2 much 2 die 4

Hyper Chronicles 13

uh huh  
im gone
i passed out
blacked out

wanna break out, leave me alone
first time
full dose

uh huh
im god
i cant stay long
i forgot

take another, it dont last long
please stop
im lost

uh huh
drippin blood
thats enough
on the run

cut urself
go on walks
gotta help
we can talk

never leave the block
always bad luck
i got bad blood
i cant choose love

i dont love shit
dont wanna be this
i cant focus
opiate fix

im so broken
i cant be fixed
treat me like shit
unsafe what i mix

different color pills
who cares what i feel
i dont wanna live
who cares if im real

chasing prod. jolst & cutspace

arrival
all these pills got me suicidal
i dont want one i want like five tho
she want me, she is not my type tho

smoke different drugs we not like you
keep it peaceful, dont want to fight you
i do what i want, what i like to
i dont want one so imma buy two

i just lay in bed cuz i dont want go
i dont wanna talk to you i dont check my phone
move the bar by myself so its low
i cant write shit if im not alone

i just buy shit i dont even know
i just take this cuz i gotta cope
molly got the wall changing colors on its own
ketamine crystals fuckin up my nose

here we are again
i cant walk again
i cant sleep even
i dont want nofriends
she just gimme head
sin bound im not blessed
i cannot confess
lay my head to rest
its just for the best

dont what to do i feel so awful
i want opiates i want a problem
ruin my life i want to fall in
u cant do shit, you cant stop it

i once had a soul but i lost it
if i dont know you imma block it
never leave my room cuz im boxed in
do drugs all day, break a promise

foilsmoke prod. jolst & taylor morgan

i got eyestrain
smoking propane
fucked up my brain
come to my place

do it my way
dont know what day
i just cant stay

by the way
im not okay
can u go away
wanna go away

wanna throw away
i miss snow days
i miss old days
i dont know my name

gas what i smoke yuh
last place, switch the controller
when im sober dont know her
i know we can make it gon go up

afterparty, i aint gon show up
coming up, molly, im gon throw up
push and pull i cant make my mind up
sit in bed imma waste my time up

i think imma die soon
opiates fuck with  my vitals
stay awake breathe this shit vital
dont know what i need imma spiral

oh my fucking godddd i miss you
always fall im always   injured
oh my fucking godddd im with you
favorite person thats an issue

favorite person til i hate you
hate the person that i made you
hate myself so i keep blades too
hate the room that i feel chained to

stay with me and im gon change you
i cant bare to even face you
it dont matter im gon chase you
this is always what it comes to
instant love but with the fake you

propane prod. jolst & taylor morgan

ur infectious
accela its hangin on my necklace
only thing i know is codependence
ask questions im always gon deflect it
been there before so i respect it
redose i gotta get my next hit
i think bout past n not the present
one of these days im gonna end it

life is so precious  
so i always get fucked up and waste it
all this fuckin shit i gotta live with
only feel okay in new places

on the waitlist
im so faded
everfresh, i jus fuckin laced it
i just lit foil and chased it

i wanna give up
i just wanna fall asleep 
i dont wanna wake up
wanna fuck my life up

i decided
i just my made my mind up
ill buy it
i know i fucked up

accela prod. jolst & taylor morgan

i feel so bad
watch it fly past
wanna go back
i jus wan cash
no chill, im spazzed
i done made racks
always place last
chew, it hit fast

nod im passed out
i dont cash out
i been blacked out
wanna crash out
im jus not allowed
she gon find out
we gon fall out
to high cant count
im gon pass out

ketamine, i cant see
u cant lie on team

u jus fuckin bite the lure
mindlessly, i keep blades on me
she fly to me

i dont care bout you, just text to me
im too high cant read

imma pharmacy
theres no price to me
copiers they all nice to me

want life for free
die with me
no privacy

hiding but
they findin me
no price, delete

talk to me
what do you need
im yours to keep

promise me
watch me bleed
keep god with me

thought i could control myself but i was wrong
thought i could just help myself but i was wrong
all for nothing i want something help me god
right before i die is where i wanna be

biting pills prod. jolst & homesick

one take

first snowfall covers bodies on the battlefield
just another soldier to the country that you're fighting for
you had never meant anything to the federal
you had never meant anything to the whole world

isn't that the reason why you joined in the first place
thought that you would find yourself or maybe find a purpose
now you've lost the closest ones to you in the service
they're the only family you had now ur worthless again

lost every friend
watched them get ambushed by other humans
hard to tell if they're real
"how could anybody do this?"
you're the same person as them, are you stupid?

breathe
you should breathe a little bit 
re:
recollect your thoughts before you sip
from the canteen on your brothers hip
he doesn't need it now that hes limp
feed on the blood of the innocent
you think you're so fuckin different

do you remember the screams?
when they were beggin for medical
and all that you did was just fucking sit down make a wish to the gods you were back at home

no fucking responsibility
this was your fault in the end
you couldn't save any one of your squad cuz of you they all ended up dead

tell me was this all worth it
just to save yourself
did you know you'd be a burden
in the end you'll be rotting in hell
you couldn't be a servant
you couldn't even help
tell me was this all worth it
just to save urself

amongst all these corpses, i can no longer tell friend from foe

amongst all these corpses, i can no longer tell friend from foe (neverforever)

in so long

the bodies that we buried
now were watching and waiting
they decompose

i stared at the window
the blood on my hands and knees
i wished you would fall down the staircase
and stop breathing

i want to piss on your grave
see how much i could take away
this time i'll be the plague
and eat the flesh off of your bones

but you taste so fucking gross

plague

do you know how long its supposed to snow for
i cant see anything more than twenty feet in front of me
and if we die in this snow storm
well i dont want to think about it
put your hand on my heart feel my heart beat
i dont know if its still there can you check for me
but i know who you are and youre lovely
i know who you are and youre lovely
ive been lost here for a long time
and the sun here doesnt come up after night
was a painful process when my heart turned into bronzite
and i feel it everyday but i wish that i didnt

go to sleep now she said
itll all be over in the morning
dont fear for the road ahead
for every hero has his journey

but im notahero and i just cant stand for this
im on the battle ground
metal gauntlets on my wrist
i pray before the battle
know im taking fathers from their kids
they bring the archers out
as arrows shower down
my dying thought is of you
i think ill die on this hill
with several arrows in my back
and a big bastard sword covered in blood
what the fuck
im sworn through chivalry but ill die not enough
i feel these trees spread their roots through my guts
i feel my heart turn back on by your love
i dig my sword inside the ground and stand back up
guess she wont have it any other way
so ill live to fight another day

a hero's journey (p. ryan kelly)

i got something on the way
pray for my brothers hope we all gon' be okay
ill come back but can you meet me halfway
she said dont go life could be great
im moving so slow off of this drink
but time slows when i see you
and you think i would leave you
why the hell would i leave you
why the hell would i

i aint feel it all the same way
and i feel like we aint speak in like a couple days
and we could be that couple that just drives away
im getting sick of this town
im getting sick of the frown that you make when i make another mistake yea
throw me down to the ground when my whole world is quaking
think im reviving my heart just to break it
just look me in my eyes when you resusitate it
give me cpr
pour out my heart
i hope that you like it
i hope that you like it
yea all these love songs been for you but these raps been for me
i smoke stinky im still wondering how i smell so clean
bootcut jeans im with my posse all my guys on me
top shelf hit like its designer, tastes like burberry

i got something on the way
pray for my brothers hope we all gon' be okay
ill come back but can you meet me halfway
she said dont go life could be great
im moving so slow off of this drink
but time slows when i see you
and you think i would leave you
why the hell would i leave you
why the hell would i

am i hurt i cant feel it
she scared imma do something stupid
baby i got a good thing going
you dont gotta worry
i know it makes you nervous when im home alone
and for that im sorry
she holds me
and rips those violent images out of my eyelids
i swear i sleep better when youre next to me
im nowhere
im nothing
my cold hands
are shaking
im a monster
in monsters clothing
but ill try to forget it
just like you told me to

life could be great (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

youre tryna build me up but
i love just breaking down
i live with my head in the clouds
i need you to pull me down when youre around
ill reveal the scars on my back
im so fucked up my heads gonna explode
and maybe im okay with that
its about time ive had some relief from the plight that was bestowed upon me
for the past few months i dont even feel like me
im tryna burn the bridges ive been getting third degrees
i think im cursed or maybe i just got a new disease
either way i hope and pray that youll still stay with me
keep my hopes up, but my eyes low
and ill try to call you on the iphone but youre never picking up

youre never picking up
like this time is it really done
im still just leaking all my blood
i guess im used to all the cuts
i could never lie to you
everyday i wake up just to try for you
seems like nothing i say is getting through to you
swear to God that ill wait till i break for you
my love dont answer when im calling
i put too much on it often
please just listen when im talking
in my dreams i see us
falling down
i dont know who the hell is gonna try to save me now
oh what id do for one more night
God, what id do for one more time

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

plague

r0tdaughter