Don’t know where I’m going and I don’t know why 
Don’t know what I’m saying but I still lie 
Until I’m tongue tied 

It’s one thing to be broken on the inside 
Fronting with a smile but I can’t hide 
The subtle wave of sadness that hits different 

When I’m riding on high 
stairway to heaven nearby
and through my teeth you know I lie 
tell you that everything’s okay 
and no pain, no way to say 

My Brain is broken debris 
Floating through the tears see
a grown ass bitch cry her eyes out spaz out and yet still be
carefree to my core see
all the shit i complete 
when I’ve got my mind in the sky 

If I could take a pill to make this all brand new 
I still don’t think I’d have a breakthrough
Despite the pain that comes in waves 
I’m doing okay 
But just okay is a relative term when I’m a castaway 
inside my brain 
I’m far away 
But I’m doing okay 

This roller coaster tests me
frankly it is ghastly 
the highs and lows I ride and go 
where oxygen won’t freely flow 
—
You gotta know it’s bad 
and fuck you if you think I haven’t turned back
I’m back 
patrolling the pits 
hits different when you freely admit 
that you’re shit — 
self deprecating thoughts up in my head
—
I’ll get the help you used as a threat 
and bet 
when i’m dead 
the cassette you forget in a cold sweat 
the blood on the walls from mistakes I have made
you jet set, dead set on getting far away
and i can’t blame
you for finally using your head
so strap on or strap in to start your dissent 

And when I take the pill to make this all brand new 
I hope I can deliver you your breakthrough
Despite the pain
that comes in waves 
I’m doing okay 
But just okay is a relative term when I wasn’t fine in the first place 

If I could find a way for me to turn back in time 
I swear to god I’d find a way out of my mind 
It seems I’m there 
I blankly stare 
into the air as I’m elsewhere 
existence is pain, my brain wasn’t made
with chemicals that make you 
okay 
it’s more doomsday  
up in my brain 
but i’m doin’ okay

WAVES

Serendipity (All In My Head)

hard as i try

Never One Without The Other

if only, one more moment

Light It Up

The Abyss

Caslow - Something New (with Johnny Van Der Velden & Cypert)(Lyfeless Remix)

sink-into-my-nectar.mp3

Too much never enough.mp3

broken

WAVES

c x