prod @omgisai

you took it all and left
no baby i'm so tired of the way you make me feel
my life has been hella boring
look at me i'm a fucking mess
i lost all capabilities of making something right
i'm starting to think the worst
i know it's not healthy but this feeling is a curse
i liked when we talked about the shit that made you laugh
now i'm stuck on the little things i'll wait until i crash
who will take the blame?
if i look back in two years am i the same?
yeah i love my life because i treat it like a game
everyone that I've ever encountered is insane (but who am i to-)
at the end of the night
i miss how you liked
i know its not right but it keeps me up all the time

took it all cover @omgisai

hello :)

short AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2Au6l5A72Y

lyrics:
no more lies, lets be honest
this ain't all about you
running cause i have to
not because i want to
three four five,
and this next step's gon be goodbye
yeah i really miss him,
miss me when i'm alright

tried it all, but i'll stay by my body
it hurts so bad it feels like im nobody
need all your love, could you put me down slowly?
ill get you what you want, in my blood and my remedy

walking on the street, and i think about it often
you lied to my face and i took it like a burden
i care way too much, yeah i really wanna bury them
writing these lyrics in blood like a surgeon

does it really matter?
would you really care or would you throw it, watch it shatter?
its like im moving backwards
tore up all my letters
upside down in patterns
wanna die now
burn me with an ember

this is never ending
ion really give a shit
guess you wanna leave now
leave me when im hurting
someone that i can't be
on the ground, im bleeding
you make it look easy
i know im not winning

remedy (decago x hartfxlt x feature)

prod by @xtasane

lyrics:

I'll be right there
If you love this time
Can you hear me, dear
If you're in the sky
Can you see my heart
You can hold my heart
You can keep my love
If you love this time
2x

Yeah, huh, haa
I won't lose my time, yeah
Every time I tell her
Can I call you, baby?
Can I love my shawty?
Perfect love, we can try
If you love me, I can try
If you love me, I can try
I can try, can try, can try
I can try, can try, can try
I can try, can try, can try
I can try, can try, can try

I can try, can try, can try
I can try, can try, can try
I can try, can try, can try
I'll be right there

i can try (prod. xtasane)

Watch Another.

Lyrics:

I know you see these scars, girl, I did it all for her (Effystonem reference - https://soundcloud.com/glosuka/effystonem)
I’m looking at the stars as I question my self-worth
Like, am I really worth? Where did I take a turn?
I’m going for the worst; I just wish I could change it all

Cause if I could, I’d break the fall
So if we try, we try, we’ll make it out
I promise you cause all in all, 
I need you to know that you’re enough

Let’s just be honest, look at where we’re at now
Born to be free but forced to be locked down
Wanna make a change but you’re standing in the background
I can see it clear, your depression in a compound

I just wanna try it, try it, try it
You just can’t deny it, ’ny it, ’ny it
I know you won’t like it, like it, like it

Just tell me where you were when I needed you the most :( 

I did like everything I could just to pursue you
I guess it wasn’t enough; I couldn’t do two, ohh
I can’t pull it together like I used to
Maybe it’s a sign that I need you

Break The Fall (overr)

prod by @0shimamura

lyrics:

@peiflowy
This shit is feeling strange
I'm feeling hella pain
I'm calling out your name
Gotchu you stuck in my brain
Looking at your face
My eyes hit the floor
I think I'm giving hints
Pretty sure that you know
Think I loved you from the start
Gave you everything in my heart
Swear that I played my part
Hope that we go far

@trustohm
Now I'm lost in the dark
feelin' cold in my heart
you was there at the start
but you tearin' apart
Now I'm chillin' alone
staring down at my phone
hopin’ you hit my tone
but you left, now you gone

I was real, I was true
gave my time all to you
now I don’t know what to do
got me stuck in the blue

@haunted_sad
Yeah, yeahh 
I didn't know like what to do
Living in the past, all these #memoriesofu
Crystalized in my heart you just really gleamed
Remembein the past baby, it still haunts me
Yeah, baby, always knew I was the issue
You left me hollow to the core, yeah, I don't miss u
I can't remember the days where i felt alright
Loopin back in my head I think I wna die

gone - pei flowy + trustohm + haunted_sad (shimamura)

I hide too ft-cross

Had so much fun making this track with @ritsuzuki and @reflem!!!

Thanks to @reflem for the mastering on this.

prod. @overoveroverover

Lyrics:

[@drewalongtheglare]
I said it once, and I'll say it again
I never needed your love to begin with
So many things are tryna stop us—we can hold on
And as I’m swimming out the water, feel my heart lock

And I can heal all your scars
I just wanna feel who you are
If you would only give a piece of your heart
There’s like no way we could break apart

And yeah, baby, I think you’ve had enough
We could’ve talked more, but things were said and done
I can breathe enough, I can’t feel a lot
And I could give it my all—it’s always never enough

[@ritsuzuki]
Why are you always like this?
Can't understand it..
What did I do to you??
For you to not see me through..
I can't resist!
You make it look easy
You don't want my heart now..
Why can't you just love me?!

Yeah
I'm falling out..
I'm falling out of time!
I said I'm fine!
You make me wanna cry-y-y
In your arms tonight!
I promise to you baby..
Imma be alright!!

[@reflem]
bby tell me what ur problem is
are we good are we not solving it
like do u even care abt how i feel
all that love i had yeah it wasn't real
ughhh
im gonna leave it right there
like
ughhh
dont go and act like u care
like
ughhh
i woke up feelin nothin
ever since u left i dont wanna try again

Who You Are w/ ritsu & reflem (prod. over)

https://discord.gg/pVjkvFjgvu

order
@6vesta
@crisisbitch
@entrii
@worstweekofmylife

you dont look.. ᐟ.ᐟ w/ crisis + entri + misery @rewind

see the light ft. iowgen

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1zK1EJaQ5yH24Gjc9eWBaw?si=39cb64ff03914e9e

w/ livisa
cover art: @ sacredsightss on insta

Oh, it's the way that I'm thinking about you
How we felt last spring on the beach
I've tried, but I can't find that feeling
Now nothing's the same with me
I wanna feel like when you were here
Like no time passed at all

You were right here, but I lost you
Now I want you to find me (Now there's nothing, without you)
C'mon baby just tell me you never changed
I'm still thinking about that day 'cause I wanna go back to you and me

Oh, it's the way that I'm thinking about you
How we felt last spring on the beach
I've tried, but I can't find that feeling

that day

DONT...LOOK...DOWN (Ft. Perry Maysun)

for the love of sound #diary #plugg

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