produced by heylog

lyrics:
would u like to meet in the summer
catch up on life or should i even bother to plan a dine
i don't really even know where u reside
pick apart my soul and it feel like
something has been missing
right now i really miss u
n when i'm alone i wish i could reach out and kiss you
but life isn't fair
no life's never fair
the one i truly loved is gone now i'm the only one that's here
man i'm really done, getting tired, might just book a plane
this the same shirt i wore, for like 3 days
throw it on, roll my eyes looking mad at the stains
no if u can't handle this then u can't handle me
i'm busy hangin w myself so i got no time
to come through and drink booze or waste my life
peer pressure, i said i don't wanna get high
but the pressure continues i got a fragile mind
so i fantasize about a future that lies
and u are in it w me, all the way till we die
but i don't want it to seem like i am forcing
anything oh at all, just tell me what u think

always feelin down, guess this is life
surprised i live another night
surprised i haven't took my life
surprised i'm even still alive
but i got way too much to lose
i don't do it for me, i do it for you
i put away the knife, i did that for you
i'm wonderin if u can see, i'm right in front of you

so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too
so would u wanna run away with me..?
through the mountains and things i've never seen
on a hill maybe lay down by a tree
and close my eyes with a little bit of breeze
she said, "i can't do this log... i can't look after u no more"
so why u telling me this now?
i thought u had me figured out

man i'm really done getting tired might just book for a plane
in the north montana, gotta isolate
need someone to break my heart to feel something
cus i deserve it i've caused way too many pains
so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too

spotify

reside

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
@vilsynth
@valerii
@deadfishh

the lyrics were over 4000 characters and that's the limit for soundcloud ♥

-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

volume 1 on spotify, feb 3rd 

i don’t care if it’s lonely
i’m so sick of you just talking like you know me
and you could or you would if you didn’t go starting fires in this basement

oh…
hope you got everything you needed now
cause i’m burning every garden where we fell in love
and i’m killin’ every peasant that walks in this town
you know i’m painting the walls red till they scream for help

and i can bury every feeling that i’m feeling but i know that it’s just moments before i put the fucking gun in my mouth
you cut my heart and now it’s bleeding and i’m staring at the ceiling but the fuck do i expect when this is how it turns out?

oh why’d you go and make geist red
now he’s full of hate
i can’t stand to look at myself
not a fan of him
bodies scattered all across the hall
baby i don’t miss
so why’d go and makes me red
but i’m loving this...
i’ll fight an ego with a bigger one
i’ll hit another million
geistcord till the day i fucking die
but swear we’ve just begun
don’t care for anybody else
or anyone’s opinion
so go ahead and make geist red
red
red
red

i promise our love is dead [drma x lockhome]

Produced by heylog

Lyrics:
checking on my phone i keep waiting for your name
got me pissed off cause i let loose of my brain
i don't think you understand i don't think you can
don't needa call you "baby," think i should call you "pain"

honestly, just get out of here
leave already
cause i'm stuck in here
i'll never be
driving home
anymore
i want you gone
haven't seen you in a minute
you say you're busy
but you're with your friend
i don't understand
thought you hated her
that's what you said

i keep checking on my phone waiting for your name
if i was important you won't forget about me
i don't think you love me yeah
i don't think you can
i'm a lot to handle baby
just let go of me

checking on my phone i keep waiting for your name
got me pissed off cause i let loose of my brain
i don't think you understand i don't think you can
don't needa call you "baby," think i should call you "pain"

typing in my phone don't if i'll call you baby
she respond saying that i'm cute and sweet like honey
got a girl looking like you crush on your favourite anime
she pitching up her voice when she spoke to me

checking on my phone i keep waiting for your name
got me pissed off cause i let loose of my brain
i don't think you understand i don't think you can
don't needa call you "baby," think i should call you "pain"

i'm closing my eyes when i scream into the mic
you got me so mad i propose to start a fight
i'm yelling in my pillow
now the whole thing's drenched from the water in my eyes

heylog - busy

Lyrics:


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that let's get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg


This is not the same it is not the same
On the drive home I do not feel safe
I'm the one to blame I'm the one to blame
Without you this time I don't feel okay


Baby your my home, can't imagine it with someone else
Eyes are pointing to the floor don't want you to see myself
Are we on a different page or are we on a different shelf
I'll be reading chapters just so I could be with you or else

Driving home now I'm wishing I could stay
Lightning strikes the summer skies hear the city train
Purest words between your lips is keeping me sain
Ill keep you safe around my arms u give me all your pain
Just miss your flight and stay with me I'll give you better days
The weather shifts with waterfalls we're kissing in the rain
If your in doubt you know I'm here just tell me anything
We're out of time you gotta go is this where it will change?


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that lets get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg

heylog - Driving Home & Im Wishing U Could Stay

guitar played by @user-374890447

lyrics:
what do you know about this
what do you know about this
oh what do you know about this
I'm sick of saying that I'm okay

I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone
im sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone

say what u done to me
you open me gave me misery
you blow out the candle as i set it alight
fate wasn't kind to me
your over me were history
into someone else
erases every part of me

I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i prey it don't
i wanna leave but im all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone

anxiety

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

SPOTIFY

time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

One More Chance

testimony (ft. eko)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we dont break
ill love u till the end
dear anjed
i need to say something
id fall in love again
i wish u the best

deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we done break
ill love u to the end
hey anjed
this is important
ill love  once again
ill be here to the end

u recalling what u said?
you was talking behind my back
i deleted everything
i cleared out all the messages
he was like a brother
i hate him for doing that
deep down it still hurts
but ill b over it
dear anjed i lost
dont know if i can get u back
now since weve matured
maybe try again
i can take us places
am i overthinking
ur in another book
while im flippin through these pages
hey anjed im sorry
i got to get this off my chest
we been together twice so we have learned from our past
its like ur a stranger
i get to know u once again
could never function right she got me short im losing breath
dear anjed this is me
giving u my heart
theres nothing to be afraid of ill keep in my arms
i havent gone to sleep
cause im thinking of u in the dark
join me in this journey i believe three times a charm

deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we done break
ill love u to the end
hey anjed
this is important
ill love  once again
ill be here to the end

dear anjed i want
u
like really bad
hope this isnt dumb
i hope that youll be glad
hey anjed hello
u
it got me sad
years have gone by
patience really met
here we are again..

dear anjed

produced by heylog

lyrics:
my thoughts could start a riot
im thirsty for some violence
this boy think he a god yeah
i could fit him in my pocket
i got posers poppin sockets
dont even try to study this
i think its pretty funny when
she fangirl in his messages
but look he aint no special man
ur not even either yea
im relieved to get this off my chest
i hope u both listen to this
i hear he likes to talk a lot
but all i hear is silence
lay out their positions
while i go back to work again

if u love me pls dont say it
id rather u lie it
my heart is close to dying
no way i can revive it
leave me here in peace and silence
if im hurt youll hear the sirens
oh take me to the ambulance
these voices feel so ambient
my gas shot i cannot break it
ur bestfriend real good at flaking
honestly i kinda hate him
what goes on inside that brain of his?
she worship all the wickedness
i cannot just stand for this
her soul with flames and ashes
dont look back as i walk past it
my heart is half divided
she threw it in the garbage
that explains why i cant find it
could u spare me a medkit
i been busy duct taping it
but that cant even hold it
the pieces keep on falling
no she dont even notice
she ask "hey should i post this"
OMG YOU GOT ME MEGA PISSED
have i told u how im sick of it
how u love me when im just a kid
she crying while im grinning
im laughing while she fearing
i feel like pandora
tag along cus im useless

i dont wanna talk baby could u just let me go
i feel safer praying even god thinks im alone
nobody can hear me here yelling in the pillow
punch holes in the wall oh man im getting pretty close
move on to ur face ill give ur boy a bloody nose
jump into the ice its cold but i forgot my clothes
she touch 'round my stomach and feeling all my ripples
nails scratching the crevices she kissing my freckles

my thoughts could start a riot
im thirsty for some violence
this boy think he a god yeah
i could fit him in my pocket
i got posers poppin sockets
dont even try to study this
i think its pretty funny when
she fangirl in his messages
but look he aint no special man
ur not even either yea
im relieved to get this off my chest
i hope u both listen to this
i hear he likes to talk a lot
but all i hear is silence
lay out their positions
while i go back to work again

freckles

A INDEPENDENT CURATOR, LABEL & PROMOTER, ASSISTING IN THE GROWTH OF SELECTED ARTISTS.

time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

biteki