reupload
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2nuNtSO32vIbPgOO4FUJHi?si=6401db533dde4a62

don't you know 
what i know
you always laugh
it's getting old
i just wish you'd listen
or pay attention 
i hope you wished this
you don't know what you're missing

i honestly wish that you were still here
tell me that you love me
whisper right in my ear
but you want me dead
wish that i'd disappear
please don't leave me again
that's just my biggest fear

wish

@k4rson @1akura @kyoakyo @afterstoryx

@k4rson
i dont wanna see u being with someone
i remember when u said i was the only one
we haven't spoke in months
are u with someone?
are u with someone
is he better than me
tell me what u see in him that u dont see in me
why would u be with him if u couldn't be with me
why wont u be with me?
why wont u be with mee

@1akura
why cant u see
u mean the most to me
ur the reason i breathe
we're so outta sync
u tell me to leave
"forever till the end" u said, but thats outta reach
why wont u be with mee

@k4rson & @1akura
be with me x8

@1akuraa
yea u told me to hold you
i got too close look at the things that i go thru
i know u know too
the things that i told u
i wanna be with u
if u go down that road, ill go down that too

im starting to think
that u and me
was just a dream
nothing to believe
u know it hurts me to say u dont love me
just one more time i wish i could make things right

@k4rson 
is he better than me
tell me what u see in him that u dont see in me
why would u be with him if u couldn't be with me
why wont u be with me?
why wont u be with mee

@k4rson & @1akura
be with me x8

karson + akura - be with me (kyoa)

some beats ive made myself in the past month

repetition is key ill just keep trying the same thing until i get it right!!

_emoplugg clips++(jihyo)

@kyoakyo @k4rson

I always had a feel you wont stick around
your facade I watched it peel it all start falling down
if you kept it real it wouldn't hurt me as bad
if you kept it real I wouldn't be in your trap 
no I cant recognize where I'm at now - at now 
but you played your role so god damn well
had me thinking you would stay but I only got a taste 

we gon leave it all undone 
n act like it wont matter much
our memories they feel like cuts 
another dream left in the dust 
theres no blame on you for me bleeding 
I spent trips round the sun looking for a reason
I cant undo what we done it keep me from sleeping
feel behind everyone im so out of sequence 

racks up in my jeans
in that cle
fendi on my shirt
margeli on my feet
u cant get no verse
u cant get no ft
push that 2 door coupe
thats jus how i be 
srt i floor it 
hit my phone ignore it 
num9 ralph lauren
i want money then record 
i ball hard like jordan
fit u cant afford this 
bitch want me im gorgeous
got rich from recording

I always had a feel you wont stick around
your facade I watched it peel it all start falling down
if you kept it real it wouldn't hurt me as bad
if you kept it real I wouldn't be in your trap 
no I cant recognize where I'm at now - at now 
but you played your role so god damn well
had me thinking you would stay but I only got a taste

of what we could be

undone w/ karson (kyoa)

Instrumental by:
@yashio20k
@1wasterr

Lyrics by me
Inspired by the myth of Orpheus and Eurydice, 
written from Orpheus’s perspective.


We weren’t meant to be,
Didn’t get that at the time
I couldn’t let it be,
That ain’t ever cross my mind
I felt so much affection
Was this love at first sight?

If you had let me been,
If we never intertwined
If his jealousy,
Never really crossed the line
Would you have moved that direction?
Would you have still suffered the bite?

I tried so hard,
I let you down,
I messed this up,
I turned around,
I was so afraid,
Of losing you again,
And I lost sense,
Of everything,

Woken up to a nightmare, ‘cause you’re gone
It doesn’t matter to me, if I burn up inside the sun
Or if they take my body, and tear it to shreds
‘Cause you were the only thing I had

Closed a pact,
With the devil,
Took control of my eyes
God, I didn’t realise
What did I put myself into?
Killed myself as I tried to save you

Oh, when I tried to save you
I didn’t realise, that it was futile 
I didn’t realise, that I was being deceived
It’s not what I had perceived
I couldn't bring you around...

I’ve been trying and trying and trying,
To change our fate
I’ve been trying and trying and trying.

Fate was the enemy,
Why did I ignore those signs?
If it didn’t speak,
Would you still be here alive?
If I had paid attention,
Would you be here, by my side?

The calamity, placed upon us, wonder why…
Is there something I didn’t read between the lines?
Haunted by your expression, I apologise

losing you again (yashio + wasterr)

Blue Green Red (Hargucci Remix)

@1akura @rewind214

its been long enough all the tears dried
I started moving on I stopped asking why 
cuz every time I try to trust you all you do is lie
you wont let me in your heart i should just take the sign
its been long enough all the tears dried
I started moving on I stopped asking why 
cuz every time I try to trust you all you do is lie
you wont let me in your heart i should just take the sign

Im way too wishful
I just keep on getting hurt it adds the insult
and it just keeps on getting worse Im so forgetful
I dont wanna think bout her I get remissful
I keep tripping myself over Im falling down and down
you kept giving me cold shoulder and now youre not around
and even though that we dont talk I just hope youre happy now
cuz what I want for both of us is to be just safe and sound

wishful (akura + rewind)

most recent clips!

this has been a hard month for me. thank you to all my amazing friends (some of whom are in these clips!) who have supported me and pushed me to go further. i love you all

if you want to use any of these, dm me!!

0:00 — date (sample from kimi no na wa) +@r1yy
1:14 — our sky +@rewind214
2:06 — flora +@jihyo39
3:20 — +@miriyami
4:08 — flutter +@jihyo39
5:05 — july 4th +@moz-103259352

##july25 (+riy +rewind +jihyo +miriyami +moz)

+++making music is much more fun with others:DD
thx sm 2 all my amazing friends who carried these beats:
0:00_--"july" w/ @sourcewho
1:22_--"flora" w/ @lintukoto
2:44_--"shoujo" w/ @rewind214
4:04_--"flutter" w/ @lintukoto

:D

-july clips+++(w/ anka, rewind, pool:)

dust or lust

APRIL FOOLS COVER

for the love of sound #diary #plugg

listen on Spotify!

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