4 https://soundcloud.com/underscores & https://soundcloud.com/pincode8485

i gave up on mixing this

nowhere to be, ever (a remix for underscores x 8485)

5/7

https://defsharp.bandcamp.com/track/to-get-older

to get older

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lets go in a mineshaft

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic
thank you for being here :)


baby i can't fall asleep i think too much about the end
and i think im running out of time ill fall into your skin
fall into your skin
wait for this to end

romanticizing life
you must have lost your mind
all i do is sit inside
i waste my time

but its all my fault
didn't get a job cause ur too comfortable
cutting off some friends its nothin personal
they're just going through some shit you never felt at all
party in the city i forgot my flaws

my visions blurry tonight but im still looking at you
we got too high (high) off our shit and we got slightly amused
i dont feel so sad
baby you don't mean that
i take a look where im at
feelings i gotta combat
and i fall back to you
i fall back to you

something has to change

https://ffm.to/bhredblueandgreenlights

A light show of colors, the screen is my window to her sight

32723

w/ @saoirsedream

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic

lyrics
Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

I wanna write a song for you
I got stuck on the attack
Every word I say to you
You just repeat it back
It's not like I believe in you less
I'm not keeping score and I don't need you to guess
What I'm thinking all the time
Imma just keep it to myself
Never confide don't need no help
Never confide don't need no help
Baby kiss me thru the phone
JK's that's a stupid joke
Hope I laugh so hard I choke
Hope I laugh so hard I-

Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me

And so I put my mind away
I'll figure it out anyway (Baby you help me)
Do you even know who I am?
Do you even care? Do you even care?

red blue and green lights (w/ saoirse dream)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

yeah we just talk like that

stems: https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/tjahr282r5pazzk85qjpz/h?rlkey=ua7lyotfo064jk0ua19hrpmbt&dl=0

11223
lyrics
I couldn't sleep last night
I plan on leaving my house
I gotta get on my flight flight flight

I'm packing my bags, packing my bags, packing my bags
I'm packing my bags, packing my bags, packing my bags

I want you here with me
Together we can flee
We're following our Dreams, Dreams, Dreams

I'm packing my bags, packing my bags, packing my bags
I'm packing my bags, packing my bags, packing my bags

Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that

Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that

What you gonna do to me?
I'll be at home around 2 or 3
She doesn't even smile no more
She's crying on the bedroom floor

What you gonna do to me?
I'll be at home around 2 or 3
She doesn't even smile no more
She's crying on the bedroom floor

What you gonna do to me?
I'll be at home around 2 or 3
She doesn't even smile no more
She's crying on the bedroom floor

What you gonna do to me?
I'll be at home around 2 or 3
She doesn't even smile no more

FEEL

I Don't Even Need

121824

Please sit beside me baby
I got something that I want you to see
I can't stop shaking baby
But you can leave whenever you want to
I just want a little more time please

I don't talk about relationships anymore
We don't even think about relationships
I'm just focused on the here and now
Baby I can't settle down (Baby I can't settle down)

I wanna ask you out but I think we're only friends
We could try it for a bit but we know how it'll end
Did you feel a little nervous when I held you by your hand
And you fell onto my shoulder I don't think you understand

Please sit beside me baby
I got something that I want you to see
I can't stop shaking baby
But you can leave whenever you want to
I just want a little more time please

I just want a little more time please
I just want a little more time please
I just want a little more time please

we need more time

with the amazing https://soundcloud.com/oyeme-thomas 

master by https://soundcloud.com/knoir

i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
standing in the hallways
laughing and listening
to music, acting like we always do
acting like we don’t exist 
and excuse me
but i hate to say i hate that
i hate hating the commons
i hate increasing my pace when
i know you’re right behind me
walking to our class
maybe we could stop
talk about what we have in common
such as
we both have insecurities
we have liked a girl and
i’m sure she isn’t purposely
hurting me, and the same goes for you
the pain that you’ve felt
is something that i’ve gone through
she’d be perfectly
okay with us
being friends
i just wanna stop pretending that i hate you
i just wanna be
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
why do butterflies
fly in my stomach when i see you?
they fly around
faster than a hungry, wild zebra
kicking my stomach to death
because it sees a threat 
to my over-valued reputation
i hate this persistent intimidation
that i’m always facing
just because your face is 
pretty
or the way your chain sits upon your neck
or maybe because you’re
famous
i remember at that football game
i was standing right behind you and i was
trying to act at the same way
that i'd act around my friends
but they were drooling over you
so i was too afraid to say this in the future
listen man, i just wanna talk to you
maybe become friends
but i have never had that opportunity
to talk to you and see
if i could promise peace
between us
maybe we could farm some greens
pardon me for being personal about it
but i just wanna be
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your
i am not an enemy
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends ?!?!?!?!
i just wanna be your friend !!!!1
i just wanna be your friend!!!!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!
i just wanna be your friend!
i am not an enemy
i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your friend

written by me

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peace treaty w/ oyeme

🌸🌸🌸

~lyrics~
i don't think you know me anymore
head on my shoulder
i don't wanna get close because i think you're just bored
oh no

i guess we're getting older
but i'm not your only guy
that you're talking to tonight, no

and i might be thinking about you in that way
but last time we talked you didn't even try to stay
now don't act like this is the end
but i think that we should just stay friends

we should go downtown today
i wanna have some interaction
before you try and say goodbye
can you promise me you'll come by soon?
because i don't wanna be here alone

but i don't think you know me anymore
head on my shoulder
i don't wanna get close because i think you're just bored
oh no

i guess we're getting older
but i'm not your only guy
no i'm not your only guy, no

and i might be thinking about you in that way
but last time we talked you didn't even try to stay
now don't act like this is the end
but i think that we should just stay friends

11 Dec 2020

we should just stay friends

onwards&upwards
he/him
@webcage • @artbyFORM • @bitbird

email - bh@webca.ge