part of that Power which still produceth good, whilst ever scheming ill

it's all in your head

how to never stop being sad

i fell in love and fell apart again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/afterlife66

(after everything, the last thing i thought i'd hear was i love you
but, i guess it never mattered to you like it did to me,
i'm sorry)

i'm the worst 
and god i know that
cause by now i realize
the reason it all ends bad
cause i keep breaking 
and you couldn't take it 
so i just lay down in my bed
and dream we made it

and there's so much more that i had planned
and now i sit alone with shakey hands
disregard all the blood i bled,
i wish that you were here instead
i thought that you'd be here to hold me
i remember all the words you told me 
you'd never leave like this 
i couldn't prepare for all the things i'd miss

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

medicine, my lungs turned black
i know you're not too sad
left a knife in my back 
i ruined everything we had 

i'd run away before you don't want to
if i get close i know that i'll hurt you 
run away before you don't want to 
if i get close i know that i'll
hurt you 

okay, alright 
i like when i feel numb,
i don't know what to feel like
okay, alright 
i'll fool myself into every pretty lie

i don't wanna fall in love and fall apart again
i don't know if i'm okay enough 
so i keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect
(what did i expect)

and someday soon
your eyes will light up the whole damn room 
when you mention someone else
like they did,
when i was your everything 

i fell in love and fell apart again 
i can't keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect

medicine, pt. 2 (prod. afterlife)

i don’t own this song, neither the tiktok audio.

all rights to the creators.

but i wanted it to be you. (how to never stop being sad.)

to be loved is to be changed

i tried to kill myself two days ago and no one noticed

reupload
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2nuNtSO32vIbPgOO4FUJHi?si=6401db533dde4a62

don't you know 
what i know
you always laugh
it's getting old
i just wish you'd listen
or pay attention 
i hope you wished this
you don't know what you're missing

i honestly wish that you were still here
tell me that you love me
whisper right in my ear
but you want me dead
wish that i'd disappear
please don't leave me again
that's just my biggest fear

wish

prod. @tsuki_uzu
dont gotta be like them
You just gotta stay with me
Even when the monsters die
I dont wanna let you leave

Ya this city is a dangerous place
So I dont wanna spend our days a part
Even if I know your safe
I Hate not knowing where u are 




This whole town is numb
Cant trust in anyone
The time has come
When we barely see the sun

Found a way
Through the sewers
They would never find
Ya
 ill make sure that we never die

Hear the feet storm through the front gates
Gunshots and blood in the air ways

New world
Last breath 
For the innocent

Screams in the wind 
From the kids that I grew up with

I Dont wanna think of it

i hate not knowing where you are (.Uzu)

for the love of sound #diary #plugg

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