im always breaking down when no one’s around ;(

wtf. why have i been sleepin on this. this shits so good! <3

new midwest emo track w/ @salemavenue :)
produced by @nevrfall
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
[decks]
college has ruined me, my mind is cloudy
wake up each morning im drowsy
feel like nobody’s around me
i just wanted to be happy
living this life is so tiring
nothing in this town inspires me
im not alive just to die,
see through my eyes,
and maybe you’ll find that

i might just fly away for a while
im sober in the candlelight, but sleeping in denial
i’d do anything to see you smile
this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

[salem avenue]
i’m always falling down
pick me up and lift me off the ground
i act like it’s all over now
but really i just fill my head with doubt
and where would i go anyways?
when i don’t wanna ever make a sound 
maybe i’ll just fade away
find myself another in this ghost town 

yeah it goes down
pick me up 
i don’t wanna feel alone now
it’s so cold out 
i feel blue now 
pick me up
i don't wanna feel alone now
like they do

[decks]
(living this life is so tiring)
(nothing in this town inspires me)
(im not alive just to die)
(see through my eyes and maybe you'll find that)

i might just fly away for a while
im sober in the candlelight, but sleeping in denial
i’d do anything to see you smile
this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

sober in the candlelight (feat. salem avenue) [p. nevrfall]

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sober in the candlelight (feat. salem avenue) [nevrfall]

amv:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwK5BnslG8s

artists:
@anthonysidoti
@iamvagrxnt

producer:
living puff

lyrics:
i always felt so numb
im never good enough for you 
i swear this all went wrong
how do i keep holding on!

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

let me out
end this acheing burning inside of my chest
there's no way out
i cant find a reason to wake up and let it out

i know its not in my head
but i'm just losing my senses
it keeps coming in waves
i knew that you never meant it 
took a knife to my heart
rather gun to my head 
but i don't wanna ever see you again

you cant wait for love but i just hate myself
and all those bl**d-stained stories give you 
nothing but a taste of empathy

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

do i fade away to nothing
(to nothing)
and i swear this past few years 
swear there crushing
crushing me!
i told myself id never give it all up 
but ever since i was a kid no one cared enough
now all the damage is done
and i don't wanna keep running away
run away from this, feeling tonight
and if you can't hear me its fine
i'm just a sacrifice!

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)

SPOTIFY

anthony sidoti - when i was suicidal (ft. vagrxnt) [prod. living puff]

hope you guys enjoy this one <3 each track i put out means a whole lot 2 me, 
so tysm for taking the time out of your day to listen

prod. by @sorrow_bringer 🖤
cover art done by an acquaintance of mine

(got me asking my lungs)
("can you cave in?")
(in need of a reason for clearing my head)

it'll probably subside, on the dime
she lied; so did i
feel like a gorilla, i'm beating my chest
rope in my hands, why's it not round' my neck?

leaving, breathing; shit's all the same
feeding heathens; outta my brain
they want me to come to an end
this city is playin' pretend (playin' pretend)

heart's beating, now i'm way heated
took off and ran on my own
asking my past demons, "did i really mean it?"
was i in control of my soul?
now i gotta wait. 
i know what i am; shit wasn't great
so why do i stand?
never complained; wished that i did
they'll get what they get
i'm not giving in

they all wanna see me fall, hear me bawl
i know i shouldn't have set foot
into the cage that i'm in
the person i was; he told me to stay where i must
oh the ground personifies
we walk all about it and never bat an eye

let me loathe (let me loathe)
swear i'm changing..
this feeling i know
lessened the seasons

it'll probably subside, on the dime
she lied; so did i
feel like a gorilla, i'm beating my chest
rope in my hands, why's it not round' my neck?

leaving, breathing; shit's all the same
feeding heathens; outta my brain
they want me to come to an end
this city is playin' pretend (playin' pretend)

subside [prod. sorrow bringer]

guitar by @imcaves
rest is me
something told me i should put this out now, so here you go
hope you enjoy .
retention 8/26

totally unprepared
faces shapeshifting around me
i tell myself, don't be scared
only what i think can hurt me
but every night's harder than the last
(the last)
(the last)
(the last)
i let my spirit shatter just like glass
(like glass)
(like glass)
i stood up again last night
i couldn't close my eyes
no matter how much i cried
i tried
i tried...
night.

spirit trash

prod. ocin
guitars: yhello

Come catch a feeling while we’re watching a lightning 
But nothing excites me, baby I try to hide it 
I think about you, let’s make love on the highway 
Can we get inside babe 
You know time won’t stop flying 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
We keep laughing it off, ya 

Kill time when we're driving 
It's both of us finding 
A reason to separate 
Your past is behind me 
I don't open up 
Don't wanna be judged 
Don't wanna be looked at 
I blame my gut 

I love you and you know that 
Even if you don't love me back 
I pray at night to hope you're well 
And pray again for my own self 
If I had a wish and that would be to see you laugh 
Cause I guarantee that you'll receive a smile back 
Now we both sitting there just laughing it off 
I want you to know that you were all I got 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh

laugh it off (ft. heylog)

𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍

prod by. @domesticsoul

'tiedyed' ep
10/27

thank you for being here. 
take care

(it's way too damn bright out)
i know
it's always i don't know
idk, idk, i don't..

i feel the worst
reheat the burns
shoot down the birds
show me you hurt
care bout me less
don't feel distressed
don't recollect, proclaim me as dead
i'm recondite in all of their eyes
believe me, i've tried
the fuck would i lie
line after line, tongue's getting dry
water to hydrate
my subconscious, it migrates
fluttered past in the writing
eating less carbohydrates
sleeping less got me dying
note and pens all that i see
in a cold sweat from the sights seen
sights seen..
i don't wanna do no sightseeing, no..

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

rain check;
she told me we should make a reign check
bellow out my frustrations
etching out these elations
now i'm fine, 'till i break, yeah
now i've calmed, feel it in my palms now
a couple scorn clouds
cry a storm out, with no warning
it's important;
you seem to know them 'till you stay foreign
(stay foreign)

so i guess i'll put my trust in the darkness
we talk a lot, bustin' chops over toxins
i hear my thoughts pushing me to be heartless
missin' my shots, wouldn't think i'm a marksman
fuck love, i'm misunderstood
filtering light into words overlooked
i disapprove and rebuke how they're crooked
i just went weak in the knees, now i'm puking

one sunset at a time
another day a new vice
show me you care without dragging your hair
through grease trails and the lice
it must be my mind that's gotten so distant
plenty surround but they always low pitch
or don't get the picture; fragile demeanor
prone to be withered, but never stay with

laugh it off like you always do
no surface shit, up the magnitude
let the ground crack 'till you fall back
from the forecast, as the magma spews
got hot veins and a cold brain
as i fuck up my stability
you can't drown out what's already sunken
i don't want there to be room for me

here we go again
meet another end
reinvent your head like second nature
lose it to a friend, who wasn't quite your friend
people only plead when it's on paper
well how about that
dirty mousepads
unaware of how i got here
did i steer clear, or was i pulled back?

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

downcast (p. domesticsoul)

Anxiety

anxiety (feat. Lil Skele) prod. Jolst x Pekarot

Agony

Agony w/ Weepings & Lil Malibu (prod. myss)

AshWard – FROZEN VEINS
Electric, intense, and emotionally cold — Frozen Veins is a dark rock anthem pulsing with pain and defiance.
Male vocals soaked in ice and fire echo through thunderous riffs and shadowed melodies.
This isn’t just music. It’s the sound of numbness breaking.
🎧 For fans of STARSET, R3D, and melancholic alt rock.
❄️ Hit play and feel the fracture.

Frozen Veins - AshWard

Fight Through (emo)

Clock says midnight, I ain’t halfway tired,
Radio low, but the song’s still fire.
Highway lines look like a broken plan,
I ain’t where I’m goin’ but I ain’t where I been, man.
These white lines keep talkin’ to me,
Sayin’ “Boy, don’t stop ‘til you’re where you need to be.”
I’m halfway home, halfway gone,
Half a tank burnin’, but I’m drivin’ on.
Thinkin’ ‘bout the things I should’ve said last night,
Turned the key too quick, didn’t make it right.
Now it’s taillights, regret, and a broken phone—
I’m halfway gone, halfway home.
That back porch light never felt so far,
I can see it flicker but it ain’t where we are.
Guess a hard-head heart don’t learn too fast,
When pride takes the wheel, love don’t last.
Every mile feels like losin’ ground,
But I keep pushin’ ‘cause I can’t turn ‘round.
I’m halfway home, halfway gone,
Half a tank burnin’, but I’m drivin’ on.
Thinkin’ ‘bout the things I should’ve said last night,
Turned the key too quick, didn’t make it right.
Now it’s taillights, regret, and a broken phone—
I’m halfway gone, halfway home.
If I make it back, maybe she’ll still care,
But halfway don’t mean nothin’ if she ain’t there.
I’m halfway home, halfway gone,
Half a tank burnin’, but I’m drivin’ on.
Prayin’ she’s waitin’ at the porch light glow,
But my heart keeps sayin’ I already know.
Now it’s midnight roads, and I’m all alone—
Halfway gone, halfway home.
Yeah, halfway gone… halfway home.

Halfway Home

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