This is a personal song about my battle with alcohol during 9 years, i'm not an artist, a musican, a produccer or a professional in the music industry, i just wanted to spit all that feelings that i had in that horrible era of my life, and now that I'm going to celebrate my first year of sobriety next month (May 27th to be exact) I've decided to celebrate by creating this song! (MY ACCENT MAY SOUND A LITTLE STRANGE SINCE I AM NOT A NATIVE ENGLISH SPEAKER, I'M FROM COSTA RICA, SO THE LYRICS ARE HERE) 

Another dawn breaks, painted in gray

And sorrow grips me, won't go away. 

I am dizzy and drunk, this vicious circle spins,

 This burning need for more, it pulls me 
back again. 

This aching void inside, the bottle can't replace, the craving for that 
smoke, a fiend I can't outpace. 

My heart is broken by this alcohol's disgrace. 

I fucking hate this, this grip it has on me, I start to shake, my demons call my name, 

This need for that first drink, drives me insane. 

I wish I could go back in time and fix all my mistakes, But I cant control it

I take a breath, my mind is too cloudy,

 I must take it easy

 I think I'm going crazy...
 
Why do I feel this way ?

Why i can't smile ? 

Why am i so fucking broke?

Maybe I deserve it, now I feel like a fucking trash, my mind plays against me and I can't control it ...
 
I can't be fine, I can't be 

happy, I fucking hate my 

life, I just want to die ...

Another dawn breaks, painted in gray

And sorrow grips me, won't go away. 

I am dizzy and drunk, this vicious circle spins

 This burning need for more, it pulls me 
back again. 

This aching void inside, the bottle can't replace, the craving for that 
smoke, a fiend I can't outpace. 

My heart is broken by this alcohol's disgrace. 

I fucking hate this, this grip it has on me, I start to shake, my demons call my name, 

This need for that first drink, drives me insane. 

I wish I could go back in time and fix all my mistakes, But I cant control it

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I can't stop drinking

Why can't i stop ?

I'm so confused, i wasnt like this before...

Whats happening to me?

Im angry all the time...

Im sad all the time...

I depend on that shit to make feel good

I dont recognize myself in the mirror 

I disgust myself

Everyone hates me, they dont love, they're lying

If i die right now nobody would care

Im just a fucking alcoholic piece of shit, Who would care ?

I dont want to feel like this anymore

Nobody can understand how i feel

I dont want to die like this

God please help me...

Addicted (prod. dead spyro)

Black Mood

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