nevermadeithome:

I don't even know what's happening 
your words come down like avalanche 
and I swear your tears hurt me more than you know 
and I'll be on my walk again covered in snow

I'm just a fuck up
for some reason you still find love in me
i guess its tough love
because I'm trying to figure out what you see in me 

I'm still waiting 
waiting waiting waiting 

I'm still waiting 
waiting waiting waiting 

areuhappy w me? cuz i kinda hate myself 
I cant communicate the right way, what I'm tryna say 
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm what I'm tryna say


sendflowrs:

can’t you hear what I'm tryna say
i buy a gem i fell in love with the finer things
and you won’t ever see my face at the pearly gates
love, it’s a funny thing
so I'm smokin on that gas till it go away 

like can you go away, no
I cannot hear a thing, woah
all this noise my darlin 
I don’t think ur listening, no
that song it curses me 
and I can hear you whistling, woah
swear that she’s a god at this
but I won’t ever say a thing, no

Spotify

are you, happy? w/ sendflowrs (irby & jolst)

amv:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwK5BnslG8s

artists:
@anthonysidoti
@iamvagrxnt

producer:
living puff

lyrics:
i always felt so numb
im never good enough for you 
i swear this all went wrong
how do i keep holding on!

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

let me out
end this acheing burning inside of my chest
there's no way out
i cant find a reason to wake up and let it out

i know its not in my head
but i'm just losing my senses
it keeps coming in waves
i knew that you never meant it 
took a knife to my heart
rather gun to my head 
but i don't wanna ever see you again

you cant wait for love but i just hate myself
and all those bl**d-stained stories give you 
nothing but a taste of empathy

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

do i fade away to nothing
(to nothing)
and i swear this past few years 
swear there crushing
crushing me!
i told myself id never give it all up 
but ever since i was a kid no one cared enough
now all the damage is done
and i don't wanna keep running away
run away from this, feeling tonight
and if you can't hear me its fine
i'm just a sacrifice!

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)

SPOTIFY

anthony sidoti - when i was suicidal (ft. vagrxnt) [prod. living puff]

// chorus
such a cost to pay
watch it all go in flames
if i could explain
would it all end the same?
but I can’t convey,
simple thoughts in my brain
well I guess, checkmate
yeah I lost, what a shame

// verse (envy)
everything will fall apart if you just give it time, oh no
and I'm not fine and you're not far
my pieces too misaligned, oh yea
and im not trying to waste your time
so there's no need to put on a show
and i might call you once or twice
cause i have a hard time letting go

the queen always corners the king
her shadows lingering
i feel my heart skip a beat as she sings
this is the end for me

// verse (geist)
this is the end for me
you’re getting close, i start to freeze
i’ll hold on to the memories
of times when we both had a dream

and i’ve been sick of overthinking
make your move i’ve lost my patience
there’s no way that I can make it
I’ll take the loss but,

// chorus
such a cost to pay
watch it all go in flames
and if i could explain
would it all end the same?
but I can’t convey,
simple thoughts in my brain
well I guess, checkmate
yeah I lost, what a shame

checkmate w/ notenvy

shoutout @prod-oc for doing the bass for me <3 
thanks for listening <3 first solo song in forever 

// chorus
i don’t want to let go
but the feeling in my chest says no
and when the colors in my eyes won’t show
i hope you’ll see I’m better as bones

// verse
i don’t want to talk about it
cause every day is a blur in my head
when i look at you you’re perfect
but don’t look at me i’m worthless
and i don’t even try to hide it
you can see on it on the surface
everyone will say i’m heartless
i just wish that they could see

that it hurts for me to breathe
and it hurts for me to feel
and it hurts for me to walk on this earth everyday
and i can’t keep on pretending
keep lying
there’s no meaning
when my life comes to an end
i swear i’ll be okay

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bones

somebody 2 hold pt 2 (skellington)

(prod. moneo)

shoutout soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for makin this wit me 

enjoy :))

lyrics:

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x2
don’t go around blamin’ the world for this; for me 

I am an extra in your movie 
don’t try and argue I’ll just leave 
we both know that we aren’t perfect we’re far from it 
far from roots we’ve grown a bit  

loving you something else.
I need a second chance, I’ll rip my heart apart from night to day.
I miss ur face could you please say the 3 dumb words that mean so much
it’s hard to hurt when you’re leanin on a crutch 
but baby, please 
don’t tell me that it’s all a fkn dream

skele:

bleed out 
i watched you fall 
just look at me now 

please don’t scream out 
i couldn’t take that sound 
you were all i had 

i’m so bad for you 
all the things i’ve been through 
always drag us down 
is it too late now 
i’m so in love with you 
anything i could do 
i would do for you 
i would cut thru my skin oh my god 
spilling out over the ground

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x4

pavement

pavement w/skele

ｕｎｔｉｌ　ｔｈｅ　ｄｕｓｋ　ｅｒｏｄｅｓ，　ｏｒ　ｆｉｎａｌｌｙ　ｇｅｔｓ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ

produced by @cartermetro & @gualabeatz

hey, 
workng on a lot; it's been difficult to come by many things lately, 
but i'm really trying to get there
thank you so much for all your support
thank you so much for listening
thank you for being here
take care of yourselves
i love you
drink water 

i don't wanna lose the emotion
i don't wanna sweep it under the floor
'kay girl fuel that substance
like, somehow it knows you need something more
i don't wanna feel real love yet
'cauese love ain't love, it's knowing your core
and i know you know that you're running
better shape up 'fore you keep that

this is not gonna work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect my worth, yea
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i'm just a broken bird

when my neck goes stiff i try to stretch it
get some leverage into heaven
seen a lot of angry faces, disappointed my decisions
cold bed, lost friends, time spent just forgetting
sharp pains, dull fate; stimulate the seven senses

oh my, don't cry, feel fine that you're falling (2x)

fuck time killed over cheap thrills
like wine spills for some dopamine
i still that i'm unreal, so i choose to be who i wanna be
not swept up like room dust, when it turns dusk and i can't see
how i once felt, if i did well, for the person who had wanted me

never really know if it's a drill
am i really dying? wish i'd know that
write it all on the will
this windowsill really goes back
when all i had was to heal
now all i have is to collapse
coffee cans over pills
hands quake from the cold blast

this is not gonna work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect my worth, yea
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i'm just a broken bird
(i'm just broken)

40 minutes pass uh
hot water still rolls off of back yo
never can relax, i
step out the moment the feeling retracts
now i feel in mass
got nowhere to go, so i'm making a track
easy as that
you know that you feel it so fade in the grass

neither fight or flight 'cause i'm aware of my abilities
i'll chalk it up until the dusk erodes or finally gets to me
i guess we tend to trust in what we fight for
but don't let a road become an eyesore
open up your mental, persevere and take a dip
just because you weren't there, it doesn't mean they ain't exist
i create to stimulate when no one's there to fill me in
'cause when your home's a hollow body, i could a little pinch, so

we can probably make it work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect your worth
(worth) 2x
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i am just a broken bird
(i'm just broken)

cans [prod. cxrter x gualabeatz]

a glimpse of my life pt2

AshWard – FROZEN VEINS
Electric, intense, and emotionally cold — Frozen Veins is a dark rock anthem pulsing with pain and defiance.
Male vocals soaked in ice and fire echo through thunderous riffs and shadowed melodies.
This isn’t just music. It’s the sound of numbness breaking.
🎧 For fans of STARSET, R3D, and melancholic alt rock.
❄️ Hit play and feel the fracture.

Frozen Veins - AshWard

Homebound

Producer (Noria): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCeGJFCaOcxxc47ScXvyPFUQ

And, these nights been dark, I can't see the light,
And, most nights I'll cry, she'll be by my side,
And, I cut that tie, I'm alone this time,
but these tears won't fall, no these tears won't fall, tonight...

watching as the sun rises up, no one's coming back for us...
come back for us...

And, these nights been dark, I can't see the light,
And, most nights I'll cry, she'll be by my side,
And, I cut that tie, I'm alone this time,
but these tears won't fall, no these tears won't fall, tonight...

You're leaving me behind.

A INDEPENDENT CURATOR, ASSISTING IN THE GROWTH OF SELECTED ARTISTS.

3/4 TRACKS RELEASED "UNCHAINED, VOL. 4"

anthony sidoti - when i was suicidal (ft. vagrxnt) [prod. living puff]

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