prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

s/o soundcloud.com/boyfifty and soundcloud.com/user-530621763
enjoy :)

lyrics:

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck

therapy's expensive and exercise is pendin
thoughts are goin wild and anxietys expandin
you need everyone to hear you, but cant seem to open up
yeah your confidence is lackin and you couldnt give a fuck

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

i miss them all
i need someone to catch me before i fall
i need love and composure
something i looked over
i cant even function, i fucked myself over

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself x2

look them in the eyes, bruh
you cant love yourself if you gonna hide and run
from your confidence its killin you inside of us
im tryna help but you fuckin up the life of us

okay maybe im depressed right now
cant leave the room (go out)
i need some rest right now
i don't got time to show out
i cant find a reason for anything
i cant find the motivation that im chasin so desperately.

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck x2

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

callin' out to myself

spotify

callin' out to myself (prod. boyfifty x eeryskies)

co-prod @jjxko

ritornello:
non ci credevi, ora guarda come andiamo
non ci credevi ora guarda che partiamo 
non ci credevi 
no non lo vedi, eppure sono quii
a dirti come mi sento
non voglio il tuo ig
per mio fratello ogni lamento

per mio fratello ogni suo lamento
non so del basket, canestro Lamelo
tu mi guardi storto, io lo sto vedendo
non capisco, sono qua si ma dal niente
si ma tu fai male, come sempre
comunque non riesci a evitarlo
comunque non riesci a evitarmi
comunque le ho sempre notate
quelle borse, sotto gli occhi
lo vedo non dormi da giorni
ti ho scritto almeno mille messaggi 
sui nostri problemi irrisolti
cercando dei modi diversi
per stare bene con me stesso
cercando dei modi oppressi 
per stare più in alto di adesso

bridge:
ma tanto lo so che mi menti
lo penso davvero, lo sento da dentro
che più sali e scendi e più questa droga vola come il vento
ma tu eri tutto per me, ora sono senza nulla
non ci credevi?

ritornello:
non ci credevi, ora guarda come andiamo
non ci credevi ora guarda che partiamo 
non ci credevi 
no non lo vedi, eppure sono quii
a dirti come mi sento
non voglio i tuoi g 
per mio fratello ogni lamento

strofa 2:
faro quello che dici
non voglio che ci illudiamo con pensieri strani
forse è il dolore che ci rende più umani
forse è il tuo amore a togliermi i peccati
ne sono grato, tu fai parte dei miei piani
tu sei il mio piano più grande
più ti avvicini, ti sento distante
non mi capisci sono cosa a parte
forse perché non riesco più a nuotare
nel mare che ho in testa io ci affondo
ora vienimi a prendere sul bordo
sono salito dal fondo, e se lo tocco non è niente di nuovo

mi son fatto male pur di amarti
mi son fatto male pur di pensarti
queste droghe bastano ma non mi basti 
sai l'effetto passa eppure non mi passi
eppure non mi stanchi
voglio fare i soldi, contare i contanti
cantare per gioia, non farlo per gli altri
essere me stesso non essendo gli altri

NON CI CREDEVI

💙MUSIC VIDEO OUT NOW💙

i see your face everytime that the lights low
and im telling you im okay what do i know
its been a minute since i known what i want
I keep my head low like what do i know

Telling you things that i shouldnt
but what will i know
Telling you things that i shouldnt
n maybe youll break me what is up and i

know thats its all in my mind now
take time my time i know it wont work out
broke lights my light it wont shine now
damn lies the lies that i find now

telling me everything that you dont like
insane the pain when i know i
I know the call it wont end right
sold just soul just so that i know now

telling me that you hate me, i dont want to hate me
dont know watta say when i say girl save me
all i want to know how you've been lately
baby im lame boy, i know i hate me

I didnt want to save my soul tonight
fuck it imma lie imma say im alright
dont know what to say when i see the light
dont know what to say when i see the light

i see your face everytime that the lights low
and im telling you im okay what do i know
its been a minute since i known what i want
I keep my head low like what do i know

Fallen So Deep Without You (Prod By. Born Hero)

💙MUSIC VIDEO💙

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/bornhero for the amazing beat <3

lyrics:
where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i do not know
how to fit in
smoking me out
ripping a spliff  
everyone loves me when i go and dip
everyone loves me when i go and dip

everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
i'm stuck here 
writing simple songs
hope to take the pain away
when my eyes turn to gray
i know 
that my secrets buried deep below the bong
will release
every thought i'm feeling making me do wrong

where i belong
i will not know
every weekend i'm feeling so low
no where to go 
staying at home
staring at walls scrolling twitter alone
hit up my phone
leave you on read
people around treating me like i'm dead
feel like a ghost
no one will post
sit in my bed think about you again   

no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti
no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti

i take control of the whip in my mind
driving me places that i can't define
exploring the road, taking my time
lie to my friends when i say i'm alright
where have i gone
i do not know 
hop in the car and i'm driving alone
phone is on silent not trusting these tones
i feel the weight all the way to my bone

where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i take control of the whip 
going straight 90 i dip
exploring the vessel of me
tell me about what you see

where i belong (prod. born hero)

Chemically Imbalanced Feat. Safehold & Sleye (Prod. Dee B)

(prod. by discent & weirdove)

I WILL SPILL MY OWN BLOOD FOR YOU UNTIL THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO DRAIN.

LYRICS:

I TRIED EVERYTHING,
The BLOOD I would’ve SPILLED for YOU!
The LIES that I was FED,
I THOUGHT You knew I TRUSTED YOU?!
You were my EVERYTHING,
I swear I fucking WORSHIPED you!!
BETRAYED, I’ve LOST it ALL; Now WHAT THE FUCK am I to Do?!?

I TRIED EVERYTHING,
The BLOOD I would’ve SPILLED for YOU!
The lies WHERE I was BRED,
I KNEW I SHOULDN’T HAVE TRUSTED YOU!! 
There was NO POINT to BLEEDING if the SCARS aren’t MENDABLE!
That’s what I TELL MYSELF, but I know I’m just WEAK LIKE YOU!!!

Temptation on your lips,
The feeling isn’t mutual..
I swear I’m sick of you,
The thought is just uncomfortable!
You make my skin crawl; I can’t believe I loved you!
You don’t deserve my breath,
The least I can do is pity you..

FUCK! 
When I’m WINNING  I’m LOSING,
I’m SPIRALING DOWN it’s AMUSING,
The FEELINGS INSIDE are just OOZING,
SPILL ALL my BLOOD I FEEL WOOZY!

ALL of these DRUGS that I’m USING,
The WAY that I NUMB is ABUSING,
I can’t FIND MYSELF in these PROBLEMS,
But MAYBE I can MAKE A NEW ME!

I TRIED EVERYTHING,
The BLOOD I would’ve SPILLED for YOU!
The LIES that I was FED,
I THOUGHT You knew I TRUSTED YOU?!
You were my EVERYTHING,
I swear I fucking WORSHIPED you!!
BETRAYED, I’ve LOST it ALL; Now WHAT THE FUCK am I to Do?!?

I TRIED EVERYTHING,
The BLOOD I would’ve SPILLED for YOU!
The lies WHERE I was BRED,
I KNEW I SHOULDN’T HAVE TRUSTED YOU!! 
There was NO POINT to BLEEDING if the SCARS aren’t MENDABLE!
That’s what I TELL MYSELF, but I know I’m just WEAK LIKE YOU!!!

BLOODSPORT (prod. by discent & weirdove)

TRACK 1 OF BITEKI VOL. 4 // FT. ERISU & SUISAI

https://soundcloud.com/erisu-san
https://soundcloud.com/sushisai

LYRICS:

Her gaze was heavy
Cause she Put me in a trance, OH!
Watch her eyes glow!
Baby, watch her eyes glow!

She was pretty,
Broken jaw and bruised up ankles!
Let blood the flow! Baby, let the blood flow!


She tried digging what was in my head!
(Watch her eyes glow! Baby, watch her eyes glow!)

She wanted blood, it was all I bled!
(Cast a spell hoe! Baby, cast a spell hoe!)

She left me cursed, burnt cigarettes!
(Watch her eyes glow! Baby, watch her eyes glow!)

She wanted HELL; I let her pay her debt!
(Pay your Debt in BLOOD! SUSPIRIA!)

ERISU - SUSPIRIA (FT. SUISAI)

Lyrics:
I'm so cold right now, hit a low right now
Hit a bowl while I'm drunk I'm in the flow right now
In the gutter right now, get her number right now
Get the number for the plug cause it's over right now

Gotta cope with the pain, get that shit out my brain
I don't need to explain, gotta run from the blade
Gotta stitch up my veins, shawty stay in your lane
Why you call me insane, I got scars you got the same hoe

I'm boutta pass out, (yeah)
I'm boutta crash out, (yeah)
I'm boutta cash out, (yeah)
See the tunnel with no light, (yeah)

You been on my mind too
Shame that I cant find you
No feeling inside you

But nothing can hide you
I know that you lie too
It's okay dont cry boo

I feel a migraine comin on
Shit too real so I run along
Nothin real when I'm analog
World is gone while I'm in this song

Crashout

crashout

prod/mix/master/cover @trechorboy
feat. @trechorboy + @nicoteenninyo

TRECHOR BOY:
she said she never really cared about me
wasting my time maybe
fuck all that shit
hypocrite 
doesn’t even come close to the way i think of you 
can’t you see 
there's something wrong with me
incapable of love
im never good enough 
but
(X2)

turns out i really wanted this shit 
i had the confidence to make moves with it so 
i went and got my bag 
all i had 
was you
fast forward four years on the timeline 
i woke up and realized all the online shit won’t help
and i still hate myself 
fuck

NICOTEEN NINYO:
is he as warm as me, holdin u on a cold night?
does he say i love you cuz it just feels right?
yeah im gone and ur okay but maybe u wont be in a couple of days
listen to the words u say
does he make u smile like me?
cuz

i only say i love you when we break up
i only say i need u when we cant make up
ill only ever call if im drunk enough
to say the things i never said
tryin to force this new girl down my throat
but it just makes ur taste in my mouth worse
i wish i could say i believe u
i wish i could fucking hate you

~i wish i could fucking hate you
i wish i could fucking hate you~

~i wish i could love just like you
i wish i could love like you do~
(X2)

LOVE/HATE

trechor boy x nicoteen ninyo - LOVE/HATE

I see passion in disguise I still hate 2 say goodbye , im goin luv u til I d1e


(yea this off dome but its cool sleep on me)

Luv u til i d1e ;(

A INDEPENDENT CURATOR, ASSISTING IN THE GROWTH OF SELECTED ARTISTS.

3/4 TRACKS RELEASED "UNCHAINED, VOL. 4"

ERISU - SUSPIRIA (FT. SUISAI)

biteki