wind it blows my hair around and im drifting inside
angel with a shotgun this is not a roulette
you said be not afraid but your eyes just break the silence

stardew on the rooftop where saints go to harvest
flowers in the garden where eve's probably hiding
swear if you play God imma pray harder than devils
if you don't log your spite right off i'll make this altar crumble
stardew on the rooftop where saints go to harvest
flowers in the garden where eve's probably hiding
swear if you play God imma pray harder than devils
if you don't log your spite right off i'll make this altar crumble

why is it so "hi"?
"goodbye"?
drama make you cry?
the wind it blows my hair around and im drifting inside
angel with a shotgun this is not a roulette
you said be not afraid but your eyes just break the silence

stardew on the rooftop where saints go to harvest
flowers in the garden where eve's probably hiding
swear if you play God imma pray harder than devils
if you don't log your spite right off i'll make this altar crumble

Jedwill - Garden (prod. Camoufly)

onwards&upwards
he/him
@webcage • @artbyFORM • @bitbird

email - bh@webca.ge

something has to change

bh

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