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Songs That Remind Me of Spain

ghost bb:(

And I love her Kurt Cobain

Teen Movie (prod. by Savior)

lil freestyle over something fresh from the homie
@yungkys
check out his tunes!

she cries in the rain sometimes //prod. Waste Yrself ☻

Fresh out of Highschool in the small oceanside city of Newburyport Massachusetts, comes Silver (Sophie Cates). With minimalistic production yet complex rhythms and textures one would probably not presume Silver hasn’t yet turned 18. Lyrically dead honest and mature beyond her years, her youthful voice and rhythmic melodies sing truth to would-be power in her first ever single ‘Darling Don’t’.

Produced by Chris Plante x Daniel Alvarez De Toledo. Recorded at CP PRO AUDIO Boston, MA.

Darling Don't

no samples
prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

Dizzy - Joshua

BALLADS 1

Cant Get Over You

Cant Get Over You- joji

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpm-v7bUVNI

give me something
a little loving
to pull me through the day

give me something
my head is rushing
i want to feel okay

but i feel nothing
theres no discussion
about something we can't save

but all of the snow
turns to water
all of my tears
they will dry someday

give me something
we're on thin ice and
the pressure's had its way

give me something
though you gave up
i wish you were here to stay

but all of the snow
turns to water
and all of my tears
they will dry someday
​
// written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo
cover art photo taken by christian uribe

urbanation ep

someday

track 4/4 on "easy" EP - OUT JANUARY 2019

i waited all day for you to call me
you keep me around just cause
yeah you know that i'm weak

my mistake 
it's all my fault
i lost my balance took a fall

and what it is to you
what it is to you
is never gonna be
what it is to me

all i wanna be
all i wanna be
is anything but easy

no i'm not as smart as i'd like me to be
let you get away with hurting me on repeat

but you don't know me at all 
bet you're not listening to this song

cause what it is to you
what it is to you
is never gonna be
what it is to me

all i wanna be
all i wanna be
is anything but easy

// written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

easy

i shake my head just to get you out of it
it's not free real estate so get out of my head
one second you're dying to be next to me
and then the next you're leaving me lonely on read

i used to think that i would always like you
but feelings are fleeting and i wanna be alone
i'm tired of everything you're doing to me
im done with everything you said
i'm not your friend
i'm not your friend

i built myself up to the point i can't risk 
someone like you to make it all fall down again
i'm laughing cause i let you put me through this
not even worth it what's the point of playing pretend

i used to think that i would always like you
but feelings are fleeting and i wanna be alone
i'm tired of everything you're doing to me
im done with everything you said
i'm not your friend
i'm not your friend

no we're not friends
it's a dead end
i'm not your friend

easy ep

not your friend

________lyrics______
feeling on edge if im honest
heart filled with dread cant find solace
best left unsaid in the closet
im really trying here

open up the doors to my mind
my minds jus like ur mind
all jus having a good time, good time
baby what u want from me
everybody want everything 
baby wanna take me to eat
but what would that mean i owe
starting to see danger now just not in strangers
now theres all these layers n we're jus all the players

mastered by yukari

solace

face wants - a concept i learned about in class that led to a lot of self reflection and synths
//
impostor syndrome strikes again
looks like everybody wants to be your friend
but when the curtains close do you even know where you will go?
feeling so alone

secretly sleepwalk in the light
you found shelter in the shadow of your mind
shapeshift to fit inside a framework that you like
feeling lost inside

what do you want me to
be i think i might lose
myself if you don't choose yeah
i've been waiting for you
a beacon in the night
some semblance of a sign
i'd give it all sometimes
to know what's waiting for you

self-made distraction traps you in
how do you know that you are meant to be just this?
you seek a sense of validation from a screen
do they know you're who you want yourself to be?
do you know you're who you want yourself to be?

what do you want me to
be i think i might lose
myself if you don't choose yeah
i've been waiting for you
a beacon in the night
some semblance of a sign
i'd give it all sometimes
to know what's waiting for you
-
"face wants" is an ode to myself about a concept i learned about in class. if i remember correctly, there are two types of face and one of them is called positive face, which refers to our desire for praise and approval from others. face wants is the idea that we want other people to fulfill our face so we can feel validated, and we do many things to protect or save face, or how we appear to others. 

when i was making “face wants” i thought a lot about how social media is an outlet where we can inflate our self-image and portray the person that we want to be. it can be very confusing to figure out who you are, especially when you’re young and bombarded with messages we find on the internet about who we should like, where we should be, what we should look like and what we should be doing. it made me reflect about my relationship with social media and how sometimes i find myself "shapeshifting to fit inside a framework" that i like, which is, a lot of the time, not the greatest thing for one’s mental health. using instagram as a mirror or a tool for approval can be damaging and is something i’m still working on.

since a lot of my music is kind of slow and mellow, i thought it would be an interesting juxtaposition to pair a modern-day concept like social media with an energetic ‘80s new wave vibe, a genre i hold dear to my heart because of my parents and their love for it.

// written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo
http://instagram.com/bianca.jpeg/
http://www.youtube.com/user/ocampobianca
http://urbanationmusic.bandcamp.com/

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face wants

home alone on a saturday night
my eyes are frozen
on sitcom reruns the pale blue light
keeping me warm
the sound of laughter and a glass of white
is the closest i have to
being in your presence tonight

i took one step forward
and two steps back
you'll never give me 
the love i lack
and i won't say i'm hurt
but i can't say i'm fine
cause i know that i'm not
at all on your mind

bits and pieces can easily feel like
lasting devotion 
i picked them up and i tried so hard to make something whole
and i waited for the rest of you
i waited for the rest of you
but you gave me less than i gave you and i know

that one step forward
and two steps back
will never give me 
the love i lack
and i won't say i'm hurt

but i can't say i'm fine
cause i know that i'm not
at all on your mind

urbanation demos

not on your mind (demo) - 3:27:19, 1.10 AM

i have so much homework but i can't do it so i made a song for u friends.

I know it's not long
before i go home
but they keep lookin at me
in my flooded jeans

i'll just hide inside my hair
i wish the world was a bit more fair
but i've got friends and they've got me
and pretty soon the bell will ring
we'll walk home
get nice and wet
because it rained 
today is the best

growin up seems far away
far away, far away
fallin down does't hurt so bad
when the floor's two feet away

i'll fall down and maybe cry
but it's alright cause i can hide
inside my hair until the tears
have emptied from my eyes

i don't know if growin up
has happened yet but we're so tough
we trade our toys for cigarettes
it's rainin out we're soak n wet

now we're old
where can we hide?
we've cut our hair
to fit the times
i've got my friends and
they've got me
and when we cry
the world can see

Growin up has not changed much
you're still the same just kinda tough
now when it rains you go inside 
unless there's tears you wanna hide

hide inside my hair

cold hands 
slow dancing on the surface of my skin
trying to figure out where to begin
are you looking for a home or just the way out?

and you said
that you don't want another girl instead
that maybe things were getting to your head
that it's just an intermission
not the end

but baby it's too hard
to try to find your love in broken parts
hold my breath and try to let it out
but i couldn't cry couldn't feel it
cry couldn't feel it

and you
took too long and now the curtain's drawn
empty seats and everyone is gone
and nobody is watching you

and i'm glad
that you don't want another girl instead
but it's finally all starting to make sense
it's not the intermission
it's the end

don't tell me you love me
don't tell me you want me back
it's too late to come back to me

don't tell me you love me
don't tell me you want me back
it's too late to come back to me

written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo
2018

intermission (demo)

this is what being happy sounds like in my head ~ i'm just going to put this out now since i don't think it'll fit in any album i plan on making... also stay tuned for my album "transparency"

// written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

happy - demo

i could never call myself
your winning luck
your gem beneath the junk
a smile 
your little spell
is not enough to keep me hanging on your shelf

there's nothing more i'd regret 
than wasting all my time instead
waiting for the perfect one
to give me everything i want
you can give it all to her
somebody that needs it more
i'll love myself
better than you can
but you have my mind
always spinning 

i won't settle for
a late night excuse for you to come darken my door
and every night i rest easily
knowing that babe
you're what i want not what i need

there's nothing more i'd regret 
than wasting all my time instead
waiting for the perfect one
to give me everything i want
you can give it all to her
somebody that needs it more
i'll love myself
better than you can
but you have my mind
always spinning

// written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo
instagram.com/bianca.jpeg/
www.youtube.com/user/ocampobianca
https://urbanationmusic.bandcamp.com/

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not on your mind (demo) - 3:27:19, 1.10 AM

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