glitch effects go crazy love the screams too <3

I love that i can hear i cant be beat or weak

produced by heylog

lyrics:
knew this was all a mistake
as soon as i gave u grace
no matter what i'll b here
she said to me "pls just stay"
i'm at my lowest i've been
don't think i could get lower
so let's share what we have
n fall deep low together
the bones rot in the grave
and they'll all think that he's insane
but i continue to hold me
i swear to god i'm ok

couldn't get lower than this, even if i try my best
don't wait for me in the end, cus i'm never coming back
are u lost, are u a stray
you look like u seem afraid
do u need somewhere to stay
don't worry i'll keep u safe
but promise you'll hold my hand 
cus this world is such a mess
and they will try to break us
so we can't fall for their tricks
i'm at my lowest i've been
don't think i could get lower
so let's share what we have
n fall deep low together
the bones rot in the grave
and they'll all think that he's insane
but i continue to hold me
i swear to god i'm ok

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keep u safe

prod deadfish 
love you all <3

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/heylog
socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

lyrics:

(I've kept on fucking up
and that's why
I can't keep it up
But now
I'm left here with no one
I gotta manage here on my own)

it's been so cold now
that I've been on my own now
I never want to wake up
these thought in my mind forever

No, I don't wanna hang out now
cause, too busy hating on myself
Just digging my grave deeper
til I meet the reaper
death to me is peace

I hate myself, all my cuts to prove that
I need a break, isolate from all of that
damn, it causes my mind to break
can you say that you relate?

So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

[heylog]
you don't know
how much u mean to me
i stumble up on my feet
text u and never sleep
i'm happy, this can't be me
cut
me
off
write a song about us
oh numb
i'm hoping ur gone
u caught me a break
recover from loss
but still feel the same

[deadfish]
So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

on my own

on my own (feat. heylog)

ty for listening <3
prod. i'm geist x deadfish x hiraeth
mixed/mastered by deadfish

@imgeist
@hiraethsry
@imnotenvy
@yokaidreams
@sleepywater
@deadfishpoland

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2MEwCgdk51OeRKs5vdbJZJ 
also up on itunes and apple music!

// lyrics
// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt
i gave up everything just to be the one left out
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// hiraeth
put your hands all on my body now i'm leaving
i don’t wanna hurt you bitch, i'm falling for a reason
give another reason, leave without a meaning
tell me that you love me, tell me that you miss him

i could run away and still nobody wanna know now
funny i meant everything until he wanna come round
leave it at the door and get your shit just on the way out
text him that you want him cause he knows you're on the way now

// notenvy
and i cant even look at myself dont feel the same i'm
trapped inside my own little hell you pin the blame you
took my heart it snapped and i fell you'll never say why
i've been steady feeling unwell what has this come to?
and i've been dying tryna get you outta my head
and i keep fucking crying over things you said
dont tell me that we'll ever have a chance again
cause i can't deal with trauma take my life instead

// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now !!!!!!!!

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now???!
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt???!
i gave up everything just to be the one left out???!
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// yokai dreams
you always jumped at a chance to slice up my ego
power your libido
take your time, suck the life out of everywhere that we go
emotional mosquito
she's undead never had a care
for the affairs of the living
take your heart and she grinning
as the clock strikes 10
honest men will head to bed
but she just started causing pain by the minute

// sleepwater
torment anxiety
what is inside of me
i'm broken, i'm destined to die
a loner, a puppet in disguise
soil is dirty, i'm drowning reserve me
i need you don't burn me, i'm liquid lurking

// deadfish
and i've tried to move on
yea i’ve tried to forget
but you just
seem to never wanna leave my head
so
i can never fucking see you again
you know that
i really need it to feel again

stop fucking calling and wasting my time
said that you’ll fix that, we know thats a lie
now that i’m gone you regret what you've done
when you are crying i’ll hide in my home

could you stop fucking up my entire life
telling everyone that i was just another guy
never said what you did, i’d never tell a soul
cause i'm better than this and i'm better than u

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out for blood! w/ hiraeth, notenvy, yokai dreams, sleepwater, deadfish

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

produced by sleepwater @hiraethsry and @prod-oc

✰

lyrics:
how am i alive

lord its not fair anymore
oh its not fair anymore
oh its not fair anymore
oh its not fair anymore

i dont care about you
if you dont care about me
can someone care about me
its obvious i find it hard to breathe
your distant now and that makes me so sad
your different now and i werent ready for that
my eyes be crying, like the ocean
no birds are flying, it was only us

i want dreams with you
lets get on the stones
a day with us
is heaven on earth
i feel like more me
pacing through the sand
she stares back at us
says is this the way ?

under the sand
not ready to go
holding my hand
i need to make it special
feel like a strand
latched onto you
you broke my heart
you broke my heart

think im in love with you
its not fair anymore

what are about to do
cos i might burst
dont want this to end
its not fair
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair

https://www.instagram.com/p/CqZoY3PK0Pr/

weak w/ heylog [oc]

tysm too @xona & @heylog
for jumping on the song, love ya kings <3

Lyrics.
xona -
by myself
I need your help
to leave this place and reach a realm 
where I’m safe from all of this
it’s raining and I don’t know when
this envy, this hatred will end
as long as you know it from then 
i cannot bleed for you longer
you got me locked in this somber-
state and it’s not even shocker 
you walked all way and just prospered
i can’t believe that i knew 
i would be here to rue
you’re gone without telling me too
so where do i go without you?

Heylog-
i'm almost home babe
sorry i'm a little late
i've traveled far and wide
i've seen some better days
i can't get enough
look in my eyes and tell me i look rough
here lies a soulless place
i just heard some cries that do not sound okay
heard shots coming far away
hard to misplace thoughts when they are insane
i'm here outside ur place
babe i've come home and now ur safe
i'm alright
i'm just fine
hide every cut from the fight
i'm alright
i see light
darkness gets lost from behind
i need something i can feel, something i can feel
somewhere i can hide
somewhere i can heal
u mean nothing to me now
i mean something to me now
send the warriors out to battle on the field
u know what's the deal
every enemy i fought is dead
now their families kneel
i'm sorry i had to kill ur friend and so now ur next
never saw it coming cause he's dumb
shit's a bloodybath 
i'm bleeding
they're grieving
sorry i had to kill them
i'm reaching
the ceiling
there's a new king since yours dead

enemy ft. xona & heylog

oh its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore

i just cant tell you enough
my thoughts been opening up
i never said it enough 
my heart was filled with your love

i would sacrifice my love just to be on your side
gimme just another day so that i can reside
while youre waiting at the gates, ill find somewhere to hide

i need somewhere to hide
i know youre in the fields looking at me over the light
if theres a chance that you hear me singing into the night
i need to tell you that ill love you till the end of the line

you know i always cared about you
i might sleep in water hang my head whilel i cry
been 2 years now im lost without you
take me to a forest filled with water and pine

its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore

how could you take away my best friend
ive got no one to trust
ill see your face in the end
your words fill my stomach making me who i am
you wouldnt have left me, i know ill see you again

enough

+ i'm geist, decayinganyways, yokai dreams, ohmace, iissaa, yona, grasior 
+ coprod. mix/master - oc 

// i'm geist 
the seance has started :) 
find his heart in the garden 
don't look too hard my darling 
you'll find bones you once held dearly..
oh 
you once held dearly 
oh 
severed cleanly 

parasites are rotting with the snakes now? 
carving all the fakes fucking 'round me its a takedown 
everybody's sitting on their ass with their phones out 
swear i'll see the reaper b4 you catch me taking breaks love 
aha 

// decayinganyways 
walking out the bar not alive 
seen a name on a grave and I’m thinking that it’s mine
“mine” 
i’m not alive, I’m just another fucking ghost who’s out of time 
who’s out of time 
oh 
i wish I could just come back 
won’t see me now a heart attack 
i just wanna haunt inside your dreams 
i just wanna haunt inside your

// yokai dreams 
this is getting sickening
i think i'm getting sick of me
rip up every inch of me
i no longer resemble me
look at what they did to me
look at what they did to me !
am i not deserving of some sympathy?

give it my all for as long as i can
when the day turns night we gon have the upper hand
turn the lights off baby
i can't stand them
feel like someone else, you don't know how i am

lately i've been on some shit you wouldn't understand
another nail in the coffin, leave me where i am
getting kinda hard to tell the man from the myth
mark my death with a kiss
let me rot or take my hand

// ohmace 
six feet down rotting in another grave
turn me to a geist as i slowly decay
the dreams on my mind and they wont go away
and I dont know what else to do or to say
its in my brain,
somebody help my im going insane
call me a doctor and tell him to hurry
cut out the demons Im starting to worry
theyre taking over me
my blood seeps through as theyre ripping the seems
theyre taking over me
theyre haunting me in every dream

//iissaa 
i'd rather go 
somewhere that you don't know.
someplace that i dont show
somewhere behind the snow
is it fair that you can't see me now
tried so hard but i'm letting go
it's my fault, i said i'm where you go
my god i wish i never told

// yona 
look around with dead gaze
i dont think i go this
the leaves turn from green to orange
it feels so nostalgic
used to hold your hand, and fall asleep to your heartbeat
now ur gripping at my wrist, saying "how long u got bitch?" 
ive been panick struggling trying to get of the floor
grab me by the waist, cut me open some more
youre the ghost of a person i feel before
now im crying in fear, begging no more

// grasior 
fuck yall be saying i'm sick of it all
my stomach keeps turning i'm leaning on walls
scrolling my phone till i feel it collide
my anger is rising cause i'm in denial
i need to man up i'm not on my own
notes that i wrote considered the unknown'
seeing a grave all on my own
a body is showing of someone i know

raise the flags in the frontline
might be dead but i'll fight till the sun rise
left or right paranoid can you talk to me
hear the horns in distant calling me
want it to end sacrifice all my peace
silent but deadly i'll take them with ease
my body is rumbling I'm feeling the thrill
killstreak in a nuke with how many i've killed 


919

séance w/ 919 + grasior

starboy

featuring @sewerperson
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
everythings a joke all i hear is people lie
evil is right down the street, so i lock the doors inside
smoking they got black lungs but mine are getting ripe
just a buncha teens getting buzzed up while theyre high
i was just cold but now im getting hot
sweating down my back and i keep playing with my palms
im feeding off the air and i nibble at some crumbs
havent eaten all day i know thatd upset my mom

i was just freezing but now im sweating bad
could u spare ur body heat im running out real fast
i tried to phone death, but they would never answer
u know girl its bad, when ur boyfriend hid the cuts from her
i dont know how ur doin this
logan ur insane
crows talk
but i ignore the fact my old girl has changed
skinny kid eatin chicken
and nothing but eggs
now im finna burn it all off on the treadmill and shame

(sewerperson)
born in the snow
cant be hurt my soul has changed
it isnt fair
i got a body but i share the brain
i want the truth
could u give it to me
dont sugar coat it
i got the pockets on me stinky cause they filled with potent
uh, she just wanted my ok but that shit is horrible
walking inside this hostel what im doing dishonorable
i change out my human into something deplorable
i cannot breathe this air they gotchu huffing so casual
ah, take me in
i cannot do this by myself
i could be back tomorrow i just need a little help
im in a trance
off these pills
i might piss myself
im too skinny for these pants im slippin out my belt
eyes
i could feel her eyes on me
i gotta heart but i move like im a zombie
go
you should go now u dont want me
im a burden
without me u could be happy

(heylog)
everythings a joke all i hear is people lie
evil lives right down the street, so i lock the doors inside
smoking they got black lungs but mine are getting ripe
just a buncha teens getting buzzed up while theyre high
i was just cold but now im getting hot
sweating down my back and i keep playing with my palms
im feeding off the air and i nibble at some crumbs
havent eaten all day i know thatd upset my mom

playing with my hands and i keep tryna pop my knuckles
i did every finger i dont know why i keep tryna crack em
dont give me that look
i told her u should really stop that
eyes are bouncing back and forth and all i feel is anxious
i told u i get anxious when im in conversations
but i just nod and laugh im sorry i wasnt even listening
i can hear the chirp as the room is getting silent
now im getting awkward i think u should really try it

weak w/ heylog [oc]

I'm Geist

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