im always breaking down when no one’s around ;(

wtf. why have i been sleepin on this. this shits so good! <3

live my life with the anxiety 
way too many stupid feelings inside of me
the things you do so normally
are making me feel like i cannot breath

sometimes i just wanna die...
sunlight spills in hurts my eyes
another sleepless night

another sleepless night
i can never close my eyes

and everybody tells me the same old thing
 "we all get sad" yeah, its kind of disgusting
its like they really don't understand me
this isolation gets me feeling really empty
this is why i keep to myself
this is why i deny all your help
im so sick of all this shit

you know that im so sick of this
my stomachs queasy
i just want to end it...

Spotify

anxiety [+metlast & 5head]

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/6Zf24YB8K0RbjTolBOEKiG?si=1f2dd65501d94fd8

AMV:
https://youtu.be/XIi2JzlXnWw

Artist:
https://soundcloud.com/fromthecrowd

Lyrics:
i've been going kinda crazy trapped up in my head
i don't really see you lately after what you said
i don't think you can save me leave me in my bed
i been feeling so tired can't sleep with all this dread

i'm kinda sick of hurting yeah
everything seems so unfair
wishing i could be right there
so i could run away from here
i know it seems bad right now
so i drown my pain in the sound
thinking that i will leave this town
before im buried underground

i've been going kinda crazy trapped up in my head
i don't really see you lately after what you said
i don't think you can save me leave me in my bed
i been feeling so tired can't sleep with all this dread

i've been broken too many times
i swear that i'm ok
kicking down theses walls 
peope use to try to stop me
took a short break but im back
better watch me
need to make some cash
hurry up send the cheque please

i don't know even where to go tho
everything is moving like it's in slow mo
take my hand promise that you won't let go
i don't need a band coz i'm better being solo

solo

i've been going kinda crazy trapped up in my head
i don't really see you lately after what you said
i don't think you can save me leave me in my bed
i been feeling so tired can't sleep with all this dread
(x3)

from the crowd - kinda sick

amv:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwK5BnslG8s

artists:
@anthonysidoti
@iamvagrxnt

producer:
living puff

lyrics:
i always felt so numb
im never good enough for you 
i swear this all went wrong
how do i keep holding on!

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

let me out
end this acheing burning inside of my chest
there's no way out
i cant find a reason to wake up and let it out

i know its not in my head
but i'm just losing my senses
it keeps coming in waves
i knew that you never meant it 
took a knife to my heart
rather gun to my head 
but i don't wanna ever see you again

you cant wait for love but i just hate myself
and all those bl**d-stained stories give you 
nothing but a taste of empathy

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

do i fade away to nothing
(to nothing)
and i swear this past few years 
swear there crushing
crushing me!
i told myself id never give it all up 
but ever since i was a kid no one cared enough
now all the damage is done
and i don't wanna keep running away
run away from this, feeling tonight
and if you can't hear me its fine
i'm just a sacrifice!

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)

SPOTIFY

anthony sidoti - when i was suicidal (ft. vagrxnt) [prod. living puff]

w/ @sleepywater <3
prod @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~

easy to target
swear i’ve been honest
i’m still tryna rejuvenate
from the memories last august
ink drip from the ceiling
familiar feelings
to take time is to realize
what it really means to be healing

knees go numb when i reach for the shelf
there’s an old song that speaks of myself
but i’ve lost it; my subconscious 
won’t take away this blockage
it’s irritating; the way i hate it
all you are is full of nonsense

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

i’m unfair & i know it
frustration; i bestow it
i’m shaking baby, yeah i’m aching,
maybe this is punishment for the broken
the sight that i see through my eye 
isn’t blind
a sigh of relief comforted by a lie
i can’t really take it, 
the pace that i’m making is 
turning me into the me i despise

fuck, i'll turn my back on ur ass & won't
 give it a thought or the time of the day
it doesn't matter, the wounds & the plaster are begging me
“autumn, you just gotta change”
if i go any faster, my body will splatter
 yet i'll be alive, put me outta the pain 
i pick up the fragments of me that just happen
to still be in tact, even after the rain

everything i spew out
i tell the same story
bout how you don't want me
never ever want me
how comes ur all up on me
i pull u, you don’t pull me
im stressed out, can't relax
another pill, i might relapse

i just don’t get it how this life
taught revenge and left me behind
no time to cry…
cause in the end you’ll be fine

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

wounds & plaster w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

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lyrics - 
i've been feeling low, MIA
i didn't wanna feel anyways
and i can see concern on your face
you never showed any lately

what the fuck is up?
yeah you're feeling left out?
and i ain't gonna lie that's the point
what i want now

i'm not okay
you heard me say

oh it's fine
don't you worry
cos i don't mind a little excess
lately i've been thinking that i'm just not in the best place
left me here alone so i texted 'coming back yet?'
couldn't bear to cry
cos i don't have any tears left

oh no, where you going? where you at now?
it's a shame that you don't like who i am now
too much for your love you just wanna be friends
i ain't here for this shit so let's run it again

And its fine
So I’ll just turn off my phone
You can’t fix me, many tried
Guess I’ll end up alone

It’s okay
I don’t know where I will go
Cause lately I been thinking
That it’s the end of the road

Someday you will wonder where I’m at now
You can’t really say I’ve never tried to
Get better, feel okay with who I am, how
Are you pinning all the blame on me, it’s who I am now

And now I can’t feel a thing
Went way too deep in this
The point of no return
And I’m just gone

You just never understood 
Why I am always feeling down
That’s why I never say it out loud
No point in sharing with no one

oh it's fine
don't you worry
cos i don't mind a little excess
lately i've been thinking that i'm just not in the best place
left me here alone so i texted 'coming back yet?'
couldn't bear to cry
cos i don't have any tears left

oh no, where you going? where you at now?
it's a shame that you don't like who i am now
too much for your love you just wanna be friends
i ain't here for this shit so let's run it again

excess (feat. deadfish)

<3 

tilting over like the pictures on your wall
i didnt wanna meet your mom and dad they didnt like me at all
somehow they liked me oh
down the line its you and me now that dont get along and
somethings arent always better than nothing
your love is like the ocean and i just wanna jump in
relationships and me they hardly ever work
im tryna keep my balance i just keep slipping first

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

oh oh oh
so is it important to you cause god knows this shits important to me
and i lost every part of me trynna be what they want me to be
theres a war inside my head lately i just want peace
so is it annoying i keep falling cant stand on my two damn feet
i tried a thousand of times im at a thousand and one
i wanna blow my fucking brains but i dont own a gun
none of this is fun

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

<3

disgusted with myself

spotify

DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF [p. king theta]

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h0pe u enjoy <3
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lyr1cs:

u couldn’t make it up
i couldn’t if i tried
n i been stayin up
i wanna make it by
if i could grant 1 wish
i’d be right by ur side
look at the positives
i swear to god i’ll try

when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
i might be 0 for 3 but im keeping it steady
u know the pieces that prospered took years to finally be ready
and when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
i might be 0 for 3 but i’ll try if i’m able
i never saw the other side till i was turning the table

i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night

sun sets on the east coast when i’m
breaking away from pressure
mess with the sheets, don’t bother me
(its not like i have a choice)
digress, all the details piling up
tell me its not forever
test: all my patience, what the fuck?
(you know that you have a choice)

so when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
(you know that you have a choice)
i might be 0 for 3 but im keeping it steady
u know the pieces that prospered took years to finally be ready
(you know that you have a choice)
and when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
(you know that you have a choice)
i might be 0 for 3 but i’ll try if i’m able
i never saw the other side till i was turning the table
(you know that you have a choice)

i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night

bird's eye [flesh]

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The Noise Within isn’t just an album — it’s a journey through the inner landscapes of what it means to be human in the age of technology and disconnection.
Each track is a chapter in a personal evolution: from rebellion to awareness, from chaos to meaning, from silence to acceptance.

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A song about our generation. Written by Andrew Schisas aka SKEEZAS 

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