Guardin is life

Emo Rap 7

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anxious (prod. by fiftysix)

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//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

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guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

lyrics
—————————
u didn’t care like i thought u did
say u think im doin good
well its the opposite
fall back
get me off of this
death callin
show me where the coffin is

feelin bad but i know
if i try than i can
make my dreams come tru
like a star in the night
when it shines so bright
with the sky
& i think of u

& i know that
things aren’t always what they seem
i wanna go back
but i can only seem to do it when i sleep

i don’t like this
the feeling inside it
eats me alive
all the time
i cant fight this
indecisive
i feel like im dyin
pacin’ & whinin’
the tides keep on risin

& one day ill make this right
& one day
ill make my dreams come to life

produced by dead spyro

make my dreams come to life pt. 2 [prod. dead spyro]

[+] i know well what i am fleeing from, but not what i am in search of
* featuring @steadysuffer * prod by @bornhero *
(artwork created by @scottysplash)

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[hook:]
i remember days they were laughing at my shit
but now im coming up, so they all want a pic
catch me in the crib, chillin with a new bitch
they tell me that i'm nice, now they tell me that im sick

[verse:]
hate be alone, but i still drive slow
when im by myself and my mind froze
she just took my heart, she a dark rose
i still hate myself, but thats another road

i still miss the bars but i let em' go
i ain't tryna die, but you never know
i still love that girl but i let her go
left it all behind, for the better though

[verse 2: steadysuffer]
they always telling me the same shit
i don't wanna hear that
now you're all up in my face like
where the fuck the pack at?
i hid the louis belt in my backpack
smoked out to the max yah
ice all in my white cup
fucked up, i'm like fuck love
tell me i'm a starter
iced out in a charter
boof louder than farter
coughed up, Skywalker
and if you're thinking that staring will help me now
you're wrong
all the pressure you put on my back was soft
i'm raw
it was soft
oh like you were coming back
but you just had to ask
oh god

the drive ft. steadysuffer (prod. born hero)

Let Go (feat. thebreathingbackwards)

Official Music Video: https://youtu.be/LWuLsFZaoU0
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/0cpqtqT8PRz94BOSJ2iPeU?si=esjkVkHARfGHkAS1sMS9Jg
From the project Disaster Boy available on all streaming services

Lyrics:
I get nostalgia when I think 'bout you
where'd u run to? I miss u in my room
should of known not to fuck with you
knew our loved was doomed we got trust issues
nostalgia when you hit my line
I don't pick up I just hit decline
still cant get you off my mind
one more time its just one more time

she said she don't really wanna see me
I know she don't even really need me
yeah I love you but I hate the way you treat me
so just leave me ruin me completely
she said she don't really wanna see me
I know she don't even really need me
yeah I miss you but I know that you'll deceive me
reminiscing all these memories on repeat

memories on repeat
memories on repeat
reminiscing all these
reminiscing all these memories on repeat

I get nostalgia when I think 'bout you
where'd u run to? I miss u in my room
should of known not to fuck with you
knew our loved was doomed we got trust issues

she said she don't really wanna see me
I know she don't even really need me
yeah I love you but I hate the way you treat me
so just leave me ruin me completely
she said she don't really wanna see me
I know she don't even really need me
yeah I miss you but I know that you'll deceive me
reminiscing all these memories on repeat

Music Video

Nostalgia (prod. Pretty Boy Ron) [VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

Art by @flowerleigh_ on insta :)

𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘬𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘺𝘴

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lyrics: 

{kais}
baby please
don’t go
i saw u in my window
y this life so slow oh no yea
i wish that could be there
watching your eyes
white nails, an nice thighs
i saw u 

i saw u
in the movie lights
nice volume 
on ur pretty eyes
i know that
u want me tooo
fly away wit u
i can do that

{yung axstn}
Whisper in my ear let me know you’re here
I want you somewhere near  have I made this clear
now don’t you go you’ve been at my window 
I just hope you know i don’t want you to go 
now i know that you hate what you’ve seein 
but just know that I’m not the one to be leavin

{dead roses}
i miss your beautiful hair
floating in the wind
i promise to be there 
if you let me in
when i saw you in that bright moonlight
i fell in love i was amazed
it’s all because 

ur moonlit eyes and that smile took me by surprise
no aching cries stay the night i’ll treat you right
no haunting lies and an open sky what a pretty sight
please don’t go baby please don’t go





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emo poerty slam

emo poetry slam (w/yung axstn & dead roses) [prod.dead spyro]

mixed, mastered & produced by @scapegoat
mixed by @lilskeleskrrt

a cover of "december" by neck deep

december [feat. skele]

@adny-disgraci

lyrics:
black and white is comfortable cuz the grey is always a silver lining
i'm used to watching the cars pass and seeing my life flash by behind me
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now

[adny]
stab me in the back now
i'm workin' hard but they keep tellin' me to back down
every step, every move i make they always crack down
they say you'll never make it till you make it out of that town
every day is rain i just feel like king cyrus
everywhere i go i always feel like there's a bias
i'm thinking this'll never go away like a virus
and i'm still feeling blue like my iris
no i'm not syre
i don't smoke so i'm not gettin' higher
i've been feeling low talkin' flat like a tire
you told me you love me but i know that you're a liar
i hope this comes back to haunt you
for consolation yeah i still want you 
but every time i speak about you i'm still gonna taunt you
baiting, berating, i'm stuck here decaying at 16
i think i should start medicating, i hate it

black and white is comfortable cuz the grey is always a silver lining
i'm used to watching the cars pass and seeing my life flash by behind me
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now (x2)

silver lining w/ adny

Art By Me

Intro:
Oci su mi stra stra strasno crvene
Vidim samo andjele plivaju oko mene

Oci su mi stra stra strasno crvene
nije bitno sto je, bitno samo da te sjebe

Verz:
nocas party sprema se
obuci smece svoga oca
trule vensice i tucaj
(ahh pra)

dj pusta ruski trep
neko kurac je nacrtao
na stoniranog luzera
(skrr)

lik iz skole nam je plag
ima indiku sativu
pokemone, speed i sidu

a ti,
ti pusila bi bas sve...

Chorus:
Oci su mi stra stra strasno crvene
Vidim samo andjele, plivaju oko mene

Oci su mi stra stra strasno crvene
nije bitno sto je, bitno samo da te sjebe

Oci su mi stra stra strasno crvene
zaboli me sto si ljudi misle oko mene

Oci su mi stra stra strasno crvene...
mi smo budale spaljene


Verz:
samo hrabro, samo hard
vuci pattex pa nastavi
dok se mozak ti ne spali
(paw paw paw)

ti se pravis pijana
dok snimas frendice u komi
koje stavit ces na story
(yea skrr!)

Sergio sippa roza sprite
krade lijekove od bake
pa ih gutamo ko zvake

a ti,
ti gutala bi baš sve...
to si nasljedila od matere

Bridge:
I skejteri, i stoneri
i smoreni tinejdzeri,
i punkeri, hip hoperi,
i dzastin biber hejteri

Odmetnici, trifteri
i picke koje nose gucci,
plešu sad na ovo sranje,
fejvret grupe tvoje mame

Chorus:
Oci su mi stra stra strasno crvene
Vidim samo andjele, plivaju oko mene

Oci su mi stra stra strasno crvene
nije bitno sto je, bitno samo da te sjebe

Oci su mi stra stra strasno crvene
zaboli me sto si ljudi misle oko mene

Oci su mi stra stra strasno crvene...
mi smo budale spaljene

(glupi part)

Outro:
dok ne povratimo po katu
dok se ne guramo po staklu
dok ne zavrsis u nokautu
lice blijedo ko vampiri
sranje prži kao raichu

dok ne probudis se u smecu
bez telefona u dzepu
sve ti opet je presmijesno
dok te stari ne pokupi
pa izšamari ko pičku 

mi smo budale spaljene
propale generacije

Oči Crvene

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@ihateshinigami

shoutout kais for making this with me 
follow him: @https://soundcloud.com/ripkais

lonely eyes (w/ kais) (prod. caspr)

This is a re-upload of a song that was deleted by vivant and he gave me permission to re-upload it! Yay!

get me out my head w/ schwarzie (prod. vivant)

only feet apart (prod. kiraw)

lyrics:

[chorus]
Feeling empty every day more
Not even death will heal my sore
Living life black & white
Getting only black at night
Afraid of the time
I've been spending for my whole life
Without anybody loving me
Being on my side 
Without any love 
being shown for me
All the words u speak
Make my dry heart bleed
Make my soulless body
Wish that anybody
Will find something in me
But I know that nobody
Would stay with somebody
That is like me
I hate to feel like this 
I can't enjoy anything
I can't enjoy my life
Cause nothing shines as bright
as you used to do

[bridge]
I want you back into my arms
I want you back but you don't want
I'm feeling dead
I'm 

[chorus]
Feeling empty every day more
Not even death will heal my sore
Living life black & white
getting only black at night
Afraid of the time
I've been spending for my whole life
Without anybody loving me
Being on my side 
Without any love 
being shown for me
All the words u speak
Make my dry heart bleed
Make my soulless body
Wish that anybody
Will find something in me
But I know that nobody
Would stay with somebody
That is like me
I hate to feel like this 
I can't enjoy anything
I can't enjoy my life
Cause nothing shines as bright
as you used to do

Empty [prod. after sphere]

lyrics
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baby maybe
i could come thru in the morning
i don't care if it is still raining & pouring
outside your window the world is still tossing & turning
rain turns to sunshine this is a cycle i'm learning

fear
the keeper instilled in my mind
i've been escaping erasing the parts of my brain that don't ever comply
oh dear
i hope you that you know that i've tried
but terror is making a mess if i do just confess i know all of it's lies

why do i 
feed the parts inside of me
that absolutely mortify & choke me till i cannot breathe
do you feel
better when you're sound asleep
or do the thoughts inside of you just come to life inside a dream

truth be told
i've lost all hope
my mind has gone insane
maybe i'm addicted to the dark parts of my brain
you & i have different eyes no we are not the same
i could be the moth and baby you could be the flame

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someday 2

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alive (ft. PVRIS)(prod. caspr)

prod: @caustyk

I can't talk to anyone, anyone its so cold

Lyrics:
Ive been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But i know you dont care

Why am i so broken on the inside
Years go by
No time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight


I died when i realized that nothings ever changed
Always on the edge, every week its the same
And im so insane
I know its not healthy but i think i love the pain
I hate feeling empty, so theres liquor in my veins

She the one i want, but the one i cant save
Pictures that i cropped, shawty your my cocaine
i feel overclocked, i can feel my heart race


I dont like this
Overwhelmed and tired of it
I feel like im losing everyone
Everyone thats close

Since the time skip
More burdens that i cant fix
And i cant talk to anyone
Anyone its so cold 

Ive been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But i know you dont care

Why am i so broken on the inside
Years go by
No time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight

I thought i died last night 
Ashes fall its like
Everytime im in a dream
I can see it slowly bleed

I cant let go 
But i might break my bones
I wish i could know
But this my only road


Crashing down with my potion
Losing feeling in my body like its stolen 
So why you down, tell me why u feelin hopeless 
So much shit in life left me feelin so broken
x2

she's the one i want, but the one i can't save (prod. caustyk)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=osqAqTgm6ys

MUSIC VIDEO

So Far Gone From Reality (MUSIC VIDEO LINK IN BIO)

Out now on all streaming platforms - https://open.spotify.com/track/24bPKVpbTMhkExxXe2jj8p?si=N05weZt4SoGwvYBHu7HCyA

I don't know what you see?

Mixed and Mastered by @tripwonda

Life's Unfair (Prod. Capsctrl)

Lyrics:

she said she wanna hear my voice, so I'm going a capella
we could rockout at the show, you could take me to Coachella
all this money coming in it dont mean nothin but its hella
every time i put in work it's like I need a new umbrella

-its boutta raindown, you could make a bet that we all eating
i dont play now, know i got ambitions past the ceiling
every day now, live outside my body say I'm dreaming
what you say now, pack up all your bags and say I'm leaving

I be chillin with your ghost like im legion
there ain't nothin change at all throughout the seasons
i could stay up late and kick it with my demons
i could fall asleep right now without a reason

I could get you on the bed, shawty you heard what I said
But you wont stay till the morning cause I'm busy getting bread
So I guess I'll stay alone I'm like a zombie half dead
I could float and I could sink and I could run you through my head

Run U Thru My Head

run u thru my head

Emptiness

Emptiness (prod. Saba Lagrange)

weird!

it's quiet in beverly hills

Sitting In Fire

hell no, you can not ride with us
back of the cab you can find your seat alone
you be all dangerous with the way you talk
yeah i had to  let you know
did i stu-stu-stutter
cause sometimes yes i do when i'm alone with you
did i stu-stu-stutter
cause you think it is cute but i wish you fucking knew
hell no, you can not ride with us
back of the cab you can find your seat alone
you be all dangerous with the way you talk
yeah i had to  let you know

i was alone way before you thought that shit was trendy
black emojis in your bio, oh you put to many
and my bitch was dressed in black and she was not to friendly
i got messages but you really could not offend me

i never needed you
even if it gets you blue
imma let you know it's really true
i never needed you
i made sure that you can't say i do, you can't say i do

i was alone way before you thought that shit was trendy
she used to be so happy now she cut the fendi
back when i was on the floor, you could've healed my sores
but you chose to spit on me and now

hell no, you can not ride with us
back of the cab you can find your seat alone
you be all dangerous with the way you talk
yeah i had to  let you know
did i stu-stu-stutter
cause sometimes yes i do when i'm alone with you
did i stu-stu-stutter
cause you think it is cute but i wish you fucking knew
hell no, you can not ride with us
back of the cab you can find your seat alone
you be all dangerous with the way you talk
yeah i had to  let you know

Hell No

Monsters (feat. Demi Lovato and blackbear)

I hope you like this new song Minivans <3

@spacemanzack
@lovlok

Sunshine Hotel w/ SpaceMan Zack

Sunshine Hotel w/ SpaceMan Zack (Prod. Lovlok)

SPOTFIY

Lyrics:
[hook]
Please don't let me fall again, again
I don't like at all the pain, the pain
You make me feel
My mother always told me
That life is never sorry
It lets you by your lonely
And I'm lonely, I'm lonely
 
[verse]
Take a pill so the stress goes right away
My head's a mess, it gets worse every day
Worse every day
I can't be sober, life sucks way too much
Ever since I lost the feel of your touch
Ever since my life lost all its joy
Cause I miss too much the sound of your voice
The sound of your laughter
Give it back to me
Cause right after
You left I stopped to live

[hook]
Please don't let me fall again, again
I don't like at all the pain, the pain
You make me feel
My mother always told me
That life is never sorry
It lets you by your lonely
And I'm lonely, I'm lonely

[bridge]
I'm just trying to make it clear
That I want you with me
I'm just trying to fall asleep
But my head doesn't let me
My heart does not beat
I cannot rest in peace

[hook]
Please don't let me fall again, again
I don't like at all the pain, the pain
You make me feel
My mother always told me
That life is never sorry
It lets you by your lonely
And I'm lonely, I'm lonely

I'm Lonely [Prod. Jody & Larrybeats1999]

prod. by @hellahaunted and @sainttomorrow

lyrics
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what if i testify against everything that i
have been saying this whole time
cause i’m probably telling lies
what do i do when i
feel like lying down to die
does the dirt eat me alive
do the worms feed off my eyes
open wide for the flies
cause they’re feeding off your spine
crawling up & down in line
like a soldier bound to die
come inside so will i
wipe your feet until they’re dry
wipe the tears out of your eyes
part of me likes when you cry

winter and summer collide
this universe isn’t mine no
we hope this reaches you in time
chaotic but jesus christ you’re beautiful
(x2)

get caught up constantly in life’s residuals
and paint the sky full of agonizing visuals
can’t press rewind when you realize it’s minuscule
so don’t let go it’ll only leave you miserable

the cycle (prod. caspr x saint tomorrow)

I see passion in disguise I still hate 2 say goodbye , im goin luv u til I d1e


(yea this off dome but its cool sleep on me)

Luv u til i d1e ;(

prod by me again love u guys <33

lyrics:

maybe its the way that I been feelin lately
I keep trippin on your laces its so complicating 
suffocated by your breathe
while you’re sleeping
tell me is it me or is it everything this weekend

so its me and you 
in this polaroid burnin 
I cant seem to tell the truth
its so hard when im with you
burnin pictures in my wallet you can see it right 
its the only way im ever gonna sleep at night

fk it tho, it’s okay im gettin my money up
I know you dont believe me but I give a fk
if I fall, imma end it all
im tired of these fights endin in draws

I get so fkin stressed that I cant calm down
and all my friends are busy and they gone now
I cant help but feel alone cus I dont go out 
im so stuck in my head I cant get out 

I say I love you and I mean it, I know you dont believe it
all the shit that I been feelin I wish I wasnt breathin 
I seen it cant believe that im not dreamin 
I always close my eyes cause I cant look I’ll jus be terrified 

terrified, of my visions, im so terrified
look me in my eyes, cant u see this fkin parasite
parasite, eatin at me killin me inside
I cant fall asleep and I cant get up I put my life aside

polaroid

spotify

Produced by: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161
Vocals by: https://soundcloud.com/hazenova x https://soundcloud.com/cypression

Lyrics:

Hazenova:

i never feel comfortable its okay 
i dont really know if ill make it another day 
i never feel comfortable its okay 
i dont really know if ill make it another day 

u tell me im a loser and a dirtbag
all the words you say yeah they hurt bad 
u tell me im a loser and a dirtbag
and all the words you say yeah they hurt bad 


i wanna get to know her
but she pushes me away
i wanna get to know her
but i dont know what to say


Cypression:

 wanna get know him but he pushes me away
 wanna get to know him but I don’t what to say
 think about him every night and everyday  
 look up at the clouds i swear see his face 
 focused on the pain but I’m tryna be okay 
 never feel comfortable my life it’s so dull 
 close my eyes i fantasize 
 about whats on the other side
 i dont know how much more i can take
 i dont really wanna stay awake 
 look up at the sky see the stars
 they remind me of his eyes 
 it’s so hard to separate all the lies 
 look up at the sky 
 see the stars 
 they remind me of his eyes

uncomfortable ~ hazenova x cypression (prod. pekarot)

we appreciate yall to no end fr 🌙🌙

happy 2021

caught up w/ lil splizzy [prod. king theta]

one take: fake friend

CHALK OUTLINE

https://soundcloud.com/iluvtora
https://soundcloud.com/deadspyro

lyrics:
i got u falling on ur knees and u told me it was alright

yeah-yeah i get lost in ur eyes
i didn't mean to hurt u
u caught me by surprise
and i've never felt love in my life
thats what i wanna find 
all i do is fucking hide
and i wanna be sober to-n-i-g-ht
ah-ah-ah
its what i say every single time
but instead im getting high
yeah i lied

i got u falling on ur knees and u told me it was alright
but in my mind, all my voices know ur not fine
and all i care about, is if im someone
and if u'll love me again or is it over?

falling on ur knees and u told me it was alr-i-g-ht
but in my mind, all my voices know ur not f-i-ne
and all i care a-b-o-ut, is if im som-e-o-ne
and if u'll love me a-g-a-in or is it o-v-er?

i can't decide what im gonna d-o
cus in my mind i can see us 2
and i can't write a single song without me c-r-y-i-ng
but when im done hope ull see me f-l-y-i-ng 
but if lied and if i d-i-e
u'll have me right there by your side

yeah i get lost in ur eyes
i didn't mean to hurt u
u caught me by surprise
and i've never felt love in my life
thats what i wanna find 
all i do is fucking hide
and i wanna be sober to-n-i-g-ht
ah-ah-ah
its what i say every single time
but instead im getting high
yeah i lied

i got u falling on ur knees and u told me it was alright

i lied

iluvtora - i lied

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