[Verse 1]
(Ooh)
(Ooh)
(Yeah)
See I was at a place you know I talked to people there
Yes, some, they told me so many advice, no
There was a little crazy little lady over there, I was sitting there so many days
She was sitting there three weeks, four weeks, I don't even know
She was crying out for God, you know, in the distance
In the moments I could talk to her, my music radiated inside her soul, yeah
I don't like this piece
[Verse 2]
(Oh no)
I was sitting there with a girl, my own for you now
My back here on the police and all the day
Jumping down, coming against the cars
I'm on my pants off and then I wasn't back there
I saw my feels inside my head
The doctors asked me, son, what did happen here?
I stopped telling them, I got locked into the vibe
Moment, God, are you taking my life?
So many pills they would got me addicted to
Yeah, I was off a diet, I've been so long
Yes, I was
I didn't even talk to her
Only when I even wear now
Then all the monsters that always seem to follow me
Seventeen, yeah, I know it's even not me
The music flow in the night
I'm addicted to so many things now
I was addicted to music, just the words I wrote
Yeah, my soul, God, I know I was on and on
Yeah, I passed and I didn't know how to read
He said in the distance, he told me he needed me, yeah
I sat to throw the guy
I sat there so many days, didn't know how to even feel
Man, I kissed him, yeah, I took a hold of two days
I had a feeling I had enough, I started throwing it up, yeah
You didn't even realize
I won't just to stay in everybody's life
I wanted to make me feel like every drug it gave me
I tried to fly, the sun is seizing within me
Won't cause it's faded in the courtyard of yesterday
I heard no music in the moment, Jesus, I
I looked up into the heavens, even not a cloud
Made a sound, I could always have seen light
No more music in my mind, I couldn't reach it
Like a song that's blocking every single feeling there
Yeah, I saw my girl crying last night
She was crying, yeah, yeah, you were
I started by, I just walked to her, didn't care
[Verse 3]
(Damn, it does have that, this is a beautiful song, yeah)
I saw her standing there, she was crying now
She's losing, yeah, children, yeah, I know now
I couldn't help her, but the medication depressed many in me
The song is gone, no colors could be found
It made me feel, yeah, I must have been found, yeah
But the difference is, I thought the pain
But it made me not give a shit about the freaking pain
The man in me, I just needed to feel
I needed to understand the people that were really real
That needed God, but I told him I know he would let me in there
For a little bit of longer, I know I got out
And private too early

monsters follow me

My name is John. I have been a broadcaster for five years and have been writing music and poetry for twenty years. I didn’t even realize I could read and write until I discovered I have mirror-touch synesthesia. I perceive everything from right to left: my poetry, words, and compassion. My childhood was challenging, to put it mildly. However, God showed me a way to help others through the words I share. Every song I write serves as a ministry. By addressing various issues, I hope to assist those with troubled pasts find healing through my words. I am a pastor, and this is how I spread God’s message—by feeling the emotions around me and understanding the feelings of the people I encounter, because I have experienced similar struggles. God allows me to see you in ways that others cannot.

monsters follow me

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