freudian slip

koniec

[LYRICS]

yellow
there's a GHOST IN MY ROOM
speaks to me too
i take comfort in that 
we're both empty

miserable
suffer in silence
a stain in this world
scared and hollow

miserable
see right through me
a stain in this world
scared and empty

yeah right

there's a GHOST IN MY ROOM
we're both empty

Ghost In My Room

home run king demo

The Order of The Hammer

So it begins
Not a wonder how it ends
The past is gone, the present currently blooms
Looking to the future everyone assumes

Films flowing ever through my mind
A paradise I could never leave behind

[Instrumental]

Sounds that cut through the air
And the scent of age of chapels with wrinkles and with wear
Taste of a river trickles on my tongue
Colors breath of violet and melodies of songs never sung

Films flowing ever through my mind
A paradise I could never leave behind
There's great things in these walls
Plus wonders down the halls of our minds
Memories we can all recall

[Instrumental]

Films flowing ever through my mind
A paradise I could never leave behind
There's great things in these walls
Plus wonders down the halls of our minds
Memories we can all recall

So it ends
Not a wonder how it ends

Sweet Memories

Shoegaze-y cover of Nightcall by Kavinsky. I'll make cover art for it later.
I recorded this in April of 2023 and it's been gathering dust on my Mac ever since. I just finished mixing it and now here it is. Enjoy.

Nightcall

strawberry girl

You gave your all
Now nothing's left
Broke every rule
Without regret

Do you want to feel it all?
Build it up
Watch it fall

Nothing Lasts
In the end

It's bittersweet
To say goodbye
Hold me in your arms
One last time

Do you want to feel it all?
Build it up
Watch it fall

Nothing lasts
In the end

Wish I Was You EP

Nothing Lasts

From Strangers To Something

A song I wrote about dealing with themes of social anxiety and just superficial social doubt. Its taken me a while to get this track done as each year i did the vocals I was never pleased. Finally on the 3rd year, I'm happy enough with them.

July 2021 Update
i reworked the drums from scratch and remastered the entire song as well as developed a rhythm guitar that i think really helps push the track further.


This song explores shoegaze, dreampop, postpunk, and progressive tapping. I'm quite fond of it.

Lyrically, the song explores social anxiety, the simultaneous severity and fictitious aspect of it and explores the superficial process one can experience while trying to make friends.

The song paints me in a much more socially meek or jaded individual than i truly am. It was written during a time where it tried to "just be social" in order to make more relationships/connections with people and alot of the small talk or barriers felt very shallow. So those experiences laid the base of the lyrical concept.

Personnel: All me
Mixing and such: Also all me

Lyrics:

Hi There we’ve met
what do I possibly do next?
there’s this protocol to apparently give you control
over my mind

Hi there again
Do you even remember me?
Do I do the same? Forget your name and play this game.
In order to… go from strangers to something

I don’t know what it, is I need to do
I know what I am never supposed to
But I don’t know any other way
If I ask you, you would run away
Are you afraid of me? Like I’m afraid of you

(From strangers to something) x4

Hi there my friend
Have I said enough to call you that?
Do we move past that or go right back cease what we've got?
Where was my fault?

hi there good bye
I guess I tried

I don’t know what it, is I need to do
I know what I am never supposed to
But I don’t know any other way
If I ask you, you would run away
Are you afraid of me? Like I’m afraid of you

I’m afraid of you
Are you scared of me?
I’m afraid of everything but it’s nothing to you

But its petrifying me
and its all in my head
How can I get it out
And not blow this all away

But its everything to me
And its nothing to you

I’m afraid of you, are you scared of me
Im afraid of everything but its all in my head

I’m afraid of you, im scared for you
Im afraid of everything but its all in my head

From Strangers to Something (DEMO 2)

Every breath you take, soak it in
Hands clasped, heart sinks
You fear the end
You walked until soles wore thin
Still feel as though it's just began

Willing to take the fall
It's worth it all

When your memories start to fade
Lost in moments you tried to save
Wake the child in you, it's not too late
Now you can let go:
Feel again

Willing to take the fall
It's worth it all

Darkest night
With no hand to guide
Wondering - are you by my side?

Dive

The Kate Bush of blackened industrial nu-metal revivalism.
Influences include: Tom Waits, Garbage, Primus, Nine Inch Nails, Smashing Pumpkins, Kate Bush, Concrete Blonde, White Zombie/Rob Zombie, Lil Peep, Lil Uzi Vert, Alice In Chains, Deftones, Butch Walker

Nightcall

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