https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

prod xona <3

@heylog

-lyrics-
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live, I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held
but I’ve tried 2much,  2much right now..
but I can lie and that’s alright (:
but all my friends
push me on edge
and they do not sense
on why I feel dead..
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live!
I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held

oh i might cry :,(
when this blade touches my skin
i don't need remorse
for all the sins that i commit
i don't need a friend
to tell me what i'm doing wrong
you think i don't know this
i could tell you the exact same thing
you better watch your back
i see the folks you call your friends will try hurt you
don't be surprised when it happens
cause i was surprised when it happened 
hating on myself
makes the 2 of us
no i don't need help
or any pill
the story of my life
i gotta chill
feel like pennywise
giving me a thrill

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care w/ heylog♡

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i just woke up and i'm not even tired
it's 7 in the morning but i ain't set my timer
u said u fell asleep but i think ur a liar
it's a shame that ur the only one that i admire
is it too much for u to shoot a text
cause it'd probably just take a sec
right now i take it slow with baby steps
but i think that u just want me in my bed
and that's fine
yea it's okay
but i lie
but you'd do the same
and i wonder why even stay?
when ur just killing time and worsening my pain

do you think our friend's would hold support for us
i don't know whether this is lust or love
thinking about your lips in between mine
i'd treat u better than these stupid guys
so if we were together i would give support for you
and not just a little i would give a ton
so maybe u should keep it in mind
i'd treat you better than any other guy

the violent sounds that keep me up at night
leaves my neck in sweat causing my pillow to fight
but i lay back down, praying for sleep
their words are profound, they're never nice to me no
so is it too much for u to shoot a text
i swear it'd probably just take a sec
rn i take you slow with baby steps
but i swear that u just want me in my bed
procrastinating whether if i should go to sleep
cause i don't wanna see you in another dream
oh i hate it
it feels so real
i could touch it
and keep u sealed

don't tell her i'll be gone
either way she wouldnt know
i just took off
I'll see you when i play a show
mom and dad have moved
thought for sure they wouldn't go
let me stay with you, you are my second home
i wanted you to see
i wanted you to know
i'd tell you to my friend's just so i could boast
but you don't understand
that i am not a man
i do this for my brother
and i do this for my fans
fake talk, this a face off, i ain't scared of you
bite down, rip my tongue off and the blood run through
show up i got teeth marks and my peck turned blue
the suns down, imma head out yeah it was nice to see you
i gotta keep my cool yeah just wait wait wait wait
you gotta calm down log but i'm addicted to the pain
LOVE WHEN YOU LIE
LOVE WHEN YOU SPEAK
LOVE WHEN YOU CRY
AND LOVE WHEN YOU BREATHE
POSTED OUTSIDE, WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE, STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A MACE
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
i need to lay down thank god i'm alive
i knocked your man's down, i think he might die
lost our loved one's
bring peace to us all
cowards they run
and snakes in the wall
pray for em all

snakes in the wall

amv:
https://youtu.be/r_Cm_qTul5Y

artists:
https://soundcloud.com/rouri404
https://soundcloud.com/imgeist

producer:
https://soundcloud.com/prodmichael

lyrics:
// rouri404
biting nails 2 bone ur throwing stones in this glass house
hate crowds, dont think we can get out
guilt trippin u know that ive been down
if i was nothing would u still be around
feels like im the type of person that nobody wanna be around
screaming loud i know that u hear me
dead by dawn I loved u dearly

head rollin off chopped down by a guillotine
how this turn 2 hell when i saw u as a deity
bring me back 2 life
know i might not see another night
switchblade chelsea grin carving out ur eyes
we all die one day why r u surprised
bleed me out till my veins run dry
swing and i miss know I be tricked again
im just scared of the end

// geist
just scared of the end 
switchblades red dripping blood of all my friends 
blacked out in the benz 
dead by dawn swear i won’t be tricked aha

i said what i said, yeah i know i won’t miss you 
blood stained sheets made a bullet solve my issues 
took a breath, saw your eyes turn a new hue 
cut so deep, ripped my heart apart it’s tissues 
 
and i know i won’t miss you 
i’ve been seeing ghosts saw your smile in the rear-view 
what the fuck have i turned into 
6 feet deep in the dirt how it fell through
 
feels like im the type of person that nobody wanna be around
screaming loud i know that u hear me
dead by dawn I loved u dearly

dead by dawn

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rouri404 x i'm geist - dead by dawn [prod. michaelwarren]

featuring @user-411557229
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
the veins in my skin pop out when i'm warm
i handle a blade and point to my arm
oh she'd be upset if i put it through
i'll put it away but only for u
well this time u won, you proud of yourself
i put us down, no need to be held
i've suffered too long in my mental state
i'm harming myself, does it look like i'm okay
i said u were right
and i'm sorry just know i'm not bright
or the smartest, keep beating my eyes
till they're blue and to where i can't see
now they're swollen, i'm blind in my view
and now everyday feel like i lose
but i'm trying to cope without u
and it's hard oh baby it's hard
so wish me ur luck and ur regards

it drips from my forearm to my shirt
watching the blood fall is the worst
ignore all of your calls cus i've learned
i made it a full year without her
I LISTEN TO NONSENSE ON A BASIS
IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD AND IT'S MY FAVORITE
I KEPT THEM AROUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT
I CHOOSE TO STAY PRIVATE AND FACELESS
DON'T TEXT ME
DON'T CALL ME
I'VE WITNESS AUTOPSY
DON'T COME HOME
I WON'T BE HERE
I LEFT SO IT'S SINCERE
a lots on my mind
like my future and maybe a wife
and i wonder if music's my prize
it's the only thing going for me
been a week since i've gone outside
i'm pathetic it sums up my life
forgot her and god it's about time
and something that i can't help but think
if ur disappointed in me

(residential)
tell me what you find
deep inside her eyes
cause she used to be kind
until she lost her mind

blade in the basement
i'm high but i'm anxious
snapping back the hat when i am next in the rotation
thought i found myself, but i'm in dissociation
love being alone, but i don't fuck with isolation

quarter ounce
pack it up and take me out
you said i’d be better now
but all i got are pills around

where the fuck you’ve been at
you left your nail marks on my back
now i'm going too fast
but i can't help but think about the past
i just smoked what was left in the bag
and i really don't mind if i crash

pathetic ft. residential

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and heylog
w @heylog

im losing faith and abilities
i wish i was brave im never at ease
what did you say to me
nothing was made for me
nothing went the way of the willow
ill sit right here and wait by my window

picking leaves for you to see
i hate these trees when i cant breathe
im sick of me i said too much
i hate myself not scared to crush
im not scared to crush
i hate myself
not fair no touch
i did this to myself

come destroy me now i rlly wanna know
i locked inside your arms
i hate the way it goes
im locked inside a farm 
while u remove his coat
ive never had the time 
to let anyone close

heylog:
just a log and a tree standing open in fields
rough times for a being if u don't know how to heal
kill me lover, push below the ground
oh i can't stand it here, not even an ounce
oh you
oh my
come back
to my side
i dont know myself
dont go ill stay and get help

no i dont miss you
hate what u done to me
say that your in love me
200 hundred days
where i would see you
i made a mistake
now i cant see you

fields w/heylog

produced by: @tnvr555
vocals and lyrics by: me and @heylog

lyrics:
just a sec, i needa bit to catch my breath
i try to hold onto what's left
but it seems that you're leaving again
and i saw your face
you're laughing at the back of the room
you're with someone and i can assume that
you have moved on, so soon
(you have moved on, so soon)

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think i've fallen in too deep

summer's coming round the corner, i can't wait to be warm
the uv's high so we lay some blankets out on the porch
and do you remember what you said to me
our past is something hard to believe
don't go
cause i don't want anybody else
oh no
i really don't want anybody now
i'm edging toward the ground
but that's what happens all the time as soon as life goes on
to you i'm not important
and i hope i'm wrong
without you it's harder to breathe
cause you're not laying next to me

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
(not laying next to me)
and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think I've fallen in too deep

hope every1 has a good day/night xx

jealousy w/ heylog (tnvr)

@heylog @oc 

// geist
say you’ll change
words are worthless
baby you’re a fake
and i’m not for it
snakes stay in the lake
so go join them
don’t talk to me
i’m not your friend
darling

can’t stand to hate myself
need to fix my health
so i put the bottle down
and hit the gym instead
you gave it all for wealth
how do you face yourself?
you’re so caught up in your media
it’s so unwell

i don’t want to see your face
i swear show up and you will die.
put that bitch back in her place
can’t tell her ego from her pride
love to talk about your problems
but your life is such a lie
you’re not fooling anybody
swear to god i meant goodbye

// heylog
i was not afraid to tell her that she was being delusional
cause all her little friends just encourage her to be a hoe
well it's not hard to find someone who isn't modest
and with that i feel my brain slowly rotting
don't know why you gotta constantly talk over me
i used to let that go, now i say shut up when i speak
it's like you never have respect for anything i say
you try to lead me on, i can't be weak
i can't be weak

weak w/ heylog [oc]

Last song of the year, hope u enjoy and thanks for a great 2023>! See yu all next year!!>

Production and collab with @prodjpjp

LYRICS:
And i said what i said, so can you just relax
(Can you just relax) 
And you “meant it all” then, so why are you coming back? There’s no thoughts in your head when you’re looking like that
(When you’re looking like that) 
And you say you want me dead, but then your right on my lap

And i can't believe what you've been telling me
When its the opposite of what you mean
And you said that you have been through everything
Baby you ain't even seen a thing
So can you take a deep breath
(Deep breath)
And listen to what your heart says

Now there's smoke all in her lungs, piercing on her tongue
Drugs all in her body, yet she thinks she's having fun
And when i get drunk i really think she is the one
I don't have a clue what i'm in store for
(Store for)
She'll throw me out when she gets bored
(Gets bored)
And leave me there at her door
(Her door)
But it's all complicated
She says she loves me, and then she hates me

And i said what i said, so can you just relax
(Can you just relax) 
And you “meant it all” then, so why are you coming back? There’s no thoughts in your head when you’re looking like that
(When you’re looking like that) 
And you say you want me dead, but then your right on my lap

Hope u have a great new years, love u!
333+

bipolar (jpjp)

[Intro]
Yeah…
I took their words, I took their blame,
Carried their storms inside my veins.
But now I rise, I’m not the same —
I did it… I’m healing the pain.

[Verse 1]
They tried to dim my light,
Said I’d never get it right.
But look at me now, I’m standing tall,
Their shadows can’t touch me at all.

Every scar, every tear I’ve cried,
Just turned into my battle cry.
I found my voice, I found my name,
I did it — I broke the chains.

[Pre-Chorus]
No more living in disguise,
No more tears behind these eyes.
I faced my fears, I faced the rain,
Now I’m healing all that pain!

[Chorus]
I did it, I’m healing the pain caused by others!
Turning my wounds into something that empowers!
Every heartbreak made me stronger,
Every fall just pulled me higher!
I did it, I’m healing the pain caused by others!
Oh yeah, I did it, I’m taking back my power!

[Verse 2]
They said I’d never change,
But I’m rewriting the game.
I built my peace, I found my flame,
No longer living in their shame.

Love taught me how to forgive,
And through forgiveness — I live.
Now every breath I take’s a win,
Healing starts from deep within.

[Pre-Chorus]
No more chains around my soul,
I’ve found love, I’m in control.
Let the music drown my pain,
I’m alive again!

[Chorus]
I did it, I’m healing the pain caused by others!
Turning my scars into light that empowers!
Every heartbreak made me stronger,
Every fall just pulled me higher!
I did it, I’m healing the pain caused by others!
Oh yeah, I did it, I’m taking back my power!

[Bridge]
Every lesson, every burn,
Was just a road I had to turn.
Now I’m glowing, now I’m free,
The hurt made a better me!

[Final Chorus]
I did it, I’m healing the pain caused by others!
No hate can stop my thunder!
I’m shining bright, I’m stronger than ever,
This love’s my storm, my calm, my forever!
I did it, I’m healing the pain caused by others!
I did it — I’m taking back my power!

[Outro]
Yeah, I did it…
Oh, I did it…
I’m healing the pain…
Caused by others.

I Did It (I’m Healing the Pain Caused by Others)

featuring @sewerperson
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
killing all the memories cant get them out my head
do u think you'll remember me what a great way to end
now she's giving me goosebumps, up and down my skin
i don't wanna hurt u, but we were getting tense
i despise u cus i really tried my best
but was there something wrong with anything i did
this fire burns
it's burning out my chest
my hairs developing curls
she run it with her nails

i left her a note but i kept it secret in my head
guess you'll never know what i had wrote or what i said
let me clear the air i don't consider you a friend
oh how we were toxic it was to our benefit
if u truly love her go and say it to her face
but he never will he only spoke it thru the pain
his scars present a symbol she will carry with attain
and she looks at him with disgust and hatred and with vain
she let him slip by but who's the one that holds the blame
she dont care cus she got guys who provide all the needs she craves
cus he could never satisfy her so he solved it on a blade
she acted like she cared but it was nothing but a fake

i don't know how to act right i guess
and u should prolly leave don't want a witness
calling down to the 2 friends i have
but they ain't never here i crave ur love bad
so i don't know how to act right i guess
and u should prolly leave don't want a witness
calling down to the 2 friends i have
but they ain't never here i crave ur love bad
SO I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ACT RIGHT I GUESS
AND SHE'S MINDLESS TALKING BACK WITH HER EX
BUT HE NEVER LOVED HER, ONLY LOVED THE SEX
I GIVE UP I'M SO DONE WITH THIS

(sewerperson)
thru the wind i smell the blood
it tastes to me like broken heart
i know i feel though my body cold
and hungry reaching out for more
peaceful i could sleep peaceful finally
breaks in the trees in my bed pines needle my heart
im still deep in the rows all despite the fresh start and its killing me
im just not myself for the time being
promise u baby i’ve changed i swear
bodies in the garden behind my stairs
i just woke up with em laying right there
crush crush crush all these bugs in my hair
guess i came back from the dead for a moment
i cannot speak with my mouth sewn shut
broke open
welcome to the end you’ve chosen

kill all the memories can’t get them out my head
do u think you’ll remember me what a great way to end
even if I was what they said 
would you still love me then

welcome to the end ft. sewerperson

A INDEPENDENT CURATOR, LABEL & PROMOTER, ASSISTING IN THE GROWTH OF SELECTED ARTISTS.

rouri404 x i'm geist - dead by dawn [prod. michaelwarren]

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