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featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/heylog
socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

lyrics:

(I've kept on fucking up
and that's why
I can't keep it up
But now
I'm left here with no one
I gotta manage here on my own)

it's been so cold now
that I've been on my own now
I never want to wake up
these thought in my mind forever

No, I don't wanna hang out now
cause, too busy hating on myself
Just digging my grave deeper
til I meet the reaper
death to me is peace

I hate myself, all my cuts to prove that
I need a break, isolate from all of that
damn, it causes my mind to break
can you say that you relate?

So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

[heylog]
you don't know
how much u mean to me
i stumble up on my feet
text u and never sleep
i'm happy, this can't be me
cut
me
off
write a song about us
oh numb
i'm hoping ur gone
u caught me a break
recover from loss
but still feel the same

[deadfish]
So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

on my own

on my own (feat. heylog)

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS
s/o to @guardinmusic and @johnnyfriend
and @reesoo

lyrics:

jaden: 
Did you ever really care for me, I can't tell
Sending all of the texts for me to get well
When you're the one that made me go get help
'Cus all you care about is yourself

Smoke and mirrors, only ties, I ain't fucking with you
Said, "I ain't fucking other guys," bitch tell me the truth
Only option "do or die" but I ain't dying for you
If I give another try, what the fuck you gon' do

Smoke and mirrors, only ties, I ain't fucking with you
Said, "I ain't fucking other guys," bitch tell me the truth
Only option "do or die" but I ain't dying for you
If I give another try, what the fuck you gon' do?

Guardin:
What the fuck you gon' do?
Lies aligned in a queue
You've been hanging silhouettes, all by the ties of their shoes
Seven minute resurrections every night with a new
mother fucker who ain't even gettin' half of the truth
You've been lying through your teeth tryna hide it all
Now i'm walking down your street while you're driving off
Text you who the fuck is he realizing now
This ain't ever what it seemed you just let me down

Jaden:
Smoke and mirrors, only ties, I ain't fucking with you
Said, "I ain't fucking other guys," bitch tell me the truth
Only option "do or die" but I ain't dying for you
If I give another try, what the fuck you gon' do

Smoke and mirrors, only ties, I ain't fucking with you
Said, "I ain't fucking other guys," bitch tell me the truth
Only option "do or die" but I ain't dying for you
If I give another try, what the fuck you gon' do?

Listen to your lies like a CD
I'm a redo, do you really need me?
Watching your moves like a TV
Glued to the screen when you leave me

Jaden and Guardin:
Smoke and mirrors, only ties, I ain't fucking with you
Said, "I ain't fucking other guys," bitch tell me the truth
Only option "do or die" but I ain't dying for you
If I give another try, what the fuck you gon' do

Smoke and mirrors, only ties, I ain't fucking with you
Said, "I ain't fucking other guys," bitch tell me the truth
Only option "do or die" but I ain't dying for you
If I give another try, what the fuck you gon' do?

smoke and mirrors w/ guardin (johnnyfriend)

prod. sinxi


Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Im running where the sun wont face yet
U can see it in my eyes im faded 
Im waiting 
for nothing 
Leave something
Oh
Don’t run away 
I don’t wanna lose you
I won’t love again
Im not used to that
Don’t call me back
I wanna leave the past
Id feel better with a heart attack

Don’t talk to me 
Im too out of it
Left out alone
Don’t try again
Like honestly
She won’t lie again
Im too far gone
Leave me out of it

Im tryna quit
No Time for this
All my words fall flat again
Still arguing
Swear she’s such a bitch
Please let go 
Let me outta this

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Faceless
You can see it in my eyes im faded
No thoughts promsie u won’t change it
Im waiting for nothing
Tell me im trying for something

Changing
U keep telling me u never wanna face it
Fucked up got my heart beat racing
Im faded off nothing
Tell me im waiting for something

faceless

use me up to tell me that u never loved me
I feel like I’m never nothing
I’m tired can u just leave me alone
Please stop staring swear my face is fucking boring
I don’t need to be important I’m swinging until I knock him cold
Staring at the mirror
Should I be alive
I’ve got reason to believe that it’s just not my time
Maybe in another life

I only eat when I deserve to
Clouded mirror sit and stare in the bathroom
I been thru it all before I’m just like you
I never wanna let you down but I had to

I’d give up on everything to be a better me
I’ve got people streaming songs
but no one listening
Every lyric that I write, you know I fucking mean
You only hmu to make a song with me

I won’t get that mad
I’m just frustrated
I can’t seem to get a break and I just hate it
If you lived in my shoes maybe you’d get it
Why I get pissed off and I’m not patient

WRITING EVERY FEELING BUT I’LL ALWAYS FORGET
EVERYTHING I EVER DID OR EVER SAID IN THE END
BUT I’M TOO FAR GONE TO CARE
I DON’T LIKE YOU
I WISH THAT YOU’D CARE FOR ME
YOU DON’T TRY TO

prod hira <3

idgaf if no one listens to this
bleeding out upon the surface, no ones giving a shit
shouting every word and you still wont get it
im getting sick of always being pathetic

ill rip his lung from his chest love
then hold your face while my hands fucked
now im wishing you the worst love
the only reason that im still numb

i been so far i need someone to rely on (you)
hold me so close, you can see me with the lights off (hira)
man im so scared that youll see me as an eyesore
please dont let me go, you where everything i asked for
asked for
asked for
let me go, where everything i asked for
getting slow
why tf you text him back whore
i dont wanna know
is there something that youre hiding?
(this bitch)
is getting cold
i can see it in her writing

feel like everyone's forgetting me
how tf u so selfish
go and fuck him while u cry to me
howd you leave me so helpless

i been so far i need someone to rely on (you)
hold me so close, you can see me with the lights off (hira)
man im so scared that youll see me as an eyesore
please dont let me go, you where everything i asked for
asked for
asked for
let me go, where everything i asked for
getting slow
why tf you text him back whore
i dont wanna know
is there something that youre hiding?
(this bitch)
is getting cold
i can see it in her writing

scared

https://soundcloud.com/shikixo
https://soundcloud.com/88strait

fill me up with pills, see what it sounds like
baby baby breaking made me famous so it’s alright
but won’t you let me in? it’s freezing out i’m getting frostbite
tell me how the fuck i’m supposed to see inside this spotlight 

watch me bleed and put me in the spotlight
tell me that you love me baby tell me that i’m alright
don’t tell me that you need me i’m a no one i hate my life
see me fucking drowning in my sins it’s for a lifetime oh oh

and every time you run away i'm getting closer to the edge 
i don’t wanna talk to you i don’t need another friend
fake friends they been wasting all my time
got no patience in this basement out my mind
i been complacent, i can’t face it, shut my eyes 
too many thoughts inside this head of mine
i think too much shut me up
i don't know how but could you just fuck…

fill me up with pills, see what it sounds like
baby baby breaking made me famous so it’s alright
but won’t you let me in? it’s freezing out i’m getting frostbite
tell me how the fuck i’m supposed to see inside this spotlight 

watch me bleed and put me in the spotlight
tell me that you love me baby tell me that i’m alright
don’t tell me that you need me i’m a no one i hate my life
see me fucking drowning in my sins it’s for a lifetime oh oh

see, i’m dying
no need to help i hate my skin
fool me once then fool me twice
i don’t wanna play this
fuck me up i’ll take my life
living dead it’s shear bliss
take my hand and kiss my head i’ll die when we see snow
i don’t wanna hurt you but it’s hard when it gets cold
i’m still waiting for the day when you just stab me in the back and leave
just tell me that you hate me i can’t take it baby let me bleed

fill me up with pills, see what it sounds like
baby baby breaking made me famous so it’s alright
but won’t you let me in? it’s freezing out i’m getting frostbite
tell me how the fuck i’m supposed to see inside this spotlight 

watch me bleed and put me in the spotlight
tell me that you love me baby tell me that i’m alright
don’t tell me that you need me i’m a no one i hate my life
see me fucking drowning in my sins it’s for a lifetime oh oh

FROSTBITE

MORE PLATFORMS

SHIKI XO & 88STRAIT - FROSTBITE

single off of my debut album "home away from home" (track 5)
shoutout to @xona for featuring on the track :)
produced by: azure & aidanhan
special shoutouts to @bitekivibes for being the goat too

LYRICS:
murph:

i walk out in the forest
but quickly i lose the light 
and my skin turns to mould
and the birds start to fly
i thought that i was safe, in my home away from home
but as i saw the creatures running i simply do not know

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

and now you're looking at me must've came back as a ghost
i love the way there's blood splattered all over the walls
can we find a way to give me pain, 'cause i need me some more
she put diamonds on her pinky ring, i love it when she flaunts

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

xona:

i'll decide what i do now - i'm reeling in "ours"
uh, leaving the pits that i found myself
(myself)
you desired my help
but i'm sick of words when its just pure guilt
so it's on me, awfully killing my health
i'm sorry i reached this point myself
the story goes on, to build a home
where we stay safe from the cold

murph:

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold
(s.o.s)
s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

- if u reached the bottom have a good day/night 333+ -

s.o.s w/ xona

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

SPOTIFY

time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

prod @tnvr555 

you wake up in the middle of the night
and push my hair out of my face
hear you smiling
turn to your side and i’ll hold you
wake up in the morning
and i’m right where i’m supposed to be
homes complete
it’s you and me
feel at ease
promise you’ll never leave

so say that we worked it out
that it’s all good now
cause i need you here with me
and you know i love you
how i can’t sleep i’m bound
to see you in every dream

take me back now
to the summer where we met
where i was starving for your love
writing songs about our death
and the feelings never die
trust me that i tried my best
but the feelings never die
feels like my heart is in your chest
oh

we got lost a few times
u skipped states
i wrote rhymes
i still hurt every night
i can’t stare in your eyes

i see u in every dream

spotify

i see u in every dream [tnvr]

YOU MADE IT (endurecrisis)

dntstop [jermaine]

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