7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

produced by jolst
featuring skele 

sendflowrs:

(it’s so frustrating 
the way u say that 
u know what u want
and u still do not want me)

now it’s the winter
and it’s so cold
she told me she always felt safe
wearing my coat 
i’m still a loser 
always alone ): 
and those big brown eyes 
they always freeze up all my bones 
she shows a smile
and says “come home”
i think the day that i die
i’ll finally grow 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave 

(skele)

but i’m here 
and you’re there 
washing out blood dried up in ur hair 
baby don’t keep calling me i don’t care 
going out bad 
like so sad
hurting me till i crash
you’re a tumor 
need to cut you out 
but i’m here 
n you’re there 
n you tell me that it’ll be okay 

(skele & sendflowrs)
i don’t care 

(sendflowrs) 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave

tumour, pt 2 (w/ skele) (jolst)

[Intro]
Came from the cracks where the sunlight fade,
Now we glow like crowns that the pain done made.
Ain’t nobody give a hand, we built that bridge,
Brick by brick, that’s how legends live.

Blood on the path, but we cleaned that scene,
Now every scar shine, royal, supreme.
They tried to break us, but they just sparked dreams,
‘Cause self-made means we Kingz & Queens.

[Verse 1]
Had to grind through storms, no cover, no rest,
Every “no” I heard put fire in my chest.
They laughed when I said I’d reign one day,
Now they study the blueprint I laid.

From ramen noodles to rib-eye plates,
From one pair of shoes to a closet of fate.
I ain’t ashamed of the dirt I’ve seen,
That mud turned me royal, now I walk pristine.

They told us to bow, we learned to fight,
Turned every shadow into our light.
Self-made, that’s God’s design,
Ain’t no crown if you skip the grind.

[Chorus]
We built this with pain and heart,
We carved our thrones from the dark.
Ain’t no handouts, just belief and means,
Self-made means we Kingz & Queens.

We rose from ashes, chased the gleam,
Dream by dream, scheme by scheme.
Our bloodline built on legacy themes,
Self-made means we Kingz & Queens.

[Verse 2]
Every loss taught me what power is,
That peace ain’t given, it’s earned through risk.
We cried, we bled, we broke, we healed,
We turned pain to purpose, that’s how we build.

I seen mamas pray with empty plates,
Still told us, “One day, baby, we’ll be great.”
So I kept faith tighter than the chains I wore,
Now gold hang heavy, but my heart want more.

More respect, more truth, more rise,
More unity in my brothers’ eyes.
‘Cause when we win, we all succeed,
Royalty don’t flex,  it feeds.

[Bridge]
You ever look in the mirror and see a throne?
That’s the spirit of the streets we own.
Ain’t no diamonds that can outshine pain,
But that pain became our royal vein.

We don’t kneel no more, we reign upright,
Built by hunger, fueled by fight.
No fake crowns, this one’s clean,
Self-made means we Kingz & Queens.

[Chorus]
We built this with pain and heart,
We carved our thrones from the dark.
Ain’t no handouts, just belief and means,
Self-made means we Kingz & Queens.

We rose from ashes, chased the gleam,
Dream by dream, scheme by scheme.
Our bloodline built on legacy themes,
Self-made means we Kingz & Queens.

[Verse 3]
Now the young ones look up, say “teach me how,”
I tell ‘em it’s sweat, not luck, not clout.
Stay loyal when the money loud,
‘Cause royalty don’t fake the crown.

We ain’t perfect, we just real,
Our crowns don’t shine, they heal.
For every soul that thought they’re not enough,
You’re royalty if you rise from rough.

Never forget the nights you cried,
That’s the proof you’re still alive.
Every scar, every sleepless scene,
That’s gold, you just ain’t seen.

[Outro]
Now when I walk, I walk with grace,
Built my kingdom from my pain’s embrace.
Ain’t no throne higher than self-belief,
Ain’t no jewel brighter than inner peace.

They can keep they titles, I made mine clean,
From nothing to everything, seen and unseen.
No chains can hold what the soul redeems,
Self-made means we Kingz & Queens.

Self-Made Means We Kingz & Queens

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

floating away (prod. killedmyself)

go follow @iofmusic and use his beats hes great

lyrics:

There we were lost again gone for days
Whats the point no one cares anyways
I’ll still be alright, you could let me die slow
I’ll still be alright, just leave me alone~

On the floor laying there wondering
If any of this shit matters anyway
I'll still be alright, you can watch me die slow
I'll still be alright, that's all I can hope for~

Fuck this conversation , cause I can’t let go
Life just has this grip can’t take hold
Coldest times are near don’t want to
Let you down but times approaching

Peaks never feel like the lows
Slowing my life to a halt
Calling out all night
Closed doors locked behind
You saw all the signs
Lie to me thats all I need to get 
Feelings that cannot compete with the real thing enough
Deep as those meaningless words wanna cut
Eventually all that shit turns to
Nothing


I cannot rewind
Mine as well move on
Longing for a sign
Wishing for a thought
Thats all that I want
Something that just gets me through for the moment
The closer I get to the edge feels alive
Like whats the point of just trudging along
None of this shit feels like it is alright
Cave into the thought crawl into my hole
Back to where before no where left to go

I thought that I'd realize and just let go~
Why did I assume things were simple?

signs ~ [p. iof]

I dont wanna wake up
laying alone, always dreaming about your touch
i'm getting used to isolation, i don't feel nah
reminicing about your love

i see you standing there, you're with someone else
you see me glancing but your acting like you couldn't tell
yeah, i feel like the weather getting colder,
yeah, i hope i forget you when im older, yeah
i've been drawing pretty pictures on my wrist with a razor
i don't need to call yeah i know that you wont answer me
just tell me what i don't see
woah

about your love

skele - about your love (prod. remghost)

this is my life

prod by @trechorboy
cover art by @trechorboy

bright flames 
light faces 
with a warm hue
every town 
burns down
that i pass through
doctor walked in
said that ill probably 
pull through
stared that fucker down 
and told him 
i didn’t want to
i have a confession
all this depression
has made me hate
every being 
in every direction 
i want the worst
i want it done
i wish that covid 19
took out everyone

the seasons change 
& its getting colder
my mind is the same
but im getting older
piece of shit 
20 something
low life bitch
if i was incarcerated
i would prolly snitch
i had a dream 
last night
where everything
was just alright
i woke up
in regret
that my life 
hadn’t ended
all quite yet

bright flames 
light faces 
with a warm hue
every town 
burns down
that i pass through
doctor walked in
said that ill probably 
pull through
stared that fucker down 
and told him 
i didn’t want to
i have a confession
all this depression
has made me hate
every being 
in every direction 
i want the worst
i want it done
i wish that covid 19
took out everyone

i searched for a reason to not kms & found nothing.

https://soundcloud.com/deadbrokeofficial
https://soundcloud.com/ripkais

lyrics:
she had the same perfume, i never failed to remember you.
i don’t even know what to do.
mind is fading help me thru.

i’ve been fucked up, fucking up my heart now.
i can’t sleep, i cant sleep, with the lights out.
i keep seeing, i keep seeing things, i’m going out.
of my mind i can’t find none my thoughts wow.

she had the same perfume,
i never failed to remember you,
i don’t even know what to do.
my mind is fading help me through,

watch me, coz i don’t wanna live at all.
nothings been worth it, thought she was perfect.
call me a creep but i kept her perfume.
the only thing that i have that will keep me from you

watch me, coz i don’t wanna live at all.
nothings been worth it, thought she was perfect.
call me a creep but i kept her perfume.

i’ve turned into a monster,
it’s all that i am now,
and i don’t wanna leave you behind,
but sometimes he gets out,
and i can’t control that fight
if you see me don’t speak to me,
i swear to god,
i warned you i told you, no one is perfect,
and she might overdose tonight.
if she wakes up i’ll be surprised..

she had the same perfume,
i never failed to remember you,
i don’t even know what to do.
my mind is fading help me through,

she had the same perfume,
i never failed to remember you,
i don’t even know what to do.
my mind is fading help me through,

perfume

dead broke - perfume (ft. kais)

[+] used to hold your hand while you're coming down..
* featuring @lilskeleskrrt * produced by @l1lbiscuit *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVr0Jf26AFk

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 1: @seejayxo]
Baby I could hate you,
But I think I could love you just the same
Holdup, wait a minute, lemme switch my lane
I just gotta get me a Range
I just need some bands in the back of the safe
I got nothing else to say
They was sleeping on me
Now I feel like they awake
Shawty got a lil taste
Now she think she love me, I can see it in her face
Baby I'ma get them bands and I'll spend on you
That's just what I do, I don't know if I'ma lose
I just gotta tell you when I'm thinking of you...
Cuz I'm thinking of your heart beating on mine
I don't even know if this feels right
I just gotta know where it leads right, where it leads right?

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 2: @lilskeleskrrt]
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now
So what do you want from me?
I could sit here all day you won't talk to me
Even if I was dying, you wouldn't stop for me
I've been making racks, its not enough for you
You keep wanting more even when all my bands are blue
Caution, stop with all that fuck shit
Cameras flashing the lights off when I walk into the function
Razor round my necklace I'm bound to get reckless
Seejay in the back while I scratch off my checklist
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now

Coming Down

+ stream on SPOTIFY

coming down (feat. skele) *MUSIC VID IN DESC*

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dead broke - perfume (ft. kais)

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